went to riverbend last nite [big almost 2 week long music fest in chattanoga].

it was christian nite, with audio adrenaline headlining. the venue is HUGE- the stage is on a humongo barge on the TN River right in the middle of downtown...

so watched my boys in the turning play an awesome set and took tons of pics- they're just rad and so uberly nice- jacob said next time i could get on stage to take pics *giddy*

and then jessie called and asked if i wanted to sit beside the stage to see audio a.  i'll post pics so you can see the scope of how huge this stage is and how if you aren't just right there, everyone looks just like ants...i mean there were around 50,000 people there. and there's prob. 50-60 seats on the side of the stage. so i was three rows away from audio a. didn't get to catch the whole set b/c i have class in about 15 mins [i'm at panera. yay] but it was cool- about 15 mins. after we left, i get a txt from jessie saying she just got off stage w/ them for a whole song...i coulda been on stage with audio a...but it's cool...but yeah...the seats were just AMAZING.....

but for now, class calls...once i get about 20 more pics off this roll i'm gonna prob. one hour it so i'll get some pics up asap-

regardless- last nite was about one of the best shows ever!

<3

jen

Hey! whats up? nuthing much here just hanging with  megan!! well we havent slep @ all and we dont plan on it!! love ya bye

<3 Candace

I'm in a weird state of mind right now.
but I guess I am lately.
I keep falling for him,
for no reason..
&& I can't stop,
&& he doesn't care for me,
but I can't stop thinking about him.
I {take this in a nonconceited way}
have my pic of atleast 4-5guys,
&& I've tried to get to know them,
and given them a chance,
&& i fail miserably,
I always come back to where I was before..
What's wrong with me?
blekk.

as for my 16th birthday;;
It went pretty alright.
I got a bit of money
&&some of my friends
took my out because my day
was going terribly,
&& they made it better.
Mcalesters for birthday L-inner{lunch/dinner}
&& then the movie that made NO sense,
&& the fact i work fairy wings
&& they wore boas
while we dressed in our best!
so that was pretty cool.
now to the next stage:
the liscense...
will she get it..

to be continued....

tonight was crazy. words definately can't describe it. i dont think i can say anything that happened tonight because of graphic images and.... you just can't know. all i can say is my friends lost a bet and they had to walk down our street in nothing but there boxers. i laughed. i laughed hard. so did my friends kirby and chris. oh, the laughs. there were even funnier things like at the pond or the so called "arby's game" or capture the flag, but let's not go there. until next time.... goodbye.....

so i slept till noon today... maybe i shouldnt say up so late.... HA... who am i kinding? .... sara called... we went to the movies to see The Breakup.... ending sucked @$$... but it was a good movie!!! then me and sara and andrew went to old navy.... got some new flip flops... hmm.... only 1 week till WARPED TOUR 06'!!!!!!
~tRISH

so last night, i sat at my aunt's house as she was in the other room dying and as her husband threw himself in a drunken rage. and i thought to myself? why is she dying when she is such an amazing person, yet he is standing in front of me yelling about nothing and very much alive (yet probably more dead inside than she).

it just makes me very sad...and i dont want her to die. but i have to know that she will be in the glory of the Lord...and we will be here

there is a song that says "God only cries for the living" and i didnt truly understand it until after i had been there and i saw what she endured on a regular basis. cause i just dont think i could be that strong...and i'm glad she doesnt have to be very much longer.

so, if you would be so kind as to pray for her family and her 3 children and especially her daughter who is like 11, because i just dont want to think about losing my mom until forever...

Turned 18. Hot sizzle.

Broke my pinky at Freshman Orientation at UT. Much fun was had there in only two nights. hehe.

My class schedule for first semester:

+Mondays
    1:25-3:20 pm: Marching Band (Music Ensemble 359)
    5:45-8:35 pm: Communications and Information 150

+Tuesdays
    8:10-9:25 am: Honors Psychology  117
    9:40-10:55 am: Biology 101
    2:10-3:25 pm: University Honors 100
    3:40- 4:55pm: Honors English 118
    6:30-7:30 pm: Brass Sectional Rehearsal (not a class)

+Wednesdays
    9:05-11:00 am: Biology Lab
    1:25-3:20 pm: Marching Band
   
+Thursdays
    8:10-9:25 am: Honors Psychology 117
    9:40-10:55 am: Biology 101
    3:40-4:55 pm: Honors English 118

+Fridays
    1:25-3:20 pm: Marching Band


Then when I got home I was greeted with my birthday present...a 20.1" widescreen display with tons of features. yeah. its spiffy.

That's a recap of my current events. Hope you enjoyed.


::b

Small group at Fazoli's Night tonight.

Although, there are going to be some people who will be very happy to discover upon their return to Mufreesboro that the bottomless bowls of pasta have returned to Fazoli's.  People like Grace Langeland and Brian King.  Well, Grace is still in Murfreesboro, she's just confined to the MTSU campus.

Mady, Cameron, Megan and I had a lovely time just the four of us, though.  A funny conversation led to the birth of the newest group on my list... And Brian, if you're mad, it's nothing personal, I swear.

So I've been trying to guide Mady through Kingdom Hearts (the first) without a strategy guide.  I remember most of what's in the strategy guide because I've read it so many times, but not having the maps is killing me when I try to explain to her where stuff is.  'Tis rather frustrating.  Methinks I'm gonna call up my brother and my sister and law and ask them if I can borrow my strategy guide back for Madykins.

ALSO... I got a wonderful new dress today.  Mady and I were poking around the mall yesterday when we wandered into Gap.  There on a rack was this amazifying teal and green sundress contraption.  And being Gap, they actually had more sizes than 0-10.  As a matter of fact, they had a 14.  Just on the off chance that a 14 still fit me, I took to the dressing room to try on.  And it fit.  Off the rack... a dress fit me.  That never happens.  Hardly anything, especially dresses, fits me off the rack. (The curse of having a flat chest and a gargantuan backside.)

So.  I put it on 48 hour hold, did some first class eyelash batting and pouting in the direction of my dad's bank account, came back the next day, and got mah dress!  Oh, I love it so!  I do believe that this dress is going to be one of my senior picture outfits.

Mmm... it is rare that I have a good clothes-finding experience.  It was a nice change of pace.

k so im pretty sure that i wasnt feelin all that great throughout most of today.  but some awesome conversations with a few of my amazing friends helped to put me in a better mood.so yay me!  well im really tired.  i dont have to baby sit in the morning but i have to go to a physical (yuck, that means needles)  and then after ive been poked, prodded, examined, and what ever else they plan to do to me, i will go to baby sit til 4.  woopee sounds like a fun day for me eh?

Today was a pretty awesome day. went to the pool with Megan and then to the OHS colorguard practice and had a bunch fun there. Then after that I went to the greenway with Megan and walked and talked it was nice, and then I came home and ate a pop tart and practiced alot.I was going to go out tonight but my mom really wanted me to stay home and chill so i did.

I really need to get back into guard, I realized how much I missed it today and it was sad. I need to find someway to really get back involved.

well im off.

Leah

Have you ever had to take medicine that tastes absolutely awful.  But, it was good for you ... and it made you well or healthy, as the case may be?

The stock market is like that right now.  After an  approx 25-30% run-up over the last couple of years, it is now in a bit of a funk (ergo correction).  Its down about 10% in the past 6 weeks  .... as people start worrying about inflation ... oil prices ... terrorism .... hurricanes ... yadi yadi yadi.

