YOU ARE GOING TO BE TOTALLLY AMAZED!!!!!

September 10 2005
ok so last night had another free meal with the family last night!!!! and then guess what a group of some pretty crazy girls...yes including me...went to the car show last night!!!! y i stilll don't know...but ya thats pretty unbelievable and i actually had fun and i saw guys there that were like...rachel???...at the car show???...wow i can't believe my eyes!!! haha so ya it was amazing..loving life!!! well have a great weekend...oh is it true..did Siegel win ANOTHER game last night?!?!?!...wow thats almost becoming more impressive than me going to a car show and having fun!!! haha..well c-ya lata,
Bunches of Love,
MEE

oh and there is one of my proofs..ya the proof is going to have to work until i get my orders!!!

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September 10 2005
young man, there's no need to feel down
i said, young man, pick urself off the ground...

back home

September 10 2005

My son got to come home today since his recovery went extremely well. Now the hard part will be teaching him to be able to take care of this by himself...
take care and keep smiling
Danny

I feel...

September 10 2005
Melancholy and infinite

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September 10 2005
The staff conference was great. We laughed alot, cried together. and prayed for everyone. As our "first lady" (the director's wife) said, being prayed for was like a drink of cool, refreshing water. I think it was a great time just to bond all of us together, old and new staff. I have been moved into higher leadership again (which feels weird since I've only been here for five months). I am now the one-on-one leader for one of our younger staff members, like a accountability leader or mentor. I am really honored, because they take these responsibilities very seriously and will never assign it if there is even the slightest bit of question. Well, you know how you would feel... that's how I feel.
Today, I am going to finally catch up on my expense reports, laundry, errands, and Sept. newsletter. The rest of the staff are in the theater preparing for tomorrow night's ball. I'm going with JohnO to the ball. We still need to find dates for a couple of girls, so if any guys in New York want to learn some ballroom dances and have a fun Sunday night, let me know.

I have finally found a place to live
Just like I never could before.
And I know I don't have much to give,
But soon I'll open any door.

Everybody knows the secret,
Everybody knows the score.
I have finally found a place to live
In the presence of the Lord.
In the presence of the Lord
-Eric Clapton

He has made everything beautiful in its time. Ecc. 3:11

wow

September 10 2005
My mom was telling me this thing she and Dayton(my 5 year old nephew) were talking about in the car on the way to the story.
His parents,my brother and Misty,his mom,were never married,always fought and his older brother Kaleb now lives with his dad in Smyrna.Misty now lives in Florida with her new boyfriend.

Mom-"Who do you really want to live with?"
Dayton-"My daddy and my mommy and Kaleb and me."
Mom-"How do you want that to happen."
Dayton"God.......he already knows my wish."

that..just really touched my heart...hadda share it with you guys.

shs

September 10 2005
Now that I've graduated, we have a 3-1 record.

Hm...

September 10 2005
So yeah, I woke up filling like I was late for something, because I thought that today was Sunday and I had to be at church at 9:00 to warm-up. But thinkfully, today is Saturday, yet I still fill like there is something I'm supposed to do. Hm...oh well. Hendersonville next week!
Tootles.

New Switchfoot Cd

September 10 2005
Life is Good!!

I have been following Switchfoot for forever. I got thier first CD when I was like 14,and have bought everyone since then. Well, today just got sweeter. I am chillin' in my PJ's watching some infomercial when the doorbell rang. I slowly get up and go to the door and guess who was there...SWITCHFOOT!!!

Ok, not really, but it was the postman with their new CD that doesn't even come out until Tuesday. On top of that, I received a free poster!! I love days like today!!



photo from scfutebol77

Then I pop it in my DVD player to find that Switchfoot was in my TV playing the CD in 5.1 Digital Surround Sound!! A DVD and a CD all in one!! The day just gets better!!



photo from scfutebol77

Hm...

September 10 2005
So this week was..boring I guess.

No football game this weekend. Got an 81 on my first college test. I miss Lyndi. Partied last night.

I'll probably quit this. It doesn't really serve a purpose since no one here knows I have one.

Oh well.

peace.out

Hmm football....

September 10 2005
we won, again. woot? one of the mount juliet people threw a football down at our band. and it hit me. of course. and it didnt feel very good.

i was quite proud of myself, actually, because i didnt get mad at grace. unlike last week. however, i was, hmm i dont know how to put this, so, i wont.

anyway. time to go, bye.

die, physics and latin!!!

September 10 2005

Well guess what I've gotten myself?

Grounded.

Fo sho.

No movie with Jane and Brad yesterday.

No zoo with my aunt and her kids, no memorial service for my friend's mom, no birthday party for Mady.

None of that stuff that I wanted to do today [even though there is no way I could have done ALL of those things].

I get to go to lunch wih my mom. Because she's my mom. But right now we're all sitting around on our butts waiting on someone to get out of the shower and someone else to get here. I'm hungry, dammit.

Well anyways.

Love, you guys.

Heartbroken again...

September 10 2005
so i thought everything was gunna
work out..maybe, a few months
"broken up"
but now he tells me
we probably won't ever get
back together...
so now i feel like
i'm gunna be sick..
I just, i don't know,
Its funny how much
I love you can hurt..
especially
when it gives you false hope
and the lies seem to
keep coming
and you hurt even more.
1week ago it was
over for a little while
2weeks ago we had a 2day break
now it's over for good?
yeah so i need to get otu before i do something
really stupid..

why didn't we wear our homemade t-shirts?

