Okay, boredom is my thought for the day. My english teacher sophomore year, Mrs. Wright- whom I miss, would say you are only bored because you choose to be bored. I totally agree with that. I don't know if any of you Riverdalian people out there had her and remember her saying that. So what if I choose to be bored. Actually I like it. lol. If you enjoy boredom. . then ENJOY IT ALL YOU CAN! My boredom relaxes me!  So at the moment, I'm quite relaxed. I must go! I love all of you beautiful people out there!

~*Cayla*~

"Look at him, he's filthy rich!"
"I don't know, he looks like a rather clean old man to me."

"Ooooh, Britannia, Britannia rules the *SPLASH!*"
"Looks like he got torpedoed again."

"When the white snow colors the city
Let me stay by your side
Though I may bother you
Again and again"
-Ayu (Carols)

"Even in my age now, I'm the same as before
As timid as before
I only learn how to pretend to be strong"
-Ayu (No Way to Say)

LET EVERYONE TAKE NOTICE!!!! I NOW HAVE A DIGITAL CAMERA..... I HAVE A VERY SUSPICIOUS FEELING THAT IT IS VERY PROBABLE THAT PHUSEBOX WILL BE INUNDATED WITH PICS NOT TOO LONG FROM NOW.

-JEFF

I had a bad talk with matt.  its so confusing with our past.  we always fight and i don't know how to stop it.  I don't know how to not be critical with him.  When you give someone so much of yourself and it seems like all he wants to do is not care and buy a camero with ALL of his savings.  How is he going to get into college?  How will he pay for it.  He calls my parents effing stuck up and then doesn't answer the phone.

I left him two messages.  I guess this break up is worse than I thought.  I am having a hard time with this alone thing.  Blake turned out to be a total selfish jerk.  He only likes to do things if they benifit him personally, and he doesn't include spending time with me benificial.  What is that? Why don't I matter?  what is wrong with me.  There isn't anything wrong with me.  I'm not ugly and I'm not obesse, so if he's all about looks, i really don't lose there.  Especially since he's not a Brad Pitt either.  My personality:  I'm random, I love to laugh, I have my off days, I CARE about people.  I just don't understand.  Other people don't have a problem (mostly). You win some you lose some.

Boys are stupid. (and make sure you understand i said BOYS not men)

A real man....

Essence

by: Margaret Naples

It’s not me,

It’s you.

It’s not what you wear on the outside,

It’s what you wear on your heart.

I know you little,

I will love you much.

It’s not the color or style of your locks,

It’s what’s in your mind.

I am struggling for you,

Will you remember my chains?

It’s not the feel of your lips.

Only what they exhale.

Will you never show me favor?

Serve me and serve yourself, I want an angel for Zion.

Okay...so it's been such an emotional week. It's been all too much for me to handle. I lost people who I thought really cared about me. There are a few good things that came from all of this though:

1. I ran back to my family. I talked to my brother for an hour tonight. I told him how I've been so messed up lately. Dad called, I told him I was going to move back home, and the first question he asked was, "Did you and the boys have a fight?" How does he know me so well? I didn't want him to know he was right, so I responded with a no. Mommy's coming tomorrow at 12, when my classes end, to help me move out. I need her to hold me, and pet my head like when I was a child, and not ask questions. She never does, she's just always there to love me. I have been talking with my cousin. Elizabeth. I think I need her more in my life. She is a little younger than me, but she can understand me I think. And I just need someone to hang out with, talk to, and be girly with.

2. I relied on my girl friends. I got so wrapped up in the guys that I really didn't have too many girl friends. And Jes, my roomie has been gone for 6 weeks. So I have strengthened my relationships with Lindsey, Irina, Jessica, B, and Elizabeth. I love you all so much!

3. Since I was having my own great depression, I ran back to God. I have been so far from him, and have changed so much. I can already see that He is helping me. Thank God for mercy and grace. Thank Him for always taking me back. I cannot fathom taking someone like me back, when I left him. I'm so sorry.

4. I'm focusing on the things I forgot. Schoolwork, God, family, friends.

5. I learned a lot from all this tragedy...not really good, but...

So I'm moving home to get my life back in order. I'll be attending college and hopefully working. I'll definitely be working out. I plan on taking Mom and Ryan to the gym with me. I'll get my body, my confidence, my life,my grades, MYSELF back.

I can already see some of me returning. Some of the old high school bad, some of the January good. I'm going to try to sift into the perfect, exuberant me. Tomorrow hopefully Mommy and me can get pedis and manis, and go shopping. And maybe, I can get my hair fixed. I want to feel special!

we took band pictures today it was ok >>>>>>>

<<<<<<<then the fun began>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<no one wanted to go back to 2nd period

<<<<<<<so all the algebra 2 kids stayed in the uniform closet >>>>>>>

we got bored with talking >>>>>>>

<<<<<<<about how apathetic alex the wrestler could take us all>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<so we had a people staking contest

<<<<<<<but we had no opponents>>>>>>>

so we all sat in jenny's lap>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<jenny then will then me then chris then danielle>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<apathetic alex wouldnt join the fun

<<<<<<<he missed out>>>>>>>

the tower soon fell>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<becuase jenny's legs hurt>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<the end

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

tomorrow>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<is the jason mraz concert!>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<its gonna be amrazing

<<<<<<<runout is tomorrow too>>>>>>>

itll be great fun>>>>>>>

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

<<<<<<< i love you>>>>>>>

<<<<<<< this is fun>>>>>>>

well guys...i'm about to get into this whole Christmas thing...haha...i make it sound like it's no big deal. well i'm starting to really get to the point to where it is...i need to purchase things for my loved ones...but i have no idea what to do for most people...a few people i have some ideas. so i need to get crackin' on this whole gift thing-a-ma-bob. heh.

wanna talk about embarassment.......my friend's dog urinated on my leg this evening. ain't that somthin'? haha. i really didn't know how to feel. it was awkward...it's never happened before, and i hope it will never happen ever again. it was funny though. oh well

PRAY FOR SNOW OR ICE OR SOMETHING!!!!!!

-KYLE

..this would be it. I'm sick as a dog. I can't afford to miss another day of school. I just have to suck it up. I have 3 test and 2 homework assignments due tommorow. I'm going unconditional of my health (whether it depreciates my condition or not); I have no choice. I must go.

So if there was anytime, ANY time that schools should close NOW OF ALL TIMES WOULD BE PERFECT FOR ME AND EVERYONE ELSE IN RUTHERFORD COUNTY WITH SICKNESS AND FUSTRATION OF EXAM HARDY TEACHERS!

