i don't know why i titled this entry '-amore-' i just did.  i wish that when i talked or tried to explain something i actually made sense sometimes.  cuz the stuff i say actually makes sense to me and a few other people that are wierd like me...or just know me really well.  what i'm about to TRY to say is probably not going to make ANY sense.  so brace yourselves.  have you ever been in a position where you are so sure of something that nothing can change your mind except for yourself?  like you are so sure but then you start thinking and you aren't so sure anymore.  ugh i hate that because i feel like that A LOT.  it's quite frustrating.  well anyway, i guess i will just write.  i haven't done that all summer so this could be kinda long.  my uncle is coming from texas tomorrow.  i really miss him...he has two daughters.  i've only seen one of them and she is 3...the other one was born while i was in Hawaii and the only thing i know is that she has dark hair...and i know her name, of course.  I really love my uncle.  He is so tall!!!!  He's 6'10"...i hope i got some tallness from that side of the family.  if i have it's not quite kicking in yet.  it all goes to my feet...lol.  but what is so great about my uncle is that he is funny...i love to laugh!  this is a kinda pointless entry.  that brings me to another wish...i wish i had some meaningful thoughts every now and again...maybe i do.  *GASP!!!* I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING!!!  i have not posted ANY of my poems on here...wow.  that's absolutely...strange.  so here's one i did a little while back.

"To Not Feel Love..."

To not feel love is not to feel life

To not feel pain is not to feel strife

To not feel confusion is not to feel real

To not feel real is not to feel love

To not feel heartache is not to feel adoration

To not feel anger is not to feel irritation

To not feel pity is not to feel compassion

To not feel compassion is not to feel love

To not feel betrayal is not to feel lies

To not feel awe is not to feel alive

To not feel sad is not to feel hurt

To not feel hurt is not to feel love.

so...yeah that's about all. 

When I'm lost, in the rain...In your eyes I know I'll find the light to light my way...When I'm scared, losing ground.  When My world is going crazy, you can turn it all around.  And when I'm down, you're there-pushing me to the top...you're always there giving me all you've got.  For a shield from the storm, for a friend, for a love to keep me safe and warm...I turn to you.  For the strength to be strong, for the will to carry on.  For everything you do, I turn to you...well enough of me boring you...go on with your lives now.  sorry to waste your time!!!!