I hate down markets. They make me blue.  BUT, and this is a big but .... it is in the down markets that I put in place what I need to make the money in the up market.  Thus, I need "down markets" so I buy stocks cheaply ... then sell in the "up market" ... like Xerox and Lucent ... still waiting on the right moment for Union Pacific and Boeing.

So ... patience is key. Positioning is critical.  The reward will come.  Nevertheless, it still makes me blue ....

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: ( pet and current street name)
Chipper Big Eagle

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mom's side, your favorite candy)
Jim Reeses
3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your middle name)
J And

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: ( favorite color, favorite animal)
Blue Llamas

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Andrew Murfreesboro

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name}
MITETT
7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
werdna ttekcup
8. POP STAR NAME: (middle name, street you grew up on)
Andrew Cranor

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, favorite drink)
The Green Water

thought for the day:

if it's a woman choice of what to do with her body, why don't you choose to not sleep with people and therefore ensure that you don't get pregnant? birth control anyone?

My grandmother is believed to have had a mini stroke today. Please pray nothing worse develops.

All I can do is pray.

This is tearing me up inside. It's hard to be strong when you feel you aren't.....

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: ( pet and current street name)
Thunder Montclair

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mom's side, your favorite candy)
Florette Snickers

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your middle name)
A Kat

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: ( favorite color, favorite animal)
Emerald Clouded Leopard

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Kateland Murfreesboro

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name}
Thokdy

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
Dnaletak Ydakhpgnov

8. POP STAR NAME: (middle name, street you grew up on)
Kateland Foxfire

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, favorite drink)
The Emerald Tea

So I might not be going to the lake for awhile.  If any of you have seen the news, our marina caught on fire last night.  Some lady told me this today at work and I called mom and told her.  The section was the houseboats though and theres a ton of gas and oil in the water.  Was planning on going out tomorrow after work but thats not looking like an option right now.  Hopefully it gets fixed by this weekend but we shall see...

HATE BAD DAYS...........

there depressing

haha yeah its been a while..ive been in gulf shores alabama going crazy.rode some jet skis and stuff.....bought some cds....lets see....some thrice,thursday,halifax,chimaira,atreyu....you know the good stuff....anyway ive been kinda bored working all the time...oh well...hmm i hope people comment on this cuz its kinda gay when you write stuff and no one says anything.....dang well i gotta go to hastings.....ill see you guys later

Goodness, but it's been a long time since I posted.  Nothing much has happened, except...

I had braces until about six months ago.  Not a big deal--many people have braces, and mine required little remarkable treatment (four teeth pulled at once, but that's another story).  However, since I had the bottom ones removed, the gum from one of my lower teeth has receded.  A lot.  We're talking half a centimeter here.

On the good side, it's not my fault.  I say that because usually when your gums recede it's because you haven't been taking care of them, pockets of infection develop, and you have to have (what seems a me) a rather gruesome procedure:  they split your gum, peel it back, clean away the bacteria, and suture (stitch) it back together.

However, as I said, this one isn't my fault.  Apparently, when you get braces and your lower teeth have to be moved forward quite a bit (one of mine was), the tooth can kind of break through the thin covering of gum that shields the root.  Basically, this is what has happened.  On the very good side, it's on one isolated tooth, the tooth has not become sensitive to cold and is not loose (ie, there's no damage to the tooth or the root), and I just have to have a gum graft.

Which sounds just terrible.  I'm told, though, (and have read several places online) that it's pretty simple:  they go in, clean the exposed root, take a small piece of tissue from the roof of the mouth (pain=that of a pizza burn for a couple of days) and suture it over the exposed root.  Add some fancy-named cementing gel, and you've got a new gum (pain=can be taken care of with Extra Strength Ibuprofen for a couple of days).  Presumably, not that bad.

The irritating part in all of this comes on the way home from Lebanon (where the periodontist is).  It's time for me to get my teeth cleaned, and the periodontist said I needed to do so before I have the gum graft.  Okay.  We schedule the gum graft for the last day of June (a Friday, giving me an entire weekend to recuperate, even though it's only supposed to take 12-24 hours).  I call my longtime dentist's office to schedule an appointment to get my teeth cleaned.  No need to see the dentist.  None.

I explain that I'm having oral surgery, have to get the teeth cleaned by then, and morning will not work (missing 1 day of summer class=very bad).  I'm informed that they are unable to accommodate me unless I'm willing to have the cleaning done at 10am or the middle of July.  This will not work.  I explain again that I have to get this done.  Again, they are unobliging.  Therefore, I very merrily (actually, very irritatedly[?]) call the other dentist in town and have an appointment for next Friday at an excellent time. 

Now, I don't think it's too much to ask for the dentist's office where I've gone for several years and always paid promptly to schedule this for me.  Cleaning my teeth takes 20 minutes.  That's not a long time.  Givena a couple of other small incidents that have happened at this same dentist's office, I'm seriously considering changing dentists, if I like the new one.  It seems as though my current dentist is doing me a favor by allowing me to be one of his patients.  The inherent problem in this?  People don't usually pay over-priced fees for favors...

Especially when they're going to have to undergo surgery at the end of the month.  Bah!

i know have a car details will be found out when u visit church next week :P

So I am moving in like 2 weeks tops.....I am moving from my mom's house to Raider's Ridge.......the appartments are amazing no one has lived there yet and they are brand new.......I move in on July 1 and pay Aug. rent and don't pay again until Sep. 1st.....I will be living with 2 other people but I really don't care as long as I don't have to live at home anymore.......but yea I am moving out finally......it only took 18 years........peace out bye bye

"Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."

So I went out and walked around my subdivision for no real reason. Mostly just to get out of the house and get some sunlight to see that would help make me feel better. I'm still sick. Granted I'm much better, but I still am sick. This is the longest process I've ever been thru and I'm so ready for it to be over, but it just takes patience I guess.

And while the walking didn't make me feel any better, I was able to get a good amount of thinking in and come to a lot of realizations about things. I've discovered recently that a lot of people are talking about me, and while some of it doesn't bother me, some of it does. Where people get the right to run their mouths I'll never understand, but whatever. It's like I try to avoid drama and it runs to me. I also realized some things about myself that I need to take care of, but those aren't things I'm willing to share with everyone.

