i waited till 8:30

that's like an hour-point-five

never showed up

boo

Okay people... My birthday was Saturday and as some of you know I am now a teenager... I'm really happy because I got an ipod (Josh, Chris, Paul, Liz, and Daniel), a bath stuff bag (Stacy), Cheaper By The Dozen 2 (Marybeth), the 8th season of Little House on the Prairie (Momma and Daddy), a swimsuit (not really for my birthday but Liz helped me find it), a memory card for my camera (Momma and Daddy), make up (2 different people(Momma and Liz)), a lot of money (various people), and other stuff that I can't remember off the top of my head... but that's okay because they know what they gat me and they can tell me to fix it...

More news... I'm going to camp this week and Friday my parents are picking me and Marybeth up from camp and we're going to New York... So I won't be on for about 2 weeks and neither will Marybeth...

okay so i've told u guys clayton and his family are country but i bet u can't guess just how country they are. guess what we had for lunch yesterday... deep fried RATTLESNAKE. seriously. and clayton made me try it.  it was weird. it was all chewy and uhhh. okay the end. call me if u guys want to do something. i'm tired of having to drive two hours just to find someone who wants to go out and do something lol.

So I will change this up a bit.  Disposable camera's bother me, because I don't wanna waste film, so I rarely take pictures, because it's like I'm saving pictures for something good.  I have like three sitting in my room with four or five pictures left on each.  But when I have a digital camera in my hands, it seems like I can be at ease and take lots of pictures because 1) it will hold more and 2) if you take a crappy picture you can just erase it.  But yeah.  So if anyone has a digital camera that they wanna sell to me for cheap or would just like to donate then that would be awesome for this poor old college student.  Haha.

Just one more thing to add to my wish list.  This is one of the only plausible ones though.  ;)

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

hey people,

well i am kinda getting ready for the trip up north i am tring to plan what i am going to wear... but right now i need to do some clothing of mine... man it's only 12 days left>< i hope they go fast... and and i might get some contacts(misspelled probably)..i am hoping before i go up north.... then it will make me happy.... but man oh man i need to clean my closet.... it a mess...so is my room.... but most of the cleaning is tomorrow so yeah well anywho i am still tried from yesterday....it felt good to ski again... and to be on the boat...camping*Smiles* well anyways i am out

                             meg

LOL i think thats pretty much all I have to say... HA HA HA!!! crazy crazy nights... 1:30 am squirt gun fights!!! FUN FUN!!!!

later kids

<3333

::+::Chelsey::+::

This feeling was hard to get over, but I did it. And I moved on from you. You left me. And left me crushed. I had friends to pick me up when I needed it. I MOVED on from you, and your insecurities. I moved on form the lies, and the distance we had. Right now things are better. And he is great to me. He was my friend, now he is something more. He offers me more than you could ever. ..But there is just one question on my mind. Will this feeling last for HIM, or will I be hurt again?......

Until The Day I Die
-Story of the Year

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you

As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too

You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does

We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do
Just like we always do

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Yeah I'd spill my heart!!!
Yeah I'd spill my heart for you!!!

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Mistakes like friends do

My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
We made the same mistakes
Made the same mistakes

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you

Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
Until the day I die!!!

so yea i finnaly got to go to church today for guys rec
and i am very happy for it
now i just need to go wednesday and the rest of the summer because i honestly wish i had been able to go the past 4 weeks

gahlee. i am such a girl. a 16-year-old girl at that. why on earth am i so attached to this person? i barely know him, and yet i feel like i've known him for a million years. and guess who that reminds me of? i honestly feel like i've finally met someone worth my time, and he's leaving. and besides, nothing would ever happen. he probably doesn't even know that i feel that way. gahlee. how can a level-headed, cynical person like myself just fall head over heels? over someone i don't even know that well? i feel like, for the first time ever, i have actually experienced that whole love-at-first-sight thing....which is retarded, because it's completely illogical. i've been trying to figure out if there is something else that i'm needing to deal with that is manifesting itself in this totally retarded and yet not retarded crush...but i can't find anything. gah. i just want someone to love me back the way that i love them. for once. and yes, i know that God does. but, well, you know. i guess i'm just much too insecure. but for now, it just all feels a bit too real. much love to you all ---Cari  

i *heart* sarah, too!

Baby turned on his own.  This is definitely the best senerio.  We are very proud parents - our littlest one is so obedient.  :o)
Any time now!!!

my life seems so monotonous right now.
i need a change.
i want to cut/dye my hair drastically.
fourteen is boring for me.
i'm too old to be this age.
that doesn't make sense,
but it makes more sense than not.
i keep planning my future because i have nothing else to do.
it's only gonna end up changing a few hundred times before i get there,
but it couldn't hurt to be prepared.
i've been in a bad mood since last night
& i probably will be for the next couple of days.
tons of people have been getting on my nerves
& i don't want to put up with them.
most likely, if you haven't heard already,
i'll let you know if you're on my nerves.
i want to adopt a china baby.
or just a baby in general.
& i want a new piercing.

hang out with me?
it might put me in a better mood.

"anyone who would give up freedom for security

deserves neither."

-Benjamin Franklin

I am really hoping the Brandi has her baby tomorrow. They said that they were going to induce her on Tuesday. She might end up with a devil baby:6-6-06!!! That would be funny. Well, I am off to the living room. Talk to everyone later!!!!

