NEVER EVER
September 21 2005
"Sometime, surely since before you were born,
I was searching for something unchanging.
I'd find it, and lose it, and sometimes
there were nights when I hurt people.
If just one of your wishes could come true,
If just one of your wishes could come true,
what would you wish for?
What would you wish for, here, under this sky?
Despite my strong desire,
I started giving up.
I'd find it, release it, and sometimes
there were nights when I hurt myself.
If there were something I could give to you,
If there were something I could give to you,
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
If you'll laugh for me, even just a little,
then there's still a reason for me to live here.
If you'll search for me, even just a little,
then maybe my living here will be accepted.
If just one of your wishes could come true,
If just one of your wishes could come true,
what would you wish for?
If there were something I could give to you,
If there were something I could give to you,
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
Yes, my unchanging, certain thoughts.
Right here."
-Ayumi Hamasaki
photo from NeoDaydream
I was searching for something unchanging.
I'd find it, and lose it, and sometimes
there were nights when I hurt people.
If just one of your wishes could come true,
If just one of your wishes could come true,
what would you wish for?
What would you wish for, here, under this sky?
Despite my strong desire,
I started giving up.
I'd find it, release it, and sometimes
there were nights when I hurt myself.
If there were something I could give to you,
If there were something I could give to you,
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
If you'll laugh for me, even just a little,
then there's still a reason for me to live here.
If you'll search for me, even just a little,
then maybe my living here will be accepted.
If just one of your wishes could come true,
If just one of your wishes could come true,
what would you wish for?
If there were something I could give to you,
If there were something I could give to you,
It would be my unchanging, certain thoughts.
Yes, my unchanging, certain thoughts.
Right here."
-Ayumi Hamasaki
photo from NeoDaydream
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September 21 2005
Haha, so my dad thinks I'm on the computer too much so he grounded me till Thursday.
I found Ruth's jacket upstairs in the bandroom so I took it and put it on to see if she'd notice and she walked passed and was all "wow, give me my jacket." It was kinda funny...
My lil freshman are so cute!
I found Ruth's jacket upstairs in the bandroom so I took it and put it on to see if she'd notice and she walked passed and was all "wow, give me my jacket." It was kinda funny...
My lil freshman are so cute!
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September 21 2005
I think I really need to get a new picture of myself.
Ooga Booga
September 20 2005
What do you want from me,
A poor lost soul, left in reality
Facing the past and the future,
In my room all alone,
What a tragedy..
Just wake me up,
When all ceases to matter..
Just wake me up,
Wake me up,
When nothing really matters
Anymore..
What do you call me for,
With weakened heart calling for you,
A face-off of myself and you too,
In this life all alone,
What a tragedy..
Just wake me up,
When all is well again
Just wake me up,
Wake me up,
When all is well and right,
Once more..
A poor lost soul, left in reality
Facing the past and the future,
In my room all alone,
What a tragedy..
Just wake me up,
When all ceases to matter..
Just wake me up,
Wake me up,
When nothing really matters
Anymore..
What do you call me for,
With weakened heart calling for you,
A face-off of myself and you too,
In this life all alone,
What a tragedy..
Just wake me up,
When all is well again
Just wake me up,
Wake me up,
When all is well and right,
Once more..
dr. douglass!
September 20 2005
so i was babysitting today for megan while she went to the doctor, and the 2 kids reminded me so much of dr. douglass's kids (the kids i'm with in the pictures) and so i just decided to call him today! (fyi - he moved up to greensboro to teach at UNCG this year and i've missed his family terribly!) i was on the phone for an hour with both mittie and dr. douglass and i think i'm going to go up and visit them for fall break! oh, how i love them!
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September 20 2005
so...yep....im tired.....
whats new with everybody?
whats new with everybody?
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September 20 2005
my birthday is tomorrow!! yea. =)
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September 20 2005
--Redneck-
1] Do you believe the south will rise again? no.
2] Do you drive a four-wheel drive automobile? no.
3] Do you live in a mobile home? no.
4] Is your car still primer gray? no.
5] Do you like country music? of course.
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? My sister's car is in my driveway.
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? No
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? no.
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? no.
Total YES: 1
-Goth--
1] Do you wear black eyeliner?: no.
2] Is most of your clothing dark?: no.
3] Do you think about death often?: no.
4] Do you want to die?: no.
5] Are you a social outcast?: no
6] Are you pale?: no
7] Do you like Hot Topic?: Yes there are some hot guys and some cute stuff.
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? Yes
9] Are you nice?: Yes
Total YES: 3
--Skater Punk--
1] Can you skateboard?: no
2] Do you wear Vans?: no
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? DUH!! OF COURSE!!
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?: Yes
5] Do you watch the x-games? Occasionly.
6] Do you have any piercings?: yes.
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? yes
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts: yes
9] Have you called someone a poser?: no
Total YES:6
--Prep--
1] Do you say the word "like": Yes
2] Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no.
3] Do you pop the collar? no
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: no.
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cowen? That I know of yes!!
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? yes
7] Do you like pop music: Sometimes
8] Do you want/have a little dog?: yes.
Total YES:5
--Hippie--
1] Is your hair long?: no.
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?: yes
3] Do you want peace?: yes.
4] Do you want to save the animals? yes.
5] Do you think war is unneccesary?: I wish it was but its sometimes needed.
6] Is love essential in your life?: yes.
7] Have you smoked pot? no.
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? yes.
Total YES: 6
--Gangsta--
1] Do you act ghetto?:Sometimes but just acting retarded
2] Do you wear do-rags?:no.
3] Do you like hip-hop?:yes.
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: Probably not?
5] Do you believe he's alive?: No
6] Do you like afros?: No
7] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?: Yes
8] Do you like to dance?: yes.
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit: no
Total YES: 3
--Emo--
1] Do you cry often? Occasionly.
2] Do you wear hoodies: no
3] Do you like soft music: sometimes
4] Do people not understand you?: Yes I think many people underestimate me.
5] Do you write your own songs?:no.
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark: yes
7] Do you cut your hair: no
8] Are you lonely: yes
9] Is Ohio for lovers?: no.
Total YES: 5
--Surfer--
1]Do you surf? no.
2] Do you wear flip flops all year-round?: yes
3] Is your hair shaggy?: yes
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?: no.
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts?: yes.
6] Are you tanned? yes
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now?: yes
9] Do you hate tourists?: yes
Total YES: 6
--Geek--
1] Do you wear glasses: yes.
2] Do you get good grades? yes.
3] Do you use an inhaler?: yes
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no.
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes?: no.
6] Are you on the computer often?: yes.
7] Do you ever get picked on?: yes.
8] Do you look forward to going to school?: no
9] Are you shy around the opposite sex?: sometimes
10] Do you have braces?: no.
Total YES:6
1] Do you believe the south will rise again? no.
2] Do you drive a four-wheel drive automobile? no.
3] Do you live in a mobile home? no.
4] Is your car still primer gray? no.
5] Do you like country music? of course.
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard? My sister's car is in my driveway.
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? No
8] Do you live on more then 2 acres? no.
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home? no.
Total YES: 1
-Goth--
1] Do you wear black eyeliner?: no.
2] Is most of your clothing dark?: no.
3] Do you think about death often?: no.
4] Do you want to die?: no.
5] Are you a social outcast?: no
6] Are you pale?: no
7] Do you like Hot Topic?: Yes there are some hot guys and some cute stuff.
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies? Yes
9] Are you nice?: Yes
Total YES: 3
--Skater Punk--
1] Can you skateboard?: no
2] Do you wear Vans?: no
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? DUH!! OF COURSE!!
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?: Yes
5] Do you watch the x-games? Occasionly.
6] Do you have any piercings?: yes.
7] Do you like/wear mohawks? yes
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts: yes
9] Have you called someone a poser?: no
Total YES:6
--Prep--
1] Do you say the word "like": Yes
2] Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no.
3] Do you pop the collar? no
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: no.
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cowen? That I know of yes!!
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? yes
7] Do you like pop music: Sometimes
8] Do you want/have a little dog?: yes.
Total YES:5
--Hippie--
1] Is your hair long?: no.
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?: yes
3] Do you want peace?: yes.
4] Do you want to save the animals? yes.
5] Do you think war is unneccesary?: I wish it was but its sometimes needed.
6] Is love essential in your life?: yes.
7] Have you smoked pot? no.
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? yes.
Total YES: 6
--Gangsta--
1] Do you act ghetto?:Sometimes but just acting retarded
2] Do you wear do-rags?:no.
3] Do you like hip-hop?:yes.
