no frill, Sims2 Nightlife shipped today!!! it's a day early. that means i'll get it tomorrow instead of thursday!!

hellz yeah!!

how do you get a bsckground on hereee? somebody tell me pleeeeease! cough*jamie*sneeze lol

Today was....utterly nondescript.

I annoy myself sometimes.

Does anyone else ever have that problem?

for all you who aren't deft in opera...look these characters up!












You scored as
Violetta. As the champagne is poured and glasses are
filled, all is merriment and glee.  You are Violetta the high-priced
courtesan who is known to revel in all life has to offer, but secretly
looking for your one true love.

Violetta

75%

Rodolfo

67%

Cenerentola

63%

Queen of the
Night

54%

Carmen

38%

Mefistofele

33%
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Alright what's up guys? I haven't given a direct update in a while. How is everybody? It's so weird being in college, and knowing that a lot of your friends have moved on. It is nice to get out of class at 11:00 everyday! LOL! HAHA! By the way, I'm sorry for the people who have had my mom for teaching. I continue to hear the complaints on my mom. She does have a loving side to her which I get to live with! LOL! Guys, lately, things have never been more clear in my life. INTIMACY!! I know I talk a lot about it, but it helps me to share with people my age about my experiences in my walk. My whole life, God has been longing to tell me things about myself. He's been crying out to me with the pieces of my heart that I have selfishly thrown to the world in so many different situations. Yes, I did say that Jesus has the broken pieces of my heart. God has showed me that over time, I've given my heart to so many things, and I haven't stopped to take those things back. I've never been alone and intimate. I've never actually stopped long enough to receive the things I need to have back for an amazing future with my wife and in ministry. I think it's the same for all of you guys too. Aware or unaware, we give our heart to other things, but God never gives up on completely restoring our hearts. I know I will never get to that point here on Earth, but that doesn't mean I can't pursue that completion because it's so much better than temporary stuff. I long for the moment when I will be in heaven, and I can look at God's smile. I look forward to the moment when he opens his arms to hug me, and in that moment I become the complete man He wanted me to be. Until then, I'll keep pursuing that gentle whisper. Anticipating the moment when nothing else will matter but the Creator of Beauty and Adventure!! I know that he will never stop loving us, and I know he only wants the best for everybody! Our God is so amazing!

Holy Cow why does everything have to be confusing, complicated, and turn out all wierd and junk? And why can't I just be normal and find a guy in this state who will actually tell me what's going on? Why do I chicken out every time I go to tell him how I feel?

I can't sleep, too confused. Look like hell, cause I don't sleep. I'm going crazy, and I hate it. And it's all your fault. ~points to a guy in a different state, who shall remain nameless~ But then I can't really blame you at all, well maybe just a little bit. The blame rests with me cause I am a moron sometimes and a big fat chicken.

It hurts to feel like this. It drives me out of my mind. If I could just close my eyes and open them and you'd be here, then I'd feel better. I'd be happy. But I can't. If I could just see your face, not in the pictures, but really see you. Maybe then I'd be o.k. If I could just be there with you or have you here, then I'd be alright again. I miss you more and more each day.

You left so many questions unanswered, that's why I'm confused. We parted with a kiss and a promise not to lose touch and that it wasn't forever. What were we then? What are we now? What's going on between us? Do we pick up where we left off or have things changed? Do you know how I feel or have you forgotten? Are we just friends or is there something more?

Odd how I write these things as if I'm talking to him, but it's just an entry in my blog. Crazy cause I can't say things but I can write them.

Forever yours, Lucky

Thats all I have to say write now!

if you could only see me now...

i'm sitting here, or the occasional getting up to swing dance (yes alone) listening to michael buble...

and you better believe i am wearing a fedora hat. not even joking.

my favorite songs are definitely home & the more i see you. great songs. however, i like them all.

haha.

the end.

yay, Lipscomb actually has Facebook now. So, I'd really appreciate it if yall would add me :)
well, that's all I have. You all have a wonderful day! :)

-Kaylei

ive tried updating a couple of times, but been frustrated. First with not really knowing how i felt enough to put it into words, and im not sure that i even do now, its getting there though. and second, my good friends, the ones that call and are apart of my life know all the things that i would write on here anyways right? how impersonal and lazy is it for them to only know what i feel and whats going on with me by reading it on a website?

but i did want to share a part of an email from one of my professors, it was really encouraging in my present situation, but i also think life in general. all my profs have called and emailed to check on me, how cool is that? I do miss tha community. but obvioulsy God has us scattered around the south east for some divine purpose that i can not even imagine, but anywho:

"but they(school/falcutly) were also praying that our students will have an impact in our city and nation and that we will see the mighty hand of God at work. Its like when the Israelites picked up suddenly and left Egypt. We are even getting blessed with gifts (as the Egyptians gave to the Israelites). I want to go to that deeper place with God, I desire to follow Him from Egypt to the Promised land; I hope that I will be satisfied with picking up manna for the next stage of the journey and not complain about how good I had it in Egypt."
- Ortiz

hmmm how bout that :)

This weekend was awesome!!! The new student retreat rocked!! We played Capture the Flag friday night so that was cool. We looked like a bunch of aliens running around up there cause we used glow sticks to tell who was on what team. My quiet time saturday rocked!!! I sat out on the porch of the place we we're at and jus looked out over God's beauty!! It was B-E-A-UTIFUL!!! Football game Saturday night...lets not go there. Then I went over to Jades and hung out with them for a little bit. Sunday morning church was really good!!! I played ultimate frisbee with some friends that afternoon so that was cool then I attempted to go fishing but changed my mind. Last night was cool to. Had a friend over for dinner then we went to this cool little concert to benefit Hurricane Katrina victims. I went to Intercession last night...and all I can say is WOW!! I'm soo glad that I went. God is sooo amazing!! I got a lot of things right with God last night and I'm glad I did. Oh yea, yesterday afternoon...def not good for me!! But lets not go there on here. If you wanna know come ask me and I might tell. Well this is long enough so i'm out!!! TTEL!!! ByE!!!