Well, we had a choir concert tonight and it wasnt too shabby. haha Here are some WONDERFUL (haha ML and Lisa) pics from it...I have the greatest friends!!

Have a great weekend!! God bless!

Andrea

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."- 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

tee hee! :o)

Well according to Grady (the 4 year old I babysit for) I want a trumpet or trombone, the conversation:

Grady: Miss. Megan what do you want for christmas?
Me: I don't know Grady, what do you think I want?
Grady: I think you want a trumpet! Or maybe a trombone.
Me: Really, I think that would be a great present
Grady: Yes it would be.

Yea this is a kid who has a trumpet, trombone, french horn, and a ufonioum (sp), and all I have is a clarinet, wow does he have an advantage over me!!!

she's 18...
i've grown up with her and i cant imagine life without my sister.
she's growing up too fast and so am i :(

1. You measure distance in minutes.
2. You've ever had to switch from "heat" to "A/C" in the same day.
3. You use "fix" as a verb. Example: "I'm fixing to go to the store "
4. All the festivals across the state are named after a fruit, vegetable, grain, insect or animal.
5. You install security lights on your house and garage and leave both unlocked.
6. You know what a "VOL" is.
7. You carry jumper cables in your car...for your OWN car.
8. It has ever snowed and reached 75 degrees in the same week.
9. You only own four spices: salt, pepper, Tabasco and Ketchup
10. The local papers cover national and international news on one page but require 6 pages for local gossip and sports.
11. You think that the first day of deer season is a national holiday.
12. You find 100 degrees Fahrenheit "a little warm".
13. You know all four seasons: Almost Summer, Summer, still Summer and Christmas. [This is freakin' true. No doubt.]
14. You know whether another Tennessean is from east, west or middle Tennessee as soon as they open their mouth.
15. Going to Wal-mart is a favorite past time known as "goin' Wal-martin" or off to "Wally World".
16. You describe the first cool snap (below 70 degrees) as good pinto-bean weather.
17. A carbonated soft drink isn't a soda, cola or pop...it's a Coke, regardless of brand or flavor. Example: "What kinda coke you want?"
18. Fried catfish is the other white meat.
19. You understand these jokes.

I love being from the South.

im leeeeeeeeegaaaaaaaaaaallllllll!!!!!!!!!!

Jamie, what you doing now?
What you doing now girl?
Please, please tell me
Cause I need to know, I need to know now
When I was down, you came to me
And promised you'd always be
By my side, now you're gone
And I'm waiting patiently
Jamie, I want you to know

Jamie, oh Jamie, I'm so glad you're mine
We'll be together a long time

Jamie, what you doing now?
He's dialin' your car phone
Please, please be true
You know that I trust you, do that which you must do
When I was down, you came to me
And promised you'd always be
By my side, now you're gone
And I'm waiting patiently
Jamie, I want you to know

Jamie, oh Jamie, I'm so glad you're mine
We'll be together a long time

You've got the Beach Boys, and your firm's got the Stones
But I know you won't leave me alone

Sometimes it seems you're not with me
It hurts me so much, it hurts me so much
Sometimes it seems you're not with me
It hurts me so much, it hurts me so much

You are the most, you're so rad, you're so fresh
And I'm so glad I am yours, you are mine
Show me where and I will sign
When I was down, you came to me
And promised you'd always be
By my side, now you're gone
And I'm waiting, waiting

Jamie, oh Jamie, I'm so glad you're mine
We'll be together a long time
-Dashboard Confessional

so.... today sux... im not at school... i guess i just needed a day to myself ... ya know to sit and think about things... i need to figure out who i am and what i want out of life... i mean im 16 ... thats to close to being an adult and im still here confuzed as to what it is i want to do when i get out of HS...  i dont know who my real friends are any more.... and not b/c they have turned into horrible ppl and no one has stabbed me in the back.... its just that ppl are changing... and i am changing or not changing.... my best friend my freshman year.... isnt the same person i meet the first day of school... i dont know who she is any more.... its all just soooo confuzing... but some times i think its just that every one is growing up.... but i still just want to be myself and act my age ... im NOT ready to grow up yet.... if i dont have to y shuld i?.... i just want to have fun for my last year and a half of skool... and for some reason thats why i love hangin w/ freshmen and sophomores... b/c they are still young and immature... and to me thats fun... i think thats also why all my friends do drug... b/c they ar soooo funny... and sara IS 18... and shes still free spirited... i love that girl... she keeps me goin every day ... i dont think ive ever gone in to 2nd period mad... i cant ....and of course there are others...  its just so hard... when u finally do realize that u and a friend are drifting b/c of change how do u tell them that this is happening w/ out them getting mad... b/c unless they see it to... the they will be mad.... or upset.... well i guess i really did need this day off... keep me in ur thoughts guys i love you all!!
~tRISH

sorry if u have read my xanga  i know its the same thing.... oh well...

time flies by. I can't believe that I'm already through my first semester of college. It feels like only yesterday I was walking that line at graduation. It's hard to imagine that it's all really moving this fast. I was thinking about it all the other day.

It seems like not long ago I was sitting in history class passing notes instead of paying complete attention to DBo, that I was going to long rehearsals and living off of fast food and junk from a vending machine. It seems as though just the other day I was panicing because I did't know who I was going to go to Prom with. It seems as if it was just yesterday that I was desperately wishing to escape high school.

I look back and sometimes I'm just flooded by the memories of all the things that happened to me. I can recall things absolutely clearly sometimes. I remember breakfast every morning with the same group of people. We told the same stupid jokes all the time, but they were still freakin hilarious. I remember card games and playing I Never, BS and Palace. Lunch with best friends and CSI in CJII. I remember Prom and Graduation, the party after and the crazy things we loved to pull. I remeber ejector seats and stolen shoes shiny black pants and random comments. I remember roses and bears and a going away party, can hockey and guys trapping squirrels. Potash and Freshman, two halves of one brain. It's almost like no time has really passed.