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: Probably not?
5] Do you believe he's alive?: No
6] Do you like afros?: No
7] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?: Yes
8] Do you like to dance?: yes.
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit: no
Total YES: 3
--Emo--
1] Do you cry often? Occasionly.
2] Do you wear hoodies: no
3] Do you like soft music: sometimes
4] Do people not understand you?: Yes I think many people underestimate me.
5] Do you write your own songs?:no.
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark: yes
7] Do you cut your hair: no
8] Are you lonely: yes
9] Is Ohio for lovers?: no.
Total YES: 5
--Surfer--
1]Do you surf? no.
2] Do you wear flip flops all year-round?: yes
3] Is your hair shaggy?: yes
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?: no.
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts?: yes.
6] Are you tanned? yes
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now?: yes
9] Do you hate tourists?: yes
Total YES: 6
--Geek--
1] Do you wear glasses: yes.
2] Do you get good grades? yes.
3] Do you use an inhaler?: yes
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no.
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes?: no.
6] Are you on the computer often?: yes.
7] Do you ever get picked on?: yes.
8] Do you look forward to going to school?: no
9] Are you shy around the opposite sex?: sometimes
10] Do you have braces?: no.
Total YES:6
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September 20 2005
Stardate 09.20.05
These are the voyages of the starship Enterprise. Our five year mission: to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilization, and to boldly go where no man has gone before...
I just felt like doing that. It seemed appropriate for my first blog. I used to love Star Trek... until Voyager came around. I don't like Captain Janeway. Tom Paris and the Doctor were the only cool guys on that show. Tom should have been the Captain.
I've had a bad day. I'm confused, and I've got a lot of work to do tomorrow. Fortunately, tomorrow is a Wednesday, so I will only have on class tomorrow. I need sleep.
These are the voyages of the starship Enterprise. Our five year mission: to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life and new civilization, and to boldly go where no man has gone before...
I just felt like doing that. It seemed appropriate for my first blog. I used to love Star Trek... until Voyager came around. I don't like Captain Janeway. Tom Paris and the Doctor were the only cool guys on that show. Tom should have been the Captain.
I've had a bad day. I'm confused, and I've got a lot of work to do tomorrow. Fortunately, tomorrow is a Wednesday, so I will only have on class tomorrow. I need sleep.
If I could...
September 20 2005
If I could write songs, I think that'd be incredible. I think my dream job would be to be in a band, of some, or any, sort. I think I'll make this my life goal.
Stuck Inside This Rut I Fell Into By Mistake.
September 20 2005
I feel like I need to start over.
Just cut my hair, dye it, change my wardrobe.
Change my name if need be.
The old Jessica was too uptight.
Now I need to be free and fun.
I'm trying to break the chains that hold me down.
I just want to break free.
I gotta get out here,
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.
Just cut my hair, dye it, change my wardrobe.
Change my name if need be.
The old Jessica was too uptight.
Now I need to be free and fun.
I'm trying to break the chains that hold me down.
I just want to break free.
I gotta get out here,
And I'm begging you, I'm begging you, I'm begging you to be my escape.
=/
September 20 2005
things are....confusing.. and i hate being a girl.. and.. =(
but im happy i have jimmy. he makes my life happier
but im happy i have jimmy. he makes my life happier
well...
September 20 2005
me + stupid people= NO!!!
i about hurt a few stupid people today.
and a few annoying ones.
but i got to play during freshmen band... that was... more fun than study hall would have been. but i really would have rather worked on midstate... but all of the practice rooms were locked, and medford was not there.
i didn't really have a great day... it kinda sucked. but somehow i was especially... bubblyish at band practice...
but now i'm sorta... not really happy again. i'm not really... ugg, like i was last night or this morning or this afternoon, but i'm just not happy... o well. i guess that's just the way it works.
i about hurt a few stupid people today.
and a few annoying ones.
but i got to play during freshmen band... that was... more fun than study hall would have been. but i really would have rather worked on midstate... but all of the practice rooms were locked, and medford was not there.
i didn't really have a great day... it kinda sucked. but somehow i was especially... bubblyish at band practice...
but now i'm sorta... not really happy again. i'm not really... ugg, like i was last night or this morning or this afternoon, but i'm just not happy... o well. i guess that's just the way it works.
I do beleave i neglect this thing.
September 20 2005
wells, JV race at rippavilla
lead the race for the first 2.9 miles
then i got passed and came in third..... :|
lead the race for the first 2.9 miles
then i got passed and came in third..... :|
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September 20 2005
So I'm sitting her talking to Andrew (who is making a phusebox now) and uploading pix...so go look at them!
Girl Lessons. I need them, thats why.
September 20 2005
My Granny dragged me out to her friend Cindy's house this evening. [Cindy is a former professional cosmetology-esque person.] Cindy gave me a little crash course on how to properly apply makeup and even printed up a little walk-through for me to take home.
Shut up. I must have missed that day at school when they said, "Okay, today's the day when we teach all the girls how to do their hair and makeup and hand out the free boobs." So I needed some help. Crazy bad.
Anyways, Cindy just talked me through it, I did it all myself. I even used my colorful stuff. Now, since I almost NEVER wear makeup, especially makeup that is a color other than nude or very very pale, I think I looked kind of freakish.
You know, in that hooker-that-lost-a-bar-fight kind of way.
But maybe that's just me. I've washed my face off and now I'm letting it dry. I'm going to try to use the same theory and methods to do lighter, less noticable colors and see how that works out for me.
In other news:
That is all. You are dismissed.
Shut up. I must have missed that day at school when they said, "Okay, today's the day when we teach all the girls how to do their hair and makeup and hand out the free boobs." So I needed some help. Crazy bad.
Anyways, Cindy just talked me through it, I did it all myself. I even used my colorful stuff. Now, since I almost NEVER wear makeup, especially makeup that is a color other than nude or very very pale, I think I looked kind of freakish.
You know, in that hooker-that-lost-a-bar-fight kind of way.
But maybe that's just me. I've washed my face off and now I'm letting it dry. I'm going to try to use the same theory and methods to do lighter, less noticable colors and see how that works out for me.
In other news:
- APUSH is the devil. I suggest a revolt. VIVA LA REVOLUTION!
- Buy a candle. Because you love me.
- Mr. Tackett won't let me out of Coach Schmeltzer's class. I'm torn between begging my dad to go into school to make them change it and just going with the easy grade.
- I loves me some JROTC.
That is all. You are dismissed.
Good to be me!!!!
September 20 2005
I am like so happy right now. I got my ring back. It is not officially on my finger. But, it is in my name and no one can take it from me. And me and TJ are back together. I saw him at work today. I am so in love. We made out like the whole time. I am like the luckiest girl in the world. Well, I am going to go. love u guys
.erg.
September 20 2005
yeah, so i'm fed up with being single.
We are the pirates who don't do anything, we just stay at home and lie around...
September 20 2005
coldplay is lovebrought to you by the isLove Generator
So yeah...life is OK. The Target business is kinda sucky, but whatever, it's a job. The job itself isn't so bad cuz I'm a cashier, I just talk to people and stuff...it's just my managers (GSTLs in the Target world) who really suck butt.
I'm tired and kinda hungry. And have all week off.
Hooray.
I miss my Janie poo. And I really wish I could be with her right now...soon, I hope...
Everything is mostly peachy right now tho. School is still swell and yeah...I'm just kinda going with the flow.
Much love and peace out.
So yeah...life is OK. The Target business is kinda sucky, but whatever, it's a job. The job itself isn't so bad cuz I'm a cashier, I just talk to people and stuff...it's just my managers (GSTLs in the Target world) who really suck butt.
I'm tired and kinda hungry. And have all week off.
Hooray.
I miss my Janie poo. And I really wish I could be with her right now...soon, I hope...
Everything is mostly peachy right now tho. School is still swell and yeah...I'm just kinda going with the flow.
Much love and peace out.
please, please dont insist
September 20 2005
I was reading Krisitn's site & all I saw was
"what do you see when you look at yourself in the mirror?"
& it made me think, what do I see?
I see someone who tries.
tries to please everyone, tries not to get hurt
tries to avoiding things because it's not part of the plan
I see someone who is afraid
yet I see someone who is content with herself
I dont think I am ugly or fat
or any of those ridiculous things
girls wonder all the time, constantly
I havent yet thought of all the things
but I will as time goes
I'll find out what God wants me do to exactly.
no plans this week.
how weird
so if anyone wants to do anything, call me
I might go to the movies with Chad
& other wonderful people on Saturday
but other than that I dont think I have anything.
see ya my kiddos
-jaaaaaaaamie
here are some quotes ^_^
"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love"
-a lot like love
"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."