But yea, nice little enlightening day I guess. Can anyone tell I'm bored out of my mind??

hey everybody...

well. here i am in the MTSU library...its so weird being stuck on the campus that ive been on forever..but in a way its nice.. i dont feel like im in college at all..but hey its only day 2..

my schedule is pretty cool....i start my dayt off (usually) with a shower. Then i run off to the mccally (?) lunchroom and eat lots of fruit, because it atleast looks real..

then i go to the todd art bldg for  my painting class..i have my own little studio thing set up..we havent done anything much yet....just set up and played cards ..the art professors havent exactly made it here yet (they lack in organization- we go tour schedules today as opposed to the vocal and music kiddos recieving it the day the arrived..ha)...so we just hang out and talk..yesterday we snuck around the bldg and ravaged through the leftover artwork and explored any open doors..after that i wander around with many new friends...until lunchtime rolls around and off i go back to mccally..

after lunch i have "art appreciation"...thats an adventure...our teacher enjoys being enthusiastic and assigning lots of reading. im actually going to be tested and my grade will determine my college credit....ooo.

afer that we go back to our studios to paint..on mon. and wed. i have painting...on tues. and thurs. i have Advanced Drawing..so today was drawing...it was neat...the teacher was actually there for most of the class and we were given an object to draw every 3 minutes...13 total ..and had to fit it together the best way we could to make a piece of "aesthetically" pleasing art...:-)

after classes...i have suppa and usually lots of free time.. tonight theyre showing a movie..

love you -kels

Thasya and her "painting" ...

got my hair cut AGAIN...hm i think i have a problem where i always have to have change...so i found out that My Cousin && her husband got sick after their honeymoon...tht sucks...but yea um im not sure wht dress im wearing to Kaylas Party...i have two to choose from because i dont feel like going out && buying a new one lol...but yea um i hate my hair cut...yuck the bangs are too short && i just dont like it...but yea this past weekend i went with Ashie to the mall && i got some clips, a headband, && some beads theyre cute...dont have much else to say...im just happy that its the damn summer && NO fucking drama whoot whoot<3

There is a church right before my street.  On their sign it says, "School is out, God is in.  God says GET R DONE"  Ah, life in the rural south.

In news unrelated to Hickville, USA, the baby is still remarkably cute.

  a week and a day til warped tour! 

  anyone going? 

EsSkat3r49: hotness
oh ohxoh: what?
EsSkat3r49: u
oh ohxoh: haha
EsSkat3r49: u are
oh ohxoh: no. but thank you
EsSkat3r49: ya
EsSkat3r49: its crazy how u are
oh ohxoh: what do you mean?
EsSkat3r49: like a goddess call me what u want but ive thought about u all summer (im not crazy)

i think i love this kid now....
haha. riiight.

I got back from camp on Saturday, but I've had this sort of cold thingy. I actually got my voice back yesterday.

 For those of you who didn't go to camp and didn't get to her this, I HAVE NO ATHSMA!!!!!!!You read it right, it's gone. Along with a few things that were previously making me a very stupid person. you'll get to hear the whole, but still condenced, version tomorrow. Gus is going to let me bring in an old friend, I can't wait.

In reference to the title, I have been eating pasta and the like for the past 3 days. I can't seem to get full of it (kindly detain from making any sort of remark on that one), aauugghh!

I forgot to post this!! I can't beleive I was so absentminded!! My friend Arwen got married a few weeks ago. We went to Ross's and got ka-wazy!! I wore these really nice heels (by nice I mean 6 inch stilletos) and an absolutelty amazing dress. if I can find pictures, I'll upload them.

Tha pasta is calling me, someone duct tape me to a chair!!!

AH okok

well so 11 days[i think] untill Las Vegas! yay

AHH and THENNN

I come back July 1st... and July 2nd.. i go to CHARLESTON WITH ALEXANNA MURPHY!omg this makes me extremly excited! ciz she is the best ever and Charleston is gorgeous and we will have the best time ever! So much fun'

so summer should be lots of fun

and i dont know what i would do without alexanna! if u dont know her.. then your worthless lol!!

This seems like a really cool concert! I had to make a poster for my Digital Imaging (Photoshop) class, and this was what I made. It's so pretty!
(At the bottom it has details about the event.)
(It looks better when it's not blurry)

hahaha i just met someone that knew from somewhere else
lol
it's kinda odd and funny
man oh man
we met at our friend jon's party
lol it's kind awesome in a way....lol
well anywho
i am bored soo later

        meg

now it's the big one.

i am hopelessly in love with Rufus Wainwright.

can anyone help me?

Something only I see, but now you

 

 

My journal: May 24^th, 2006 – Somewhere over the North Pole

 

Sunsets,             One of my favorite of all God’s creations. I look to my left and see an amazing, blazing, red depression of the object that gives physical life to the earth. I know God painted this one just for me. I knew it when I opened my shade and saw it. So, I cut off my movie and picked up my journal in an attempt to somewhat preserve the moment.

 

Tonight we will stay in Newark. As badly as a want to get home, I’m content with only the next stop because it puts me on American soil and out of China. I love the country and the people, but I’m ready for home.

 

Wow, the sunset reminds me of my favorite Hawaii moments. Observing a sunset that simply stops time and allows God to scream “LOOK AT ME!!!” And I do. I look at that and know that the millions of brilliant colors coming from outer space point to a creator who is passionately in love with me. 

 

Now, I never even asked to be “romanced” here, but that sets a heart at ease?!

 

Below is a snow-covered tundra. One I’ve never really seen before. Even though cold and non-receptive the sun still exerts incalculable amounts of energy onto its surface. Makes me wonder if there are times in my life when I resemble the tundra? The sun is still exerting energy, faithfully rising and setting, but the tundra is simply not interested.

 

Not interested in the life that could be. Simply content being cold, hard, and barren. It’s not an issue of a lack of effort on the part of the sun. The tundra has to look at it rising and setting each day as it lays there stagnantly unchanged. 

 

May I never be like the tundra. I hope I spend every morning I’m blessed to be on this waiting room, ball of dust, we call earth waking up and draining every ounce of energy I can from the one who made the sun rise and set. The tundra is vast, intricately detailed, and beautiful… but it’s dead, barren, and lonely.

 

John 10:10 comes to mind

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.”

 

                           Thank you for showing me, I’m ready to go… - JV

"I even wonder like the word 'love'. How many times has it been erased or deleted or burned? And there are some words that we should get rid of! like... 'goth-tard'...
Just because I'm introspective and I walk among the shadows, it doesn't mean I can't hear you..."
-Hope

HEEEEY. I'm linz. I'm awesome and like yeaaaah that's pretty much it.

GAH- BAAAABIES

Ay, hay fiesta en unos pantolones. shaaaay

wow..so it's been awhile.

let's see... this summer is going by pretty well.  i have a job. my brother and i are surveying culverts (those pipes under driveways and such) throughout the county.

i received the battalion commander position for this upcoming year at blackman! and i'm the rifle team commander.

in rifle we got 2nd place for the league comp. and 3rd for the tournament.  we're so gonna win 1st next year!  and i got two 1st place medals for prone  :]

i guess that's 'bout it.   ya'll chill and relax.   ttyl

Life is weird.

so... its 12:30am... and im sitting at the computer eating macaroni salad... god could my life be any more pathetic...?

so @ work this evning and old friend came thru the drive thru... it was nice talking to him... then a man come thru and told me "i had sexy eyes..." then sara picked me up... we went to andrew's and chillaxed w/ his mom for a while... then our (me sara andrew and amanda) venture to walmart @ 11 o'clock at night was fairly interesting...  this guy named matt was sooooooooooo flirting w/ me... even 10 year old amanda saw right thru him LOL... i guess it just feels good to be wanted by someone...i  havent had that feeling in a while really...u know the one where u know that there is no doubt that this someone or anyone really.....the feeling that they truly love you....or that they really care for you... god i need a boyfriend.... well im going back to my macoroni salad....it loves me....dang i feel so emo right now LMAO!!... oh and im burnt....so no one touch me.... darn tanning bed that i really dont need to go to b/c im dark anyway....but a fat gurls gotta feel good about herself.... hmmmmmmm like i sed at the begining..... pathetic....
~tRISH


Words I Couldn't Say
Rascal Flatts

In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away

What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

"Lean on me when you't not strong, and I'll be your friend.
I'll help you carry on, for it won't be long 'til I'm gonna' need
somebody to lean on.
You just call on me brother if you need a friend.
We all need somebody to lean on.
I just might have a problem that you'll understand.
We all need somebody to lean on.
If there is a load you have to bear that you can't carry.
I'm right up the road, I'll share your load if you just call me.
Call me ( if you need a friend)
Call me."

