Today, at least half a dozen people asked if I was okay.

I said no.

They asked why.

I told them that if I knew why, I probably wouldn't be like this.

So, my question to you is this: is it melodrama? Am I just letting my woes trample all over me to get attention?

Or is there something really wrong? Am I really broken? A lot of my friends have been encouraging me through Christ, but I feel like their words have fallen on deaf ears. A lot of people are praying for me, and I wish they wouldn't. I've been silent. I have no heart to pray. Or maybe it's just apathy, and I'm being completely ridiculous. I don't know.

A very close friend told me that "I've got my arm under you, so there's no reason to be lonely anymore..."

To that friend I say that if I am a burden to myself, then if I really called you any time I needed encouragement or whatever, I'd become like an anvil shackled to your ankle.

Loneliness...I sound so pitiful. Maybe I'm really hurting, or maybe I just want pity. I don't know.

I don't know...