- never been kissed
"what do you see when you look at yourself in the mirror?"
& it made me think, what do I see?
I see someone who tries.
tries to please everyone, tries not to get hurt
tries to avoiding things because it's not part of the plan
I see someone who is afraid
yet I see someone who is content with herself
I dont think I am ugly or fat
or any of those ridiculous things
girls wonder all the time, constantly
I havent yet thought of all the things
but I will as time goes
I'll find out what God wants me do to exactly.
no plans this week.
how weird
so if anyone wants to do anything, call me
I might go to the movies with Chad
& other wonderful people on Saturday
but other than that I dont think I have anything.
see ya my kiddos
-jaaaaaaaamie
here are some quotes ^_^
"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love"
-a lot like love
"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."
- never been kissed
LABLES
September 20 2005
FAT
SLUT
WHORE
PREP
POSER
GOTH
PUNK
HOE
EMO
GAY
LEZBO
My point is this these are lables and i dont like them i dont get y people have to say them its stupied peole r who they r rather u like it or not and theres not a danm thing u can do about it becaue all people our gunna be asses at some point i hate lables we our who we r for reasons and its peole like those who call people names the sidfects our the folling:
depression
self-mudulation
anerxia
bulima
suiced
over dossing
Ima sure there is more but u no w\e ever my point is this STOP LABLES!!!
SLUT
WHORE
PREP
POSER
GOTH
PUNK
HOE
EMO
GAY
LEZBO
My point is this these are lables and i dont like them i dont get y people have to say them its stupied peole r who they r rather u like it or not and theres not a danm thing u can do about it becaue all people our gunna be asses at some point i hate lables we our who we r for reasons and its peole like those who call people names the sidfects our the folling:
depression
self-mudulation
anerxia
bulima
suiced
over dossing
Ima sure there is more but u no w\e ever my point is this STOP LABLES!!!
Forgiveness
September 20 2005
"Sometimes
We make
Terrible mistakes
And then while
We come to overlook a little
Like onlookers
We start to walk
As if nothing had happened
But I remember today
That the fighting never ends
Maybe everyone did so to protect love"
-Ayumi Hamasaki
photo from NeoDaydream
We make
Terrible mistakes
And then while
We come to overlook a little
Like onlookers
We start to walk
As if nothing had happened
But I remember today
That the fighting never ends
Maybe everyone did so to protect love"
-Ayumi Hamasaki
photo from NeoDaydream
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September 20 2005
life is great
!
!
Sigh..
September 20 2005
Ok, first off..lovin' the lack of comments. Nice to know anyone cares.
Second..
I'm done with this.
Second..
I'm done with this.
oooooooo yea!!!
September 20 2005
No Jesus, No Peace.
Know Jesus, Know Peace. - i saw it on a bumper sticker and i thought it was cool
Know Jesus, Know Peace. - i saw it on a bumper sticker and i thought it was cool
slut, contain yourself.
September 20 2005
im at school ..
yeah... we`re waiting to be let out
Me & candace are playing disney games
D= hahahaha yeah don`t be jealous
lol. then end
yeah... we`re waiting to be let out
Me & candace are playing disney games
D= hahahaha yeah don`t be jealous
lol. then end
Birthday Countdown: One Week
September 20 2005
It is as hot as Hades!!! I am ready for fall!
Wow. My English teacher totally rocks my socks and she made my day!
See, yesterday I had one of those crazy emo stressing out sort of days. Those are not fun or cool by any means. While my upcoming geology test loomed much in my mind, I was also already beginning to stress out about my English paper due next Thursday, because my teacher seems like a tough grader.
I firmly believe that sometimes, God just really ordains my time. He probably always does. It seems as if there is a purpose behind my actions and even to my very pace of walking. I walked with Garrett to the KUC after English class as I always do, stopped in the bookstore to buy some scantrons, which I don't normally do, and then headed to the parking lot where my car was at. Well, on the way to the parking lot, I see my English professor. At first I think we are just exchaging hellos, but when I realize she has more to say, I remove my iPod earphone buds.
Then she goes on to tell me that I bring up some very good points in class, that I have a lot of good things to say, and I should keep at it! Wow! That made me so incredibly happy! I was kinda getting the vibe that Dr. Therrien liked what I had to say in class at times, but it was just so awesome to hear her compliment me so highly! It meant a lot to me, especially as a first semester freshman in a sophomore level honors class who is planning to minor in English. It really encouraged me in a way that I really needed.
Thank God for those little things.
"Love woke me up this morning..."
Wow. My English teacher totally rocks my socks and she made my day!
See, yesterday I had one of those crazy emo stressing out sort of days. Those are not fun or cool by any means. While my upcoming geology test loomed much in my mind, I was also already beginning to stress out about my English paper due next Thursday, because my teacher seems like a tough grader.
I firmly believe that sometimes, God just really ordains my time. He probably always does. It seems as if there is a purpose behind my actions and even to my very pace of walking. I walked with Garrett to the KUC after English class as I always do, stopped in the bookstore to buy some scantrons, which I don't normally do, and then headed to the parking lot where my car was at. Well, on the way to the parking lot, I see my English professor. At first I think we are just exchaging hellos, but when I realize she has more to say, I remove my iPod earphone buds.
Then she goes on to tell me that I bring up some very good points in class, that I have a lot of good things to say, and I should keep at it! Wow! That made me so incredibly happy! I was kinda getting the vibe that Dr. Therrien liked what I had to say in class at times, but it was just so awesome to hear her compliment me so highly! It meant a lot to me, especially as a first semester freshman in a sophomore level honors class who is planning to minor in English. It really encouraged me in a way that I really needed.
Thank God for those little things.
"Love woke me up this morning..."
*idk*
September 20 2005
umm well ya i have an umspoken prayer request so i just want yall to pray for me i might put up here what is wronge but i prolly wont be but other than that. life is pretty good i like skool its awsome. so ya mk ill ttyl bye
JR!!
ps and my friend Jason to
JR!!
ps and my friend Jason to
dont worry, dont worry
September 20 2005
dont worry guys and girls, i'm still alive. my stupid computer wont let me on cause it's stupid. i'm on kyles now. it also wont let me on the web page for spanish homwork, so thats why i'm on here.
jess and stopped on at the bookstore in the courtyard, which i didnt know was there untill the other day. i dont know why i've been goin to the UC all the time, this place has everything.
i got to do homework.
piece
jess and stopped on at the bookstore in the courtyard, which i didnt know was there untill the other day. i dont know why i've been goin to the UC all the time, this place has everything.
i got to do homework.
piece
RANDOM I KNOW!!!
September 20 2005
I read the best quote the other day... and yes it came from Harry Potter... i know ... i am a nerd... but this is such a true statement i am learning lately...
"you see Dumbledore?" said Phineas Nigellus slyly. "Never try to understand the students. They hate it. THey would rather be tragically misunderstood, wallow in self-pity, stew in their own---"
"you see Dumbledore?" said Phineas Nigellus slyly. "Never try to understand the students. They hate it. THey would rather be tragically misunderstood, wallow in self-pity, stew in their own---"
*annoyance*
September 20 2005
well today started out well enough. got up went to english. was told about a new assignment that im really excited about. got done at like 9:25, hit the library to study for my huge Bio Lab test today right. i studied for about 2 1/2 hours. SOLID! ok we were told to know the functions of the cell and the junk in it, know the different kinds of tissues, and where each type could be located. all that great stuff oh and the anatomical positions and junk, and and the steps of mitosis. ok maybe some microscope parts too. so he told us to know all this so i study this. i get to class today, feeling amazingly confident only to be told that the test is all with microscopes. as is there is a type os tissue in it u have to identify when there is nothin in the book that tells u these things. and i do not recall him sayin anythin about this in class. so needless to say i failed it miserably. so now i am in a very depressed mood. i hope i can get some extra credit or something. guys please pray for me, Bio is going to be the death of me. i miss u all. i have to work 2morrow which stinks. from 1-8 so i probably wont be at church. and i have a Bio test 2morrow and a Psy test on Friday. guys again i beg u to pray for me. now i am gonna go study like no other. i love you all!
ADPi and Retreat
September 20 2005
Man... Retreat for ADPi was soo much fun! All the alphas got to really know each other and it was just amazing!!! We had soo much fun... we got to put on a skit for all of the Deltas..It was sooooo funny!!! I have rope pull try outs tonight!! One girl got hurt and so Jana (my diamond sister) came and asked me if i was willing to try out!! i am excited..but i don't think that i will make it... But ohh well!! it is worth the try!! So I will be up extra late tonight!! WOO HOO!! LOL!!