It's funny how time flies. Especially when you aren't paying attention.

saturday, morgan, my mom, and myself are going to see the rockettes and eat somewhere good...any suggestions on where to eat??

sunday is my birthday...family is going to bell buckle for lunch...

can you tell all holidays in my family center around food?  yummy!

well, it takes a lot to get me down, and a little to get me up. and last night was a great night at church.  God deffedently moved last night.  so then it was off to school this morning. it was a regular day. pretty good, i was in a good mood, then i went to change back into my regular clothes after basketball practice, and someone stole my wallet.  They broke in my locker, put their hands in my pockets, took my wallet, put their hands in my wallet, took MY money, and then through my wallet into the trash.  That was a good thing, i found my wallet. so the moral of the story is, dont leave ur things without u being able to see them.  And wow, yea was i mad today after school.  It is just the point of someone else's hands on my stuff, and them taking it and using my money.  that just got to me a little bit.  But o well, ill have a great day tomorrow.   Cya busta's

"Then Asa called to the Lord his God and said, 'Lord, there is no one lke you to help the powerless against the mighty.  Help us, O lord our God, for we rely on you, and in your name we have come against this vast army.  O Lord, you are our God; do not let man prevail against you.'"

2 Chronicles 14:11

~ Never think that you know who your friends are, and that they are honest. When I think of friendship, for some reason or other, I automatically correlate trust with the word. Is that not accurate? Am I somehow off the mark here? I don't think so. I won't go into detail too much with names and all, but I'll say that some that are leaving this semester from BPC are going on a sour note with me and I am very disappointed and hurt by them. Some things I found out today that I have been lied to about have not only upset me but also someone that I consider to be my best friend. It's not so much what the lie was, even though it did affect my best friend, as much as in that it was a lie. I don't tolerate lying. I give up on people and don't give second chances with lying. If you're my friend, you don't lie to me. Period, that's it. ~

Well, so I basically have got the handle on this thing. Today was heck, too much JROTC stuff, and on top of that I got in trouble for being insubordinate and swearing in uniform. Say La Vi, or some French thing like that; anyways, it means that's just life. I have a lot more to say, but people normally don't read LOONG posts. So, I will save the rest for another time. LoL Some funny stuff, too!

Have you ever gotten sucked into a random show? Well, my guilty pleasure is Project Runway. Perhaps I secretly long to be a fashion designer, or perhaps I like seeing the clothes. I think it is that I like seeing gay men cry and create more drama then any girls could. You should see what happens when fabric is stolen.

On a totally unrelated note, why is it now that other girls are finally figuring out that the guys I have know for years are really awesome. The first one was Brian King, the next one was Jeff Wood and the last was Jimmy Taylor. I knew how funny these guys were in Elementry school, I suppose it just took others a little bit to catch on.

Onto a different topic, I seem not to be in the Christmas spirit. No amount of Christmas movies or carols seem to be getting me there. I just think it is that I feel it almost useless for people to spending money on toys and things when there are others suffering. Also, people want to give me gifts and all I want to be able to do is to pay for college. I really don't need a pair of 50 dollar earrings. I feel like a Scrooge.

I would like snow, but lets just all hope for ice.

Cara

You are my supply
My breath of life
Still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
Worth living for
Still more awesome than I know

                 

I felt my world almost collapse today.
i cant remember the last time i cried... yet today i haven't been able to stop

I guess the thought of losing my best friend overwhelmed me.
I cant describe how sick my stomache felt all day after seeing her like that. It breaks my heart to see GG cry because of something i've done.

yet it had to be done.. it would have been done sooner or later. I think we both knew that deep down..

the thread that first bound us is no longer holding us together. But its ok, because we built on it these past 3 years and stronger ones are in place to take care of the one that is no longer there.

I feel like total SHIT but then i also feel completely FREE...like a huge weight has been lifted off of me and now i can't wait to spreadd my wings and see where they take me.

Today i also realized how great of friends i have... Josef, Cindy, Chante, Christian, Heather, Jennifer,Malory and even Allen. I'm happy that i have the support that i needed so desperatly.

My MOther is Amazing...

Hope like Hell we wont have school tomorrow.

ok so this is my first entry I have had this for about a month now but i have decided to write... I am finally home for Christmas!! thats right and its about time. i am ready to be away from sarah!! Christmas is a blessing more that anyone knows (no sarah)! this is a good thing.. i am ready to just relax, but my mom has me running to atlanta every day next week it seems like! The only reason this makes me mad is for the fact that i wont see ryan! i really do love him and its not just to be married because please there are so many problems that we are going to have.. but i think in the end it will be ok.. ok mr and mrs smith is on i just thought that it was time to post!

i definitely feel really really old compaired to many of the other members of this site.... i graduated high school in 01 and many of the others i see around here have 09.... wow, that's all i've got to say

The truth is, I am lost in the past.
Lost in something so great...something I had 
..but dont have anymore.

I'm fairly convinced that study days just make me more nervous about exams. Sitting in my dorm room doesn't help...too many shiny, fun, happy distractions. Maybe I should take a nap for a few minutes instead of studying? Watch a movie?

"Bobby, how do you fail English, you speak English?"

HEY EVERYBODY

MY LIFE IS GREAT MY FRAT IS THE BEST AND DIDN'T HAVE TRACK PRACTICE TODAY SCORE.  BUT WE WATCHED O BROTHER WHER ART THOU  ITS THE BEST. BUT HOW IS EVERYONE I HOPE THE BEST BUTANYWAYS I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE SO YALL ASK QUESTIONS AND I WILL ANSWER BYE BYE

scratch that last post. garret, i beat it. i just got 710 points at solitaire. heck ya

piece

how many times have i woken up thinking, how did i make it through yesterday? as i predicted, sam's back with her ex. oh, well, no reason to cry over spilt milk. and its definite, this drummer's retired!!! band's not cooperating, so i just decided to leave it. had a great song written too. i'll post it later on. ever wonder if what ur trying to do is really worth the work? guess what, IT'S NOT!

saben que, ya estoy cansado de escribir en ingles. solo se que esta vida es dificil, y yo ya no quiero ser quien yo soy.

adois, el niño español.

when i saw garret say he got 705 points playing solitare, i said to my self "i've never kept score playing solitaire, but i'll start, i'm i'm going to beat him. well, i scored 700. i was so close. garret, you better watch out, i'm comin close.

piece

i am going to kill two little boys and a drum set.

Purer than snow
Whiter than a dove
It fades like the morning sun
Innocence lost.

            - Me

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it.

4days till midterms.
1week till Christmas Break.
17 days till Christmas.
23 days till New Years.
Yayuh!!
What's the time?
Well it's gotta be close to midnight
My body's talking to me
It says, "Time for danger"
It says "I wanna commit a crime
Wanna be the cause of a fight
Wanna put on a tight skirt and flirt
With a stranger"
I've had a knack from way back
At breaking the rules once I learn the games
Get up - life's too quick
I know someplace sick
Where this chick'll dance in the flames
We don't need any money
I always get in for free
You can get in too
If you get in with me

After awhile you learn

the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn that love doesn't mean possession

and company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises and you begin to accept

your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead

with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build your roads today

because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans

and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight.