I'M A ZETA TAU ALPHA!!!

Hey Everyone- Hope college and everything is going good ,sorry its been a while since I have updated just been super busy.....Here my hearts cry right now......Enjoy

Everything is going to be different, but most importantly I'm his again
and he's mine for good. I need You. I know You’re there. I’m reaching
out to You. Please, find me in all my weakness and rescue me. I do
remember those sweet days before, when You were all I had and I was
completely filled beyond any normal understanding. I was truly living with You,
every single day was about and for You. No distractions, no
strongholds, no blocks; You had me……

There was an unending joy that derived from a passion placed inside of
me by You. I was seeking, serving, sharing, leading, following, and
believing. I was kept up at night, smiling because of the peace and
content that lived inside of me. I awoke praising You for new mercy at dawn,
and a grace freely given to me; giving me a hope that made me soar. Not
only were You and I so tightly woven together, You gave me SO many
others to pour my heart into. Every new day that You allowed me to wake up
to was a gift and a challenge. There was such a strong spiritual bond,
that nothing could get me down ever.

When life is being taken advantage of, and you’re living the way that
you should…there is an unexplainable happiness that cannot escape. God
becomes so real and so evident in your life without you even knowing it.
Growing in God by reading His Word, that is so alive, and praying to
Him can never hurt you. It’s hard to keep to reading, or even to start. A
lot of people don’t seem to get anything out of it. Sooner or later
though, it’s inevitable that God begins to speak. I love running on His
time and allowing Him to work through me. But for that to happen, I know
that I must be usable for Him. I want and absolutely need to be an
available tool to help further the kingdom of God.

God’s given me a purpose. I know that my heart is on missions. I need
people. He requires all of my time and attention, and I’ve been away so
long that I realize what has got to happen. I refuse to be depressed
anymore. I refuse to focus all of my attention on a guy. It’s not me to
argue and fight and become this drama queen that has taken over my life.
That’s not what I’ve waited for. I can’t hope and pray forever that
things will just change and that he will actually put up a fight for me.
I’m a girl. I need to be needed and wanted. I love to love. If it’s
true, it doesn’t grow old. That is not me. So I’m coming back. And He’s
welcoming me with open arms…

Life is so short; a mere breath. I need to know at the end of the day
that I gave it my all (even in the simplest of things) to bring God
glory. He created us for that. I know why I’m here. I know that for me to
be truly alive and truly living, I have to die to myself and let God use
me to the uttermost. If I’m not being used, it becomes more and more
difficult to get out of the hole that I subconsciously dig. I know I’ve
fallen behind a ways. I know that everyone can look at my life and who’s
involved and subtly make their assumptions and form their opinions. I
also know that I could care less about what anyone thinks except for
God. I am taking out of my life what sets me back. I have to take on the
character of Christ and become the person He was so aptly shaping me to
be before I pulled back. I Love Him and I am so glad He’s in love with
me.

Leo July 23-August 22

Leo is represented by the lion. It is a fire sign ruled by the Sun emphasizing magnetism. Characteristics of Leo energy include optimism, creativity, generosity, pride, overbearing, cruel, pretentious, and boastful.

Heracles (a Greek hero of epic renown) was made to undertake 12 labors as punishment for crimes he committed in his youth. Heracles' First Labor was to quickly find and destroy the Nemean Lion, a monster that had plagued Nemea for some time and was believed impossible to kill. His arrows bounced off, his sword broke, and finally he decided to use brute strength. He wrestled the lion, strangled it and skinned it using its own claws. The spirit of the once-dangerous lion, Leo, was placed in the sky as a thing of beauty.

Leos were born to lead and are most effective when in a position of command. Leos are straightforward, uncomplicated individuals who know what they want and pursue it with enthusiasm and a creative spirit. Leos possess a strong positive nature and don't shrink from adverse circumstances. They are not easily daunted, and will persist through the most formidable circumstances.

Leos are proud people, with an idealistic and humane nature. They are basically outgoing, happy, kind and generous. Self expressive, intelligent and broad minded, they are philosophically inclined. They tend to be stubborn, and will hold onto a belief, or stick to a course of action through thick or thin. They are direct and to the point and lead with their emotions. Because of their positive nature, they tend to expect the best, and when things don't turn out as they had expected, they react immediately and badly. Quick tempered, blunt and nasty when they have been affronted, they are deeply hurt by malice or hostility. Although, they may suffer from short bouts of depression when life doesn't meet their expectations, they bounce back quickly and move on with their normal cheerful and demonstrative nature. Leo walks forward always, head held proudly and face turned towards the sun.

Origins In Mythology
To our ancestors, the qualities of the Lion were associated with rulership and divinity. Wherever this animal was encountered, its characteristics were attributed to gods and goddesses. For many cultures, the symbol of a lion serves as a guardian. Lion figures stand fast against darkness and evil intent in the doorways of palaces, temples, and in the rituals of the Chinese New Year. It is not hard to recognize some of these same attributes in those born under the Sun sign of Leo.

Notable Leos: Jacqueline Kennedy, Napolean Bonaparte, Bill Clinton, Mick Jagger, Amelia Earhart, Arnold Schwarzenegger, King Louis XIV, Heath Capps

BOOYA!

Since Switchfoot did record this album in a studio and only in greenrooms on their tour. This album is creative and very well put together. If you didn't know, they would record a song, then ask their fans, wherever they were playing, if they liked it. With that kind of feedback, it is bound to be good.
This album is everything one can come to expect from Switchfoot with a major label release. The production has been significantly upped, leaving each song more lush and full than any recording the band's done previously, without compromising the song's raw energy.

The band has never been known as one that has an especially evangelistic message. So when the listener looks into the "everything is meaningless" messages that Nothing Is Sound adopts, finding the word "Lord" as the only potential reference to our Jesus (used thrice in one song), there really shouldn't be any surprise. The band's debut The Legend Of Chin possessed a similar subtlety.