        I randomly heard that song today on the radio, and I pretty much took it to heart for the first time. Because it 100% true. Without my friends and family, I wouldn't be anyone worth knowing. Seriously. I love you guys so much.

        I'm at my dad's house until Sunday...it's a good thing because I get time away from my stepdad and my sisters...but it's a bad thing because its ten times more boring over here and it's lonely.

        My birthday is in thirteen days. I'll finally be 15...I feel like so young compared to everyone else even if it is by a couple months...ahah

        LAURA IS COMING TO CHARLESTON WITH ME!!!! This is probably the second best news I've gotten all summer!!! Maybe even the first best!! ahhhh!! Like in all seriousness...she just saved my vacation.

        Well a bunch of people I normally talk to are on vacation this week...so..that's kind of depressing...

         Hmmmmmmmmmmm. There is nothing else to say, except that I love you very much.

alexanna

niiiiiiiice...I know.lol

It's official, the world around me is hooking up. There was Beth, then Megan and Jackie, now Kaitlin and Baillie. The only ones left on the singles list is seems is Nicky, myself, and Nick Lachey. Its cool that there is not significate other for my right now, but it kind of sucks hearing about it all. I am happy for them all, but I can't help think of the loneliness and asking the ohh so popular question, "What is wrong with me?" Maybe I just want someone to fill that empty spot in the pit of my stomach, the one that can't be filled with food, or that vacant corner of my heart which even the best of friends can't even get close to touching. Maybe I would like someone to be with where I can test my new strength I think I have that I didn't the last relationship. Or what if I am so shallow that I just want a boyfriend because it seems like that is the thing to have? But then again I think of all the heartbreak that follows and God knows I have had too much of that lately.

kayaking.  stick clearing. making fires.  tubing.  playing scrabble & cards.  stone & sidewalk sealing.  frying fish.  watching all sorts of wildlife.  looking at the stars.  geocaching.  fishing.  thats what ive been doing here lately... i could so do this forever.  but unfortunately i cant.  i have to do that whole college thing.

Dona doing a dance.

Just me and George

Decy and Maya.

Is it just me, or does a nineteen page application plus two letters of recommendation and a copy of your high school diploma seem a bit excessive when applying for a job that only allows a maximum of twenty hours a week on seven(ish) bucks an hour?

Maybe it'll be worth it, especially since I decided not to go to Impact as a roadie this year.

I have the neatest story to tell. I've shared it with just a small number of people, but my hope is that in the coming days I'll be able to share it with more of you :)

Hey What's Up well I Learned That My Family On My Dad's Side That I've Never Seen In My Life Decided To Overcome All Their Troubles And There Supposed To Come Over At My Grand Parents House Tomorrow.

I Have Never Seen Them And My 42 Year Old Dad Hasn't Seen Them Since He Was 7 Or 8 Years Old. So That Should Be Fun?

Aside That, Youth Camp Was Crazy Fun.

Untill Later-Matt

THE MOST FABULOUS GIRL IN THE UNIVERSE [bre] HAD HER BABY TODAY!

I AM OVERCOME WITH EMOTION

<3

abbyDee

Speaking of the Astros and the Braves...
~The Astros beat the Braves in 3 out 4 of their last games together
~The Astros stomped the Braves yesterday 14 to 4
~Roger Clemens was on While You Were Out, a show on TLC

Speaking of TLC...
I've decided that I would enjoy producing shows like the ones they have on TLC like While You Were Out and What Not to Wear because you would get to include whatever you wanted pretty much instead of whatever is in the script...

Then there's these concerts... who wants to go?
~Switchfoot at Cool Springs Galleria this Saturday night at 7
~Building 429 at The People's Church in Franklin on July 12 at noon
Both are free!

And lastly Republicans rock because...
~"The significant difference between Republicans and Democrats is that Democrats think that the government knows what to do with their money, and Republicans think that they know what to do with their own money." -Garrett's dad
~"I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some mid
level governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican!" -Unknown, but from Cari's Phusebox entry
(These quotes have been posted because I began to think about politics today after listening to two protest songs in my Intro to Music class.) 

SweetJesusMotherofGod.

There is a CHILD here.  A noisy, BIPOLAR CHILD.

I have already tried to overdose on Aleve once, to no avail.
Now I remember why I leave home during these meetings.

(Explanation: Pony Club meeting, and somebody couldn't get a sitter (I hope).  Pony Club is where hordes of horse people descend upon our house and drive me to the shelter of the upstairs domicile.  These people are scary, as fellow members will attest.  They turn upon their own kind at the slightest provocation, and some are medicated to begin with.)

But I digress.... CHILDREN.  AGH.  POUNDING.  HEADACHE.

So not the June Cleaver sort.... The maternal cooings might be even more offensive to my ears.  "Aww, look!  His first temper tantrum!!"  Me: "You know, we do have duct tape in the garage...."

---

I just walked downstairs to notify someone of a phone call.
Random Girl: "Do you live here?"
Me: "*Insert Look*  Yes, but not often."

Now really.  Do I live here?  I'm only emerging from random sections of the house to which YOU are not granted access, entirely casual, obviously not part of Pony Club, and asking where Dad is because he has a phone call.  Now, granted, I could be from some parallel dimension and merely temporarily slipped across various spheres of existence, which is entirely likely, but the possibility that I am an agent of Satan here to collect your soul is more probable (then again, she's in middle school, thus probably doesn't have one).  So you tell me.

---

SweetJesusMotherofGod.

There is a CHILD here.  A noisy, BIPOLAR CHILD.

I have already tried to overdose on Aleve once, to no avail.
Now I remember why I leave home during these meetings.

Oh wait, I already said all that....

I can't even leave, because they have diabolically parked the entire family in on all sides!  IT'S A TRAP!!  AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

*Commences hiding in terror*

Hey Yall!!!!

i am at candace's house and WE are really HYPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and she is singing the oscar mayer SONG!!!!!!!!!

okay anyways this was this one grl and she was getting an ATTITUDE WIT USS!!!!!!! oooooo my goodness!(good luck wit that one) sry im tlking to myself) and CANDACE IS BEING A DORK!!!!!!!!!!! WE HAD PIZZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY CHEESE !!!! anyways!

okay well goodbye

i can still see the resemblance!

dont that just look like kenny?

this one was inspired by GUSTAVO GARCIA

This was a mixture between GUS AND KENNY!!

this was inspired BY THE WONDERFUL CHRIS MORGAN

and that .......i dont know what you call that.........oh yeah chris slates daytime job.

<3 always,

                                  Emily O'Berry!!