After awhile you learn that even sunshine

burns if you get too much so you plant your

own garden and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure

that you really are strong

and you really do have worth

and you learn

and you learn...

Life's pretty much messed up right now. You see, I haven't been with God for a while. I've seen my world becoming a mess, and yet I just kept on with the way I was living. I thank the Lord that I didn't do a certain and devastating action. Last night was the end for me. I was at the lowest I have ever been in my life. I tried to go to bed, but I knew that I needed God. I got up, grabbed the Bible, and began to read. It calmed me, and I prayed that God would help me to sleep. Right after I said those words, I fell into slumber. I had so much on my mind that I would've been up all night. Everything just hit the fan last night. My best friends have left me. They were misinformed, and don't want to continue friendship with me. I guess they weren't really my friends if they would do that. I'm so confused. I've made so many wrong choices lately. I think I will be returning home in the spring, try to fix myself. Right now, I just want my mommy. I'm 19, and I want my mommy. I don't want to talk about anything, I just need her to comfort me. Hold me, tell me everything will be okay. I've lost everything.

Coca-Cola to Launch New Coffee-Infused Soda
I'm sure Brian already has the release date on his calendar.

freezing and rain dont got together well....
me have my socks wet even worse
so rain plus cold plus no snow equals school

i had one of the best mornings ever
justin tackled me(hehehe)
he jumped about 2 in off of the ground
that  made my morning

math was ok... had the teacher next to us
he is an awesome teacher
better then couch rivas

health took a test....
latin read a translation... and
talked about pompeian gov.

enlish i am making a 95 in there
yeah i have a test in there

lauch was an odd one
goof around
had food
yeah thats noraml

science was funny
as usal cheated on a test
big woop

history took the test.. which i took my time on
wow...... yeah thats normal

well thats alll fokes nothing other then that later

                meg

I will miss hanging out with Lindsey and Page in geology.
But I will NOT miss geology class!

I will miss having a Russian teacher with random, funny stories.
I will NOT miss math!

I will miss theatre appreciation.
I will NOT be sad to move on to other aspects of theatre.

I will miss Dr. Spires.
I will NOT miss Dr. Spires' tests.

I will miss discussions in Dr. Therrien's class.
I will NOT miss Dr. Therrien's grading scale.

I will miss having two classes with Garrett.
I will NOT miss him messing with my M&M's!

I will miss helping Ms. C during scholarship work.
I will NOT miss driving off campus to go help her.

Five finals, one Friday, one Monday, and three Tuesday. Yes, three. Fun times. Pray for all of them, especially geology on Monday!

"Then again, most of the world still uses Windoze, so what should i
expect, really? But it begs the question: Are most people dumb enough
to use Windoze because the education system is so poor? Or is the
education so poor because most people are dumb enough to use Windoze?
Makes you wonder…"

I found this hilarious...I am not trying to be mean to those who like or use Windows or PCs.

Later
JT

i found out today that by the time i retire i'm going to be a millionaire... seriously.

i think my jaw literally hit the floor.

So it's like 24 degrees today! And we are supposed to get more snow tonight! I am not looking forward to this!! I want to be warm! I am starting to regret staying here!

Hey yall! haha i sound a bit countRRY! ha! well im just sitting in here in math class at the computer lab! takin the stuiped GW practice! YES i made a 80!! haha im so proud of my self!!!!!  well any who! im just bored and thought id update! o and rob if you read this! YOUR STUIPED! haha just kidding i love you! haha and SHAYNE TOO!

this time it happened, it's the worst so far.

pray harder than you ever have...

----------------------------------------------------------------
even though so many bad things have happened today with me and my brother, while i was waiting for my mom to pick me up at the school after lunch, i saw none other than, nathan moore...yeah, the guy who started all of this...i was upset and all (still crying at this point), and he was there to see his sister, so i kept quiet...but it was still amazing...

that was the only thing positive that happened today...the ONLY thing...

11 inches of snow here in Kansas City.  It is BEAUTIFUL!!!  Jeremy's off work!
We bundled Harrison in his little snow suit and had tons of fun this morning in the "sparkling" snow.  Since temps have been below 15, the snow is like powder = no frosty construction.  boo. 

i made french toast for lunch and have a pot roast in the crockpot for dinner!  yum!!!

I'm coming home, I didn't make character. I'll just do better next time!

but my friend steve made Peter Pan!

**A seven-year old boy was at the center of a Nashville
courtroom drama yesterday when he challenged a court ruling over who
should have custody of him. The boy has a history of being beaten by
his parents and the judge initially awarded custody to his aunt, in
keeping with child custody law and regulations requiring that family
unity be maintained to the degree possible. The boy surprised the court
when he proclaimed that his aunt beat him more than his parents and he
adamantly refused to live with her. When the judge suggested that he
live with his grandparents, the boy cried out that they also beat him.  After considering the remainder of the immediate family and
learning that domestic violence was apparently a way of life among
them, the judge took the unprecedented step of allowing the boy to
propose who should have custody of him. After two recesses to check
legal references and confer with child welfare officials, the judge
granted temporary custody to the Tennessee Vols, whom the boy firmly
believes are not capable of beating anyone. **

found this on someone's facebook and thought it was hillarious...

oh, don't get all bent out of shape... it's only football...

 So here I am totally bored in Photography class and time to spare.  Things have been great lately, other than the mass amounts of homework but I am going to the Charlie Brown Christams Play tonight so that should be fun. 

so in exactly one week I will finally be 17.  I already feel so old, I feel like I should have turned 17 at least 6 months ago.  Oh well!

oh! and I might be going to Japan this summer! how amazing is that!?

amor!

cz

 

I love John Butler!

i don't know what is wrong w/ me... i just want to feel better

Hey guys... my 1st post... i guess... im soo confuzed... lol... well if ud like to help me learn bout phusebox... let me know... im trying.... more later!!!

~tRISH

what does it mean to...

put someone in there place???

please give me what you think it means!
b/c im confused!!!

i passed my 2 hardest exams YES!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

Friends are unbelieveable. You call They Don't answer. They talk behind your back. Act like you don't care but it is hiden deeply. The pain. The pain. I'll be alone and stay that way. For my heart is broken for these so call Friends.