But where Nothing Is Sound lacks in direct spiritual and Christian message, it makes up with hopeful or relevant writing. Songs like the hooky first single "Stars" point out the problems with being self-centered and the implication of something greater beyond ourselves. It also provides a slam on post-modernism. "Lonely Nation" Is my favorite. It shows a side of our world that maybe only christians may see. The view of our world is lonely and searching for something all the time, but missing it everytime. "Easier Than Love" is a beautifully blunt attack on the world's view on sex and love, declaring the obvious reason that "sex sells" in the media is because sex is easier than the more difficult and seemingly impossible "love." The catchy rock song opens with bold verses like "Sex is currency / She sells cars, she sells magazines / Addictive, bittersweet, clap your hands / with the hopeless nicotines..." It's songs like this that offer a message mainstream listeners seldom hear and probably doesn't even know what to do with. It's refreshing to say the least.

Ferociously catchy songs like "Lonely Nation," "Stars," and the Bob Dylan-inspired "Happy Is A Yuppie Word" drip with emotion and passion, all the while capturing a fine sense of the band's engaging live performances. The album is sensitive and desperate, while offering glimmers of light at the same time. "The Shadow Proves The Sunshine" is a rock ballad inspired by a fact-finding trip Switchfoot took to South Africa earlier this year to see for themselves what poverty and disease was doing to the country. "The Blues," which Foreman penned on New Years Day 2004, is a song about finding beauty in the world ending and resonates with the pretty laments of songs like "Let That Be Enough" from the band's second album. Musically, much of the album remains in the same vein as signature Switchfoot fare. The bittersweet ballads are all there, and the rock element that band has explored in recent years is worked further throughout the album's songs. But fans of the more stripped-down sound of their earlier releases may have a hard time swallowing the more produced approach.

Nothing Is Sound is a sonically rich album that fits nicely among the band's impressive discography, offering fans something new, but keeping it very much Switchfoot from start to finish. Whether or not the mainstream continues to embrace the band's music, Switchfoot remains to be one of the best bands in today's current music scene.

Well today has been cool so far. I woke up this morning to go eat breakfast with one of my friends from church. I think that he will become one of my accountability partners.

I went to my Freshman Council interview this morning too. I think that I did good. We will know on friday at noon, if we get asked back for a second interview. I also applied to be part of the Knoxville UT Student Advisory Board. It is really cool because we will be meeting with the mayor of K-town to speak with him on matters concerning the development of the city and matters that concern UT students.

I was reminded this week that God will provide for you if you ask for Him to...this week has been really wierd because I am not sure if I would classify it as a good week. I was a little lonely at first not really having anyone to talk to about things that are relevant to my life. But I ask God to provide me with someone and He has. He brought me to people that are helping me in ways that they don't even know yet.

I don't have much else to say, so I will talk to you later...

Peace,
Jason


Unreached Peoples Fact
51 of Afghanistan's 82 people groups, including the 10,641,300 Southern Pashtun (the country's largest people), do not have Gospel radio available in their primary language.


Missions Scripture
"Look among the nations! Observe! Be astonished! Wonder! Because I am doing something in your days, You would not believe if you were told."
Hab 1:5

i go to school already dreading the day. this year has gotten crazy way too fast for me. fundraising is driving me insane, and my big mouth is even worse.

i need a break already, and the one day i would even get partly off, i have a stupid band practice. yup that's right. 4 dang practices in one week. plus a 2 performances friday and saturday night. kill me now.

band is REALLY frustrating me. it's not on this year, there's no motivation. i see it in myself. i'm not pushing myself as hard as i could. i don't manage to get anything done. it's just there. blah

head pressure census clutch date divinity wouldn't fuck touched easy god change rush floor life .....

from my head full of pressure its the census that i clutch ..
i made a date with divinity but she wouoldn't let me fuck
i got touched by an easy shade of god help me change,
quarter rush on the floor for the life in my veins,

date with divinity

I hate shoes...

yes it is blink 182

yum differous.

this thing seems alot better than myspace, xanga, etc . . hah school sucks but i guess you just gotta keep your head up.


peace

i'm so thankful... that God is sovereign and that He has our best interests (to give us a hope and a future) at heart and that even when we think that we need something, He knows better. He's always taking care of us.

I love it when you can look back at years past and see His protection from something you didn't understand, and then suddenly He decides to reveal to you why you went through it all... His perfect purposes.

I'm also thankful for these verses in ephesians:

NIV - For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God— not by works, so that no one can boast. For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

the message - Saving is all his idea, and all his work. All we do is trust him enough to let him do it. It's God's gift from start to finish! We don't play the major role. If we did, we'd probably go around bragging that we'd done the whole thing! No, we neither make nor save ourselves. God does both the making and saving. He creates each of us by Christ Jesus to join him in the work he does, the good work he has gotten ready for us to do, work we had better be doing.

~ the work he has prepared us for - the work we'd better be doing ~

grace is so wonderful - may it move us on toward good deeds so that God may get all the glory. after all, we are here to be spent, by doing the work that he's created us for :)

tonight, I was trying to get off my bed and go get something. and then, I managed to flip off my bed, into the floor, as my roomie walked by

I think it qualifies as the funniest thing i've ever done

"if all you see is a shadow on the face of the Father right now, hang on to the fact that He will ultimately give you clear understanding and will fully justify Himself in everything that He has allowed into your life." -oswald chambers

"stand firm in faith, believing that what Jesus said is true, although in the meantime you do not understand what God is doing." -oswald chambers

"but i trust in you, O Lord, i say, 'you are my God' my times are in your hands" -psalm 31:14-15

Wow... I haven't posted in such a long time
Hey everyone! It's been like so long since I have posted nething on here, so I though I would hit it up with a few words of advice.

1 - Don't shoot fireworks out of your rectum

2 - Be nice to geeks, you may end up working for them

3 - Jesus really does love you all the time, so don't ever think no one does.