SHE IS HAVING A GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"its not who i am underneath, but what i do that defines me"  --batman =)

its not who i am underneath. to me this means its not whether or not we screw up and sin. it doesnt matter what we have done in our past. no one really cares that we have done this, or that, but what i do that defines me. its how i live my life. how i share my Jesus with everyone i come into contact with. the way that i shine His light through everything i do, this is what defines me.

philippians 2:5-8
your attitude should be the same that Christ Jesus had. though He was God, He did not demand and cling to His rights as God. He made Himself nothing; He took the humble position of a slave and appeared in human form. and in human form, he obediently humbled Himself even further by dying a criminal's death on a cross...

O Lord, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief.
Do not bring your servant into judgment, for no one living is righteous before you.

The enemy pursues me, he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in darkness like those long dead.
So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.

I remember the days of long ago; I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done.
I spread out my hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.

Answer me quickly, O Lord; my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the pit.
Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul.

Rescue me from my enemies, O Lord, for I hide myself in you.
Teach me to do your will, for you are my God;
May your good Spirit lead me on level ground.

For your name's sake, O Lord, preserve my life; in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.
In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes, for I am your servant.

Psalm 143

My Camera broke again!! GAH!

im putting some memories in these [ ] things to let u know...

Love i a hard thing to find... and i mean really hard...some people are just lucky....and well i dont like them lol...

Summer ha been amazing.. so many memories already...

[ spin the phone....? for hugs??] that was umm great!!!!

dance recitals are All the time... went to danceworks last night with Kelsey Brittan Chelsea and Kelley! fun stuff! Jamie and alexanna... u guys were amazing! and all of dance works ! [ 1,2,3... TRUE DAT!]

my dance recital is this Friday.. fun fun.. then i do Annie Saturday

Las Vegas June 24th-july 1st

maybe Charleston  july 1st -like the 7th.. prolly not tho

heartbreak is comming sooon... =[

comment maybe?

When they call your name
Will you walk right up
With a smile on your face
Or will you cower in fear
In your favorite sweater

With an old love letter
I wish you would

I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records

I wish you would

When you're walking downtown
Do you wish I was there
Do you wish it was me
With the windows clear and the mannequins eyes

Do they all look like mine
You know you could
I wish you would
Come pick me up
Take me out
Steal my records
- Ryan Adams

i love summer rain..i was sitting outside tonight and thunder started rolling...

keep on keepin on kids.-kels (heh)

Dude, check out this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CunJcv89wuk&search=Myspace%20movie

Itz MySpace the Movie.     "DO YOU WANNA SEE THE ANGRY BEAVER?"

so, it's that time of year again, when we leave our lives for 5 days and go on an amazingly awesome spirit filled place called CAMP AMBASSADOR!!!!!!!! i can't wait to see all my friends i made last year (especially peach and blake) and play all those messy games again. man, i'm getting phsyched just thinking about it!

that's me and becca at camp last year

The principal difference between man and dog is that the dog will not bite the hand that feeds him.
Mark Twain

Wow, my first blog.  My friend help me set it up. I hope that I get oodles of friends!  If you know who I am feel free to contact me...if you don't, feel free to contact me.  My fave color is green if you can tell...sry thought I'd be random...  I've had an oober summer...but I miss a lot of my friends...

i finally got ot go boating this morning and it was fabulous

the flight up was good except the baby sitting next to erin with the "happy scream" lol o well

im gonna eat and then go fishing you guys has fun in the boro

much love

-emily

ok ok yesterday we went to  get the new boat... man  it is huge!!!! well anywho we came home and decided that we were going to campig at rock island for the night.... well went to center hill... got the camp site...so we unloaded what didnt want and went to the lake and i was the frist one up to go skiing^^ it was fun... so then everyone went.... expect the dog... we had her theere too. so now i smelled like lake water.. so we come back to the site and tried to make a camp fire.... but of course our fire wasnt a good fire....>< so now i smelled like lake water, fire and ciger smoke.... my father was smoking cigers....so that wasnt any better... well we ate hot dogs, and pizza buns(this are really awesome!!!)... finally i got tried and went to bed on the boat.... i slept untill like 1:30 b/c my mom woke me and justin up b/c of lighting and rain.... but nothing real happened... so i didnt get a goo night sleep b/c sadie steped on my back and i wasnt ina good place either in the truck....so 5:30 came around i was about to sleep but then just woke me up.....so that sucked.... sadie laid on top of me which wasnt helping my blater.... lol so yeah... ate brefest and went on the boat...and oh there was a suck country singer near out camp site too... that wat happ w/ my weekend so yeah well later

                 meg

"If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world." -C.S. Lewis

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from the beginning of time. -Ecclesiastes 3:11

*THE HIDING PLACE: tonight at 6:00 at Belle Aire*

Bridget's engaged!!

Bridget's engaged!!

  

 

 lol! brilliant!

  

  

 this band is wow.

  

 

  

  

 hee hee!

 

  

  

  

  

   <- best book ever.

  

  

 

  

  

i want to go back so bad.

i got bit by the footlights
i got caught in the headlights
in any place but here

Look what I did yesterday!!!

Why was I on the roof, you ask? I cleaned out all of our gutters! Unappealing as it sounds, it was actually kind of fun.