Hey there guys. Wow, this is weird. . . Trying to get used to it. But atleast it's not blocked by the durn people that block all the cool sites like xanga and myspace. . .GRR to those people. anywho. . . I need a picture and I'll get one posted when I get the chance at my house. so. . I think that's all. luv you guys!

Cayla

I really hope it snows today, that would be amazing! Today already feels like friday, and college gets out today, so we definitly shouldn't have to go tomorrow. Um... next week is going to be crazy, Ihave so much stuff going on, Im not even sure what all I have to do. Oh well, as long as I'm busy I'm happy!

If you happen to get on during class like normal...I just wanna say....Im sorry...Personally I was up...but mom called me in her room and started talkin and talked me past my bus time...then fell asleep so im guessing she wants me or rather is letting me stay home today...If i had known i would have told you yesterday but i dident...and Im sorry...

"I can smile naturally about this time tomorrow
As if nothing had happened
I've always walked in such a manner
But I can't control this game as I wish"
-Ayu (GAME)

i posted those lyrics and that picture cuz i watched Ayu perform that song in her MY STORY concert this morning while I was getting ready for school. but now those lyrics are speaking to me...:
I've always been the one thatz ok with God being in charge and control of my entire life (tho i wasn't always the one to give up everything especially willingly). but i kno i think all the time how i want things to go my way... I usually can smile about something horrible that happened today tomorrow... and i like to see myself walking along happy-go-lucky... but i'm not. i'm really not and that makes me feel like i'm lying to myself or someone else or something... i can't control the GAME that is LIFE... but i wanna keep walking. i don't wanna give up. i can make it tho i kno it will not go smoothly at all... but I will walk on.... 

yesterday was Cari's birthday
we surprised her at Starbucks.
she loved it.
then Jarod and i went to the mall and grabbed her her gift.
i love that kid, Jarod.
ANDD i saw Ryan at buckle and hugged him alot.
then we went to Belle Aire for youth
NELSON WAS THERE
gosh.
and i met some cool people.
i think i'm going to start kindof going to belle aire...
because i loved it so.
and my church... i don't know... i'm having thoughts..
Eric sat beside me with his little sheep, baba.
he's so silly.
AND i got a TV in my room again. (finally)
i slept with the satelite radio on.

yep.
cari's 16th was great.

ps: thanks for all the support on my last entry.
that was alot of remarks.
and surprisingly... none of them were hateful.
actually, all were loveful.

Hey guys.... so there's this crazy rumor goin around... AND ITS TRUE!!! For all our MTSU/AO friends, we are having our Holiday/Luao/End of the Semester/Hodge; Justin; Leslie; & Jeff Going Away Party. It's gonna start at 9ish, and if u need directions... go to Directions to the House and check it out. C ya'll there.

-Jeff

at the request of abigail coleman, i decided to update. well i survived my first semester of college. it had its ups and downs. 15 page papers, 4 essays in one week, almost hitting a bird while flying a plane then almost landing on a coyote. ya it was great. got finals next week. at this point i couldnt be more happier to take a test because i know what is coming up.

i have almost become a younglife leader. i cannot wait for this opportunity. i go on a retreat in the middle of january, then get interviewed in march, then go out to the school i will be at after spring break. i dont kno what school i will be at but i really dont care one way or the other.

its christmas time. i love it. i think the best part about christmas is the music. i could listen to christmas music all the time. im not big on all the presents stuff. dont get me wrong i do like getting up on christmas morning and seeing what santa brought me. i just like what i have already. friends and family. and of course Jesus. well if i dont see you before christmas, then i wish you a wonderful christmas and a terrific new year.

So my car's tire BLEW, and yea, that wasn't good, and so i pulled to the side of the road on Baker (yea that was my blue car if you saw it) and then Mrs. Batey comes up her driveway to run arines, and being the sweet lady she is asked if I needed help, ended up taking me home so I could change for basketball pictures, and then brought me back to school, I'm so sending her a thankyou card, anyways, then I go babysit, and let's just say that tonight was the WORST night I have ever had to babysit, the boys were acting HORRIBLE, Ella was crying and that just put the icing on top of the cake for the day, however when Greg and Kelli got home they "disciplined" their children (let's just say this is a night they won't forget for a LONG time) then Greg took me home and on the was we stopped by my car and he FIXED it for me, and then he was going on about how he was going to get me a tire and get this wrench for me so if this ever happens again I can do it myself, then he said that he would align it for me!!! Which he is in the car/fixing them/everything business, so he has a machine to align my car, but he is just amazing, that family is amazing, and even though I sometimes get tired of the youngsters, I wouldn't be who I am today w/ out them, so I'm very thankful, and right now I'm seriously thinking about not going to school tomorrow b/c I have so much stuff that needs to be done/looked over, and I haven't even glanced at it, Idk I'm going to debate that, see if it's really worth it...have a wonderful day!!!

Megan

Pray for SNOW

I love my roommate!!! --even if she does attack me a lot.

well today has been pretty good, i found out i have an 86 in my lab so that should bring my grade up to a C if i did ok on the hardest test of my life i took today in the Bio lol. and my Psy test, forget about it, blew it lol. oh well life goes on. have a Stats final on Friday BUT i get to bring in 4 note cards as cheat sheets lol. so i hope i can get 10 chapters of formulas on them. and i have to be at work at 6 2morrow soooo i will be up by 5 lol. but anyway life is good! oh and lookie what we got today!!!!

i have the best friends in the whole entire world (not to mention the coolest mom.). so i was sittin in school today, feelin like a loser cause i wasn't doin anything for my birthday. so my mom says that she wants to take me to Starbucks after school. i was like, yeah, i guess i can skip model UN today. so we drive up, and i'm like, wow, there's Kelsey's car...and i think i see stroop's car...hmmm...how weird...so i walk in the door completely unaware that all of my friends were there to throw me a surprise party! omgosh, it was great. let's see...there was: abby, jared, stephen, sarah walls, katie kimbell, stroop, kelsey shearron, matt goodman, joey meier, emily isabell, rachael meyer, nathan moore, milly, clint, chris, storey, my mom, sister and brother, and among all this, Rebecca St. James randomly shows up, and she was so nice! wow... how random. i definitely got cards and/or presents from everyone, and it was great. then after some of the other left, i went shopping with abby, jared, emily, and kelsey....too much fun. abby and jared went off and bought me a basket of my fave (Coconut Lime Verbena) stuff from Bath and Body...which jared remembered from 2 years ago....how sweet. and then, like everyone was tellin me happy b-day this morning. it was great. then church was omgosh awesome...wow. God is amazing. sounds cliche, but i can't even think of what to say about Him. gosh. wow. anyways. best birthday ever. much love to all of you.---Cari

p.s.--I'M SIXTAYN!