September 10 2005
at the coldplay concert i saw 2 perfectly normal looking guys wearing their own homemade t-shirts that said " where's gwyneth?" and then the back said "madison square garden sept 7 coldplay concert" .... you get the point. i can't believe that the eight of us who went didn't coordinate that as well. what were we thinking not making t-shirts to commemorate the occasion? next time we're so doing it.

seriously - they were sooo good live. one of the best concerts i've ever been to.



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life rocks.

September 10 2005

Wow BIG change from last week...this week was awesome.

I love love love our choreography for the variety show...maybe even a little TOO much....lol.

Rehersals for Anything Goes have started at MTSU...everybody there thinks i'm in college...yesssssss.

Score for Mary Lauren.

Besides that we definatly won last night 17-15. GO SIEGEL!!!! woot woot.

Tonight i'm working consessions at the MTSU football game from (get this) 3:30-8:30 for Delta Beta Sigma so come and see me. it should be tiring but hopefully fun.

And to top everything else off....i got 14 hours of sleep last night. can you say happiness?

Have a great weekend yall. Let God rock it!!!!

+ML+

=D times infinityyyyyyy

September 10 2005
I am in the best mood ever.

Maybe because KAYLA HAS A CRUSH.

XD..

Oh the joys.

This guy is amazing.=)

Maybe just maybe it shall work.

=D

Rawr.

September 10 2005
Who wants to help me "borrow" a baby?

Just in case you were wondering, borrowing isn't stealing... it's just taking without permission with every intention of returning it later.

I’m knowing that right now is all that matters.

September 10 2005
"being grown up
isn’t half as fun as growing up
these are the best days of our lives.
the only thing that matters
is just following your heart
& eventually you’ll finally get it right."

in this diary--the ataris

mmhmm.
I love that song
last night was..
not very sure
I just need a break.
so please, everyone
just cut me some slack
I like him, I do
but -sighs-
it doesnt seem right to me
all of it is confusing
& I dont think I should feel this way
should I?

God, I love you.
I'm glad you're always there for me.

thanks for leaving me those remarks.
you are some great kidss.
< 3

super-fly

September 10 2005


photo from SeeRockCity

i had a dream i went to paris. marvelous.

it's 6am.... and i have no idea why i'm awake :slaps face:

uhhm.....
last night was magnificent.
BRITT ROGERS IS MY HERO
sheesh.. so many cool kids i knew were at the plain life enemy show

Night of Joy

September 10 2005
An event to some considered the "nights of terror" it's acutally considered one of Disney's "holidays". this "holiday" is equal to Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas. Night of Joy is a HUGE two night event for christian music. Well, according to my roomie who works on the west side said it was sooo cool, she got to see the concert(matthew west and casting crowns) and everyone was so nice and into Jesus

Now, on the east side, it consisted of people that annoyed me a bit, and then me giving directons to a theater I wasn't really sure of the location of. . .

Night of Joy is ironically the worst time of the year for disney. More stuff is stolen and more money is lost than any other holiday season.

Strange isn't it. A huge christian event, and more stuff stolen than any other time . . .

:: on a side note, I sold soda to a family from Murfreesboro today. Their kids go to Reeves Rogers(daughter had a school shirt on, I mean seriously what are the chances of another reeves rogers) but I did ask, so they really were from M'boro. and that was quite an exciting time for me ::

AWWWWWWWWWW

September 09 2005
I REALLY NEED TO MOVE OUT NOW!!!! GAH I HATE MY LIFE!!!

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September 09 2005
I'm home...and I have to admit that it feels nice.

LOVE...

September 09 2005
What is love??? I say it is a fan that shows up for every football game even though they know they are going to lose, we still show up... that is love my friends, that is love.

paige is my friend(touches eye)

September 09 2005
riverdale won...humph grrrr they should dieeeeeeeeee a slow painful death... -large gangster walks up- "ummmm i heart riverdale...?" haha

oh yesh paige says hi haha

totally cool

September 09 2005
so these are the topics coming up at the gathering the rest of the month...pretty cool!!


Alias: Finding Your True Identity

September 11: Forgiven

This is the place we start. We cannot realize our full identity in Christ until we join the forgiven.

September 18: Slave

We talk so much about the fact that there is freedom in Christ. This is what we want to hear. Just as present in Scripture is the idea of being a slave to Christ. What does this mean in a culture that cries out for freedom?

September 25: Holy/Saint

That word, holy, scares up images of plain clothes, no make up, and no fun. But, as a child of God we are called to Be Holy, as He is holy. Is this even possible?

October 2: Called

We are Called to a life beyond the mediocre. Just how far does he expect us to go?

Paint It Black.

September 09 2005
Again, things have gone to hell quicker than you can say it.

When we're together it's usually pretty good.

But when on the phone, we fight about alot of stuff.

I cry alot and usually I don't know why.

Sometimes it's school, other it's me or him.

I'm just so stressed sometimes and I wish he'd understand that.

He says just forget it and don't worry about it.

But it always comes back to haunt us.

I really don't mean to over react about some things. Others I just let everything go and I cry and cry.

I'm trying to be a better girlfriend but I feel like a failure.

I'm afraid to lose him, that's the biggest fear.

As long as I have him with me, I'll be happy.

Whether I show it or not.

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September 09 2005
I'm at my friends house.

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September 09 2005
siegel won again...i guess thats pretty cool

Photo From LittleWeirdMe

September 09 2005


photo from LittleWeirdMe

We went to the foot ball game tonight.. and won.. Umm 48 to 6 i think!! Our team rocks!!!