4 - Don't light nething on fire cause it might result in the burning of some groinal regions

5 - Rubberband balls are addictive

6 - Ummm.... Cheese

So yeah, If ne one would really like to know how I am doing. I moved back to jacksonville FL. I'm living by myself now working a job and just hanging around and having a fun time. You can IM me at wakefrommydreams on aim or just add me on zee myspace at

www.myspace.com/wakefrommydreams


and PS!!!! ADD MY BAND!!!!

www.myspace.com/faithfulescape

LOVE AND MISS ALL YOU GUYS!!!!

ME!!!! I DYED MY HAIR BLACK!!!!

Hey everyone! It's been like so long since I have posted nething on here, so I though I would hit it up with a few words of advice.

1 - Don't shoot fireworks out of your rectum

2 - Be nice to geeks, you may end up working for them

3 - Jesus really does love you all the time, so don't ever think no one does.

4 - Don't light nething on fire cause it might result in the burning of some groinal regions

5 - Rubberband balls are addictive

6 - Ummm.... Cheese

So yeah, If ne one would really like to know how I am doing. I moved back to jacksonville FL. I'm living by myself now working a job and just hanging around and having a fun time. You can IM me at wakefrommydreams on aim or just add me on zee myspace at

www.myspace.com/wakefrommydreams


and PS!!!! ADD MY BAND!!!!

www.myspace.com/faithfulescape

LOVE AND MISS ALL YOU GUYS!!!!

ME!!!! I DYED MY HAIR BLACK!!!!

Okay so maybe that title is a little on the cheezy side, but it's what I truly feel like.
You know how some people are highschool people, and some people are college people? I am definitely a college person!! It is SO much better than highschool. Everybody's accepting and nice and although there CAN be drama (but alas, you will find drama everywhere throughout your entire life), it's not nearly as bad as highschool.

One thing I love about being here is I've actually found a group of friends. I mean, I've always had friends, but I have never exactly had a certain group. (It was more like there was 1 person that my world revolved around, which was fine, but its so much different now).
Plus, I just wasn't allowed to "hang out" with various kids much when I was at home. So it was hard to maintain a lot of friendships.

Anyways, this group is amazing. Some of these people I have known for a LONG time. Some, I just met but I have already grown to love. In just the 2 or 3 weeks I've been here, I've had papers to write, I've had late nights and early mornings, I've had a Harry Potter fest, I've laughed like I have never laughed ever ever before. Sometimes, I wasnt even sure I could laugh like that. And honestly, I've had some of the best times of my entire life.

So that's what I mean when I say I have arrived. I feel like I am home.

PhuseBox User,

If you tried to access the PhuseBox site on
September 12, 2005, you may have found that the site was down. Our
servers for PhuseBox were taken down as a massive power outage occurred
in Los Angeles, CA. PhuseBox, along with several other major websites,
were unavailable as a result.

The PhuseBox staff apologizes for
any inconvenience this may have caused. Hopefully, something of this
nature will not bring down our servers in the future.

Thanks again for making PhuseBox a great site!

Nathan Moore
founder of PhuseBox.net

So yeah all was good.
Until I had to go and act like I was five again.
I'm spoiled and I have a hard time getting over that.
I just wish he was here, it's always better when he's here to comfort me.
It's weird how when we're together, he's always holding me if I cry.
But on the phone he either gets worried or gets annoyed.
I guess I shouldn't go on my little emo trips when he's tired.
He's my everything, my absolute best friend.
I need to strengthen myself as a person.
Maybe then I'd show people I'm not all emotional and spoiled like before.
I want to be happy all the time and carefree.
I want all this stress just to go away already.

'Come baby,
Just let me hold you near.
Come on baby,
I'll chase away any fear.
Come on baby,
Please don't cry here.
Come on baby,
I'll wipe away each tear.
Come on baby,,
Smile for me from ear to ear.
You;'e my only one, every day of every year.
Come on baby,
Just let me love you, my dear.'

Just wrote it.

Today was moving day for us at Mosaic. We finally after 7 long months moved into offices. I am so happy. Today was long and I have some bruises and cuts to prove it but I am just happy we have offices.

Just wanted to brag a little. I was nominated to drive the 14 foot truck back to the dealer tonight... I've done it before but that's in the gridded area... this was in Lower manhattan where streets don't make sense. Luckily Sid and KEvin tagged along and made it fun. THey were great passengers. At one point when i was about to run a red light Sid said "hey kim the lights red" in the most calm subtle voice but still got my attention... where most people would have screamed in some way or fashion.. THen I almost ran over two pedestrians in Union Square. I laughed so hard that I honked (not the car horn but a luagh) and the guys I almost hit laughed at me cause I honked and they heard it.

It was fun. THen the guys and I went to Utopia where I had coffee and french toast at 10pm... I haven't been there since the summer crew left. It was nice to walk in and the waiter just brought me coffee without asking. I love being a regular. Makes me happy.

Well enjoy the pics. I want you guys to see Lane in his truest form.



photo from kimkmcil



photo from kimkmcil

WOW, is the only word I have for ya'll! God is breakin' the mess outta me! But in all of it....I am amazed!! The past few days God's really been calling me and woeing (did I spell that right?!) me! On Thursday, I'll only have 2 weeks left, and it's becoming more and more of a reality that my life is about to change forever! God's been calling out to me for so long and wanting me for so long, and now....His time has finally come! As scared and nervous as I am....I know God is so thrilled that it's His turn to captivate my heart! It's now time to be intimate with Him and Him alone! And I can't help but pick up on and soak up some of His excitment! Today has been a broken day! But I'm not down, and praise Him for that! But it's been an emotional day for me, and I realized this is what I get to look forward to for the next 3 weeks...the last two here and the first week there! It's going to be soooo hard to leave all ya'll behind, but I'm going to need all of ya'lls support! In these next few weeks...I'm going to be so emotional and so weak! I need ya'lls help and prayer! It's been awesome though, to have God have my heart already over there! God is preparing my heart for over there! And soon, for the next 6 months, my arms will be open to brokeness, healing, and finding out who I am in Christ and who He is leading me to be! I tell you one thing though! I can't wait to come back and tell all the amazing things that HE DID! And hear about all the amazing things He did here!