I am done with my first semester of college!!! woo-hoo!!!! :)

but now, i must study for the finals... ugh- oh well!! hopefully i will do well on both of them...

hope everyone has a great week!! love yall

--cp--

why does something as silly as this take over my life?? its crazy and i dont like it. iv tried to give it to God, but i just dont want to let go. i feel like i cant. i feel like i cant help it, but i know that i should just give it to God and let go. im not exactly sure how though. life is crazy but oh so wonderful

in spite of everything

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

its wonderful your wonderful

Jesús es la razón para la temporada

-milly 

Is it Better to Have Loved and Lost Or to have Never Loved At All???

And I want some remarks on this one people.

Life = Hard

Love = Sacrifice

Me = Determined

Ok So one thing I do not like about phusebox already is that it seems to take a very long time uploading the pictures, and for some reason it won't let me roatate them.  Oh well I guess if you really want to look at them you can turn your monitor sideways, or your head I guess that would be easier.

No school tomorrow, whoohoo! Then I am making cookies with my 3:15 class kids, which should be a lot of fun. mmmm chocolate chip cookies, making my mouth water already. 18 more days until Christmas and I really hope I get enough money to buy the coat I want at Bink's, but oh well we will see.

Hope everyone has a great day off tomorrow who gets one.  Don't study too hard guys I think it can be damaging to the brain.

Love ya,
Becky

I am simi-upset with the horn babies at my school. The people who
usually show up to the horn choir didn't, only leaving four of us. But
I'm glad it was the four of us, we got more done, and played some
really pretty music. It was like a piece for quartet in two movements,
a chorale and then the "hornpipe-rondo"...but we didn't quite finish
the rondo. But the chorale part was amazing!

Anywho, I had a
really good lunch, it was really good. It was for the MYO chamber
orchestra, we played for Youth Leadership Rutherford and it was ok.
Mrs. Mullen said I need to give her my biographical sketch to go in the
program for the concert when I play my concerto.

Haha, I'm talking to Abby on the phone and then Abby's madre on AIM, strange...

uhmm, nothing much to say.  I just really need to let some issues go is all I'm going to say....and I think yall know what I'm talking about. But yeah, I am doing much better with everything!! :)
uhm, well I'm home for tonight so I could get some help from my parents for reviewing for my Final Exams. They're so great about offering to help me study!!! <3
But yeah, so this next week is going to be HECTIC! Nothing to do but study, study, study.... I bet you can already sense the enthusiasm coming from me about all the studying I have to do. haha....yeah, sure, lol.
But yeah so Saturday I have my Bible Final Exam ( saturday exams = not cool at all). And then Monday, I have Psychology Final Exam. Tuesday will be nothing but studying and maybe a little straightening up of the dorm room going on. Then Wednesday I have Biology Final Exam and I'm free for the CHristmas Break!!! yay
Me = Excited about Christmas!!!  :)
well, hope you all have a lovely rest of the week! :)
-Kaylei

Here's a song I made especially for my Mary Lauren Sunshine...it goes to the tune of daughters by John Mayers...

I, know a girl, she is the SUNSHINE, that BRIGHTENS my world! :)

*sigh*

Nick is sick...

Blegh! Why now! This sucks! I have all of this stress going on, i'm getting no sleep, drama is arising everywhere, the play starts Friday, technically that is. I say it starts tomorrow Because we have a faculty show, hey, its still a show to me. So yeah. At least I dont have very much speaking to do. But I laugh, a whole lot, very loudly, and right now, my throat feels like its closing in, seriously. Its sooo dry and it hurts to swallow. I hope that nyquill works miracles tonight and that I become better for the play.

aslksdlt!!!!

and yeah, I hope someone is recording the season premire of "Project Runway" <3

And on American's Next Top Model...WTF?!!?!? I am pissed off. Holy crap. What the hell were the judges smoking, I realy really. It should have been Nik. Without a doubt. Bleh.

Off crutches and its all good in my hood right now. Uhh played in the soccer game last night, and I did alright. I could've done ALOT better. Although I seem to be a human target for other peoples body parts. Yeah so I got hit in the face 4x with their elbows, and what did it result in?? Let me just say some grossness. Today I danced in chapel to healing rain, and it was amazing. I'm doing it again tomorrow night at the Christmas Concert. Pshhh yeah. =) Ohhhhh also today in dance we were practicing another dance were doing tomorrow night, and I fell because my dance pants were too long, and hit my elbow pretty bad. Bad enough for ice. So yeah that was pretty much my day.

Although I'm quite confused on a certain situation. Sigh. Why do guys have to be so confusing??

i love the wintertime. and my music, and my friends.

(( i called you from paris, to tell you that i wrote out names on the observation deck of the eiffel tower ))

<3

Thank you for building me into the christian that I am today. Thank you for continually growing me in Christ, and in your word. Thank you for such a great cloud of witnesses, for my brothers and my sisters in Christ. And father, I don't know where i'm going, but I trust you are leading me there. I trust YOU for total control in my life. Dear God, I am beginning to see the bigger picture. The bigger picture where you are GOD, and I am your servant. And Father, I realize now that I do not need more of you. I can't possibly get any more of you. You gave me all you had when you died on that cross for me. I know now, that you need LESS of me. So with that being said, I will take up my cross once more, and follow you. Lead me on, and I will run after You.

Amen

Well people, cross your fingers, we may be able to get some snow. Fortunately for us Tennessee kids, our schools close at the sight of a snow flake! Lets just hope our school board is looking closely at the sky and not at the clock hah.

Everything is soooo blah right now.

The weather is blah.

School is blah.

People are blah.

My attitude is blah.

My swimming is blah.

Man, I really need a break from everything. The teachers area cramming everything in before midterms, and some aren't even gonna review for the midterms.

I still think my 4.0 is gonna be gone.

Rawr.

Please Let It Snow.

Please...

Take a moment and pray for a friend of mine.

I can't say much more than that...

And if you like,

take more than a moment.

It is extremely needed.

and I thank you.

::b

i am so excited that i found this website.  i got to exploring it a little more tonight and felt in a way at home. so many of you all share the same tastes in music and it makes me so excited.  most of my friends do not share my tastes in music and it's great to finally see that there are others out there who enjoy the same musicians as i do!!!  just wanted to share with you all that it's wonderful to find you all and i hope to hear about other artists that i may want to share with me!  

Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.
My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.
He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.
The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

I'm reading this book called Practitioners about the church in today's culture.  See, Jay, the campus minister at my church has a subscription to Relevant magazine.  They did a promotion recently and sent out a bunch of extra mags and books.  I picked this one up because the forward was by Erwin McManus, the barbarian that helped take over the Bronx with us this summer.

I'm on this chapter about prayer.  The Moravian church way back in the day did an entire year of 24-7 prayer.  It really shook up Western Europe and launched a lot of missions.  Why aren't we doing this?

One of the essayists wrote that his church attempted it because prayer was--as it is for so many of us--the thing that they were bad at.  Relationships were good, hospitality was good, zeal for Christ was good, but the prayer thing just wasn't there.  They created a space for prayer.  It was hard at first he said, but they ended up praying for months on end.  They did so by creating a space for prayer.  Why aren't we doing this?

My campus ministry (although I'm more alumni now than anything, and rather a prodigal member because I have not been able to attend for a while due to my school schedule and my illness and my grandmother's illness) has created a beautiful prayer room.  But we're not using it.  Why aren't we using it?

Here's the thing: every story I've heard about God taking a place by storm is prefaced by the Christians in that area praying--fervently, explosively, constantly.  This is not like a week-long thing, like Passion.  This is coming back from Passion and making time every day to fuel mission's flame.  We as Christians, in my neck of the woods anyway, just don't worship individually.  We're really good at the collective thing.  But we stink at the one-on-one communication with God thing. 

My small group Bible study delved into the subjects of prayer, fasting, and meditation last fall (and I began reading Hunger for God by John Piper, which I still haven't finished because I have to read every word at least three times to understand what he's saying).  We started experimenting.  Only a few of the girls really went through with it, but those that did really got something out of it.  Prayer is the hardest thing for me, because I don't know what to say.  Go figure: me, speechless...

Look at scripture: James said that the "effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much"--which means that if you are seeking God and are His redeemed, you have the ability to pray and have a huge effect.  You must mean what you say--have a passion.  But that's not hard, is it?  We all have a passion for something.

"If my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray"--HUMBLE OURSELVES and ask for HELP--He will come and HEAL us.  I think we need healing for this generation.  I don't know about y'all, but I have had a lot of pain in my life.  I know a lot of people who have had a lot more.  Ask one of my students who has been sexually, mentally, emotionally, physically, and in all other ways abused.  She needs healing.  So do I.  So does everyone.  Life sucks.  We need to recover.

Paul urges us in Ephesians to pray at all times in the Spirit and to pay attention to what is going on around us and pray for our fellow believers--that's intercession, by the way, not "Lord, gimme..."--and again in II Thes. to "Pray without ceasing."

Why aren't we doing this?

I have an hour commute both ways every day.  I'm on the road from approximately 6am to 7am.  I'm going to start setting aside at least 15 minutes from loudly and obnoxiously listening to my amazing car stereo (it really is amazing, folks.  Graduation gift--and it pumps!) and PRAY.  I'm asking for someone to read this blog and hold me accountable.  Message me.  Ask me if I'm holding to it.  Anybody with me?  We have this great random network of believers--granted, not all phusers believe in Christ, but many do, and Lord-willing, many more will if his people will humbly pray.

Anybody with me?

" Love is life. All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love. Everything is, everything exists, only because I love." -Leo Tolstoy, War and Peace

I think the only things that are keeping me sane right now are my sister, my spanish class, and my speech class. God Bless all Three.

so yeah, guess who got cuba for UTK! mmm, UTK lots of interesting memories.

just think, only a small amount of time before school is out.

So I scored a 705 on Solitaire.

so i got a 90 on my french quiz.

and i have a 93 in english right now. that exciting. especially since i haven't gotten an a in english since like eighth grade.

but i got a fifty freaking nine on my biology test. and that is really really bad. yeah... i have a feeling i'm going to get a c in there and then i will be grounded. and that's no good. yeah... this is gonna suck.

well... i love you.

Hey guys!! I just got this cause my cuz told me to get one cause Randy told her to get one so ya i did!! ne who i will talk to yall l8tr!so ya buh bye!

luvies!

*muah* kiss, kiss!

Woke up late.
Dropped my phone in the toilet.
Vending Machine gave me the wrong drink.
Had to go to Biology.
then I had a complete turn around.
{Freaking amazing afteroon}
I love days like this.
So I hear we are doing West Side Story.
&&I am excited.
I'm in love with Rent.

"Take me Out TOnight<3"


the sparkle in her eyes
 when you smile at her
would shame the stars.



Question:
What do you want for Christmas?

well hey people, srry for not updating... but yeah well friday night kay is coming over whoot whoot.... mum nothing neww but yeah i hope everyone is doing good school is going great.... yeah well i am out soo later

       meg

pretty sure bowling rocks my face off!! yeah, we won today...again...haha...my bowling girls mean the world to me, and i wouldn't have been able to accomplish any of this without josh...bowling is basically my life...haha...those of you who know me know that's the truth!

well, i think i'm gonna go...thanks meag and jess for your comments, hopefully i will see you tonight at church...

mucho love!!
[becca]

01. Sleep with or without clothes on? on...duh
02. Prefer black or blue pens? black
03. Dress up on Halloween? no
04. Like to travel? of course
05. Like someone? definately
06. Do they know? most likely...
07. Who sleeps with you every night? my teddy bear that i made in denver!
08. Think you're attractive? definately not.
09. Want to get married? heck yeah!
10. To? a boy...
11. Are you a good student? depends on what class you're talking about! lol...
12. Are you currently happy? extremely
13. Have you ever cheated on someone? never had anyone to cheat on...
14. Birthplace? Nashville, TN
15. Christmas or Halloween? definately christmas
16. Colored or black-and-white photos? black-and-white
17. Do long distance relationships work? nope
18. Do you believe in astrology? not really
19. Do you believe in love at first sight? nope
20. Favorite CD? Voices of Lee
21. Do you consider yourself the life of the party? not really
22. Do you drink? nope
23. Do you make fun of people? uhh...lol...
24. Do you think dreams eventually come true? some of them
25. Favorite fictional character? don't know
26. Go to the movies or rent? movies, definately
27. Have you ever moved in your entire life? yeah, like 8 times
28.
Have you ever stolen anything? yeah...
29. How's the weather right now? cool, but awesome
30. Hug or kiss? hugs
31. Last person you talked to on the phone? my mommy
32. Last person who told you they love you? uhh...candace
33. Loud or Soft Music? depends on the mood i'm in
34. McDonalds or Burger King? DEFINATELY mcdonalds
35. Night or day? night
36. Number of Pillows? as many as possible...lol...
37. Piano or guitar? guitar
38. Future job? photographer/teacher/missionary...don't know yet
39. Current job? i need one...
40. Current love? god
41. Current longing? feeling loved
42. Current disappointment? my grade in science (failing!! ahh!)
43. Current annoyance? my brother yelling in my ear
44. Last thing you ate? peanut butter sandwhich
45. Last thing you bought? 2 mountain dews
46. Most recent thing you are looking forward to? christmas
47. What are you wearing right now? jeans, bowling shirt, socks, shoes...the normal...
48. Plans for this weekend? uhh...nothing?
49. What did you do today? went to school, then bowling
50. Pick a song lyric: "Listen to your heart, before you tell him goodbye.."