Wait Til You Know Them

September 09 2005
ok... a few things
1: some people make mistakes ... actually... ALL people do
we cant hold people accountable for what they did when weve dont so much worse...
yeh iv done bad... really bad... iv changed.... but i still cant hold people responsible when they go get high or something... iv been in that boat... so i cant call them stupid and tell them i hate them and what not... but i can tell you this... from experience... i know it seems fun for the moment... i know it hurts the day after... i know that u dont want to do it again... but u still do... and i know that life is a million times better when ur not involved with those things... turn your head upward... look to god... he will make your lives better... and drugs and drinking is NOT better...

2: friends fall away... me and jessica... were still the best of friends in the whole wide world... i would die for her i would hope she would do the same... shes awesome... im soooo effin glad shes my friend... shes been like a sister to me since we met... a lot of things i have or havent done have been considered with her in mind... not my mom... not my dad... not my girlfriend... her... jessica ryanne hunter... but the thing is... i had other friends... not as good of friends... but other ones... we would hang out all the time.. some of the funnest time in my life were with them... and something would happen... we would stop talkin on the phone... we would stop hangin out on fridays... then on saturdays... then stop all together.... then we barely talked... before u know it... u have trouble remembering there last name... yeh... iv had frinds like that.... alot of them... and i look back at them now... and theyre all dealing with what i was talking about in the first part... and they would have gotten me involved... theres a reason we make and lose friends... we make friends to be an example to them or for them to be one to us... its our choice which one we choose... i chose to be an exaample... i didnt smoke... didnt drink... nothing... i was a positive example to the best of my ability... and i challenge you all to be a positive one too...

3: god is an awesome god... he changes the worst of muck to the richest of gold... the poor to the rich.. the homeless to the housed... the followers to the leaders... and trust me... im a walking, talking, breathing ,living testimony... yeh... u read the first part... iv been in those shoes... iv been where you all have been... trust... iv gone through just about everything u can in a lifetime... drug addiction, gangs, depression, suicide attempts, a lot of stuff... and u know what i did... i decided not to live the life that made me sad... mad... depressed... just so lost and confused... i gave it all away... i gave it all to god... and my life has been awesome ever since...
another thing with him is that he blesses the ones who bless him... hes given friends of mine money (more than 2000 dollars at one time) to get cars... to get gas... to get food... to get anything they wantes... simply because they gave him what they could... and he blessed them... its amazing how that works... u give ur life to him... he makes all warm and bubbly inside... hehe... well yeh... gods amazing... leave ur life to him... ull be so much happier...

4: life will be hard... no matter what you do... who you live with... what you have... anything... ur life will be hard at times... ur not gonna be able to live a life that only involves smiles and laughter... we will all go through our storms... we will all have our fights to fight and our wars to win.. life wont be perfect no matter what... and one thing that people need when they go through those times are friends... 2 of my friends right now are goin through a hard time... ashley... zach... im here... just call... anytime... same with anyone else... just call... even if i dont know u... i love to talk to people... just call... 9049502...

thats all that i really have to say... i hope that this will help someone... because even the words out of my mouth helped me...

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Matthew 6:34


^^if only you knew how much that verse has helped me lately^^

Another God Thing

September 09 2005
Today another person just walked up and handed me money........

God must love me or somethin...

Yay!

September 09 2005
I'm so glad that we finally have a winning football team. Ah, that makes me senior year.
Tootles.

Well...we won at least!

September 09 2005
Tonight kinda sucked. This girl ruined my shirt, socks, and shoes; poured out my 2 dollar sprite; and...you get the gist, a fight. I was mad. Its all because she is immature and cant take jokes. *Needs GirlFriend*. The best person to talk to and feel happy/sad with. Not gonna just date someone to be dating....gotta find a good girl.
im out
- J4(()8

Photo From Dancin*Diva

September 09 2005


photo from Dancin*Diva

fun times in the rain......with some lovely girls!

siegel dance

September 09 2005
i LOVE my dancers!!!! yaaaaaaaaay!

Photo From Dancin*Diva

September 09 2005


photo from Dancin*Diva

boys boys boys...

September 09 2005
they are so wierd... i just dont understand im getting fed up!!
gosshhhhhh

lost my smile...

September 09 2005
Today.........I cried.....

~ash

God is taking me where....?

September 09 2005
Ok so its been a while since I last updated. I have been so busy but also getting well
needed rest. I went home for a week to visit friends and family and it was so awesome to see everyone and to sleep alot. God did so much this summer and He showed me so much like how He loves me. He told me He loved me so much this summer and that He is my provider all the time. I heard God's voice more this summer then ever before. And I realized He is talking to me all the time and I just need to open my ears to hear what He is saying. I also got to see students stand up saying that God wants them to me missionaries and for them to let go of everything and follow Him. Cool Stuff!!! God is so amazing!!! Now I am back in LA for training to go on a thing called Moblie team. It is where I go all over the United States and Canada and visit all the youth groups that came this summer to see how there commentent with God is going. Then I am coming home the month of December to visit family and to have my birthday and Christmas home because in Januray I am going to Vanuatu (Pacific Island) for a year to help poineer a DTS that I did in Kona, Hawaii last September. I am so excited!!! I can't wait to see what God is going to do that year. I think God has kinda showed me a little of what He wants me to do. But I am still waiting!!! Praise the Lord!!! But if you could I need some prayer. For this Moblie team thing I need $700 and I only have about $100 so far and I need it all in like a week. I know God will provide but I am waiting. Please pray that I will be not be nervous and I will just be patient. I know God is going to blow me away. You can also pray that our team would grow strong in unity and love and will impact many churches this fall when we come thru. Alright love you guys!!! Thanks for your prayers. Remember God loves you more then you could every imagine and also you have freedom in HIm becasue He already did everything on the cross over 2000 years ago!!! He did all for YOU!!!!

ahaha

September 09 2005
well havent updated for a while..... this is still cool.. school is really fun.. i like some one! lol!! crazyness! theatre is so funny.. not looking foward to the variety show tho.. o well! i Love you all! ALEXANNA U CANT LEAVE ME!!!

new phusebox account

September 09 2005
got a new one cuz i didnt like this one..

www.phusebox.net/user/ohh__kels

mhm. dont ask why i did it..cuz idk...

random crap

September 09 2005
got a new one of these things..didnt like the name on my other one...go figure...