P.S sry if yall were offended by the jokes and pictures but dont be an attitude hole (inside joke)

Creativity- Your inner power is Creativity! Any of
The Arts-music, dance, pure art, drama, creative writing-are your
passion. You love the way you can control what happens to you and your
life while you participate in any of The Arts, and you can push your
emotions aside when you do so. You at times can feel very depressed and
alone, and yet it only further fuels your love for your art. Life to
you can often seem bitter and cruel, a world of darkness with only a
few tiny flares of light, stretched out far in between one another. In
a way youre confused with what you want in your life, and find it hard
to trust people. Because of this people of the outside world see you as
cold and uncaring, yet those who befriend you love you a lot, and know
you are only very lonely and hurting. Boys are intrigued by your
mysterious mask, and one day, one of them will reach passed your
barriers and care for you the way you so desperately want to be cared
for. Dont let the popular people get you down; you are a wonderful
person, and without the creativity you bring the world, it would be a
very boring place. Love yourself for who you are, for you are very
special.
Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: A sweet, sensitive
man/woman. The guy/girl who understands your need for being alone
sometimes. Yet also someone who would do anything to protect you for
being hurt, even if it means giving up their life.
Your stone: Jade
Your power: Dreaming/Imagination
Your element: Dream
A quote that applies to you: Dare to dream, dare to fly, dare to be the ever chosen one to touch the sky.

answer to what type of guys end up liking me: jock



this is apparently my evil twin




your true desire is adventure,passion, love




Angel

You are pure and forgiving. Don't have to many concerns; it's not your style. Live life happily to benefit yourself and others.




You are: Living in a dream world. You've managed to escape reality and now reside in your own little world that you created..



u r happy...you usally have planes with your friends and u usally
are the one there to let ppl cry on your sholders cuz your that cool


Determined: You are all about the soul in everything. You believe
that someone deep and cunning will show it giving everything they got.
Just watch out for being overly impulsive. You live for an unidentifyed
purpose, but love

the feeling of overcoming something. You partially do this for yourself
and a big part of it is definatly telling everyone else that you are
not like another person. You don't know how to get a message across
sometimes, maybe because you don't know how to put your exact feelings
in words. You spend a good part of your time attempting to translate
meanings and very little coming to a fail. This is one of the reasons
why love is so close to you. You don't believe words can even describe
it. You especually enjoy putting all your emotion into loving them with
all your heart. You can't stand people that just don't care about
anything. You love people that feel the same way about things and your
partner loves you for your free and determined spirit.

k so i finally figured out how to do those hearts that everyone uses on myspace and stuff.  i tried to do this on phusebox but it didnt work!  k, anyway...not much goin on here.  pretty bored.  leave me comments.

man my eyes are fucked up...
i am woundering how the hell i am tyeing lol
i wont be getting concats untilll i get back from pa
so yeah
my blurie-ness wont leave untill likr 9:00
so yeah well  i am out

         meg

Hey.... whats up?¿  nuthing much here! just Hanging wih Emily O'Burry(i mean O'BErry) anyways yeah we are hyper i f thats what u wanna say!! so0o yeah i got to go!! love yas... talk to ya later!

<3 always

Candace :)

so i saw, over the hedge and an american haunting.  they both rocked.  amber and i have been hanging out and making plans for a senior trip. i  had an interview at sonic today and am freaking out as to what the answer shall be.  they are to call me back tomorrow morning.

Switchfoot, Saturday, Cool Springs Galleria, 7:00PM.

Switchfoot, Saturday, Cool Springs Galleria, 7:00PM.

updating my blog is hard when I don't have 6 class periods of nothingness.

Summer is here. For being so eventless, it has been entirely too stressful. Between work, registering for classes, last minute scholarships, my dad's campaign, VBS, Miss Tennessee, and my final dance recital (I'm in 8 dances), my summer has been crazy.

I am in serious need a pool and some good old girl talk. The only problem is finding the time!

just thought it was time for an update...i really don't get on here much cause i'm usually on myspace...so if you want to talk that's where i'm at lol so leave me so comments people lol well bye


Love Always
Danielle

so im sitting on the floor in the den and playing cards with my little sisters

this morning i got up and went kayaking on big portage and wow it was gorgeous!! the lake was perfect glass and it was an amazing paddle. we went all the way to the place where big portage turns into deep portage (thats a long way) and back. we saw 2 bald eagles and mommy loon with babies on her back and daddy loon was ready and waiting to ward us off

scince then iv been outside cleaning the yard or sticks and stobs and rotten wood all afternoon long .....

if youve ever wondered how many sticks there are in the floor of a forest i think i can tell you cause the only differesnce between the forest floor and the "yard" that i v benn cleaning is that a vast majority of the trees ave been taken out

yesterday we kept fish and caught quite a few nice perch and bluegill and even a rock bass that i caught we kept. when we got home i got the pleasure of learning how to flilet a fish!! i am now perfectly capable of catching a fish and then turning him into something that can be eaten. it was kinda gross to watch but when i did it it was somehow not that bad.

mmm well its been a bit to cold up here to get in the water but tomorrow we should be able to get back in the lake which is good. OOH yesterday we placed a cache that we made near the boat launch into our favorite lake (sanborn)

ok well its been long post that im sure that none of you ar reading so ill stop now

btw its like 4 and a half weeks till band stuff starts up. band kids, are you excited yet??

love you guys

-emily

(pic from last year- there is much more grass and all sorts of vegetation now)

So I went to the lake this weekend and went tubing... and boy was it fun!im ready!!

me and my dad...here we go!

AHH!

Me  wiping out....= )

right before dad wiped out...

ha my face...

well it was fun...

hmm...i'm sittin here working.  or am i?

I think it's funny that the US lost it's first soccer game in the world cup 3-0.

Just wanted to get that out.

I have need of silence and of stars.
Too much is said too loudly; I am dazed.
The silken sound of whirled infinity
is lost in voices shouting to be heard.

Governor's School continues in its ineffability.  I like it, and it's given me an addiction to independence.  But I miss you, too.  (Yes, you specifically).  E-mail me or send me a letter:

Christina Witt
G211R Browning Hall
The University of Tennessee at Martin
Martin, TN 28238

what did i do wrong?

