i died my hair.
& i think it looks fantabulash.
if i do say so myself.
tell me if you like it or not when you see me
& be honest
i don't want any liars:)

ahh i love you

I know it's taking me a long time to get the pictures on here, but it's the week before finals.  Give me a break!  :o)  I found out today that I don't have to take my psychology final, and my written comp final is turning in our last paper, so that already takes 2 finals out of the picture!  Yes!  :o) 

I'm still in desperate need of a job over the Christmas/January holidays.  Has anyone thought of anything?

Tonight is Big/lil Christmas at the lodge.  We are giving our bigs their christmas gifts, and I can't wait!  :o)  The new members decorated the lodge last night, and it looks good in my opinion.  We also had to get "Santa's little helpers" to set up our present to the chapter.  None of us knew how to do it.  :o)  Well, anyway... that's about it for me.  Everyone have a marvelous day!

In Christ,
Ashley

So some reason on my computer at home I cannot log onto my phusebox (I am at school, but shhh! don't tell Nolan!) So I don't think I will update much more, maybe when I am able to at school. But if youw anna read about my life, www.xanga.com/PenguinFanatic should do the trick! Peace my babies!

So I have truly been thinking about alot of things that are happening in my life lately. Not all bad stuff but just random things that seem to be happening like all around me. It's crazy to think that this semester is over, I mean I'm excited because I really don't like school but then at the same time it is just another change that I have to go through. If you don't already know I'm not to big on change, I know most of the people who know me best know how hard change is for me I really take it hard. I know I know it really isn't a HUGE change but it still is a big enough change for me to get kindof nervous about. OK sorry enough bout rambling about my nervouness haha I know I'm a nerd.

So on to other things going on in my life! Ahh I am super excited because my cousin is going to have a baby boy, I think she is due at the end of December but I'm not quite sure of that but it is super exciting this is the second little kid in our family! I am soo ready for my brother and his wife to start having kids, I can't wait! Well Christmas is coming up and I am stressing out about making sure I have everyones gifts ready and all I feel every day a new person gets added to the list of people I have to buy for, it is all very stressful to try and think for that perfect gift for them!

Hmm and on to more important things, God is really laying on my heart alot of very heavy and deep things. I haven't really ever confided much of any of this stuff to people, I mean I have but only to a few people, but it seems to be getting harder to deal with on some days. I am trying to give it to the Lord to deal with because I know He can handle everything! Yet I think the Devil is having his way with me on some days when I am down. But it is in God's hands now and I just hope that it will get easier with time, I guess I just have to forgive myself for it. So I never really do this on here it feels kindof weird but if yall could just pray for me in all this stuff I know I haven't really gone into detail on here but if yall could just give me a little prayer in yalls prayers today Thanks!

This is the last thing I promise lol I have written a whole lot today I think I am just tired and wanting to talk to someone and no one is really around but the thoughts in my head and it always helps me to write things down...ok sorry back to the point. SARAH BRANSCOM READ THIS:  Thank you soooo much for praying with me wednesday night! It meant sooo much to me and truly helped me sooo much! You are such a blessing in my life and I know God has you in my life for a reason and you are such an encouragment to me and I love you girl!!!

OK I'm done thanks for reading if you read all of this, but I'm off to nap before work! Much Love

I will sing of your mercy that lead me through valleys of sorrow to rivers of joy... 

shoot, i'm tired. we went to bed at like 4 this morning. that was after me and greg (a guy i met last night playing monopoly) teamed up and won monopoly. we teamed up cause we were getting messed over because we were the last two to roll and werent getting anything and by the time it was over it was us two against the other 5 playing (they teamed up be up because we were doing so good) we only had the rail roads and the red ones. man we were good.

so that was over at like 1:30 and then me and the guys went and played football till about 3, then we went to bed at like 4.

we were at the guys basketball game last night (me, alex, david, and abhinav) and it was like 8:30pm and a girl behind me said something about how she had to go and take a test. and i was like, oh no, i have to take and turn in a test by 9. the arena is about mile from my dorm, so i take off runnin and i ran to the library to grab a computer, i take the test, and turn it in and then i looked and it said it accepted the test at 8:58 pm, i was like dang, i'm good. and i made an A, so it's all good.

i gotta study like a beast today, dang i hate that. and i gotta do some homework, but not a lot of homework.

so my birthday is in like 11 days. heck ya.

piece

i'm ok now... i think

Siegel High School Did It Again We Beat Riverdale!!! Siegal Nation!!! Dang did you see that mess!!!lol

I FINALLY got the schedule I wanted for next semester. I've been trying to find a MWF 10:20 History 2010 class for two weeks, and there was one opening yesterday afternoon, so I grabbed it! I also found out that I have a B+ in college algebra, and as long as I do alright on the final, that grade will stay!