Well I am coming home this weekend..so if ya wanna hang out just let me know!! ~*~Julie~*~
Well I am coming home this weekend..so if ya wanna hang out just let me know!! ~*~Julie~*~
tuff times....
September 20 2005
when times get tuff.....
all i can do is Praise the Lord!!!!
last night at intercession....God showed me so much! i have been down about a lot of things...espeically my friends that dont live here anymoe...God showed me even though they arent here w/ me daily that i do have some amazing friends that care for me here in tha Boro!!! God also showed me that all i need is him right now!!!
but i think work has takin over my life!!
me and my dad have been dicussing a new vechile for me...
i have a lot of school work to do!! blah!!
im ready for AO tomorrow night!!!
Love Though Christ!
~Rachel~
all i can do is Praise the Lord!!!!
last night at intercession....God showed me so much! i have been down about a lot of things...espeically my friends that dont live here anymoe...God showed me even though they arent here w/ me daily that i do have some amazing friends that care for me here in tha Boro!!! God also showed me that all i need is him right now!!!
but i think work has takin over my life!!
me and my dad have been dicussing a new vechile for me...
i have a lot of school work to do!! blah!!
im ready for AO tomorrow night!!!
Love Though Christ!
~Rachel~
HEY IM 18
September 20 2005
Hey everyone whats up? me not much today is my b-day and im 18 finally well this weekend will be when I get crunk and have lots of fun well I gots to go for now c-ya
--Curtis--
P.S. Leave me Happy Birthdays
--Curtis--
P.S. Leave me Happy Birthdays
HAHA...I DO NEED TO UPDATE!!!!
September 20 2005
Well lets see!!! um lifes going good!!! Im pretty much going out of town or to another job like every other day, so the work has been steady!!! Ive been to Huntsville and Memphis a few times and of course Florida!!! I actually think we are going to be going back down there soon!!!!!
I guess ive got a few B-days coming up soon so im thinking and "praying"real hard on what to get cause im the worst at buying presents and only God could help someone soooo bad!!!!!
Other than that im doing great
...oh, please keep my family in your prayers!!! They are looking for a place to live right now, and they are staying w/some friends that go to their church in Florida!!! long story but just keep them in your prayers!!!! Thanks -nate
I guess ive got a few B-days coming up soon so im thinking and "praying"real hard on what to get cause im the worst at buying presents and only God could help someone soooo bad!!!!!
Other than that im doing great
...oh, please keep my family in your prayers!!! They are looking for a place to live right now, and they are staying w/some friends that go to their church in Florida!!! long story but just keep them in your prayers!!!! Thanks -nate
Photo From justincredible
September 20 2005
photo from justincredible
there are a few pics up of coldplay i thought you all would enjoy... probably more to come...
photo from justincredible
yeah, just in case you didn
September 20 2005
cameron kinda has no internet at his house anymore. that's why i'm not really posting much. you might think that by now, after all these weeks, i might have something really deep or amazing to say. well, as a matter of fact...
you'd be wrong. sorry.
but life sure is grand. i think this is the happiest i've been in years.
cameron turns 18 in 17 days!!!
...*score*
you'd be wrong. sorry.
but life sure is grand. i think this is the happiest i've been in years.
AND GUESS WHAT?
cameron turns 18 in 17 days!!!
...*score*
Untitled
September 20 2005
People don't leave me comments on phuse box! AHHHHH!!! lol. j/k guys, but do leave me some, im starting to get fed up with phusebox and im thinking deleting this, or just never checkin it. Have a great rest of the week guys!
Alex
Alex
Rita
September 20 2005
hurricane comin my way..
*oh no*(
*oh no*(
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR
September 20 2005
RRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood!
Mr. Rogers was the man. Do y'all know that he was a sniper, and that the reason he always wore sleeves was because he had tattoos all up and down his arms? Yes, it's true. Mr Rogers was a baller.
Gotta go eat now....hongry
the heefus
It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood!
Mr. Rogers was the man. Do y'all know that he was a sniper, and that the reason he always wore sleeves was because he had tattoos all up and down his arms? Yes, it's true. Mr Rogers was a baller.
Gotta go eat now....hongry
the heefus
The Edge of the Planet Has Not Been Reached
September 20 2005
Life has been extremely busy. Between working almost full-time and school and pulling all-nighters like last night, I haven't had much time for anything else.
Here's the latest:
Found an apartment. Will move in ten days hopefully.
I'm seriously considering saving for a laptop. I don't spend enough time at home to work exclusively on my desktop.
Onto a different train of thought, His fellowship is amazing. When there's no pressing needs and when all is going well, it is so sweet just to enjoy His companionship. Just something I've been learning more of lately.
Here's the latest:
Found an apartment. Will move in ten days hopefully.
I'm seriously considering saving for a laptop. I don't spend enough time at home to work exclusively on my desktop.
Onto a different train of thought, His fellowship is amazing. When there's no pressing needs and when all is going well, it is so sweet just to enjoy His companionship. Just something I've been learning more of lately.
Untitled
September 20 2005
I'm so glad that I wasn't ever in freshman band...
God's Part
September 20 2005
God is for us far more, at times, than we would prefer. He is committed to removing all vestigages of sin from our soul when we wish He'd be satisfied with a clean new outfit. His interest in us far exceeds our concerns. Our perspective is usually limited to achieving a better life, and His desire for us is radical conformity to His Son's perfect character. No wonder He seems like an enemy when His discipline begins to grind off our arrogance in order to perfect his Beauty.
Dan B. Allender
Hosea 14:8-9
O Ephraim, what more have I to do with idols?
It is I who answer and look after you
I am like a luxuriant cypress;
From Me comes your fruit.
Whoever is wise, let him understand these things;
Whoever is discerning, let him know them
For the ways of the LORD are right,
And the righteous will walk in them,
But transgressors will stumble in them.
Dan B. Allender
Hosea 14:8-9
O Ephraim, what more have I to do with idols?
It is I who answer and look after you
I am like a luxuriant cypress;
From Me comes your fruit.
Whoever is wise, let him understand these things;
Whoever is discerning, let him know them
For the ways of the LORD are right,
And the righteous will walk in them,
But transgressors will stumble in them.
brett tenpenny is my hero!!
September 20 2005
lol you better love me for that :P
my dress pictures are up! as well as what i'm gonna wear to the pep rally. i wanted to keep it a secret, and kind of reveal it to everyone the day of homecoming, but i love it too much not too.
there's only 9 (really only 8 1/2) school days left until fall break. you don't know how unbelievably happy this makes me. hmm next week i get out of most of my classes to help with school pictures, star trek is friday and Hixson is saturday (hopefully we'll be a lot better with 2 more weeks of practice under our belt). now i just have to get through THIS week.
i think someone needs to find me a boy... :)
my dress pictures are up! as well as what i'm gonna wear to the pep rally. i wanted to keep it a secret, and kind of reveal it to everyone the day of homecoming, but i love it too much not too.
there's only 9 (really only 8 1/2) school days left until fall break. you don't know how unbelievably happy this makes me. hmm next week i get out of most of my classes to help with school pictures, star trek is friday and Hixson is saturday (hopefully we'll be a lot better with 2 more weeks of practice under our belt). now i just have to get through THIS week.
i think someone needs to find me a boy... :)
Hi...
September 20 2005
I just want to offer an apology to everyone who is and who isn't reading this. Some of you know and some of you don't know what this year has been like so far for me. I don't use my circumstances as justification, merely as indicators of who I am. In many ways I have not been who I believe God has created me to be; but in a sense, I believe it is all part of the journey nonetheless.
Lately God and I have not been on speaking terms. In fact I haven't been on intimate speaking terms with nearly anyone. The things in mymind are staying there for the first time in a long time and it makes me happy. I realize I don't need anyone and I don't even need anything. But the great thing is that I don't care to need those people and things anymore.
Confusingly, even as I have pushed God away so far, I don't know if I have ever felt closer. He's there and will always be there.
And that is all the comfort I need.
Maybe I haven't spoken to Him in a while. And maybe when I do it isn't as loving and beautiful as I hope. But nevertheless, He is always there and I feel and know that.
But I do apologize. I have hurt people. I have injured relationships, possibly forever. But I am not the least bit angry or upset because I know He is here with me, regardless of who I am.