I sat in my mother’s car with my eyes watching my hands. I closed them for a moment and tried to take in as much air as my body could allow in one breath. No matter how hard I tried I couldn’t seem to get enough. As I sat there, I began to collect as much courage and composer as I could muster. I heard my mother’s voice beside me, “Are you ready?” Was I ready? HA! Would I ever be ready? “Yes,” I vaguely remember answering her. As we got out of the car, I could feel the breath quickly escaping me again. My legs buckled under me and went numb. I looked at the ground and listened to the sound of my heels as we approached the ugly green steps of a house. I briefly glanced up and saw two men sitting on rocking chairs on the front porch. They were unfamiliar to me. They caught my gaze and I quickly looked back down at my feet again. I slowly walked up the steps and walked through a clear glass door. I man welcomed me, but I paid no attention to him. I walked into the main room and heard my mother’s voice again. “Aren’t you going to sign the guest book?” I didn’t think of myself as a guest. It was my family. I was apart of it. Why did I have to sign a guest book when I clearly wasn’t a guest? “Sure,” I replied as I foggily scribbled my name in the book. As I turned around, I was greeted by two of my cousins. You could easily tell by glancing at them that they were tired and had been crying. The bags under their eyes were swollen, and their speech was course. I don’t even remember what I said to them. I was more interested in finding my father. I turned around and saw him talking with a strange woman. I heard him say my name and introduce me to her, but I neither remember her name nor really care. I went up to him and squeezed him as tight as I could. A tear escaped from my eye before I had the opportunity to wipe it away. He spoke to me, “I was getting worried about you. What time did you leave?” I remember saying something to the effect of, “We left about one. I had school. We had to eat. We came straight here.” He went on to say that since that was the case we made good time. He thanked my mother for bringing me. He proceeded to tell me that my grandmother was worried about me and that I should show her that I was here safely. He pointed to the front of the room. I didn’t want to look at the front of the room. I knew what my eyes would find there, but I did as my father instructed me to. I looked and found a group of people standing in a line. As I followed the line to its beginning, I saw my grandmother and my two aunts hugging and speaking with several people whom I didn’t know. I was told to skip the line and go straight to her. I wanted to stand in that line. I wanted time to stand still, to keep myself from the pain. I wanted with all the soul to run from that house with my face buried in my hands. Somehow, mechanically, I walked to the head of the line. My grandmother’s back was to me, but I touched her shoulder. She turned around in surprise. As soon as she recognized me, she embraced me with the warmest embrace I have ever experienced. “ASHLEY! I was beginning to get worried about you!” As soon as those words exited her mouth, she began to cry. When I felt her body shudder with the sobs, I lost myself completely. My composure and courage melted away as if it had never existed. “No, no Ashley. Don’t cry. Just look at him. He looks as if he was sitting at the kitchen table.” How could she say this to me? He would never sit at that table again. He would never do another crossword puzzle. He would never say ‘hey there buddy!’ to me ever again. I began to reminisce about all the times we had together. My brain suddenly snapped back to where I was again. I didn’t want to look at him that way. I wanted always to have those memories. The ones where he moved and made jokes. Not this memory. No matter how hard I closed my eyes, I couldn’t make the scene in front of me go away. I couldn’t block out the sounds of the sniffling and the crying in the background. I took a staggered breath and looked upon him. She was right! I didn’t want to accept it, but she was absolutely correct in her accusation. He looked as I remembered him to look. He had on his Notre Dame base ball hat, his glasses, his favorite flannel shirt, and good pair of blue jeans. It was just how he would have wanted to look. I couldn’t help but smile through my tear stained face. The rest of the night was a blur. I had arrived only for the last hour and a half of visitation. I talked with family, recalling none of their names of course. Then, the extended family slowly began leaving until only my aunts, uncles, and cousins were left. The director was telling us how the next day was to proceed. He talked slowly so we could understand what he was telling us. After we decided that my grandmother was to ride with my father in the procession along with me, we all decided to leave and try to get some rest. They had been standing for the last five hours greeting all the family and friends. We walked outside and my mother and father decided to eat somewhere. We ended up at Burger King. They told stories involving my papaw, and they distracted me. After we had finished, my mom and I went back to our hotel, and I tried the hardest I had ever had to get some sleep. The next day would be toughest day I had ever had to face.

to be continued at a later date...

you know what ticks me off.... when there isnt anything but old reruns on tv but for somereason u still stay up late and watch them... i swear ive watched the Fresh Meat Challenge on mtv like a bazillion times.... ....

yip... so all i've accomplished today was going to the tanning bed and breaking my diet for some stinkin lo mein that i just couldnt say no to.... danged chinees food.... what can i say... its my weakness... well one of them... i feel like i've waisted the day.... but... i have to work tonight... 4-10... so some one PLEASE come and see me... i'll give u something free.... even if u just drive thru the ...drive thru... plz... ok well im out!!!...


so ive decided to just turn the tv off when those darn pesky re-runs are ruinin my sleep... maybe that'll work... who knows?
~tRISH



1 week till my senior pictures.... hummmmmm what to do.... what to wear....?

the world is at the same time far smaller and far more imense than you could ever imagine.

all over the world people are living their lives. most of them will never meet, never speak, never become friends.

most of them will never even see each other.

but at the same time, all of these people are far closer than they at first appear to be because they all share in the great human experience.

each one will love, hate, hurt, be hurt.

each one will sit in a circle and laugh with friends or family.

each one will cry until their eyes turn red.

each one will fall in love.

but the thing every person has most in common with every other?

each one must die.

and that is the single great link that holds this vast world together.

hey

so its been almost 2 months.....

thought id update:)

summers going amaaaazing. me and jess went to florida! i loooove the beach yesyes.

i got a henna tattoo that means ninja in chinese!..thats me getting it.

and now im goin to california next monday for a week

then off to kamp i go for a week

im sooooo excited. okay peace ez.

did i mention i drive an amazing van? yes. his name is cap'n.

So who watched the Tony awards? I did. Alot of great performances. Alot of surprises.

gotta love Sutton Foster!

Well I hate stumbling, and I hate falling....but that's just part of life.  Life throws you curveballs and many you never can hit.  (yes, that's a line from a Jimmy Buffett song)

But at the end of the day, and now past the weekend, I'm standing taller and knowing more and more who I am and more importantly who my God is.  This is a time where I am just going to have to trust him, and put my trust in him.  -cause I don't know what I'm doing (like I ever do.)

So yet again, my life gets a little simpler for the time being and the weekend has brought some excellent qualities in several of my good friends.  It's great to know they are there when I need them, and I look forward to returning the favor.

On an OT note, I just bought a sweet tv and home theater.  I haven't even gotten to setting up the onkyo system, but sweet nectar this tv is awesome!

I saw Cars yesterday after church with the youth guys. I really liked it. If you pay attention, you notice some pretty funny stuff that the little kids don't understand. Everyone should see it.

I don't know what else to write... be back soon.

<JA(OB>

 yesterday when i was just coming back from someone's home, i feel so frustrated. at that moment, i remember one testimony from a brother who was also experiencing helplessness, he knelt down before God and said to HIM, Lord, goodbye. with so many years' relationship with Jesus, he could not cut down the relationship with Jesus so easily, so he burst into tears, crying again, Lord, goodbye.  at that moment, he saw Jesus's hand with nail stretching to him. he stopped. he knew that he could not leave God.

     i don't know i am in the same situation or not, but i know that i don't have the courage to say goodbye to Jesus, cause i know HE is my sheperd all my lifetime. without Jesus, i am not where i am now. but i do hesistate in some cases now. but Lord said to me: God's Timing is Perfect. Never be dissappointed.

    i know God has ability to do this. but i have little faith, and i think that i am at the edge of the cliff. i am writing here, hoping i will remember this kind of feeling , a kind of frustration at this time, and remember how God will lead me out.

   ok, i am leaving for hospital. tonight will be the first night i am there. may God be with me during the time i am there.

Travis, I am pretty sure you are the only one that reads this.

I just wanted to tell you I was chatting with Mr McKee this weekend, he is such a funny guy!

We ended up talking about how you were the one that trained both of us,
and he said he hasn't heard for you in a while. Then BW and I told him
you were here Wednesday, and he thought it was odd that he didn't see
you. So, I told him that you were avoiding him because you don't like
him anymore. He asked if I was telling the truth, and I said "Yeah, we
were talking about you the other day and he said he couldn't stand
you!" Then he started thinking about what he might have done to make
you mad. He said "I can't think of anything that I did....." then I
ended up telling him that i was kidding.



He is a very gullible guy! It was quite funny!

so.

stuff's lookin up, i guess.

i'm in a better mood than i have been in the past few days, and stuff isn't quite as confusing.

so it's lookin up.

{edit}
scratch that.

what is people's damn problem with me? why are so many people suddenly resentful towards me? do they expect me to know everything that's going on with stuff, when they don't even make an effort to let me know?!

whatever.

if people have a problem with me being me, that's their deal. i've done nothing to no one.