And today is the LAST day of classes, praise Jesus! I don't have to come back for my finals until Monday! Then once I'm finished with my algebra final on Tuesday, I don't come back until January 18th!Heck yes for six week Christmas breaks!

Hm. . . the only thing I'm concerned about is my Understanding Mass Media grade. I studied pretty well for our final test, but it was over stuff that he really didn't cover. Gah.

so guess who i'm going to lunch with?! the infamous NATHAN MOORE! wow...it's been like 1,000,000 years since i've seen my old best friend...yay for him calling me and yay for me calling him back!

I'm so excited! Prom Fashion Show is gonna be sooo much fun. Especially with Brady as my escort, this is gonna be extremely interesting lol. But yeah. Cathy and Shane are gonna go together and shane has decided they are gonna wear purple. she will not look good in purple. unless she finds the absolute lightest color ever she's gonna be soooo washed out. but yeah i gtg now. accounting test fun stuff man.

I got my school picures in the mail today...

All I can say is that I am very VERY depressed. If you are with me raise your hand... :-[

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Hm, Steph?! HMMMMM?
hahahahahaha

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omgggggg. =D
BLINK 182 = LOVE.

sometimes i feel like i'm drowning.

other times i feel like i'm flying.

most of the time i can't tell which is which.

So I think that it is officialy winter here in the North East! This time last week it was in the high 50's with the sun shinning and it was great. Now it's in the 30's and it has snowed twice since sat. night. Not great! I like the snow for like a day, then I hate that it is so cold!!! I need to go some where warm and take a nap! A nap on the beach would be great right now! Oh the beach!

In the news recently there have been a lot of complaints from evangelical Christians about stores not saying "Merry Christmas" and instead saying "Happy Holidays" or something of that sort. It seems like last year the "Christians" were complaining about commercialism and now it's semantics. I sincerley wish that people who get so bent out of shape over such stupid things would quit calling themselves Christians. If something so meaningless can get you all in a tiff about Christmas, I truly think you have missed the whole point of the season. Also, just for something to think about, If the Christians were not out at stores buying gifts and feeding the commercialism monster, which they so fervently complain about, they wouldn't hear any body say "Happy Holidays" Get with the program people, it's not about gifts or what people say, it's about our Savior. ral

"We travel this road to find happiness.
Everyone is a traveler, carrying his own never-healing wounds.
See? You look good with a smile on your face."
-Ayu (Voyage)

Your life's crashing down all around you,
Let me ask if it's really so bad.
Look at the world in it's suffering-
Can you honestly tell me that
No one else could understand
All of the hurting inside?

Why can't you see
That freedom is sometimes just simply
Another perspective away?
Who could you be?
If your lens was changed for a moment,
Would you still be the same?

A young child looks through a great stained glass window,
Watching the people go by.
Everyone seems to be wearing a red coat
His mother sees jackets in white.
Now he can't understand-
Why does she see it this way?

Why can't you see
That freedom is sometimes just simply
Another perspective away?
Who could you be?
If your lens was changed for a moment,
Would you still be the same?

Yesterday, you really couldn't see-
By changing your angle a new world would be
Revealed to your once blinded
Eyes by moving a few degrees.

Why can't you see
That freedom is sometimes just simply
Another perspective away?
Who could you be?
If your lens was changed for a moment,
Would you still be the same?

So yeah, the chamber orchestra (from MYO) is playing for the Youth Leadership Rutherford ppl today. This means I get out of school @ 10, get a free lunch :the good kind: and $$. It's good getting paid everyonce and a while...lol, the letter the director gave me doesn't say what time I have to be back :-)

SO i am trying to figure all this out, and its rlly awesome that i can do this in school, and not be BLOCKED!!! how amazing...well, to introduce myself, today i am Snowflake the Green Elf in the skit i wrote titled "Santa is Missing!" and yes, it IS totally adorable...Oh, and I love Smiling!! there you go!! me in a nutshell!! *emily*

HeY DaRliNs?!! WhAts Up? hmm havent updated in a little while soo just thought i would..i HoPe EvERyONe is having a GreAT week..i LOvE yOO..thanks to AlL ThE pPl who GaVe me RemArkS..MuAh HuGs..

<33always<33

      PaNcAkEs! aka MyA

Hey everyone lifes been amazing

i have the best bestfriend ever .... we have been through sooo much && im sooo glad that we can look past that. hes pretty much great <3

Chris got me tickets to Acustic Christmas last Saturday ... let me tell u how it was sooo much fun. it was great seeing him ive missed him tons.

Last night was my christmas concert .... it went good.

Thursday is Chris's concert so im going to that. it should be fun.