I do love you all. You are all in my thoughts daily. I thank God for you. I want to foster whatever He has for me. Just call--662.832.1734--I'd love to make time for whoever you are.
Lately God and I have not been on speaking terms. In fact I haven't been on intimate speaking terms with nearly anyone. The things in mymind are staying there for the first time in a long time and it makes me happy. I realize I don't need anyone and I don't even need anything. But the great thing is that I don't care to need those people and things anymore.
Confusingly, even as I have pushed God away so far, I don't know if I have ever felt closer. He's there and will always be there.
And that is all the comfort I need.
Maybe I haven't spoken to Him in a while. And maybe when I do it isn't as loving and beautiful as I hope. But nevertheless, He is always there and I feel and know that.
But I do apologize. I have hurt people. I have injured relationships, possibly forever. But I am not the least bit angry or upset because I know He is here with me, regardless of who I am.
I do love you all. You are all in my thoughts daily. I thank God for you. I want to foster whatever He has for me. Just call--662.832.1734--I'd love to make time for whoever you are.
Fall
September 20 2005
Can you feel it? The mornings are getting crisper. The leaves on campus are starting to turn a beautiful orange. Football games, Halloween, Thanksgiving...God is blessing us with a new season! Fall is here!!
Sweet
September 20 2005
Hola!
Como te llamas? YAY im speaking spanish isnt that Grand?!? WEll ANyWHo school has been cool!! i love school. Work has been really crappy jimmy got fired so now its not gonna be fun at all but thats ok cause Matt Rob. is getting hired there so he should start working in the next week or so....Im in the Church Band!!!! Woot i think its awesome cause i get to worship god, and LEAD worship for other kids which is so much fun! this wednesday will be my sec. time to play for ppl!!!
well im off to school hope everyone has a good day BYE!!!
-Ed
Como te llamas? YAY im speaking spanish isnt that Grand?!? WEll ANyWHo school has been cool!! i love school. Work has been really crappy jimmy got fired so now its not gonna be fun at all but thats ok cause Matt Rob. is getting hired there so he should start working in the next week or so....Im in the Church Band!!!! Woot i think its awesome cause i get to worship god, and LEAD worship for other kids which is so much fun! this wednesday will be my sec. time to play for ppl!!!
well im off to school hope everyone has a good day BYE!!!
-Ed
Comments are seriously lacking guys! Get it together!
September 19 2005
No more work until Thursday!! YAY! Plus pay check on Thursday!!! Double YAY!!
I'm done with classes for today...sigh...YES!
I have two papers due on Friday...I haven't started either of them!
I mailed off letters today! You'll know soon if one of them was for you! I am still accepting letters so don't worry about that!
I went to bed EARLY last night...11:00! Eeek!
We're all going to work out at around 3:15...yay!
Well I'm going with Katie over to the AOPi lodge...fun huh?
eliz
I'm done with classes for today...sigh...YES!
I have two papers due on Friday...I haven't started either of them!
I mailed off letters today! You'll know soon if one of them was for you! I am still accepting letters so don't worry about that!
I went to bed EARLY last night...11:00! Eeek!
We're all going to work out at around 3:15...yay!
Well I'm going with Katie over to the AOPi lodge...fun huh?
eliz
Just More Writing...
September 19 2005
Drifting out to wonderland,
With a .45 by my side..
Just went by the waste land,
Where poor souls go to die
With the growing stench of failure,
Reeking through my nostrils,
It's hard to breathe myself,
Staring out at the growing pyre hills.
With an excuse to persevere,
I'll push past that ship wreck,
Towards the goal kept in my mind,
Keeping myself in check.
Though I may look back,
Checking on the souls left so far behind,
I'm simply moving onward,
But leaving space for them here in my mind.
Hendersonville, Coldplay, and earrings...
September 19 2005
Alright... let me touch on my weekend and my Monday... and maybe even tomorrow.
1. Saturday (Hendersonville Golden Invitational) - First, I would like to congradulate(sp) the color guard and percussion. You guys worked so hard for those trophies. Color guard got best in class and best in show, and percussion got best in class and second in show. The horn line recieved second in class and second in show. I can't say that I am happy about the rankings, but I am proud that we did our best and that the majority of us weren't sore losers. I know that I made some mistakes, but they are all fixable. I just have to try harder, just like everyone else.
Over all, the practice, the show, and the bus rides were fun. If I could take back one thing, it would have to be that I wasn't concentrating enough in practice. I think that if we had all gotten our act togeather, and worked even harder than what we did, we would have pulled it off. But, once again, I am proud of our best.
2. Sunday (Coldplay) - :SIGH: Coldplay... that was fun. I went to the concert with Rebekah Minor. She picked me up around 6ish and we got to Starwood around 7ish. She is alot of fun. Evan is a lucky guy.
I do believe that I smelled of marijuaina(sp), cigerettes, and beer when I came home. There were 5 or 6 kids smokin' some green and everyone else was smoking cigerettes and drinking. It was pretty disgusting.
Anyway, I am pretty sure that the Coldplay show was the best concert I have ever seen. I did enjoy Blink 182 more, but, It wasn't like Coldplay. The Coldplay concert was... I don't know... easier to listen too. The songs were great, the lights and screen show was amazing... I just couldn't find anything to complain about.
Speaking of Blink 182... I think I am growing out of them. I mean, I still enjoy to listen to them, but they are just too immature for my tastes now. I am kinda leaning towards the Coldplay, Enya, Jimmy Eat World kinda thing. I don't really know though... so, don't get your hopes up.
3. My earring - Yes... You heard me right. I finally talked my parents into letting me pierce(sp) my ear. I got a stainless steel stud on my left ear. The only bad thing is, I had to agree to keep my hair shortish untill I moved out. It's all good though.
4. M.T.S.U. Honor Chior - Tomorrow... I do not have to attend Siegel High School, for I am going to be at Middle Tennessee State University, singing with the rest of the Chamber Chior, as well as chiors from all over middle Tennessee.
so, have fun at school...
Untill next time,
Stubbs
:EDIT: Happy two month Amanda! It has been great!
1. Saturday (Hendersonville Golden Invitational) - First, I would like to congradulate(sp) the color guard and percussion. You guys worked so hard for those trophies. Color guard got best in class and best in show, and percussion got best in class and second in show. The horn line recieved second in class and second in show. I can't say that I am happy about the rankings, but I am proud that we did our best and that the majority of us weren't sore losers. I know that I made some mistakes, but they are all fixable. I just have to try harder, just like everyone else.
Over all, the practice, the show, and the bus rides were fun. If I could take back one thing, it would have to be that I wasn't concentrating enough in practice. I think that if we had all gotten our act togeather, and worked even harder than what we did, we would have pulled it off. But, once again, I am proud of our best.
2. Sunday (Coldplay) - :SIGH: Coldplay... that was fun. I went to the concert with Rebekah Minor. She picked me up around 6ish and we got to Starwood around 7ish. She is alot of fun. Evan is a lucky guy.
I do believe that I smelled of marijuaina(sp), cigerettes, and beer when I came home. There were 5 or 6 kids smokin' some green and everyone else was smoking cigerettes and drinking. It was pretty disgusting.
Anyway, I am pretty sure that the Coldplay show was the best concert I have ever seen. I did enjoy Blink 182 more, but, It wasn't like Coldplay. The Coldplay concert was... I don't know... easier to listen too. The songs were great, the lights and screen show was amazing... I just couldn't find anything to complain about.
Speaking of Blink 182... I think I am growing out of them. I mean, I still enjoy to listen to them, but they are just too immature for my tastes now. I am kinda leaning towards the Coldplay, Enya, Jimmy Eat World kinda thing. I don't really know though... so, don't get your hopes up.
3. My earring - Yes... You heard me right. I finally talked my parents into letting me pierce(sp) my ear. I got a stainless steel stud on my left ear. The only bad thing is, I had to agree to keep my hair shortish untill I moved out. It's all good though.
4. M.T.S.U. Honor Chior - Tomorrow... I do not have to attend Siegel High School, for I am going to be at Middle Tennessee State University, singing with the rest of the Chamber Chior, as well as chiors from all over middle Tennessee.
so, have fun at school...
Untill next time,
Stubbs
:EDIT: Happy two month Amanda! It has been great!
Have you ever watched the stars?
September 19 2005
When was the last time you layed in the grass and watched the clouds go by? Have you held a new born baby and looked into its eyes? Did you see the moon this weekend?...