I was listening to the Jars of Clay song "Love Song for a Savior" and let me put on here what stuck out to me, in this song:
"In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than the laughter
Or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat
Or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust him
And learn how to see him
Someday he'll call her
And she will come running
Fall in his arms, the tears will fall down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with you"

Ya'll.........this is me! I've been a little girl, playing in an open field...loving all my Daddy's creations and just having him as a best friend! But now, He's calling me! He wants to be more than my "best friend"....He wants to be my EVERYTHING! And I want and need to fall in love with Him! It's time to understand, and I mean fully understand...He's more then what I've been thinking He was! It's time to love Him, spend time with Him, for Him to mold me into who I need to be, for Him to take me where He needs to, and to trust Him! Trust Him in the fact that He really does know what He's doing, trust Him in who He says I am and who I can be, and trust that He is not with holding anything good from me...only protecting me and my heart! It's time to go! As hard as reality is for me....and it's finally caught up! It's not something I just talk about doing anymore...it's something that IS happening! Hummm......just please keep me in ya'lls prayers! I love ya'll so, so much! Take care, and have a wonderful night! *muah*!

Singers is going great.
Bowlings going great.
Boys..bLaH.. havent found a great one :/
School is okay. Getting math help now.. yippie..not.

i love YOU

work was ok...besides that whole bored out of my mind part! i did talk to amy alot though so that was good! i miss you amy!...and rachel...and everyone!

i want everyone that has sent me a letter to know how much a truely appreicate it!! and i'm working writing everyone back!

noone's here right now...sorority stuff...

julie and me keep like an iceberg in here! i'm in a sweatshirt flannel pj pants and i'm still freezing!

i wish i could come home this weekend! but i guess the $$ will make up for it...hopefully!

eliz

Yeah, today started out pretty poopy, but it ended well. I think RFC is going to be a lot of fun.

*cool white girl dance*

Uh. . . yeah.

So, we made it back safe and sound, and I'm pretty happy with what we did down there. Chris and I were talking late Friday about how we didn't want to waste our time, and I don't think we did. LAURA! USE us again if you need us...we are your workers for hire...sort of like mercenaries, except we don't kill people. We cut sheetrock...and do other manly things...like chew chewing tobacco.
I took my art test this morning and made a high B or low A (I'm always on the cusp, I can't ever just make like a 96 or something. Always has to be 88, 91, 92). Anyway, it's cool. I didn't study for it that long and don't really pay too much attention in class.
Now I'm gonna go take a nap in my bed, and wake up and run some errands. Y'all be good.

HEEFUS

my life has been so hectic lately! my internet is down at my apt. (so nice of them to tell us before hand...) so i'm updating from work :) but i'm off! see ya!

Trey (my neighbor) is a loser.

wow..im really bored right now..in first period..its almost over but i thot i would write this b4 i leave cuz i havent wrote an entry in a while..so..how have yall benn? pretty good..this weekend was totally boring..friday i went to the game..that was ok..and then i came home and jus talked on the internet for a while..then saturday i tore wallpapaer off the bathromm walls..it was really boring but i got payed for it..then i went to ashtons that night and slept over..that was fun and then i went to church on sunday..well g2g bells about to ring..

So Rachel and I are sitting here talking about that Emily Rose movie, has anyone else seen it? What did you think? I'm pretty sure we both liked it.
Tootles!

The Exorcism of Emily Rose was awesome! ^^ "ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE SIX!"

well it is 7:26 in the morning and i am all ready for class. Today is bid-day!! But I am still not allowed to say anything until tonight!! It shall all be told after STRICK SILENCE tho! But I am excited!! Been talking to a friend lately who i haven't really talked to since I left... It has been great!! Makes me want to come back to tha Boro to see everyone there again!!

Well I need to be finishing my cereal and heading to class!!

*hey, well today i wen to old charleys and ate with my sister my mom her mom and her mom's mom lol it was pretty good then i went to the skatepark from like 2 to 7 that was sooo fun i had an awsome time. killed my shins though.*
*Then, i came home and went to my friend blakes house where i am now and we had a bb gun war it was awsome till i got shot in the back of the head lol. and then we shot kinda close to this guys house and he came out and chased us lol it was scary. he was in vetnom war so he is a physco and paraniod lol but ya ill ttyl *

later

JR!!

ok, so, even though this is huge, your job is to answer them all. so, go for it. even if you dont want to.

"The twenty-three questions I ask everybody I meet in order to decide if I can really love them:"

1. Let us assume you met a rudimentary magician. Let us assume he can do five simple tricks -- he can pull a rabbit out of his hat, he can make a coin dissapear, he can turn the ace of spades into the joker card, and two others in similar vein. These are his only tricks and he can't learn any more; he can only do these five. HOWEVER, it turns out he's doing these five tricks with real magic. It's not an illusion; he can actually conjure the bunny out of the ether and he can move the coin throuhg space. He's legitimately magical, but extremely limited in scope and influence. Would this person be more impressive than Albert Einstein?

2. Let us assume a fully grown, completely healthy Clydesdale horse has his hooves shackled to the ground while his head is heal in place with thick rope. He is conscious and standing upright, but completely immobile. And let us assume that -- for some reason -- every political prisoner one earth (as cited by Amnesty International) will be released from captivity if you can kick this horse to death in less than twenty minutes. You are allowed to wear steel-toed boots. Would you attempt to do this?

3. Let us assume there are two boxes on a table. In one box there is a relatively normal turtle; in the other, Adolf Hitler's skull. You have to select one of these items for your home. If you select the turtle, you can't give it away and you have to keep it alive for two years; if either of these parameters are not met, you will be fined $999 by the state. If you select Hitler's skull, you are required to display it in a semi-prominant location in your living room for the same amount of time, although you will be paid a stipend of $120 per month for doing so. Display of the skull must be apolitical. Which option do you select?