Well i g2g ttyl <3333

Jessica <333

Ok, so we had a bit of a mouse problem =P But I took care of it. We had called the maintanence (sp?) people the other day when we saw the mouse. On Monday, maintenance came by and set out sticky traps........ well, I have my own trap. It's called a "Have a Heart" trap where it just catches the mouse with out hurting it. There's a little tray on the inside where you just put a little bit of food (peanut butter) and once the mouse adds the tiniest bit of pressure on the tray, both doors on each end close and lock so the mouse can't get out. Then all you do, is take the mouse to a different location and let it go.......... I hid the sticky traps in a place where a mouse couldn't get to them....... I REFUSE to kill mice....... and yes, I am an animal freak..... I don't even kill bugs except for fleas, ticks, and mosquitos......... if I find a spider, I just put a cup over it and slide a piece of paper under the cup and take it outside. I've never understood why people kill things........ why can't people take the time to be nice to things and just let them go. They didn't know any better, they're just creatures just trying to live. But yeah, like I said, I caught the mouse and let him go outside FAR away from the apartment so now he can live =) I still have my trap set up just in case there are relatives running around or something........

Hey ya'll, can ya tell I've been in Eastern Kentucky for too long?  I can.  I'm ready for the long break that I have.  It's like a week and a half away.  I can taste it and it tastes D-E-licious.  Finals are kicking my butt and it's not cool!  I don't enjoy it!  Nope...not at all.  Whew!  Sorry it's been so long.  Homework has taken over my life!  Later.

Anyone else having one of these weeks?

I guess I'd better hurry up and write if I am hoping to get in an entry today.  I may already be too late, depending on when the days roll over...

Anywho, I am not a big fan of days where you can work on something all day long and still feel like you've accomplished nothing.  At least today was better than yesterday. 

I am so hoping to finish this project/report tomorrow.  My life will be good again.  How can a teacher that is so nice and good take up such an incredible amount of my time? 

So, the high in Albany/ Troy, NY for Friday is like 28 degrees.  I'm not sure I am capable of being prepared for such temperatures.  Just pray that the plane wings don't ice up or something.  That would be bad. 

I will get this report finished tomorrow.  I will! 

Grrrr

I've been thinking a lot about peace lately.  I have never had such a crazy schedule as i do now with finals, christmas, and trying to decide a major before i take uneccesary classes.  The past few days,  peace has been seemingly impossible to reach. 

So i prayed about it...and read about it in the Bible. 

To achieve peace, i think we have to become completely dependent on God.  Trust that he will take care of impossible, frustrating, or frightning situations.  Every example of peace in the Bible that i have ever read about have come directly from God. (Numbers 6, Psalms 29:11, Isa 26:3 Romans 5:1 just to name a few)

Peace is not being satisfied with yourself, but rather, seeking out what God would have you be. 

Peace is not worrying about what you don't have, and being thankful for what you do have.

Peace is not the lack of turmoil.  Instead, peace is the comfort of knowing that God will bring you through it.

"Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and Jesus our Lord" -2 Peter 1:2

what an amazing game.

i had mucho fun. i was really lucky, because i got there late and paul vaughn saved me a seat between him and micah. i somehow squeezed julie in there at some point. but anyway, great game guys. <3

siegel 77 and riverdale 74. yeeeeyuh.

SIEGEL NATION!

ok, so this whole thing about "holiday trees" instead of "Christmas trees" is killing me.. it could be the most rediculous thing i've ever heard. aparently, these people are afraid of offending other people..well, they are offending me! gah...

So Siegel pretty much dominated over Riverdale tonight!wow was that a close game!!but we won!HECK YES!!oh and then when me and Ben were leaving this guy infront of us basically got out of his car and started stripping and dancing like right in front of us!it was hilarious!i haven't laughed that hard in a long time!but yea so for the most part i had a pretty good day!but i am glad to say its over. i wish this week would go by just a little bit faster...

SIEGEL NATION

i hate being irratable...it's just been one of those days...for no reason at all. then as the day progresses, the irratability makes things happen and you get even more pissed....screw days like this? i can't wait for something else to go wrong!