-im tired of working so hard.

-im tired of people talking about my friends.

-i wish people coul understand why i work so hard at dance.

-i wish more people could come watch me dance.

-people confuse me...

-school is amazing..i love my friends...

-i love shopping. duhh

-music makes me feel better.

- chris slate makes me happy..and he makes me laugh...i want to hang out w/ him.

-he is now again..one of my favorite friends

-i cant wait til i get a new phone...*october*

-english sucks..french is better..and easier...

-biology= amazing...thnx to brad.

-breaking benjamin=love..

mk im done for now..ilu

Sad day

September 09 2005
hola!

wishing to be the friction in your jeans, no more...

September 09 2005
Isn't it ironic? a little too ironic...my life is freakin hilarious. it's like a movie. i hate it sometimes, but i guess if i can just look at it differently, i'll find it rather entertaining. i feel like a retard. it's funny how things make me upset when i don't understand the reasons why, but once it all comes together, i see what was in the works, and i laugh at myself. school was weird today. wrote a note about the person i liked (past tense) to his future and present (it's complicated...i didn't know they were dating as of today..) girlfriend. hardy har. but, now i'm just happy for them and i don't like him anymore. and i think we could be good friends. They make a better match anyways. as long as he's not dating this other girl, i'm fine. but i do wish i had a boyfriend still to talk these things over with. or even a best friend...

"The Lord knows that this world is cruel
I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool
Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you..." ---how true


---no one leaves me comments...i'm not feelin the love, guys.

To Everyone

September 09 2005
So either yous guys don't believe that I will truly keep you updated, or you just don't really care. Lol, just kidding, though I would like to have a few more responses this time just to know that you all still know that I exist.

Anyway, to sum up this past week, God is showing me that this is where I need to be. The funny thing is, as of yet I have absolutely no clue why. It just feels right. Thus far I've been fairly bored, outsid of class anyway. I have made a good friend in my sweet-mate Josh, though. That has been the furthest upside. Other than that, I haven't really had much to do. I am really enjoying my proffesors. They all seem to be extremely intelligent, great teachers, and best of all as far as I can tell none of them are full of themselves. They seem to be here because they care about us, not becaus they feel it's their duty to impart to us their "immesurable knowledge," if you know what I mean. Anyway, as I have said in the past, feel free to E-mail me anytime. It would be more of a blessing to me than you could possibly understand. I really miss you guys, and I'm not just saying that. And if you don't think I'm talking about you specifficaly, you're probbably wrong. I look forward to hearing from all of you.

Love In Christ,
Zach

New Pics&hearts;

September 09 2005
New pics are up
lemme know what you think!

ok, i'll update

September 09 2005
Alright, so i guess i'll update. I dont really check this much but i will try to start updating it and checking comments more often. Well, senior year has been nothing short of awesome so far and if it continues this way, im going to miss highschool by the end of this school year. Hope your guys' school year has been as awesome as mine has so far!

ALEX

Stress=No Bueno

September 09 2005
Life is very stressfull, lots of work to do, lots of school to do, and lots of other junk to do

Hey, I know that voice...

September 09 2005
People say that God doesn't speak audibly anymore. I don't know if I believe this. I think maybe we're just not listening.

I just read "Do You Think I'm Beautiful" by Angela Thomas. One of the chapters is on the noise and clutter in our lives. It spoke to me, and made me think a little further. This noise is why we cannot hear God. The Bible says that He has a still, small voice. When you're surrounded by carhorns, subwoofers, shouting people (because that is the only way, it seems, to be heard anymore), and the noise in our own heads. I don't know about you, but it's loud in there. It may die down for a few moments, but then it starts again. Like rush hour on a busy highway, there is the morning, noon, and evening version, with only a short lull for the dinner hour before the trucks take over. And that is when it is the loudest--at night, when those Mack trucks of doubt and insecurity assail.

And this is my blog, so I can be completely candid, right? Sometimes, I feel that no matter how awesome God thinks I am, that doesn't matter, because human beings don't. What a pitiful sinner I am to think that. And to presume that it matters. Do we realize--ever--that the God of Creation, the most powerful Power, the Force that makes the universal glue of Star Wars fame seem no greater than duct tape (although duct tape is awesome and quite comparable to the Force, with a dark side and a light side and a bond that holds the universe together) thinks we are great? He created us in His image. He makes time for us. We can BOLDLY enter His throne room any time we want! Why don't we?

When you start to realize this, you not only finally get what John Piper has been ranting about for so long, but you also wonder why you are sitting at your computer reading a blog when you should be running through the streets screaming, "Jesus love you!" But then you hear that voice. The one that made its way through all the noise, the stress, the fear, the depression, the confusion, the insecurity. You hear Him whisper to you, "I know what I'm doing. I'm putting you here for a reason. Now close your mouth and listen so you don't miss the ways you can tell people I love them."