4. Genetic engineers at Johns Hopkins University announce that they have developed a so-called "super gorilla." Though the animal cannot speak, it has a sign language lexicon of over twelve thousand words, an I.Q. of almost 85 and -- most notably -- a vague sense of self-awareness. Oddly, the creature (who weighs seven hundred pounds) becomes fascinated by football. The gorilla aspires to play the game at its highest level and quickly develops the rudimentary skills of a defensive end. ESPN analyst Tom Jackson speculates that this gorilla would be "borderline unblockable" and would likely average six sacks a game (although Jackson concedes the beast might be susceptible to counters and misdirection plays). Meanwhile, the gorilla has made it clear he would never intentionally injure any opponent. You are the commisioner of the NFL: Would you allow this gorilla to sign with the Oakland Raiders?

5. You meet your soul mate. However, there is a catch: Every three years, someone will break both of your soul mate's collarbones with a Crescent wrench, and there is only one way you can stop this from happening: You must swallow a pill that will make every songyou hear -- for the rest of your life -- sound as if it's being played by the band Alice in Chains. When you hear Creedence Clearwater Revival on the radio, it will sound (to your ears) like it's being played by Allice in Chains. If you see Radiohead live, every one of their tunes will sound like it's being covered by Alice in Chains. When you hear a commercial jingle on TV, it will sound like Alice in Chains; if you sing to yourself in the shower, your voice will sound like deceased Alice vocalist Layne Staley performing a capella (but will only sound this way to you). Would you swallow the pill?

6. At long last someone invents "the dream VCR." This machine allows you to tape an entire evenings worth of you own dreams, which you can watch at your leisure. However, the inventor of the dream VCR will only allow you to use this device if you agree to a strange caveat: When you watch your dreams, you must do so with your family and your closest friends in the same room. They get to watch your dreams along with you. And if you don't agree to this, you can't use the dream VCR. Would you still do this?

7. Defying all expectation, a group of Scottish marine biologists capture a live Loch Ness Monster. In an almost unbelievable coincidence, a bear hunter in the Northwest shoots a Sasquatch in the thigh, thereby allowing zoologists to take the furry monster into captivity. These events happen on the same afternoon. That evening, the president announce he may have thyroid cancer and will undergo a biopsy later that week. You are the front-page editor of the New York Times: What do you play as the biggest story?

8. You meet the perfect person. Romantically this person is ideal. You find them physicall attractive, intellectually stimualting, consistently funny, and deeply compassionate. However, they have one quirk: This individual is obsessed with Jim Henson's gothic puppet fantasy The Dark Crystal. Beyond watching it on DVD at least once a month, he/she peppers casual conversation with Dark Crystal references, uses Dark Crystal analogies to explain everyday events, and occasionally likes to talk intensely about the films "deeper phylosophy." Would this be enough to stop you from marrying this individual?

9. A novel entitled Interior Mirror is released to mammoth commercial success (despite middling reviews). However, a curious social trend emerges: Though no one can prove a direct scientific link, it appears that almost 30% of the people who read this book immediately become homosexual. Many of these newfound homosexuals credit this book for helping them reach this conclusion about their orientation, despite the fact that Interior Mirror is ostensibly a crime novel with no homoerotic content (and was written by a straight man). Would this phenomenon increase (or decrease) the likelihood of you reading this book?

10. This is the opening day of Jay McInerney's Bright Lights, Big City: "You are not the kind of guy who would be in a place like this at this time of morning." Think about that line in the context of the novel (assuming you've read it). Now go to your CD collection and find Heart's Little Queen album (asuming you own it). Listen to the opening riff of "Barracuda." Which of these two introductions is a higher form of art?

11. You are watching a movie in a crowded theater. Though the plot is mediocre, you find youself dazzled by the special effects. But with twenty minutes left in the film, you are struck with an undeniable feeling of doom: You are suddenly certain your mother has just died. there is no logical reason for this to be true, but you are certain of it. You are overtaken with the irrational metaphysical sense that -- somewhere -- your mom has just perished. But this is only an intuitive, amorphous feeling; there is no evidence for this, and your mother has not been ill. Would you immediately exit the theater, or would you finish watching the movie?

12. You meet a wizard in downtown Chicago. The wizard tells you he can make you more attractive if you pay him money. when you ask how this process works, the wizrd points to a random person on the street. You look at this random stanger. The wizard says, " I will now make them a dollar more attractive." He waves his magic wand. Ostensibly, this person does not change at all; as far as you can tell, nothing is different. But -- somehow -- this person is suddenly a little more appealing. The tangible difference is invisible to the naked eye, but you can't deny that this person is vaguely sexier. This wizard has a weird rule, though -- you can only pay him once. You can't keep giving him money until you're satisfied. You can only pay him one lump sum up front. Hor much cash do you give the wizard?

13. Every person you have ever slept with is invited to a banquet where you are the guest of honor. No one will be in attendance except you, the collection of your former lovers, and the catering service. After the meal, you are asked to give a fifteen-minute speech to the assembly. What do you talk about?

14. For reasons that cannot be explained, cats can suddenly read at a twelfth- grade level. They can't talk and they can't write, but they can read silently and undertsand the text. Many cats love this new skill, because they now have something to do all day while they lay around the house; however, a few cats become depressed, because reading forces them to realize the limitations of their existence (not to mention the utter frustration of not being able to express themselves). This being the case, do you think the average cat would enjoy Garfield, or would cats find this cartoon to be an insulting caricature?

15. You have a brain tumor. Though there is no discomfort at the moment, this tumor would unquestionalbly kill you in six months. However, your life can (and will) be saved by an operation; the only downside is that there will be a brutal incision to your frontal lobe. After the surgery, you will be significanlty less intelligent. You will still be a fully functional adult, but you will be less logical, you will have a terrible memory, and you will have little ability to understand complex concepts or difficult ideas. The surgery is in two weeks. How do you spend the next fourteen days?