Hello all! How are you doing today? Well this morning i woke up and wrote a letter to my house about how i was feeling about what has happened in the past couple of days! Wow that was so hard! I love him so much and i wish he would love me back! But i gues i can't always get what i want all the darn time! Well guys i will ttyl!

Alone and Depressed!

so, i love my little web of friends. . .they make me laugh

here's the thing, regardless of what people say, it always gets back to me through one of 3 people. . .and there are 2 specific ones (we call them the apex)

it just amazes me how your friends will gossip. . .i truly believe that there arent many people you can trust. . .nor do i think many are people are on my side. . .but, who's taking sides right?

. . .bekah

    Hey I'm Stuck In A Motel Room  In O'Fallon, MO At 12:05 AM .With my Mom,Dad,Little Bros, My Aunt And Uncle Are 2 Floors Down, And My Grandparents Next Door.

    We Left On Fri June 3,2006, And Are Gonna Leave Approx. 09:00 This Morning. I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Bored. We Are Supposed To Go See The Gate Way Arch In St Louis,Mo, I Guess That Will Be Fun.

 Talk To You Later-Matt

Things I want to accomplish within the next few weeks/months...
1.  I want increase my skill as a musician.
    a.  I want to take more guitar lessons.
    b.  I want to get guidance on my vocal skills.
    c.  I want to practice more.
    d.  I want to write more complete songs.
    e.  I want to perform in front of an audience other than my immediate             family.
2.  I want to beef up my social life.
    a.  I want to meet new people (physically, not over the internet).
    b.  I want to rekindle relationships with people I already know.
    c.  I always want to have something to do on a weekend.
3.  I want to logically formulate what I believe.

(Ehhh...not too shabby?)

Someone explain something to me. Why do people always say to be yourself? Ever since you are little adults and your peers tell you to be yourself because that is all anyone wants you to be. Then why do people point out your faults and tells you to change them? For instance, people tell me to be more confident in myself, not to share so much, not to be so up and down with emotions, etc. Why are you telling me to change and also telling me to be myself? Can everyone stop being damn hypoctrites???

So...summer is here..Well it has been here for like 2 weeks now..but still..... It has been pretty good!!!! I am working for my dad.... and just trying to hang out with friends!! so if ya aren't doing anything one night just call me!!!!
So the house that i was talking about in the last post didn't go through. After letting my parents look at the house Jessica and i decided that we wouldn't get it since they didn't like it. So after one of my exams i went back to my dorm room and went to work on finding another place. After only 15 minutes i called a place that we had tried before and talked to them. They said they had 2 apartment complexes in Martin that allowed pets..... So jessica, Nathan (jessica's boyfriend) and I went to look at those and fell in love with one of them that is right off campus..So we went 2 days later and payed our 1st payment on it!!  So i will be living in an apartment near campus...I am very excited..I am going to move in some of the stuff that my sister is giving to me from her apartment in martin next weekend....
But yeah..I hope everyone is having a great summer!!

so basically i love life...

amazing girlfriend.

amazing friends.

amazing everything.

what can get better?... nothing!

so i can disrespect my dad cuz hes a jerk.

so i can sneak out cuz its fun.

so i can sneak into movies cuz its easier.

so i can break the law cuz its an adrenalin rush.

so i can have fun... cuz thats me.

so maybe i dont live a picture perfect christian life... ill have to admit... i do some stupid things... but i have given up alot of worse things with the help of friends... life is perfect... and despite all the things i do... im not that bad of a guy... really... im not

http://www.flyleafmusic.com/
Go to this link.  And so you know, when the first song "i'm so sick" starts playing, the screaming is being done by the girl.
Yeah.
It's pretty insane.

so my life has been some what eventful, shall we say, in the last week or so..

so y'know my car..? yeah well it kinda blew up. and i was bumming rides off people left and right so that i could make it to work.well i just got my car back like 2 days ago. and still my shock wasn't fixed.. and the car details of it blowing up... too long and too many things to tell you about it. BUT one exciting fact: my anti-freeze boiled!!

yeah i know. amazing.

i went to the lake. i so had fun. i bought a little grill thing. it was great we grilled out and had a blast. phillip and chris a. jumped off the bridge. its was awesome. i so wanted to do it, but i was afraid of loosing my top. :D cause you know them 2 pieces you gotta watch out for.

but... i'm emotionally having a ruff time... ): i even called Barb (the ex Mrs. Leeper) and told her about it. you see... i haven't been able to see my boyfriend in, atleast, 2 weeks or more. and its like that every other time you know..? cause we only have off Monday & Tuesday together and we still don't get to see each other then anymore (barely).. and its really made me upset and i need some companionship. well me and someone important to me got close.. (or maybe i just thought we did) and you know... i got to where i "liked him" liked him.. ): and we were spending time together after work.

so... i've been asking him personal questions and such.. wondering if he wanted a girlfriend and such... etc. whatever. and he started to kind of avoid me... (or it felt like it) would text back, he was always busy, didn't want to hang out anymore.. and so i was getting a bad impression... so i was like whats up?! and he told me he was dating a girl for a couple of days now...

well i was smashed.. ): even though i really shouldn't have been-because i have my own boyfriend and i love him very much.. but you know... ): i was still smashed... :

so i skulked over a pint of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream and watched Gone with the Wind. :

rejection stinks. >:{

anyways. on to brighter subjects... I ordered stuff from target!! :D i got a polk-a-dot shirt that is uber cute on me. a tote purse with is really cool and it has the big tassel on it (etc) and i got Dane Cook's Harmful If Swallowed cd. it's great, he is an awesome comedian. i burned Retaliation from Justin. (:

i have two jobs now. im back at mcdonald's and im not takin shit from no body!! >:} muwahaha.

i saw a BEN-LOOK-ALIKE! his name is cody and works with me.i miss playing dominos and going to chef wangs with rocky and ben and sam. those were good times. (:

...And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

yes.
and it was fun.
lots of new pictures.
there funny.
ha.
i went with my bfffffl britt rogers.
and her bf scott.
i love both of them.