It was beautiful...God shows us miracles everyday...but are we willing to see them? Maybe the problem for you is that you see the miricles around you all the time but you never take the time to realize how great they really are. Life in its true simplicity is a miricle. I was just watching the moon this weekend and it almost made me cry...knowing how many times i have looked at it and not thanked God for his wonderful creation. Its so amazing how God creates things just so we can appreciate how beautiful they are....
But most of us never realize the beauty. Realize how beautiful your life is this week. Look at the moon tonight...even if you cant see it in the sky...you can always know its still there just as God is. Thats the real miracle.
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."- Ecclesiastes 3:11
Its funny how a night at the bowling alley can make you realize how much of a miracle your friends are. Thank you Andrea and Lisa for being my miracles.
graduation..choices, choices
September 19 2005
so, as a lot of you know, i'm planning on graduating after this year. however, there ae some details i am trying to work out right now...ahhhh.....please pray for me and that it will all work out. PLEASE!!!! that would mean so much to me! thanks! < - R
Coldplay
September 19 2005
saw coldplay, they were AMAZING!!!
Joey
Joey
School Already
September 19 2005
Weekends go by so fast.
Im always hungry.
I like my life right now.
The mist every morning makes me happy.
I cant wait for a cell phone.
I love getting in bed to sleep.
I think Ill do that.
fun times...
- J4(()8
Im always hungry.
I like my life right now.
The mist every morning makes me happy.
I cant wait for a cell phone.
I love getting in bed to sleep.
I think Ill do that.
fun times...
- J4(()8
Untitled
September 19 2005
Hey everyone! I hope you all are having a wonderful week so far. Well, the reason I'm writing on this thing is that I would appreciate it if you all could pray for me right now. I'm having a hard time being patient and not worrying about certain areas in my life, and I just really need God's help. I've been asking Him to help me in this endeavor, but I am still struggling. I want to feel content about my situation in life, but sometimes it is so hard to feel content, especially when I really want to find someone to be in a relationship with. I mean I don't want to be in a relationship with someone that God wouldn't have me be in a relationship with, and I do want to find someone who can only help enhance my relationship with God. It's just I will think I have found a great guy and then nothing works out with them and I end up feeling discouraged and rejected and unimportant. I really wish it were easier for me to just not worry or dwell on this stuff, but it isn't. And I just need some big-time prayer so I can actually learn to not dwell on this stuff. well, I have vented and discussed my problems way too much...but I greatly appreciate any prayers! Thanks
DO IT NOW!!!!!
September 19 2005
Dont wait till tomorrow,
We dont even deserve today!
We dont even deserve today!
♥Say anything♥
September 19 2005
Busy week:
Today-
Nothing big..just school
Tuesday:
Choir 8:30am-4pm MTSU
then I come home, eat ,put on a dress
Go back to MTSU and there is a concert
at 7:00pm and should last till 8pm.
It's in the Wright Music Hall.
Wednesday:
Probably church.
Thursday:
School followed by
choir practice 6:30-9pm
Friday-
School then Concert
from 6-9pm
the weekend seems open.
so if you wanna hang out
just give the phone a ring.
I'll be at my dad's Till Sunday.:♥:.
♥Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Here your voice again
Can we dim the sun..
And wonder where we've been.
Maybe you and me so..
Kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin.
I'm Melting.. I'm Melting
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me, lay with me now.
Never caught my breath
Every second I’m without you, I’m a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing?
Learning how to love
I'm melting, I'm melting
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me, lay with me now.
Stay with me, lay with me now.
You can stay and watch me fall
Just stay with me now
We can take our pants off, stay in bed
Just make love, that's all
Just stay with me now
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..
Like my first time
That I caught fire
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
I'm melting in your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
Just stay with me, lay with me now
I'm melting, I'm melting
And of course I’ll ask for...
I'm not going to obsess anymore.
I'm not going to give in anymore.
I'm not going to spend my nights staying up because of you.
I won't let the thoughts in gulf me anymore.
I won't let my mind consume my heart.
I won't let you see me cry.
You'll just have to watch me smile.
The kind of smile that made you weak in the knees.
I know you won't care.
I know you don't now.
I know I'm not the best person.
I know I try.
I can't help confusion.
I can't help make up your mind.
i can't take alot of crap.
The drama doesn't end.
Highschool is a disaster.
I've had some good times though.
I'm no longer concerned with being cool,
so different from freshman year.
Everything I do is what I want to do.
I'm not scared to stand up for myself.
&& I'm not afraid to walk away from you.
I'll keep my head up high.
I'll look you in the face.
You won't be able to see how much it hurts.
Just walking away.
I thieved this
so fill it out please
long time no talk
September 19 2005
wow i havent updated this in like a month!! well anywho! i had a boyfriend named william we kissed/madeout and hten broke up last tuesday and now i am going out wiht this really sweet guy named clint!! he is so sweet! anywho yeah i know i sound like a slut but im not
umm...nothing really drastic has happened but i promise..i will update more now! i love you and leave some remakrs!!
B.
umm...nothing really drastic has happened but i promise..i will update more now! i love you and leave some remakrs!!
B.
Another eventful day... or not.
September 19 2005
Gah. Why is it so impossible for me to work in the afternoons? I come home and I just turn into this... thing. This lazy not-worky thing. Oh well. Work has to be done some time. Guess I'll do it now.
Anywho.
Anyone want to support JROTC? We're selling some bitchin' candles. They're like the Yankee Candle Co. candles, only way less of a rip off.
You know you want one.
^_^
-Sarah the Candle Pimp
[also, Blake Keach's pimp]
::edit::
Apparently, today was International Talk Like a Pirate Day. Well, everyday is Talk Like a Pirate Day for me, but this was the international one. To celebrate, I leave you with this quizzy quiz.
My pirate name is:
Mad Mary Kidd
Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. Even though you're not always the traditional swaggering gallant, your steadiness and planning make you a fine, reliable pirate. Arr!
Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.
Anywho.
Anyone want to support JROTC? We're selling some bitchin' candles. They're like the Yankee Candle Co. candles, only way less of a rip off.
You know you want one.
^_^
-Sarah the Candle Pimp
[also, Blake Keach's pimp]
::edit::
Apparently, today was International Talk Like a Pirate Day. Well, everyday is Talk Like a Pirate Day for me, but this was the international one. To celebrate, I leave you with this quizzy quiz.
My pirate name is:
Mad Mary Kidd
Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. Even though you're not always the traditional swaggering gallant, your steadiness and planning make you a fine, reliable pirate. Arr!
Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.
coldplay..rilo kiley?
September 19 2005
was sooo fun..there were so many cool kidos there...im dead tired tho..traffic=bad gas=bad..ttyl-kels
love burns bright than sunshine < 3
September 19 2005
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine
"brighter than sunshine" by aqualung
best song ever.
a lot like love=best movie ever.
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine
"brighter than sunshine" by aqualung
best song ever.
a lot like love=best movie ever.
dis gurl paulina s
September 19 2005
hey ppl bye ppl
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September 19 2005
How is everyone?? A lot of cool things have been happening in my life but I really need your prayers for this wednesday night I will be speaking but I just ask that you would pray that God would shine through me and receive glory but other then that I just hope everyone is doing well and I love you all and just leave some comments and I will comment you back and just have a wonderful wonderful day
IN CHRIST john
IN CHRIST john
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September 19 2005
how come it seems that whenever i like a guy they never like me......? i dont think ill be asked to homecoming by anyone cuz im unliked.....at least no one will ask even if they do like me....
I am fixing to pee my pants!!!
September 19 2005
I talked to Tj on the phone today. Yeah!!!!!!!! I am going to Wal-Mart after school tomorrow to pick up my engagement ring that I pawned when Tj and I broke up. I don't know what I am going to do when I get that baby back on my finger. I am going to cry probably. I am going to see Tj at work tomorrow too. I can not wait. Well, I am going to go. Hope everyone had a good day!!!
fat lard.
September 19 2005
i just told kelly she should dress up like tina for halloween. i'm so funny. and everyone should know it. if you don't know who tina is then you are lame.
.
September 19 2005
i officially suck.
well..well..well.
September 19 2005
so, this school year's started and it's not exactly as good as i thought it'd be. i finally got my schedule figured out and i talked this guy i was dating into switching into my 1st period. but we dont' talk anymore as of sat. so it's pretty awkward. umm...i don't really have anything to say except i'm going to the Keane concert (hopefully) on wed. hope it's fun!
Yellow
September 19 2005
Man, the Coldplay show last night was.... THE. BEST. CONCERT. EVER.
New @ this
September 19 2005
Well hey there. Pretty sure I'm new @ this. Guess I'm just trying 2 keep up with everyone since I moved. Well I will try and get this lookin a little better. Talk 2 you guys l8ter!