16. Someone builds an optical portal that allows you to see a vision of your own life in the future (its essentially a crystal ball that shows a randomly selected image of what your life will be like in twenty years). You can only see into this portal for thirty seconds. When you finally peer into the crystal, you see yourself in a living room, two decades older than you are today. You are watching a Canadian football game, and you are extremely happy. You are wearing a CFL jersey. Your chair is surrounded by books and magazines that promote the CFL, and there are CFL pennants covering your walls. You are alone in the room, but you are muttering gleefully about historical moments in Canadian football history. It becomes clear that -- for some unknown reason -- you have become obsessed with Canadian football. And this future is static and absolute; no matter what you do, this future will happen. The optical portal is never wrong. This destiny cannot be changed. The next day, you are flipping through television channels and randomly come across a pre-season CFL game between the Toronto Argonauts and the Saskatchewan Roughriders. Knowing your inevitable future, do you now watch it?

17. You are sitting in an empty bar (in a town you've never before visited), drinking Bacardi with a soft-spoken acquaintance you barely know. After an hour, a third indivitdual walks into the tavern and sits by himself, and you ask your acquaintance who the man is. "Be careful of that guy," you are told. "He is a man with a past." A few minutes later a fourth person enters the bar; he also sits alone. You ask your acquaintance who this new individual is. "Be careful of that guy, too," he says. "He is a man with no past." Which of these two people do you trust less?

18. You have won a prize. The prize has two options, and you can choose either (but not both). The first is a year in Europe with a monthly stipend of $2,000. The second option is ten minutes on the moon. Which option do you select?

19. Your best friend is taking a nap on the floor in the living room. Suddenly, you are faced with a bizarre existential problem: This friend is going to die unless you kick them (as hard as you can) in the rib cage. If you don't kick them while they slumber, they will never wake up. However, you can never explain this to your friend; if you later inform them that you did this to save their life, they will also die from that. So you have to kick a sleeping friend in the ribs, and you can't tell them why. Since you cannot tell your friend the trth, what excuse will you fabricate to explain this (seemingly inexplicable) attack?

20. For whatever reason, two unauthorized movies are made about your life. The first is an independently released documentary, primarily comprised of interviews with people who know you and bootleg footage from your actualy life. Critics are describing the documentary as "brutally honest and relentlessly fair." Meanwhile, Columbia Tri-Star has produced a big-budget biopic of your life, casting major Hollywood stars as you and all your acquaintances; though the movie is based on actual events, screenwriters have taken some liberites with the facts. Critics are split on the artistic merits of this fictionalized account, but audiences love it. Which film would you be most interested in seeing?

21. Imagine you could go back to the age of five and relive the rest of your life, knowing everything that you know now. You will reexperience your entire adolescence with both the cognitive ability of an adult and the memories of everything you've learned from having lived your life previously. Would you lose your virginity earlier or later than you did the first time around (and by how many years)?

22. You work in an office. Generally, you are popular with your coworkers. However, you discover there are currently two rumors circulationg the office gossip mill, and both involve you. The first rumor is that you got drunk at the office holiday party and had sex with on eof your married coworkers. This rumor is completely true, but most people don't believe it. The second rumor is that you have been stealing hundreds of dollars of office supplies (and then selling them to cover a gambling debt). This rumor is completely false, but virtually everyone assumes it is factual. Which of these two rumors is most troubling to you?

23. Consider this possibility: a. Think about deceased TV star John Ritter. b)Now pretend Ritter had never become famous. Pretend he was never affected by the trappings of fame, and try to imagine what his personality would have been like. c) now imagine this person -- the unfamous John Ritter -- is a character in a situation comedy. d) Now, you are also a character on this sitcom, and the unfamous john Ritter character is your sitcom father. e) However, the sitcom is actually your real life. In other words, you are living inside a sitcom: Everything about your life is a construction, featuring the unfamous John Ritter playing himself (in the role of your TV father). But this is not a sitcom. This is your real life. How would you feel about this?

Oh my gosh.....
My entire d drive is gone....
There was a problem while formating/installing windows (not my fault, but names will be left out to protect the guilty)....
poof....
EVERYTHING....
All my pictures... all my poems.... all my downloads... all my drivers (graphics card/motherboard/lan/sound)... all my music (9 days worth).... all my website work that wasn't loaded onto the server (like my pictures pages).... ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL MY BACKGROUNDS OVER 400 BACKGROUNDS (YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH TIME WENT INTO THAT)............all the music that I use on wednesday nights.... all my phone numbers....

gone

photo from Trademarkofdoom

You saw it here first, Kids!

(For those of you playing the home game,
OPEC: Organization of Petrolium Exporting Countries)

people say i was led on and that it was just wrong. at times i feel the same way. and alot of the time, nothin feels the same when we're together. when you invest so much in each other, those words just shouldnt be said by the other person.

but it's ok. i've tried to forget and forgive. maybe it'll happen. it oughta be able to happen soon.

schools goin good. spanish and math isnt lookin good, but thats ok. this weekend wasnt too eventful, well it kinda was, but not really. but we made the most of it. i laed the iron down on the carpet today, i didnt know there was nylon in the carpet, it melted to the iron and now theres an iron print in the carpet. it's pretty hillarious.

i hope everything is goin good for everyone else.

piece

i fonally told mom about tyler and i though she was gonna like interragate my for hours but it was crazy i told her and she was like well...ok thats cool i guess and i was like WOAH where is my mom and what have you done with her???? ya so it was C-R-A-Z

When i look at the stars i think of her
When i blink i think of her
When i smile im thinking of her
When i am down i think of her

"As i walk through the valley of the shadow of death i shall fear no evil"

WELL!! school has been very hectic....atleast i only have 1 real class!! which is...you guessed it...U.S. History with vanzant...it's amazing how much you learn in that class....idk what to do for the art work tho that's due next wednesday...i like art stuff alot, but idk what to make whatever i'm doing, out of anything (sry if that didn't make sense) but idk what to do,a nd i have like 3 papers for english....they're easy, just very tiring....welll i guess i'll let you all go...ttyl!
Who is your dream prom date? (real person)
Who is your dream celebrity prom date?!
answer those ?'s with remarks
Kales

So, tonight, I decided to walk down to Ground Zero since it is the four year anniversary of the day that changed America. Four years ago, I would have never guessed that I would be walking right next to where those buildings stood.