**edit** i really shouldn't be so trusting. i kinda wondered if George Carlin actually said any of that, being as it was the opposite of just about everything he normally says...but w/e. so kudos to whoever actually said it. I'm just sooooooooooo sorry Will.

ha...i found this quite funny, and quite true to my own opinions...

"I believe the money I make belongs to me and my family, not some mid level governmental functionary be it Democratic or Republican!

I'm in touch with my feelings and I like it that way!

I think owning a gun doesn't make you a killer, it makes you a smart American.

I think being a minority does not make you noble or victimized, and does not entitle you to anything.

I believe that if you are selling me a Big Mac, try to do it in English.

My heroes are John Wayne, Babe Ruth, Roy Rogers, and whoever canceled Jerry Springer.

I don't hate the rich. I don't pity the poor.

I know wrestling is fake and I don't waste my time arguing about it.

I've never owned a slave, or was a slave, I didn't wander forty years In the desert after getting chased out of Egypt. I haven't burned any witches or been persecuted by the Turks and neither have you! So, shut up already.

I want to know which church is it exactly where the Reverend Jesse Jackson practices, where he gets his money, and why he is always part of the problem and not the solution. Can I get an AMEN on that one?

I think cops have the right to pull you over if you're breaking the law, regardless of what color you are.

And, no, I don't mind having my face shown on my drivers license. I think it's good..... and I'm proud that "God" is written on my money.I think if you are too stupid to know how a ballot works, I don't want you deciding who should be running the most powerful nation in the world for the next four years.

I believe that it doesn't take a village to raise a child, it takes two parents.

And what is going on with gas prices... again?"

---whoever actually said these...

nayways, so this weekend, i got to go on a surprise vacation to Hilton Head Island, SC! WOOT! it was beautiful. we got to stay in a condo for free, and we went to the beach, and to a pier, and a lighthouse, and all that jazz. i got a pretty good burn but it'll turn into a tan soon. i saw dolphins (up close), a manatee, sea turtles, a giant scary prehistoric-looking crab, live sand dollars, and a bunch of other stuff, while swimming in the ocean. and man, there's nothing like walking on the beach at night, under a full-moon, listening to Jack Johnson...dang. i heart the beach. wow. 'twas amazing. nayways, a bunch of my church homies are in St. Louis right now, so i'll be prayin for them. anyways, i'mma hit the sack now, cause i'm dead freakin tired...'nite.----Cari

p.s. ---one of Laura Beth's classmate's mom died this morning, very suddenly, so pray for their family. this little girl is going to have to start high school and everything without her mother, and i can't even imagine how hard that's gonna be. so keep them in mind.

So camp was amazing. Games were crazy as always. Services just blew my mind. God revealed a lot to me. Even things about myself that I didn't even realize I'd avoided dealing with. It was crazy, but I loved it. There's so much more I could say, but I'm exhausted. I went from a crazy week at camp to a really busy but great day yesterday and another busy day today. This last week has been great, and there's almost none of it that I would change. Gotta love life.

Seems we still have a dearth of Morgan blogs.  But, no doubt with camp being over the Morgans will once again unite.  I see that Josh is trying to "stir the pot again" .... he he he ... like father like son.

On Saturday we completed our "4th Asian Night" here in Angola.  Decy was the key organizer, although she created a committee to help her out.  It was very nicely done with dancing, singing, and entertainment for about 3 hours.  We had about 160-170 guests .... and probably some 50-75 different Asian foods (plus desserts).  For once, we actually didn't lose money on the event.  I will post some pics in the next day or two.

Decy has learned much over the last couple of years here in Angola.  And, she has been the focal point for Asians.  When she arrived here in 2002 there was no "Asian group(s)" for cultural association and few Asians knew each other.  Now, Decy has a database of names, phone numbers, and email mail addys.  She regularly gets emails from around the world asking about Asians in Angola.

Decy is the founder of "Asian Group" and the Asian nights.  The nights have grown from 40 to 160 participants, and many have to be turned away (due to capacity limits).  FYI, once we go over appx 150 attendees we have to rent a facility which would cost thousands of dollars.  Last Saturday was her final event as the organizer, as we are moving to Indonesia.

Now comes the challenge of finding a replacement that can carry on the tradition ... a tough challenge at that.

I love my wife, Decy, and am very proud of her accomplishments.  It is clear that she can do anything that she put her mind to.

ciao ciao

I will be 19 tomorrow.

so today was my wonderful friend sarah's b-day...and well what started out as a not so great day for turned into a fantastic night! Sarah, Brittany, Tiffany, Amber, and I got dressed up in dress's and skirts and go to mcalisters for dinner then went to the movies. Before the movie we went to the dollar general and bought (per request of sarah) feather boas to wear and sarah bought fairy wings. We went and saw A Prairie Home Companion. its not a well advertised movie...it was... "entertaining"! but we enjoyed it...well goodnight...

oh by the way i went with finger foods...

Look! I am over here at my friends (ex bf) house all day and i am so darn upset! I love him and i dont understand what is going on. You see he has been lieing to this girl today and calling her baby and sweety. I guess he doesn't love me anynore. She calls him crying! Wait he is mine. I dont understand what went wrong. I really dont think that he loves me. He says he loves me! I dont have a clue what i am trying to say anymore? I am so upset!

Camp was last week... it was amazing

the games were amazing... the people were better

i lost my voice...

but not outside during a game... i lost it inside during praise and worship... and iv never fealt better.

I know what your thinkin. "How are you saying this now after you just made the post of not being a good christian?"...

Things change... and camp changed them.

My friendships will change. Or they will be gone.

My musical talent will change. Or it will be gone.

My relationship will change. Or it will be gone.

None of this will GOD take away.  He allows us to sin...  He is infact a fair god.  He wont FORCE us to do anything we dont want to do.

This is what i want to do.

Live a better life.  And if that means giving up the things i love the most... then so be it.  As Momma #2 said in my comments. Eternity is a long time to play around with... and its not worth the things im doing.

GOD bless.

Chris.

P.S.- Life is our battlefield. Iv worn my armor. Then i took it off... But its back on. So i have 3 words for ya.... BRING IT ON!

Camp was last week... it was amazing

the games were amazing... the people were better

i lost my voice...

but not outside during a game... i lost it inside during praise and worship... and iv never fealt better.

I know what your thinkin. "How are you saying this now after you just made the post of not being a good christian?"...

Things change... and camp changed them.

My friendships will change. Or they will be gone.

My musical talent will change. Or it will be gone.

My relationship will change. Or it will be gone.

None of this will GOD take away.  He allows us to sin...  He is infact a fair god.  He wont FORCE us to do anything we dont want to do.

This is what i want to do.

Live a better life.  And if that means giving up the things i love the most... then so be it.  As Momma #2 said in my comments. Eternity is a long time to play around with... and its not worth the things im doing.

GOD bless.

Chris.

P.S.- Life is our battlefield. Iv worn my armor. Then i took it off... But its back on. So i have 3 words for ya.... BRING IT ON!

"Either this man was, and is, the Son of God: or else a madman or something worse. You can shut him up for a fool, you cna spit at him and kill him as a demon; or you can fall at his feet and call him Lord and God. But let us not come with any patronizing nonsense about him being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us. He did not intend to."

-C.S. Lewis

ever wonder what would have happened had the princess on sleeping beauty not gotten those gifts?  i mean would people have liked her as well?  would the story have the same outcome?  k well have a great night everyone!