I have thought for so long that there was no way I could completely serve God unless I gave up the whole teaching thing and did the ministry thing. Then one day, one of my friends talked about his teaching job and how it was a ministry. He talked about loving kids that got no love at home, and how he could reflect Jesus on them. I realized I've been going about this the wrong way. I wanted to change my circumstances to serve God, when what I needed to do was change my attitude.

Once again, I cry, without concern or inhibition, ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING!
Psalm 45
I Corinthians 13
Philippians 4

That's my random thoughts for the week.

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September 09 2005
Wat it do me non just got finished tlkin 2 my very special person can u guess JORDAN 2morrow ima got 2 tha movies wit sum frenz 4rm skewl like JORDAN, JORDAN, and lets see who else JORDAN!!!!

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September 09 2005
Psalm 34

I will extol the LORD at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
My soul will boast in the LORD;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
Glorify the LORD with me;
let us exalt his name together.
I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.
Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Fear the LORD, you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing.
The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.
Come, my children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the LORD.
Whoever of you loves life
and desires to see many good days,
keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking lies.
Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.

The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their cry;
the face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
A righteous man may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;
he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken.
Evil will slay the wicked;
the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
The LORD redeems his servants;
no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.




"And if you were
With me tonight
I'd sing to you just
One more time
A song for a heart so big
GOD wouldn't let it live"

iiiii never update

September 09 2005
i think i never update because i like on xanga how i get a lot of comments.. but alas, on here i do not. that is ok though. i should probably just start updating on here more because people won't read it and that could be nice.

tonight there's an art show at main street that i want to go to... but i'm afraid to drive there so kacie and i will probably just drive around aimlessly to random coffeehouses like we did last friday and that is fine with me:)

it's really weird but i have this situation going on in my life and it sometimes hurts but lately it's just kind of made me laugh.

laughing is good.

FRI-DAAAAAY

September 09 2005
milly and i are going to make shirts that read:

"cussing people should shut up"

ste's going to pick me up and take me to the CONCERT tonight. at salt and pepper

i have a crush on this guy...
he has no idea :pout:

know what's gooooood?
diet cherry vanilla Dr pepper AND dry ramen noodles, yo.

fo-SHO!!

i wish i had a sweater-vest

dangit.

hurray for 90s weekend on 102.9 ^_^
the only time i listen to that station any more.

my entries are always long and pointless...

:shrug:
abble-berry

Clap for the Wolfman.......

September 09 2005
I'm just ready for this day to be over.


Well it was either stay, lose my mind, and finish the test, or leave that question blank, save my sanity, and go home.


I get lost on the boulevard at night, with out your voice to tell me; I love you, take a right....

im done

September 09 2005
wow now i have deffinately made up my mind about what i DO want and what i DONT I DEFFINATELY DO NOT want a guy anymore forget that.... i do miss being with someone but i got over that .... dont you hate when you find out things that you wish you wouldn`t of heard at all???? yeah ruins everything that you thought might be good but idk i might be wrong! but that is all im thinking about right now hopefully Me, Lauren,Jake,Skip , Kolbe will have fun at tha movies tonite make my day BETTER !!

hahaha

September 09 2005
funny things happen to me

Caving In

September 09 2005
I can't believe I actually did this. I caved in. It was origanally just to look for someone elses phusebox, but this site is actually quite better. This is good though. I might actually suggest it to other people. For some reason though, I feel like I'm shafting xanga. I guess I am though so....no worries then.

New Student Retreat

September 09 2005
So I'm gettin ready to head over to church to leave for the New Student Retreat. I'm really excited about it!! I hope God does some awesome things. Jus pray that we get there and back safely and have a good time!! Have a great night everyone!!

Hi Ho, Hi Ho, Off to Smithville I Go

September 09 2005
So I'll be leaving for the new student retreat in a couple of hours... we'll be back right in time for the game, so tomorrow is going to be quite a busy day for me. Thankfully MTSU and Belle Aire are so close to each other, so it won't be a long drive to campus to meet with Garrett and his family for the game.

Things I love:
~Meeting new people
~My J-group
~My car
~Randomly running into friends on campus
~Not having to do anything during my scholarship service hours when I am supposed to be doing something
~Laughing with Lindsey in geology
~My math teacher canceling class on Monday, which gives me the exact time frame I need to complete my geology assignment with help from my professor
~How wonderfully God works things out
~Talking about The Mighty Ducks
~Eating at Freshco Burrito with my mom
~The fact that my 19th birthday is 18 days away
~College life

Almost Done

September 09 2005
I am SOOOOOO close to being done with my website....

I'll post a link to it when I'm done, but all I've got left to do is to buy a domain, and put it on my friend's server...

I've got many tweaks left to do, but I'm done with the core of the site... All I'm adding now is fancy stuff...

Class

September 09 2005
Ahh, it's awesome to be done with class on Fridays at 9:50... I'm going to take a nap.. :o) woo hoo

New Site

September 09 2005
This is my new and improved phusebox!!! I changed because I was tired of my old name (xander717). It was too long and stupid. nobody calls me xander so it was retarded. So now i use alex.