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September 19 2005
correction now i have a..........are you ready?
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yhh
September 19 2005
school wasnt fun school isnt were i wanna be i basically didnt fill 2 hawt and people mademe mad so yea c yah
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September 19 2005
I am pretty sure I am at a point in my life where I need to realize that I need to depend 100 percent on Christ. Lately I have allowed so many little things to really bother me when it come to everything (my friends, my family, and literally everything). I just wish God would say Lauren this is where I want you and you are going to be ok. You do not have to worry about your job, where you are going to live, how you are possible going to live on the salary you will be making. I mean I feel that I have totally changed my views on certain things since this time last year. Which do not get me wrong is totally an awesome thing, because I now know what I believe and not what someone else had told me. This also makes me frustrated though, because it makes me question everyone and everything. Like for instance I am constantly overanalyzing situations and thinking people have alternative motives, when it is clear they do not, and I am the one being ridiculous. The even more ridiculous thing about me being like this is the fact I do not tell anyone what I am truely thinking. Therefore, this creates hundreds of stupid thoughts running through my head for really no reason. Anyways this is enough of my rambling.
Titans
September 19 2005
Went to the Titans game. We beat the Ravens, it was awesome.
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September 19 2005
so got in a wreak yea cars totaled
Music
September 19 2005
Ahh Music..my love and addiction..what would the world be like without music...gah i dont wanna know..i would have to be sent to a mental assylem...not good!
oooooh yuh
September 19 2005
remeber how i got that killers cd in the maiL? well today i got Duran Duran's Greatest Hits cd. ^_^ awesome, huh?
yeah.
pretty sure i almost kissed Kelsey Shearron in the hall today... it was kinda scary. hahaha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KASEY!
we're going to the Melting Pot for dinner. MMMMMMMM!!!!
but yeah... i'm out. <3
coldplay
September 19 2005
i can't go on with out saying it, "geoge strait is the king of country music and Jesus Christ is the king of the world!", but other than that... something else that needs to be said isthat the coldplay concert was absolutely amazing...
it was more of an experience than a concert and it seemed that's what they were going for...
perfection...
favorite moment... when he said goodnight as he reached up and turned off the lantern (or the johnny cash tribute stuff) that was hanging from the rafters...
sorry if you missed it...
it was more of an experience than a concert and it seemed that's what they were going for...
perfection...
favorite moment... when he said goodnight as he reached up and turned off the lantern (or the johnny cash tribute stuff) that was hanging from the rafters...
sorry if you missed it...
blah
September 19 2005
today was boring! As usual, but I must say that my weekend has been the best.
Friday;; Went to the homecoming game, we so lost, I just mostly hung out with my friends half the night. Then later after the game was a movie. It kept skipping so they started it all over! Bummer! heh. So it was Abby, Matt, Chelsey, John and I just sitting on the bleachers talking. I love them
Friday;; Went to the homecoming game, we so lost, I just mostly hung out with my friends half the night. Then later after the game was a movie. It kept skipping so they started it all over! Bummer! heh. So it was Abby, Matt, Chelsey, John and I just sitting on the bleachers talking. I love them
Band
September 19 2005
16 hours of band on Saturday is NOT going to be fun!
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September 19 2005
my car died....this isn't good. This is like the 2nd or 3rd time. If anyone loves me enough to take me to Intercession tonight I would love them very much....:-(
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September 19 2005
For all that You've done
I will thank You
For all that You're going to do
For all that You promised
and all that You are
Is all that has carried me through
Jesus, I thank You
Thank You for loving and setting me free
Thank You for giving Your life just for me
How I thank You
Jesus I thank You
I gratefully thank You
And I thank You
And I thank You
I thank You, Lord
And I thank You
I thank You, Lord
I will thank You
For all that You're going to do
For all that You promised
and all that You are
Is all that has carried me through
Jesus, I thank You
Thank You for loving and setting me free
Thank You for giving Your life just for me
How I thank You
Jesus I thank You
I gratefully thank You
And I thank You
And I thank You
I thank You, Lord
And I thank You
I thank You, Lord
Please Take Me on a Captivating Journey...
September 19 2005
"Imagine a beautiful castle and a beautiful king/ He left the comfort of his throne to fight for victory/ Love woke me up this morning and I ran to see/ The king in the winner's circle/ Only a king would do anything/ To protect the kingdom..." -Bethany Dillon
I don't know when the last time I sat down and really thought how great and awesome and amazing my Savior is. I've been so busy with school... as I sit here typing I'm thinking of the homework I should be doing and the meeting I need to go to later but I really don't want to.
"So remind me why You woke me up/ And why You wake me every morn/ The staff in my hand/ Held in love by your hand/ Just to stay close, stay close..." -Bethany Dillon
I'm not passionate about geology or HSA or Collage or blog assignmets or many of the other things that I feel are tying me down... 3/4 of these things I cannot break from... what do I do? I suppose I just try to get through them... and pray that God would reveal Himself to me through everything...
*EDIT* I guess I'm in sort of a waiting period... since I'm in the middle of a new beginning, it's like I have to be adjusted to everything before I can really jump into certain things... things I am passionate about. We all have to wait for a lot of things in life. I just hope that I can always remember to look to Christ alone as He leads me through my journey...
I don't know when the last time I sat down and really thought how great and awesome and amazing my Savior is. I've been so busy with school... as I sit here typing I'm thinking of the homework I should be doing and the meeting I need to go to later but I really don't want to.
"So remind me why You woke me up/ And why You wake me every morn/ The staff in my hand/ Held in love by your hand/ Just to stay close, stay close..." -Bethany Dillon
I'm not passionate about geology or HSA or Collage or blog assignmets or many of the other things that I feel are tying me down... 3/4 of these things I cannot break from... what do I do? I suppose I just try to get through them... and pray that God would reveal Himself to me through everything...
*EDIT* I guess I'm in sort of a waiting period... since I'm in the middle of a new beginning, it's like I have to be adjusted to everything before I can really jump into certain things... things I am passionate about. We all have to wait for a lot of things in life. I just hope that I can always remember to look to Christ alone as He leads me through my journey...
...umm....
September 19 2005
today sucked...major boringness...
get to go to my mom's piano teacher's recital...fun fun...you know it...
i'm getting sick of this house...LET ME OUT...i want to do something this fall break to get me away from all the madness...
well, i love you all and i'll be back when i can..
[[becca]]
get to go to my mom's piano teacher's recital...fun fun...you know it...
i'm getting sick of this house...LET ME OUT...i want to do something this fall break to get me away from all the madness...
well, i love you all and i'll be back when i can..
[[becca]]
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September 19 2005
I really don't have much to say, but I just got a facebook, so check it out! Anyway, have an awesome day!
BE FRI
September 19 2005
photo from bouclee
this is my best friend. and this is why.
she is amazing. seriously. you all should get one.
Photo From NeoDaydream
September 19 2005
"Sayonara --- Even my last words don't reach you
I'm made to realize the coldness of the parting
I wish I could have heard from you
That you never regretted the days we had spent together
Only once, even if it had been a lie"
-Ayumi Hamasaki
photo from NeoDaydream
I'm made to realize the coldness of the parting
I wish I could have heard from you
That you never regretted the days we had spent together
Only once, even if it had been a lie"
-Ayumi Hamasaki
photo from NeoDaydream
A random Blog
September 19 2005
This is gonna be totally random.
I took some pictures of WIshes(a magical celebration of disney dreams) last night from West Clock(where I catch the bus home). though it's not from in front of the castle, it's still cool. kinda funny that i've only been here a month and I can pick parts of the music out based on what fireworks are in the air. . .by January I'll be able to sing the whole song along with the show. . .
I have determined what i'm really really afraid of. please, don't laugh. . . all my life we use a bucket in the sink to do dishes, that way, if the water sits too long, you can just pour it out w/o touching it. . .well. my roomies don't like this philosophy, so they've removed the bucket my mom purchased when she brought me down here. . .and I've come to the conclusion, that I can't touch cold dirty dishwater. . .I can usually touch it if it's hot, but not cold. . .don't laugh
I have Wednesday and Thursday off this week. I might go to the beach. and then. for the weekend i'm supposed to come home, i definetly was given a 10 hour shift on saturday. dang scheduler. . .i guess i'll be calling in sick that weekend. b/c the plane tickets are already bought.
well that is all, have a magical day! (b/c Lord knows mine is gonna be full of magic :: rolls eyes ::)
oh, and nathan, I love how if i accidently hit back on my browser and then forward to come back to my post, i don't lose it all(knock on wood!)