We owned the Colorado River !!!  No doubt Josh, Chris, & Paul will tell their own stories and post their own pics, so I won't steal their thunder.  But, in a word ... AWSOME !!!

Forget everything you know about white water rafting.  Think Cataract Canyon, Utah ... 3 of the top 10 rapids in the US ... any time of year ... and the best overall set in the nation at this time .... think 5 days .... ~95 total miles travelled, ~80 miles paddled by hand in kayaks ... think 15 foot toe-to-crest waves ... think bodies flying everywhere ... think think think think ....

What a ride !!! wave after wave ... Class II, Class III, Class IV, Class V ... and two Class VIs that HAD TO BE AVOIDED.  Often times, we were navigating between "certain capsize" on the left and right to "likely capsize" in the middle.

To say we got wet was an understatement ... nothing was left dry.

To say we got thrown around is a joke ... Josh and Chris were airborne more than once.

Think ... small rubber ducky (kayak) being drenched, beaten, thrown by waves ... 8, 10, 12, 15 foot high ... nowhere to run, nowhere to hide ... capsizing was nearly certain many times ... with only sheer determination, strength, and heading straight into the "enemy" as the only possible chance of survival.

Who went over and who didn't?  I'll never tell ... but it wasn't me.  Be watching the sites of Josh, Chris, and Paul ... "for the rest of the story".

What was the best part? .... being with my sons.  What was the funniest part? ... watching Josh/Chris fly without wings. What was the saddest part? ... having to say good-bye, once again.

summer... (in short) is boring.

i have absolutely no life.

(well, besides internet and ... cleaning ... argh.)

I'm sore...I ache in muscles that I didn't know I had. Loooooooong past 2 days. Anyway, i'm not working this weekend, so call me and we'll hang out!
~Garrett



Our Lady Peace - Somewhere Out There

not much goin' on this summer

VBS

camp

n2m

Email me I'm bored

...save me from my boredom...

I enlisted a couple of days ago. I go to Basic Combat Training on the 28th. That will last 10 weeks. After that, I'm going to Advanced Individual Training for 20 weeks to be trained as a Signal Support Systems Specialist: http://www.goarmy.com/JobDetail.do?id=245 Please pray for me. Also, if anyone would like to hang out and do something with me before I go, just write me on here.

I had a crazy and fun day yesterday. My friends Jackie and Amanda called me and wanted me to ride around with them so I had to quickly put some clothes on and run out the door. First we went to Kohls and looked around, me and Jackie are applying for a job there, Amanda bought some shoes and then we went to the China Buffet for some fantastic Asian food. There were some creepy guys there that kept looking at us and laughing. Jackie said she saw one of them holding up his camera phone and pointing it at us. They didn't leave untill we got up and left. Creepy. After that we were gonna post-it note someone's car or somthing when I decided that it would be cool to decorate Chris's room and clean it for him. So, we went to the Dollar Store and got trash bags, a blue trash can with flowers on it, candles, a picture frame, pink and purple bows, and flowers, to use in his room. Oh yeah, we got ballons too. His room is all pretty now! We had a whole lot of fun. And Rebecca was there too so she helped. After that we went and saw The Break Up. It was good but sad. I hated the ending. Chris went with us, he really liked his room. Then we just hung out. When I got home I went to sleep. And that was my crazy and fun day yesterday.

well im back! duuun duh dun...duuuh! ......lol. its summer time! ahhhh! so much as flippin happened since i last updated!

• i graduated!


• me and the prom guy are no longer buds.
  


• i got my first kiss!
  
  


• i wish the guy that kissed me, didnt.
  
  


• i found out the guy ive been wanting to date for the past year and a half also wants to date me, still.
  
  


• i found out that the freshman orientation for elementary education thing for mtsu is in like 3 weeks!
  
  


• and ive been kinda in and out of church.
  
  


• but im back in church and chior now! yay!

phew! yeah... i just hit the major parts.

what hoe? a foe?

lets just say ice age is one of my favorite movies now.....and leave it at that..lol.

Last night was the cookout. I played volleyball almost the whole entire time. It was fun. I love volleyball, except for the fact that I am really bad at it, other than that, it's great! Today I went to the yard sale for FA. I didn't have anything that I could sell, so I got tables and helped people set up and sell things, and just sat around. Pretty fun. Joshua and Jonathan (my little brothers) are having a birthday party today, so that should be...interesting. I'm leaving for camp on Monday!! I'm so excited! Then on Friday I'm going to New York (pretty sure I said that in my last post, but oh well.) Packing for the two events should be interesting seemings how I'm not coming home before I go to NY, but whatever. I'm going to have loads of fun (I hope). See ya'll later. bye

is anyone really worth it?

i vote no.

 have hope for that world that reeks of the scent of flowers, and is always blue skies deep in your soul.