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September 09 2005
wellll...today so far hasnt been good!!!
not feeling welll...need to cut back on all tha junk food!!
okay..i have a pink ribbon on my car for breast cancer....pretty sure someone STOLE IT!!!! i wasnt happy!!!

i think the most important thing about this entry is that....well it looks like im NOT going to TENNESSEE TECH next fall! God wants me here! im not sure yet what i want to do but i know im gonna be graduating from MTSU not TTU!!! but o well! i think i should obey God on this whole thing! unless he decides to change his mind!!!

everyone going on tha retreat this weekend! have fun! ill miss you all stay safe! luv ya!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

yay for coldplay

September 09 2005


photo from susanrloyd

this is my favorite... more to come when i have a little time to breathe!

random note: for the mac peeps out there, have any of you ever almost had a heart attack after your computer started talking to you out of the blue and you had your sound turned up really loud and you were in a different room? just wondering :) it just happened to me

Happy Friday

September 09 2005
So i'm happy today is friday..
I only have one question for everybody who has a brain (a friend used it on their site and the answers came back quite interesting so now i'm conducting my own experiment)
If I only had a brain....
And the question is:
Half empty OR half full???
-- ----- -------- -------- -----------
To add later on:
Be specific about what is half empty or full. I will not post again until i am satisfied with the number of results.
Oh... and this really weird thingy happened when i click to view my home page. This weird picture showed up and i have no idea how in the world it got there.. umm??

BILLY GRAHAM CALLED!!

September 09 2005

Ok, maybe it wasn't Billy himself, but the BG Evangelistic Association did call me back and officially offer me the job that I applied for and of course I accepted. It isn't my dream job or anything, but it is possibly a foot in the door with this organization. I have heard comments from several people that they have tried to get a job there and were unsuccessful, so God has blessed me in that I did make it. Also, come to find out there are a couple of people from my church that also work there. I start training on Monday, so please keep me in your prayers.

Free iPod Nano (I know, I know)

September 09 2005

Ok, so like Nathan said, on September 7th, Apple announced their new iPod Nano. And since I received a 4G iPod 20GB from freeipod.com about a year ago, I decided to try it again, only this time for a free iPod Nano 4GB. If you'd like to try to get one too, or just want to help me out, here's my referral link:

http://ipodnanos.freepay.com/?r=22138604

Just click it, put in an email address (I'd use an email address that you don't mind getting spam at) and password, then complete an offer. If you want help picking an offer, go to RateTheOffers.com. Sorry about the blatant plug for free stuff for me, but if it works, why not.

-out

Once a month's not bad, right?

September 09 2005
Okay, so it's been a month since I entered anything here. I hope you guys are still my friends. I think about all of you often, and I MISS YOU GUYS terribly! I'm just HORRIBLE at keeping in touch. I promise I'm trying to get better.

I hope everything in NYC is going well! I really miss New York a lot! I like my new job, and I love the students that I'm working with, so that's always good. I have a really cool new apartment, which I really like.

This Sunday, I'm starting a new Sunday school class at my church for young singles...we are looking at ways to confront our culture in a relevant way. I'm using LOTS of the stuff I learned in New York!

I would love to hear from any of you! You can post a remark here (which I always forget to check!), or you can email me at tamutag@yahoo.com. You can always call me, too...although I'm currently getting horrible cell phone reception for some reason! I love you guys!

hey if your new to the M'boro area

September 09 2005
Hey if your new to the M'boro area, a college group statrs at 7:30 on tues. nights at New Vision Bapist Church it's a great time of woship and fellowship since no one reads my site anyway hopefully people will read this one
If you are still in Highschool there is a great plcae for you too. The youth group meets on wed. night at 6:30
hope to see u at either one L8

Yum

September 09 2005
So yeah, next period is music theory, so that means we get doughnuts!
Ha, don't you just love when people first sign on to blog things and will just write about anything to fill up space? Oh well.

Hey all!

September 09 2005
Thank
God
Itz
Friday!!!!!!
Ya like my new profile pic?
"Let me check my hat!"-Me

Yay

September 09 2005
So now I have 3 blog thingies!

wow

September 09 2005
it's amazing how fast the world can turn on you. one day you're breezin on by, and the next it hates you. we shouldn't be of this world, so i guess it's ok right??

In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. -Psalms 33:21

Yesterday...

September 09 2005
Was o.k. The morning rocked cause breakfast with the other half of my brain is always fun. Besides that her present was amazing. I'll get a picture of it up as soon as I can. Recruitment was not as much fun cause I missed most of it. Today should be better.

Forever yours, Lucky

On Shiny Pants, Roses, and Bears and the best gifts in the world

September 09 2005
If that title made any sense then you are one of the people who really knows me.

Because you are not around I can't bring myself to put the shiny pants on and wear them out in public. I can't even look at them without thinking about you. I put them on and I become the attractive me, the less shy me, but I take them off because it hurts to know that you cannot see them. They were your favorite pants for me to wear and now you are over 1400 miles away. I hurts to think about the fact that you are not around.

You gave me roses for Prom and won both my heart and the approval of most of my family. They made me smile because they were a gift from you. You brought me roses that bloomed out bigger than my fist for graduation and ran away with my heart. I took so many pictures of those roses that it wasn't funny because I didn't want to forget what they looked like. And though the flowers wilted eventually the happiness and pictures never does.

You gave me a bear at Prom and made me laugh, not much, but a little. It had been a long time since anyone had done something like that. You gave me one just randomly that you came to my house to give. You gave me a bear for graduation you even sprayed it with Kilo cause I told you that you smelled good, and so I'd have it to remember you by when you moved. That bear is the most special and when ever I feel lost or miss you, though the smell has faded, I can hug that bear and remember.

But better than the roses and better than the bear are the other gifts you gave me. You made Prom amazing, with out you it wouldn't have been the same. You made me smile and laugh even when I was crying. You made me feel like I was special. The happiness you gave me was one in a million and the best gift in the world.

Forever yours, Lucky

Going to D.C.

September 09 2005
I'll be seeing the National Symphony this evening in D.C.!!! How sweet is that?