I took some pictures of WIshes(a magical celebration of disney dreams) last night from West Clock(where I catch the bus home). though it's not from in front of the castle, it's still cool. kinda funny that i've only been here a month and I can pick parts of the music out based on what fireworks are in the air. . .by January I'll be able to sing the whole song along with the show. . .
I have determined what i'm really really afraid of. please, don't laugh. . . all my life we use a bucket in the sink to do dishes, that way, if the water sits too long, you can just pour it out w/o touching it. . .well. my roomies don't like this philosophy, so they've removed the bucket my mom purchased when she brought me down here. . .and I've come to the conclusion, that I can't touch cold dirty dishwater. . .I can usually touch it if it's hot, but not cold. . .don't laugh
I have Wednesday and Thursday off this week. I might go to the beach. and then. for the weekend i'm supposed to come home, i definetly was given a 10 hour shift on saturday. dang scheduler. . .i guess i'll be calling in sick that weekend. b/c the plane tickets are already bought.
well that is all, have a magical day! (b/c Lord knows mine is gonna be full of magic :: rolls eyes ::)
oh, and nathan, I love how if i accidently hit back on my browser and then forward to come back to my post, i don't lose it all(knock on wood!)
...is everybody right with the Lord tonight?
September 19 2005
coldplay rocked last night! i loved it! so, yeah, there was definetely weed all around us! sooo hilarious and then...brett and i lost my car so we sat on a hill until i realized where we had parked!!!
seats were AMAZING cause kelsey let us sneak in with her at the front of the lawn..
so tired and about to fall asleep in class...cause 1 AM is not a good time to go to bed..
_bekah
seats were AMAZING cause kelsey let us sneak in with her at the front of the lawn..
so tired and about to fall asleep in class...cause 1 AM is not a good time to go to bed..
_bekah
bom bom bombombom bombombom bombombom
September 19 2005
In case you didn't notice, the bombomboms are the sound of the drums from The Last Of The Mohicans.
Just wanted to say 'my bad' to jonseal and laurabee for not acknowledging your remarks; we haven't had the net at my house for a few days.
Jon, sometimes I wish I was an only kid...hehe
LBR, yay-yuh, he'll be okay. He's just a different sort of cookie. I can't imagine operating the way he does, but he always seems to manage.
Holla at you peeps later, this spacebar on this keyboard in the library is sticking and is really loud and annoying to all. HOLLLAAAAAAAAA
the heefus
Just wanted to say 'my bad' to jonseal and laurabee for not acknowledging your remarks; we haven't had the net at my house for a few days.
Jon, sometimes I wish I was an only kid...hehe
LBR, yay-yuh, he'll be okay. He's just a different sort of cookie. I can't imagine operating the way he does, but he always seems to manage.
Holla at you peeps later, this spacebar on this keyboard in the library is sticking and is really loud and annoying to all. HOLLLAAAAAAAAA
the heefus
i am a quitter
September 19 2005
so i do not really like this phusebox thing and i dont particularly understand some stuff so i think i am gonna shut it down.. and forget about it...
pray for the prisoners
September 19 2005
Prisoner List
hey everybody, i just want to encourage you to take a look at this list and pick maybe 2 or 3 to pray for today and maybe for a week, or month, or whatever.
we must not forget these in prison who are preaching God's word with boldness and confidence even through hardships.
it should remind us of how fortunate we are to go to a church freely, to speak of God freely and all we might suffer is ridicule.
Josh
hey everybody, i just want to encourage you to take a look at this list and pick maybe 2 or 3 to pray for today and maybe for a week, or month, or whatever.
we must not forget these in prison who are preaching God's word with boldness and confidence even through hardships.
it should remind us of how fortunate we are to go to a church freely, to speak of God freely and all we might suffer is ridicule.
Josh
Bound?
September 19 2005
photo from clint
Those that are bound know not what it is to be free. The tragedy are those people that have been set free but continue to put the chains back on.
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Galatians 5:22-23
OH YEAH
September 19 2005
How we praise God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we belong to Christ. Long ago, even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. His unchanging plan has always been to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. And this gave him great pleasure. So we praise God for the wonderful kindness he has poured out on us because we belong to his dearly loved Son. He is so rich in kindness that he purchased our freedom through the blood of his Son, and our sins are forgiven. He has showered his kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding.
God's secret plan has now been revealed to us; it is a plan centered on Christ, designed long ago according to his good pleasure. And this is his plan: At the right time he will bring everything together under the authority of Christ--everything in heaven and on earth.
Furthermore, because of Christ, we have received an inheritance from God,[a] for he chose us from the beginning, and all things happen just as he decided long ago. God's purpose was that we who were the first to trust in Christ should praise our glorious God. And now you also have heard the truth, the Good News that God saves you. And when you believed in Christ, he identified you as his own by giving you the Holy Spirit, whom he promised long ago. The Spirit is God's guarantee that he will give us everything he promised and that he has purchased us to be his own people. This is just one more reason for us to praise our glorious God.
Ephesians 1:3-14
God's secret plan has now been revealed to us; it is a plan centered on Christ, designed long ago according to his good pleasure. And this is his plan: At the right time he will bring everything together under the authority of Christ--everything in heaven and on earth.
Furthermore, because of Christ, we have received an inheritance from God,[a] for he chose us from the beginning, and all things happen just as he decided long ago. God's purpose was that we who were the first to trust in Christ should praise our glorious God. And now you also have heard the truth, the Good News that God saves you. And when you believed in Christ, he identified you as his own by giving you the Holy Spirit, whom he promised long ago. The Spirit is God's guarantee that he will give us everything he promised and that he has purchased us to be his own people. This is just one more reason for us to praise our glorious God.
Ephesians 1:3-14
kallie gritton is my hero :)
September 19 2005
it's not even 9am yet!!!!
September 19 2005
so this morning has been horrible! i had to wake up at 6am so that i could take the dogs out before i had to be at work at 8, and the dogs were so sad that i couldn't spend any time with them. then i walked straight into a spider web where the spider was hanging like, 3 inches off of me (NO exaggeration!) and this spider was like the size of a dime. not one of those little black spiders. THEN i was late to school and when i went to maintenance to park (which it's never filled at 8am) there was NOWHERE to park! so i had to park out past cummings hall and walk to the LRC which isnt' really bad, but while walking, i dropped my black hoodie somwhere so i had to go back and retrace my steps to look for it! so i ended up being like 20 minutes late for work and i feel horrible :( hopefully my day will get better!
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September 19 2005
Yum...I made coffee cakes.
Friendship
September 19 2005
So... I haven't posted in a while. I've been meaning to though. LOL What's running through my head at the moment? Well... I feel trapped sometimes in my head. God is the only one that understands, I guess, but is it wrong to wish that I had someone I could truly confide to? I was thinking... I used to say I could truly confide in Jeffrey, but I really never did. I couldn't tell him a lot of what I was feeling about a situation because I was afraid of his reaction. I went and saw a movie with him tonight and I realized just how much I missed him being who he was, thinking that I might just be better off letting go more than I have. It made me stop and realize that I've been clinging on to our ever deteriorating friendship because I don't feel I have anyone else. This happened when I thought to myself that I used to have a circle of friends and don't know what happened to them. I have friends, but not a circle. I don't even hang out with anyone anymore, mainly because of work. I'm sorry this is so dang selfish and pity-party-ish... but I'm #1- very tired and #2- very sad about loosing such a close friend and not sure how to handle it. I mean, this guy is suppose to be the best-man at my wedding. Anyways... I'll leave it at that. It just makes me sad and realize how much I need to stop leaning on others and lean on God. I guess that's what this is suppose to teach me. Don't know... Gah I'm tired. lol
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September 18 2005
coldplay is amazing and put on an amazing show. after the disappointment of the b-ham show being postponed, I was able to get lawn seats from my roommate to tonights show at starwood. we had amazing seats. dead center, right behind the seats. they were beautiful and they put on what could very possibly be the best show i have ever been to. i want to be chris martin.
Hopelessly Infatuated
September 18 2005
Yeah so. I tried an open relationship with this amazing girl. We dated for five months, but then decided that we might be better off if we allowed each other space to allow dating other people. I never knew it would be so hard to not be attracted to this girl long after we had "called it quits for a while." Well, I went back and saw her this weekend, and I couldn't help it. I had to ask her if she'd quit this madness and go back out with me. I'm happy to say that she agreed with me and accepted happily. I know that I couldn't be happier at this moment. Good weekend.