I had a thought last night in my quiet time. We all know how much it sucks to say goodbye to someone we love. God loves everyone more than we could ever imagine. But try to imagine what He feels when someone rejects Him and dies and goes to Hell.

mmm childhood.
I am a troubled teen.
The past few weeks have been a blur.
It's like getting off a treadmill;;
You feel like everything is rushing forward
&& like you're gonna fall.
I've been out of it.
Hanging out with friends has been fun though.
It feels good to be cared about.
I've been blessed to have atleast 4 cheerup days.=)
&& for as much as I dislike females,
the ladies i've hung out with make me smile.

So the other night,
I was at the Underoath concert,
and for those of you who don't know,
it's a 'Rock Band'
&& at this 'rock concert' there was moshing.
&& stuff like that.
Well in the midst of all this
'moshing'
I stopped and zoned out.
There were a million things happening
around me but i just stood there
&& forgot where I was for atleast 2minutes.
In the solitary confinement of myself.
It's crazy.

well a week from tomorrow is
the big One Six.
Joy.

    Pray for me that I will know what I am supposed to be doing this next year. 

yeah so my dog woke me up at 2 am this morning cause he knew something was outside. i didnt even think about getting up to look at whats up and just told him to go back to bed. well i woke up to my house had been rolled this morning. and shaving cream all over my drive way. Thank goodness they didnt put it on my car since it takes paint off. but it does act as a water displacement and stays on the driveway. now I just have to plan revenge.

  But now i get to have a fun filled day of climbing the trees to clean up the rest, washing the car, mowing the grass, and pressure washing the driveway and sidewalk to clean up the shaving cream.

        Anyone want to help?? 

I wsih it would storm at night though so i can go ride around after it. and not in the day while im working and am having to move cars in it.

Hey yall! well i havent slept at all since i have been at this party!! Right now i am at the party still!!! And in like 3 hrs or so0o0o we are goin to the mall and its gunna be AWESOME!!! well message me!! love yas

<3 always

Candace:)

i am going crazy
i cant sleep
i have not had caffiene
there is no sugar coursing through my vains
but it feels to me as if it were the middle of the day
is this what insomnia is like?

 happy summer huh? it's been a while huh since i last updated... but i've been kinda busy lately....

it's been okay. this last weekend i went to wisconsin to go see my GRANDMA get married to this guy named Wendell. it was nice... but weird. i guess it's kinda kewl for her to have someone to spend the rest of her life with. She won't be lonely anymore too. I had to watch my little cousins all the time though. There's 4 of them and they are all uder the age of 6! Hannah, Abigal, Tucker, and Genevive. they're sweet but they drive me grazy! too many kids if you ask me!

anyone wanna talk to someone for me? it's one of those times when you go through what you're gonna say over and over in your head and it's all you can think about until you finally say it. I'm kinda mad at them... well... i'm just very troubled and worried. I'm not sure they really understand some of the things i say to them, even though it's really important to me... it must just go right through their head. and that bothers me a lot.. an awful lot.

my summer WILL be good... even if i have to force it to be.

if you ever wanna do something, and you need someone else to go with you, i'm here. I can't drive but at least i'm a person to hang with. call me....=^_^=

And I found out about two more today!

This is nuts!

That makes it 7 People! (M, K, T, T, Z, C, & R)

Crap!

60 people in chamber choir... dang thats a big numberChristina is going to governors school- thus she sucks...I am stage managing Sordid Lives and hopeufully doing Once Upon A Mattress at the Center. So this summer will be theatrically enlightening to me. I am mucho excited.

I hate the movie Prefontaine...okay I actually love that movie! It makes me cry everytime even if I know what will happen! I have a craving to run a race right now! Maybe I will run in the morning.

ok...humor me for one moment:

gahlee....why is it that i finally get to know someone right before they have to leave? it especially sucks when that person is really cool....argh. i'm getting tired of waiting on boys. i really think i'm just not girlfriend material. like, really. i cannot see myself dating anyone without it being weird....gahlee.

so nayways, Saturday night @ 7:00 and Sunday nite @ 6:00, i am in "The Hiding Place", @ Belle Aire Baptist Church...it's a play about Corrie ten Boom and her endeavors during the Holocaust. it'll be pretty cool. come see me be a sad (and ironically quite Aryan-looking) Jew, and see Brian King be an angry Nazi.

on to other news, i watched "The Butterfly Effect" yesterday. GAHLEE! i watched the director's cut today, which has a few extra scenes and a different ending...OMGOODNESS...it was awful (awfully good, that is...) and it made me cry... gah. great movie, except for all of the F-bombs and a few implied sex scenes. also, DO NOT RENT "FREEDOMLAND"....that is the dumbest movie in the world, and sooooooooooo not worth your money. it is k-tarded. well, this Jew gotta bounce. g'nite! much love to alla yous guys ---Cari