OOOOOH and guess what?!  9 more groups to go and ill be at 200! 

triples are still shaky. blahh!

i really want somebody to come over &help me with stuff. i went to gg`s before she left, but maybe somebody could come over tomorrow..? or another day, just not tuesdays. idk, leave me a comment or call me. :]

"I prefer my snuggle buddies dry." - Patrick Pope referring to Matt Fisher

I have decided that I love Atlanta. But I still don't like the Braves.

on the night i came home from camp, i got 13 freakin hours of sleep! 13!!! wow.... well, nutin much goin down in ali-town, just here at my friend kirby's house, who rocks by the way. we tried to make this stupid movie when i was over here and it turned out pretty good (in a stupidly randomly funny way) but then we got bored and quit half way through. so..... remark, peeps!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh*

One of the most amazing preachers I have ever met. He has a great spirit and a great personality. His sermons so intense that it will blow you away. Someday, I hope to be able to preach like him.

so, i am back from vacation and i uncovered very little reflective thought while i was there...but...

on the plane ride home, i sat in the window seat...and i looked down at the tampa bay - and the surrounding areas between tampa and nashville - and i saw the little boats and the little streets and houses with their pools and yards and their cars and i was in awe.

there is a world we know nothing of...we live here or you live there and you have your life and i have mine. and there is very little chance that our paths will ever cross...

but anyway, back to what i was saying...in those houses, are families...people living lives just like you and i. and they are struggling or they are happy...but i think there are more sad people than people who are truly happy (but thats just what i think)

so, this is what i think and maybe i'm way off...or maybe im just ignorant...but i'm sure there are people out there with bigger problems than ours. but being in a plane, thousands and thousands of miles above sea level made me stop and think about how small i am...and how truly insignificant eveything will be when i'm old and gray.

i dont want to be old. i want to stay young.

_rebekah

Jonathan called me this morning!  We couldn't talk for very long.  The only thing we had time for was for him to give me his address.  What little details there are are on my Xanga.

There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven, and she's daddy's little girl
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk beside the pony daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning
And butterfly kisses at night

Sweet sixteen today
She's looking like her momma a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl
To perfume and makeup
From ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world
But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair
"You know how much I love you daddy,
but if you don't mind,
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning
And butterfly kisses at night

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

Funny how one can forget they wrote something....

Will I let myself be roped in once more?
Will I feel the bonds tighten at my neck?
Will I do things which I’ve sworn before
Would never tread on my mind’s deck?

You don’t know how it’s tempting,
To revert for former ways.
Though it really needs confessing –
I was there for barely days.

I feel my knots are tightening,
Straining at my neck and health.
Then, with a lurch, I slowly find:
I tied these knots myself.

-- May 18, 2006

No one ever said it was going to be easy, but no one said it would be this hard either.

It's the distance really. At the moment I have no clue how far apart we are because I don't know where in Ireland he is. But I know it's greater than the almost 1500 miles when he is in Phoenix, AZ.

Am I crazy?

I've decided that I shall tackle him when he comes back. Though I once again have no clue when that will be.

I hate this. I really do. But I made a choice that I've decided is the right one. I'm going to wait here. And if it drives all my friends nuts, I apoligize now.

Love is a weird thing. And it's the reason I made that choice. I love him. I think somewhere in the back of my mind I knew that before Prom and before he left.

Enough ramblings. Good night.

Lucky

    Tonight was a blast!! Just hanging out... playing around (animal game and vollyball with a christmas lights net) and listening to a bunch of guys playing guitars and singing... smoothies and friends ahhh it was great!

You brought that bottle home in a paper sack

you Drew the blinds and locked the doors

And there's nothing but empty there inside that glass

So you pour a little more

And there's no one there to judge you

At least that's what you tell yourself, but


Chorus:

Don't you know

Nobody drinks alone

Every demon, every ghost

From your past

And every memory you've held back

Follows you home

Nobody drinks alone


You remember whiskey on your daddy's breath

So you always stick to wine

And you scared your little brother half to death

You just kept it all inside

You can hear your mama cryin'

Only now she cries for you, and


Don't you know

Nobody drinks alone

Every demon, every ghost

From your past

And every memory you've held back

Follows you home

Nobody drinks alone


Though you're lonely

Hey don't you let that feelin' fool ya


(
Chorus:

Don't you know

Nobody drinks alone

Every demon, every ghost

From your past

And every memory you've held back

Follows you home

Nobody drinks alone


Nobody drinks alone

* I am glad that he is always there whenever I get like this!!*

the world is messed up.  nothing new.  but sometimes it is just so complicated to see things that the world sees.  the picture above.  two boys holding hands.  gay?  i dont think it is.  i see two best friends trusting one another.  i dont know about yall, but thats what i see.  i also hate how the world has confused everyone on different things.  the word love.  i have no idea of what it is.  it is such a hard word to comprehend.  unless u think about it in the world's way.  then its pretty easy.  u can just tell whoever that u love them, just to fill something that u thought was empty.  i dont know, the world is just messed up.  and i hate that it sometimes messes me up to, but it makes me stronger.  and i LOVE that.  strengthen yourself only in christ.  if not, ur only filling something that u thought was empty.  but its all good. because i love  IT!  333

You may think me super weird or something.
But I'm pretty sure the ACT was one of the EASIEST tests I've taken in a while.

Saw Nathan Perry, Scott Willis, Rachel Lefever, Kedrick Howse, Chaisson Allen, Alex Burkhart, Jennifer May, and hung out with Tiffany Luker.
The first three I haven't seen since Central.
Well besides Scott. Saw him at Mid-state tryouts, band comps, football games. All Band things.

And I think the worst feeling in the world is when an old friend doesn't want to talk to you.
But then again, what you dish out, you receive in full+.

It's weird to realize how many old friends you DON'T miss. You might have been close with them then, but as life passed, you grew up, they grew up, both grow apart. Unpurposely.
And that's life.

So on to Band. I bought a box of reeds, and they cost me $25. I knew I should've bought out Mr. Lawson.
I also bought a Metronome/Tuner. Finally.

1st chair Mid-state. I'm coming for ya!
Danny

Kelsey Shearron
Governor's School for the Arts
MTSU P.O. Box 38
Murfreesboro, TN 37132

packages by private shippers like UPS:

Kelsey Shearron
Governor's School for the Arts (SFA 111)
Middle Tennessee State University
1500 Greenland Drive
Murfreesboro, TN 37132


i think mail is much more personal and in my case more appreciated!

i love you and im gunna miss you -kels

I could go on and on about how I am continually moved by the lyrics to their songs.  To me, this song is just so, powerful.  Especially the way it's put to music.

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend.
I don't deserve you cause      
I'm not there for you
Please forgive me again.

I wanna be there for you.
someone you can come to.
It runs deeper than my bones.
I wanna be there for you.

Swirling shades of blue,
Slow dancing in your sky
The sun kisses the earth.
And I hush my urge to cry.

*Cause I hear the whispered words,
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I LOVE YOU TOO.

.Man, that last verse and the bridge are so awesome.  See, this girl's testimony is one of the most incredible I've ever heard. 
I'll post about it later, but basically, if someone's going to feel too dirty for God to love her, it was her.

Guys, no matter what, or how unspeakable it may seem.
He still going so say He loves you.
Okay, that's my serious/spiritual spiel for you ;)