3:36am

September 09 2005
the question may be posed what do people do at this hour. well. here are some ideas

1. bounce between apartments and ask for sugar until you fill your sugar container
2. go through your apartment phone directory and call everyone(that is if you live at disney, b/c we don't have caller ID)
3. Take random pictures
4. talk to the old crazy neighbor

that's all i got

taking the good with the bad

September 09 2005
"shall we accept the good from God, and not trouble?" -job 2:10

God never promised us an easy life. there will be many trials. but in the end will all be worth it.

if you feel overwhelmed by all that life may be throwing you, stop for a moment. and turn to God. rest in His presence. feel His embrace and let His love and peace flow over you. He is in control. and everything will be okay.

God is good all the time.

"restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me" -psalm 51:12

i hope everyone has a great day! and happy birthday sarah moore!

Five Days

September 08 2005
It's been five days since I've posted... woopdy doo!

Is it possible to have good things that aren't God things? Today, I had a good thing happen and I don't know if it's a God thing. I guess time will tell.

One not-so-good thing is that I'm still looking for a new habitat. Dunno whether it's going to be an apartment or a house. I guess time will tell.

I emailed my J-Group tonight. Haven't gotten any replies back, but it is early yet. I'm going to try to meet with them on Monday. I hear I may get a few more guys, but I'm not positive. I guess time will tell.

Monday night, at intercession, I spent almost the entire time praying about a specific issue. It's amazing how God does His thing. A few things might be starting to change. What does the future hold? I guess time will tell.

P.S. A good friend of mine is having a baby TODAY (Friday)!!!! I'm so excited. He's going to be a daddy to a little baby boy! I couldn't be happier for him. It is truly amazing how God can turn circumstances for the better. Tolkien called it eucatastrophe. Whatever the case, Pray for the baby and family.

fear and fall...

September 08 2005
so really life is interesting. at least my life is. i find myself not really knowing whether to live my life in fear or excitement about what might happen next. i was driving to kimberly and olivia's apartment tonight, and i was in a GREAT mood, and i was thinking about how things are really good right now, which honestly scares me to death. i'm scared that something not so good is going to happen now, just cause everything is good right now and i'm settled and even kinda happy. (well, except for that car insurance problem haha). but last night i was excited about what might happen next, because truly something good always comes from the tragedy that strikes in my life. i mean when my mom died the blessing was being able to help ashli through it two months later when her mom was killed. and when i was kicked out of my home, i'm so happy i was now because if i didn't live on campus i wouldn't have been able to make all my awesome friends. and if the wreck wouldn't have happened, i wouldn't have come back to God. so all tragedy happens for good reasons, and blessings always result. so i shouldn't live in fear of what could happen next, just rather anticipation knowing that whatever may come about, God will take care of it and bless it. wow, you never know that you can solve your own problems until you talk them out, even if it is to your keyboard. so no fear, just perseverance. and the excitement is totally cool, nothing wrong with genuine excitement. ahhh i love fall... it's so...thought provoking and it just makes me excited and giddy. but then again, that's a thought for another day, i have to be at work in five hours haha. have a GLORIOUS friday anyone who endured this entry. God bless you for even reading it! anyways, press on...

-seasonably excited

Wow....

September 08 2005
I just got off work (on my birthday) and I had one heck of a night...
150 college students all came in at once after some party thing or somthin and they said they would be back the same time next week... it was INTENSE!!!!!
My boss decided to thank me (he was very impressed with me I guess by the way he kept on saying how well I was doing).... so anyways... he decided to thank me with 20$ cash.... over my check... wow...

I'm not sure if he's ever done that before... God blesses people in the coolest ways...

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September 08 2005
ya so umm... *is mad at a select section of band kids *cough* low brass and trombones*cough* ya they majorly screwed up at practice good job you guys




and in better news... milly has a boyfriend

"RECRUITMENT"

September 08 2005
So tonight was the first night of Greek "Recruitment". I had a lot of fun... I think I know what sorority I want..but honestly i am still thinking!! I have had a lot of fun already so it is going to be a hard decision. But we will see!!!

Well I still have math to do..Even tho I have been working on it almost all day long!! GOSH!!! Ohh well!! I will write more later!!

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September 08 2005
School went fine, homework went well, dance was awesome I loved it.



So heres the part that sucks. We are trying to sell our house in Smyrna so we can move onto the land we have in Lascassas. So I go to Oakland cause we’ll be moving soon. So on the way home, my mom tells me that we are going to have to sell the land if we can’t sell our house in Smyrna ultra soon. I was disappointed about that and all, but then she starts going on about how hard it is to get me to Oakland from Smyrna. So shes saying if we can’t get our house sold really really really soon Ill have to transfer from Oakland to Smyrna High after Christmas.



WTF no freaking way!! I am so not taking this crap!! I have new friends, great classes, and im perfectly fine just how I am thank you very much!! It’s taken me this long just to get used to Oakland!1 And she just expects to leave everyone and go to Smyrna?!?! I already left a whole bunch of people when leaving McFadden and I do NOT wanna do that again!!! I am NOT gonna do that again!!! AH!!!!



Im so depressed just thinking about having to start ive rbrand new..for a second time…



Please please please pray that our house gets sold. And if your looking for a house in Smyrna call us!! We have a nice home!!



alexanna

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September 08 2005
BoREd

hmm

September 08 2005
i think i need more sleep. i have been really irratable lately. i over react, am overly emotional, the dumbest things bother me or make me feel bad. ugggg.

hmm... why am i so freakin selfish all the time?

i love you.

AHHHH.....Happiness

September 08 2005
i don't know why but im happy you guys...yay!!!!