God is amazing and most definetly evident in my life. I love him so much and I thank him for being my strength because he knows I am not capable of living without him.

I see people everyday, I see their beauty and the mind that they've been blessed with and my heart goes out to them because they are blind to the potential that they have to change the world. They can further God's kingdom in so many ways and yet they are paralyzed.

But then I have to think....am I too blind to the potential I have to further God's kingdom?

I am not done growing and I am looking fwd to the trials and experiences that God has in store for me.

Do you ever have thoughts such as, " I want to forget everything and walk barefoot with a backback and tell Jesus to everyone I meet" ?

Frustration.
Excitement.
Wonder.
Brokeness.
Happiness.

I want to change the world.

I want you to come with me.

and now a VERY happy birthday to CARI JENNINGS!

we went to Starbucks for her bday. (i know, i'm there ALL the time!) and saw Nathan Moore and Rebecca St. James! way crazy. and of course a TON of amazing people from school! i'm pretty sure Cari had the best birthday ever. and i'm glad we could give it to her.

i have to admit though, i'm in that funk again where i'm not good enough for myself. and it BLOWS. i feel like i'm just not mature and -college- and coffee-housey enough. and for some reason i feel a little inferior (right word?) about my style, even though i know it's cool and that i like it.

so to me - whatever, stephen.

tons of love

Today was pretty nice...slept late...and when i finally ended the sleep time, had a nice game of football for about 2 hours. I basically played as Brett Favre...i threw some(4) interceptions, but that statistic was warfed by the 8 touchdown passes and 2 touchdown receptions that i had. It was a joyous occaision.

I'm gonna try something...Please Participate. I want you guys to ask me any(1) question you can think of and i will answer it...even if i dont know the answer. I'm pretty good at BS'n. But seriously...the question can be about me or any other thing, but seriously now...please ask a question.

Jones Soda Fortune of the Day: Your life will be happy and peaceful.

Guess who just order their BLACK VIDEO 30GB IPOD!!! :)!!!!

Dear God,

Let it SNOW!!!

Thanks!
Love,
Emily

heyyy its me and my baby!

areas where i am trying to improve my self discipline:
1. doing homework, studying, and not procrastinating.
2. running or doing weights at the Y.
3. getting more sleep.

lets say i'm failing miserably in all three.

so i wanna do a little blurb on honesty:
one of the reasons i hate high school is the relationships. not just dating, but friendships too. friendships, dating, everything would be so much more enjoyable if everyone would be straight up with each other. i'm not saying be brutally honest. some people just use honesty as an excuse to be a jerk. but i have this friend, kelsey, we've been best friends for 5 years. we have such an awesome relationship because we are totally honest with each other. if i'm messing up, the she'll call me out. she's my accountability partner and she helps keep me in line. i just hate when people, esspecially girls play games. i hate manipulative people. all my relationships are so much better when honesty is the foundation.. i just wish people would always be more open. just say straight up where they stand.

so i've felt sick all week. been in some rotten moods. esspecially in 5th P..

going to Chuck E. Cheese tomorrow for the CC banquet. should be interesting.. haven't been with all the guys in a while..

Have I mentioned how much I love God lately? He's just.. incredible..

I made it through the first semester, if I passed is a story all to its self.

Paul Simon said it best, "I have no need of friendship, friendship causes pain.  It's laughter and it's loving I disdain."

*edit* I'm not coming home. I have a HOT new neighbor from Italy!

I assume I mentioned in a previous post that I've become sick again.

well last night at work, i had a runny nose, was poppng cough drops like no ones business, then went and cleaned the pretzel wagon and came back inside, and started talking and my voice was just gone.

it wasn't funny at all, but we were immensly amused by it, b/c it seemed 5 minutes before I was talking normally. . .

I'm going to audition for a character role tomorrow. if I get it, I believe I will be staying here another semester.

but i still plan on going to louisiana, going to gulf coast getaway. . .and then working. . .I can't just stop my life completely for my job

So i'll be updating again in a few days letting yall know what else is going on. have a great day!

I think i'm losing it! I'm so stressed out! Agh!!! Where is snow when you need it?

How can I just turn off the switch and stop caring? Why do I care about someone who doesn't care about me? I've had three opporunities to have sex, and I've turned him down all three times. Only because he doesn't love me. And that's what I told him. And he agreed that he doesn't, and said that I don't love him either. My body wanted it so bad, and amazingly I still had the strength to say no. It's for the better because it will just make me even more let down. And he has another girl anyways, and is probably still in love with the old ones. And I want him to be happy no matter what, even though he's made me so unhappy. I really won't care so much, as long as the girl is better than me. That's all I ask. If I know for a fact she's more than me, then I will gracefully bow out. Then again, I don't want to compete anyways. I don't think a girl should have to compete. I'm not trying to be cocky, but guys should be competing over me, not me for their affection.

Why do girls always do this? Fall for a guy, and get so attached. I'm just left here broken hearted. I think sometimes that if I went on dates with other guys it would help. No guys ever ask though. And I don't know that I could because I'm so attached. He obviously doesn't care about hurting me though. With him, I always just get let down, and am upset.

I've changed so much because of this. I used to be strong-willed, and now it seems I have no will of my own.

EVERYONE was right, and I am FOOLISH!

I think that this is really cool. This is the original Starbucks. Wow.....





This is a Starbucks in overseas, I think that maybe we have started a tradition....lol

I hope that yall have a great day. I think that I may have an addiction to coffee....oh well!!!

Later
JT