So i went over to Jackie and Robert's today after I cleaned my car... When Kayla and I get there its only Kyle, Worm, Matt, and Max( the dog). Jackie and Robert show up which is cool... So.... Jackie, Kayla, and I are back in Kyle's room we were playing with a football i found in his closet and was tossing it in the empty fish tank and rearranged his room. Then Sean, Katie, Napper, and Cole show up.. Yet again is cool. Then we look out the door and we see some bitches that we don't know (well we do know) and we're like "What the fuck"?! So pretty sure after that the night just sucked ass. There were so many damn people over there it was ridiculous. I was getting annoyed as hell and Kyle was getting mad at me because I was being anti-social and stayed in his room. For 1 I don't like being around a bunch of people that I don't know in a damn 2 bedroom apartment. I can't put up with that. The one's that I'm around most of the time are cool as hell, but the others I just didn't like I've heard to much shit about them. ok... I think I got everything out for now.. It feels better that I got all of that out.

i'm done trying with everything.
anything, and everything that i seem to want.
i can't come close to having.
and i'm so sick of my heart being ripped out.
thrown on the ground, and being torn to pieces.

i just. i don't know what to do about anything anymore.
j thought about me&&justin so much last night.
then jeremy called. and he made me smile.
i love that he can do that for me.<3

Swing dance tomorrow night!
Otter Creek Church (formerly Living Word Community Church, formerly Brentwood Baptist), on Franklin Road.
Dance lessons 7:30-8:30, with generic dancing until 11:00
$6

As none of you know, I recently went out to Phoenix, AZ, to help my aunt move here.  Well this evening I made my triumphant return, but along the way, I witnessed several remarkable.... Things.  Now, "things" is not the most evocative word, but given the vast amalgam of phenomena which was presented to me during my drive across the greater part of America, it is certainly the most comprehensive.  I recorded most of them faithfully, and present them here for your digestion and entertainment.  Bear in mind that every single one of these were recorded while driving at upwards of 80 mph, so it is not merely a labour of love, but a risking of life for the enjoyment of others.  (Um, that's other peoples' lives.  Very important.)

Byler's Amish Kitchen

Wildfire Danger High
Use Ashtray

Detention Centre -- Do Not Stop For Hitch-Hikers
(At 6:00 am without coffee, this is not the ideal sign to see.  Actually, it's never the ideal sign.  Hit any pedestrian you see.)

Scenic view vending machines

Golden Cobra Kickboxing

Elk Country --
Be Aware

Chain up area

Black Bart's Saloon and Musical Revue

Lone Tree Drive
(It's in the middle of an (actually forested) national forest)

Dinosaur Park This Exit!

Winslow, Arizona
(No, we did not stand on the corner.  We didn't even get on the exit ramp.)

On a scrolling marquee: "(Gas price).... (Cigarette price).... AND TACOS!!"

Second Mesa, This Exit
(There is no First Mesa.)

(Route 66!!)

Got Petrified Wood?

Aunt Katie: "Well, if I'm reading that tree correctly...."

Win A Big Rig!

Mocassins For The Entire Family!

Knife City!  Wholesale!

(The random collection of plaster dinosaur statues on dunes along the freeway.)

Ostrich Eggs!
Meteorites 50% Off!

(A random school bus perched on top of -- no joke -- a cliff.)

Microsurgical Vasectomy Reversal -- Money Back Guarantee!
(And they said everything was bigger in Texas....)

(A 2-headed lizard statue, also on the side of the freeway.)

(A graveyard.  With a grave on the wrong side of the fence.)

(Big random white "S" painted on the mountainside.)

(The Navajo reservation!)

Ortega's Tacos

Blake's Lotaburger

Gusty Winds May Exist

Want A Natural High?  Grant's Has It!

Ice Cave!  Bastera Volcano!

Caution: Dust Storms May Exist

10,000 Video's
(How possessive of them.)

Notice: Do Not Pick Up Hitch-Hikers In This Area
(Again.)

Zero Visibility Possible
(If it's zero visibility, we can't very well see that, can we?)

Albuquerque -- It's A Trip

Flea Market In Louisiana!
(As advertised in New Mexico....)

Albuquerque Next 17 Exits

Caution: Entering Congested Urban Area

(The cement which forms Albuquerque's freeway lamp posts, guard rails, signs, walls, et cetera.... Is all Pepto-pink.  No lie.)

World Pyro Headquarters!

(What appeared to be a giant eggbeater attachment in the middle of a New Mexico field.)

(Falling rock signs have insanely amusing pictures on them.)

(And seeing an 18-wheeler full of onions is always interesting.)

(More signs warning of the perils of high fire risks.)

Billy The Kid Tombstone Race
(Something tells me it's not very fast.)

Big Rig Truck Service!
(The billboard had a pink-and-white theme.)

Enough Is Enough.
Vote Democratic.

Adult xxxSuperstorexxx
(So, is it.... Straightedge?  Hardcore?  Disillusioned emo?  I ceased to ponder this when I realised that, more importantly and ironically (or not so-), the store was conveniently positioned across from a motel.)

In God We Trust.
United We Stand.
(To Lease, Call 864-7935)

And now for some observations:
~ In Arizona, there are plenty of national forests.  You just have to get 45 minutes into it before you see what would pass for a tree.
~ In New Mexico, there are plenty of weigh stations.  They're just all closed.
~ In Texas, there are plenty of rest stops.  They're just all closed.
~ In Arkansas.... Yeah.  No entry for Arkansas.  The Ozarks are still there, like they have been for the past several centuries, so that's always good.
~ In western Tennesee, there are plenty of adult bookstores.  And they're all open.