The mood on that block tonight was unreal, almost eerie. As friends and family came to place flowers in memory of their loved ones, others just stood in awe. There were so many candles lit, each representing some person's life that was taken that day. Unbelievable. It is strange how tonight, it was if no one was able to hold their New Yorker face on. No one was able to "not care." It was impossible.

I decided to take my camera along to report back to PhuseBox, so here is the recap:



The light towers behind Trinity Church

this is the exact moment that changed the world as we know it. this exact moment is the reason why i am chasing my dream. to be an air force pilot. i remember where i was. i was sitting in health. coach britton walks in to the portable. says a plane crashed into the world trade center. im thinkin, a small plane, no big deal. wrong. it was a boeing 767. one of the biggest passenger aircraft in the world. heard it took off from boston. im thinkin, it's full of jet fuel. jet fuel is more flammable than gas in a car. at 9:03 A.M. EST out of nowhere, a 767 hits the north tower. immedieatly im thinking of family. my dads family lives in the city of new york. my aunt works in manhattan, where the towers are. my uncle is a firefighter. at the same time, i get mad. at 9:37 A.M. EST a 767 from washington d.c. hits the pentegon. im thinkin, these people aint playin. much of the military's top officials are in that building. at 10:03 A.M. EST word comes out that a 777 crashes in pennslyvania. im thinkin, pennslyvania? what in the world is in pennsylvania? come to find out, the very first battle in the war on terrorism took place on that flight. passengers fought to the best of their ability to gain control. in my book, they succeeded. they may have lost their lives, but they saved many others. the destination of that flight is unknown. speculation is that it was headed for the white house.

mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, uncles, grandmas, grandpas lost their innocent lives that day. in their minds it was just a regular day. god bless their families.

salute to the firefighters, EMTs, police officers and all the other first responders.

salute to the military. air force, army, marine corps, navy, and coast guard. you guys are doing the best job. keep it up. i cant wait to join you guys.

dont ever forget this day.

hanging out with kelly a lot. we laugh. we cry. we make up really really cool new groups on thefacebook and phusebox. we're the best.

so today...was...boring.

i havent been feeling too well for a few days and today i really wasnt feeling good. ohh well..

hmm pretty sure he confuses the heck outta me. one day..he's super amazing..and saying the sweetest things..but then the next day..its just like.."oh hey..its you.." idk whats going on..but i wish i knew...

Sometimes it feels like he doesnt care at all...like im just there..then other times..its as if..im the only thing that is in his life..i dont understand whats going on..and i dont think he knows either. but if he doesnt figure out what he is gonna do soon...idk what im gonna do... :(

maybe i should just give up and go on..itsnotlikeanythingisgonnahappen. it hasnt so why keep putting myself through all this confusion...maybe its just me...maybe im too impatient...but maybe if i move on w/ things he might finally realize that he should have been paying attention...maybe what jimmy said was right... im too high
maintenance...maybe thats whats holding him back...idk..but i really wana know whats going on.

there are so many maybe's and what-ifs going through my head right now. I have no idea what is the best thing to do. I could talk to him, but then he might get mad. idk. im lost..

have you ever just gone outside and layed on the ground and looked up at the stars??..its so amazing and sometimes i just wish that everything was that peaceful instead of all the drama of "boyfriend stealers" and "back-stabbing friends"..stars are my love

so today was DBS...it was like forever long...ive got so much stuff to do...Genna's box, chris' poster and kelly's poster...charity..mtsu games...so yeah..there's my life...DBS, school, dance, dance team,

so i guess im done..i love you..

_kels

it took Jesus, son of God, the perfect one, God embodied in human form, thrity years to prepare for a three year ministry so why do i think that i can change in a couple of weeks

No matter how much i want God to be a microwave, he is, and will always be, a crock-pot

ral

Wow, youth group tonight was much needed. All through the week, I have prayed non-stop. Bible reading hasn't been nearly as often, but it has occured some. But I still don't hear God's voice in my life. I feel like it's my fault, like I've done something and now he's not with me anymore. But tonight we talked about fear. Why we fear, how we deal with it, and fearlessness. I fear for my brother so much. I just want him to come home from Iraq and be here with me; I want to KNOW that he is safe. I miss him so much I can't even describe it. When I'm in prayer I cry. A lot. But somehow I know that whatever happens is in God's hands.

Mike said tonight that sometimes Christ is so near to us that we can't see or hear him. Sometimes we just have to trust that He is there, even if we can't feel his presence. He said that it's hard, but that we have to trust in Him. I'm bad at trusting people. I'm bad at giving up control of the situation. I'm bad at not knowing what's going on. But that's what being in a relationship with Christ is all about. It's all about trusting in God, no matter what, and honoring Him in all that I do. It may not be easy, but no one ever said it would be.

Wow, that last post was left up longer than it had any need.

I am now the proud owner of 18 feet of plastic pearls. Noble costume, here I come. Although it takes more than 18 feet of plastic pearls [courtesy of Hobby Lobby's ever-expanding Christmas section] to make a noble costume [we're looking at a minimum of 8 yards of fabric for the gown alone], it's still nice to have. I've also got two massive plastic fleurs-de-lis ornaments that I'll hopefully be able to sand down, make 'em look like gold-painted wood, and turn into part of a really cool fan. Possibilities are endless. Now if only I could get that 50-hour sewing project out of the way.... *Bangs head on grouchy sewing machine* [Thanks to the benevolent Woolfolks for their loan of a non-grouchy sewing machine.]

I went out for sushi today with Megan and Leland. First time ever, and got a little adventurous [I'm paying for it now]. It involved squid, octopus, eel, snails, and salmon eggs. Geuh. Those eggs are forever embedded in my mouth-sensory database. It was.... Disturbing. Tasty, but disturbing. I highly recommend the eel, however.

Waking up tomorrow will be interesting, considering I've not yet been conscious for nine hours. This is a disappointment, for I only realised fifteen minutes ago that today was Sunday, and not Saturday. GAHHHHHHHHH.

A tout a l'heure.