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September 08 2005
You said, ask and I'll give the nations to you
Oh Lord, thats the cry of my heart
Distant shores and the islands will see,
Your light, as it rises on up


I want to give all of me
I want to give all of me
I want to give all of me
I'm giving You all of me!!!!!
Bless the Lord, let all thats in me Bless the Lord
May kingdoms fall, and rulers crawl, before Your throne!!!!

Hmm the OC

September 08 2005
it was perfect. everything i hoped for and more.


AND i'm tired.


leave me a comment, please.

UPDATE

September 08 2005
ok for malinda i willl update

UPDATE...

ARE YOU CONSTIPATED???/

September 08 2005
i know what your thinking by the title. i thought same thing when kyle mann spoke on this topic today. so many times as christians we are spiritually constipated (or we don't want to share christ). but on the contrare when we go to a fall retreat, camp, etc. we have the runs (we can't stop telling people about Christ) why can't we have the runs all the time. that my thought for today! let me know what you think!


GOD IS GOOD! IN MRS. SWAN'S CLASS I BROUGHT MY GRADE FROM A 70 TO A 83!! GOD IS GOOD WHEN YOU GIVE IT OVER TO HIM!! JUST THOUGHT I WOULD THROW THAT OUT!

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September 08 2005
i miss Bruce.

woah,

September 08 2005
'A GIRL SHOULD HIDE HER HEART IN THE HEART OF GOD SO THAT A BOY MUST GO THERE TO FIND IT.'

*falls to the floor in amazement* -kels

(stole this from lauren the cool kid nicdao)

;-)

September 08 2005
hey there beauitful people,
schools better now for some reason. but life is just feels great at the moment. this weekend should be a fun one. cant wait. and if you have nothing to do on friday night you should come to patterson park and do the whole bbq and blues thing. jack pearson plays at 8. if your into guitar trust me your gonna wanna see this man play.
well i hope all of you have a great weekend. remember a smile can help anything, to an extent.

Joey :-)

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September 08 2005


"when i got tired of running from you, i stopped right there to catch my breath; there your words they caught my ears; you said "I miss you son, come home" and my sins they watched me leave; and in my heart i so believed; the love you felt for me was mine the love i'd wished for all this time; and when the doors were closed; i heard no "I told you so's" I said the words i knew you knew; oh god, oh god, i needed you; god all this time i needed you; i needed you..."(from reliant k)

three words for you wow thats deep hahah great song.... i love you suzanne!

well school sucks! hahah jk tomorrow is picture day just pray i dont look gay cause i always do on picture day hahahah but anyway. and i have to turn in this s.s project that me and abby and kayla did tomorrow its soooo funny!!! hahahah
i love you guys bye

"Gosh man your soul is like your appendix you never use it!" -that 70s show!!! hahaha


today......

September 08 2005
was not a great day in my book!!!!
got my paper in on time....but my disk didnt save it soo i had to email it to myself which sucks!!!
cant go on tha retreat this weekend!! im sad about that!!!

tha good part of tha day...
got tha Jack Johnson, Chris Cagle, and Dierks Bentley CDS today!!!
bowling was a blast!!!

well im off to work out!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

auditions

September 08 2005
were today and they went well i dont think i got a part but it was somuch fun!! i kinda hope i get a part even if its really small i just want to be a part of it ... you know,.. well thats all for now ill talk to you guys later! lots of love

the addster!

The Song of the Oyster Bird

September 08 2005
The Song of the Oyster Bird
Alexander Gow

Many, many years ago
In a city by the sea,
Lived the Paddy Waddy Winkle
Who was wonderful to see.
He was colored like a rainbow,
He was furry like a cat,
And his wings were like the Oyster Bird’s.
Now, what do you think of that?

How the oyster Bird did love him;
How he loved the Oyster Bird!
Now this is true, my darling,
Though it sounds somewhat absurd.
They loved each other just as much
As we do, me and you;
But they could not hug each other,
As all lovers ought to do.

For their wings were made of stickers,
Just as sharp as carpet tacks;
And when they tried to cuddle
They would scratch each other’s backs.
Now it isn’t half like loving
If all that can be done,
Is to sit and talk about it.
That is mighty little fun.

But the Paddy Waddy Winkle
And the Oyster Bird could fly.
How they liked to go a-sailing
Away up in the sky!
They would talk to all the little stars,
Makes faces at the Bear,
Punch Old Orion in the belt,
Push Cassie off her chair.

They had lots of fun together,
But still they were not glad,
For they could not hug each other,
And that’s what made them sad.
So, they said they’d take their wings off
And give up their happy play,
So that they could love each other
In a really, truly way.

Now I think that they were wise
To lay their wings upon the alter,
Assuming in the place thereof
The matrimonial halter;
For a love that will not sacrifice-
And gladly do it, too-
Just isn’t worthy of the name.
I think so, do not you?

For when you love somebody
Whom you know also loves you,
You want to do something for him
That’s awful hard to do.
You’ve got to take your stickers off
and lay aside your wings;
But the hugging and the cuddling
Compensate for many things.

quite possibly the best poem ever!

Penguin baseball

September 08 2005

You have to try this.

It's extremely addictive.

Just click to send the penguin down, then click again to swing.

: )

Check THIS OUT!!!!!!

September 08 2005
Guys...THIS IS AMAZING!!!! It is BY FAR the COOLEST optical illusion I have ever seen! Ben sent this to me in my e-mail and I was totally blown away. Just stare at the 4 tiny dots in the middle of the picture below for about 20-30 seconds. Then put your eyes on a flat surface, the wall works best. Then start blinking your eyes in a quick but steady motion. What do you see?



photo from G-MUNY