Mmmmmmm, Americana.  How it pervades our very pores.

M-FUGE IN ABOUT 6 DAYS!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!!

TTFN (TA TA FOR NOW)

For the last week or maby two I have been doing a lot of this

and after that some of this

and after that some of this

I watched Sky High today. Really good movie. The DVD skipped a couple of times though.

I think I may be into this thing with Grace more than I realize. I mean, it's bad when you get really depressed when you look at all the storms going on, and think of some special person and almost cry because you may never see them again. Especially when it's someone you barely know barely talked to.

But anyways.The only thing holding me back is me.

And that's hard on a brotha to know.

So anyways, I'm taking the ACT next saturday, and I haven't reviewed or anything.

Danny

mew

  

  

  

 <--woah...  

  *gasp* it's ororon!!

   aww sora!! i want to hug him!

  aw, riku! i want to hug him too!

  

 oh. hello!

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

ok so iv spent the past 20 mins trying ot get to this site becuase it seems that my computer is fixing to die

well tonight is the youth "lock-in"  and its gonna be a blast

then were leaving the boro at 6 so we can be at the airport where we fly out at 8

then we will be driving from chicago to backus minnesota, the coolest place in the world

while were there i tend to take a break from the net so youll only hear from me maybe a few times over the next 3 weeks

see you kids later ill miss you tons and tons

much love

-milly

Hey yall! whats up? Nuthin much on this end.... just getting ready to go to Kelsey's (my friend) birthday party!!! well got to go!! love yas

Byebye

<3 always

Candace :)

I can't believe I've been on Phusebox for an entire year.

As for my previous entry: No, I'm not moving and nothing is really "wrong". Some things are better spoken of in person, so if you really would like to know what I'm talking about, then call me. . . unless I don't know you. That would be really odd.

I'm babysitting Tomlinson's children tomorrow evening, and after we got those plans worked out, we talked a little bit about Spanish and teaching. He told me that IF-- IF mind you-- I decided to take the path of an educator, I would start teaching around the age of 23. For a moment, that age seemed to be very far off, then I realized that I'm in my final weeks of being a teenager, and 23 is only three years away. In the words of Graham, good cow! It's funny how age just sneaks up on you all of a sudden.

In other news, I am now the proud owner of a new digital camera.With my tax refund money and Mom's willingness to pay the other half as an early birthday present, I bought a full size Sony with six mega pixels and a 12x optical zoom. With the camera, I also got a 1GB memory card and a two year extended warranty ((three years total with the included one year warranty)). Hot dog, I am excited.

I am still unemployed, but I'm doing my best not to fret too much. Though random things, I have been able to keep something of a steady amount of cash in my pocket, so that's definitely a help. Along with ESP, I have also applied at Home Depot and Books a Million. Hopefully I'll get a call by Monday from somebody. Otherwise, I just may take Laura up on this camp counselor offer. I'd really like to spend my summer here with a job I can keep through the school year though.

    well, i said i wouldn't make a phusebox, so of course, i had to make one becuase i got bored

yep..thats all

So for those of you who were wondering...
~ A "heavy" camera is over a pound. I was specifically referring to a camera that I am very interested in that is 19 ounces. That weighs a tad more than my video camera, but my video camera feels fairly light to me.
~ I don't care if the camera is a point and shoot or an DSLR. I just want something that has better than 3x zoom, because that was what my last camera had and I got frustrated with that sometimes, image stabilization, at least 5 megapixels, and it would be nifty if it had neat features. And something that is going to last me more than a year for crying out loud.

Pretty much all Panasonic cameras have image stablization, regardless of whether they are point and shoot or DSLR. Canon, on the other hand, has only a handful of camera with image stablization (why is beyond me) but most of them have some awesome special features and color stuff you can play with. There's a nice Canon point and shoot that has everything I want but costs around $100 more than the "heavy" Canon DSLR that has pretty much the same features (the ones that matter to me anyways). So for those who know about cameras, advice would be nice...

Be sure to come to the Damascus Road concert tonight if it's still happening... there has been an issue with the sound stuff being fried by lightning... I'll edit this entry later if I find out it's cancelled.

*****UPDATE: The show is going to be at Boenhoffer's (sp?) instead of Salt and Pepper*****

im cant ever get the motivation to get on here and write a good long thing.  so i will just leave it like this.     OOOOOOOOO YEA!!!!!!!!!

This summer is going to be amazing.  Already it's off to an auspicious beginning.  All these storms have been refreshing, and the heat arrived at long last.  Yesterday I was kidnapped, blindfolded, and dragged against my will to Chili's - a good experience.  I leave for Governor's School on Sunday, and I'm EXTREMELY excited.  If you have any desire to contact me there, I'll have an email and phone number (and address, for care packages <3) which I'll post later.

Have a good time hanging here in the Boro.

Love.

Christina.

Hey everybody. How's life? Mine is going amazing right now. I do miss a certain somebody, because I don't get to see her much, but other than that stuff is good. I finally got my music up on purevolume and myspace. ( www.purevolume.com/aaronroan or www.myspace.com/aaronroanmusic ) So check it out. I was losing my voice when I was recording these songs, so they sound like complete crap, but it's ok. I'm in very high spirts despite the weather. I'm also excited, because Sir Mathew Goodman and myself are going to do some Relient K for the talent show next year. We haven't decided on which song to do, but I only know 3. We're thinking about either "Getting Into You" or "Sadie Hawkins Dance." I can play both, so it works out. So people, take your pick. Well, I'm off to do important grown-up stuff. You kids go play.

So, I'm in the Motherland.  For those of you not really familiar with my lineage, that's Poland.  Pretty amazing.  By the grace of God, I got here without a hitch because I went on five flights and six airports.  26 hours.  What was really weird is that the rest of the team had 3 flights and got here a day late.  HAHAHAHA!  But they have all these fun memories that I don't have so that's kinda sad.

Moving on...I really love it here in Poland!  It's so much cheaper...on some things.  I've been amazed by everything I've seen but who cares...I'm in Poland!  The food AND candy is super awesome here and it's beautiful.  The pictures we have are amazing to say the least.  I can't believe it.  Pretty good.  I think Trent is taking all of this very well which makes me happy.  I do need to call him sometime soon.  And probably my parents too, although we never have time too.  Internet is easier to get to, I think. 

Anyway, all is well.  Pray for me because I will be working in a very bad, and potentially scary part of the city.  Thanks!

Hey everyone.... i am so0o0o0o0o bored!!! there is nothing to do!!! well byebye for now.....love yas

<3 always

Candace :)

woot ..just a gooooood alice cooper song...that pretty much sums up my feelings rite now

That's all I have to say...

hey people

man o man
i am tried for some reason
yesterday was pretty good
went to the park
w/ my brother, his girlfriend and her younger brother
which was fun
yep well anyways
i am leaveing in 15 days
whoot ness
me sooo happy
well anyways i am bored soo
i am out

         meg

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

The PPT homework lasts about 1 hour. It's painstaking but I feel satisfied with my work. I 'll show it in class. She is brilliant to hand such creative stuff to us but she is too self-impotant sometimes.

i love internet convos.  theyre just so fun.  you get to talk to people you dont normally talk to about stuff you wouldnt normally talk about face to face.  i strongly believe that the internet has hurt our generation's ability to interact face to face.  but hey i still like it & its a little late to undo the damage.

i got my yearbook today! my own edition of POHAKU MAKAMAE, the name of the yearbook at campbell. i have decided that i probly want to stay at campbell next year. it would be more convenient, and i know people there.

i am so bored. in an effort to solve my problem, i am going to go.

aLoHAs..

not sure if this is final yet but hopefully when the new restraunt opens up i get to be assistent manager of the one in woodbury wich i realy hope happens.

im goin to dads on saturday.  ill only be there for three weeks this year.  its kinda sad, but im kinda glad too.  ill actually get to see people my age.  but i also wont get to see my little sisters & my dad & elle as much....but oh well.  this is why divorce bites.

hmmm.

I colored my whole driveway with chalk today...but my sisters just HAD to wash it all off with the water hose. Don't ya just love em' sometimes??

Pictures for dance were today. I hate posed pictures that are taken in a studio. They aren't natural enough.

i finally have a new profile picture. :]

report cards were today, a got 5 A's and  C. But, fortunatley, I didn't get in trouble.

ooooh I almost forgot. I got a locker today too. 746, is the number I do believe. I think it's by some people I know, so it's all good.

still bored. ofcoarse, I stay bored most of the time anyways. lol hopefulyl I'll do something interesting this summer. maybe I'll color with chalk on my roof...lol. That would be interesting.

well ill edit if I have anything else to say.

mucho love-o.

alexanna

edit......

Radx3: so im like good toast? lol
Shoutakun3: yeah
Shoutakun3: the best
Shoutakun3: just right
Shoutakun3: but I don't want to compare you to toast
Radx3: no..i would say im the toast that doesnt have enough butter and gets bored alot
Radx3: lol!!!
Shoutakun3: haha
Shoutakun3: well, enough about toast
Radx3: ahah
Radx3: SPEAKING OF TOAST
Shoutakun3: you shouldn't be compared to it
Radx3: i want some toast
Radx3: lol
Radx3: ok. lol.
Shoutakun3: you are way better than toast
Shoutakun3: you should know that

so kids i havent done this in a while but basically everythings changed.. la dee dah dee dah.. um im single and waitin... not for the perfect guy but for the right timing...

so what i've learned not to holla at

banana bread and chocolate it aint yummy

love y'all peace!

so we're all moved in to our new house.... but no baby yet.... WOOT for new high speed cable internet.... oh and i sooooo live across the street from lacey and courtney now LOL... well its late.... so im off to bed.... sara... call me...!
~tRISH

"Oh look, I'm a lamp shade!" -- London --the Suite Life of Zach & Cody

So, all I want to know, is who said that guys can't cook?

k, so i just got back from teh parents/players game with rec.  it was sooo much fun!!  then we went to sonic.  ahhh...good times.

hows everyone's summer goin?

i want to go shopping does anyone wanna go with me?

tomorrow....

Yikes.  We have much to do and very little time to go. 
First on the list:

Get this baby to turn.  He's breech right now. We have an appointment tomorrow to confirm.  Hopefully he's turned - sonogram will show us.

It's all in God's hands.  I really want to deliver "normally" like I did Harrison but this pregnancy has been anything but normal!!!

suuup summer rules. 
help me find a job?