-KYLE

well... i was trying to think of something to say that might actually get more than one remark from you people. but i could think of nothing. :-(

o well.

chair tryouts sucked today. and i think i failed a biology test. and a french quiz. i really hope i get not a c in biology. that would be good. a c would be ungood. very ungood.

i love you.

everyone is getting old so happy birthday to all the ppl who are getting old

yesterday

AMBER!!!!!!

today

CARLY!!!!!!

tomorrow

ROBYN!!!!!!

thursday

JOPE!!!!!!!!

ah everyone is growing up its a sad thing but i love watching people get old its fun 

today i wasnt at school cause iv got the strep its not cool but o well

ill see you all tomorrow i hope

love 

so i joined this phusebox thing because i saw on andy davis' website that he was the featured artist here, but i don't know what that means because i'm still not sure what this site is for... but hey i thought i'd try... and by the way andy davis is an amazing musician...

just a few tid bits about me... i love the color orange, grey's anatomy is my favorite show, and i miss all my sisters (life isn't as fun after college, at least not right away)

Hey well just though id right on here nothin realy 2 say... umm merry chrismas in like 20 days or somthin! have a good 1 bye

pat

to want
to covet
to drool over
to hope for
i realize now
for the first time in this life
what it is that i wish i had more than
ANYTHING
i want to be happy
really truly happy
and content
with having absolutely
NOTHING at all...

yeah, so you see that girl on the very right of my profile pic? yeah, found out this weekend that she is getting married in may and moving to australia!!! i am veeeeeeeery sad! she's in SAI with me (and is kinda the reason i went SAI) and we did our ritual for her to be alum sunday. there is a song we sing in ritual which has kinda become her song b/c she always sings it in ritual, but i had to sing it to her sunday and i almost started crying. this was after i lost it the first time when she read her goodbye letter.  i'm usually not a crier, but man, the flood gates just let loose that night! i'm really going to miss courtney :(

well i ordered my ipod today hope to see it soon

kal and me scaring the kitten:

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v651/Mjbc32/Ante%20HC/IMG_0743.jpg

    Why hello... How are you?

myspace bitches:

www.myspace.com/we_were_an_accident

well.. me and my cousin are cool again. so happy. i havent hung out with her since like october bcos of our beef well yeah

 the End.

yup ..missed her.

Dear God, my left eardrum just burst.  "HELLO, IS BARBARA THERE?"  "No.  Thank you for inquiring."  *Click*  Gah, so tempting.

Anyone who can give me advice concerning swing club, please do or risk extermination.  I feel like it's really dwindling.  Although today we actually had more guys than girls!  I about passed out from happy shock.  But yes, any tips and suggestions you may have would be vastly appreciated.

"How to Buy Your Way Into High Society" -- an article on eHow.com.  My political career has begun.
Although I really disdain buying titles.  Really.  If any old slob can become Duke Hazzard, why keep them around?  (Kind of like when Louis Vuitton went mainstream at your local high school.  Oy gevalt, or however you spell it.)

Annnnnnd I just ran out of things to rave over.

Criminal justice final tomorrow.  I need an eleventy-one (111) to make an A in that class.

.......HAAA!

*Ahem*  Anywho....

1. This Week in Diversion- Clint is talking about sin and BJ and the band are leading worship.

2. Guy's Basketball v. St. Mark This thursday at 6:30 @ St. Rose Gym

3. Themes for Disciple Now 2006

3 for the Son (Jr. High)- "Reality Check" (January 27-29)

Worship by: Youth Praise Band

Speaker: Guy from Philly M-Fuge (Can't remember his name)

One Weekend (Sr. High)- "At All Cost" (February 24-26)

Worship by:BJ Hunt and Friends

Speaker: Aaron Coe from New Hope New York and pastor of the gallery church in Manhattan.

More details to come about D Now 2006!

Check out our website @ proxy521.com

1. This Week in Diversion- Clint is talking about sin and BJ and the band are leading worship.

2. Guy's Basketball v. St. Mark This thursday at 6:30 @ St. Rose Gym

3. Themes for Disciple Now 2006

3 for the Son (Jr. High)- "Reality Check" (January 27-29)

Worship by: Youth Praise Band

Speaker: Guy from Philly M-Fuge (Can't remember his name)

One Weekend (Sr. High)- "At All Cost" (February 24-26)

Worship by: BJ Hunt and Band

Speaker: Aaron Coe from New Hope New York and pastor of the gallery church in Manhattan.

More details to come about D Now 2006!

weeeeeeeeee........I skipped school today...o.o  uhh yeah...skipped school and gon die when mom gets home...>.>  <_<;   ...Layta tho... o.o

                               TONIGHT:

                   RIVERDALE VS. SIEGEL

               SIEGEL NATION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

           IF YOU ARE NOT GOING YOU ARE A LOSA

         HAHA NOT REALLY BUT YOU NEED TO COME

      HAVE  A BLESSED NIGHT AND GO STARS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally got an A- on an English paper graded by Dr. Therrien! It's a miracle!

Never thought I would be happy about an A-...

I got asked today if I was ever in marching band because of the way I walk... yeah Anna... apparently I really should have been in band!

And if your heart desires, you can feel free to switch into either my psych class or computer class...

My Princess
Wait on me,

     Wait on Me, My princess. My timing is always perfect. I know you're annxious about many things, and I see your entusiasm. However, just as a vinedresser nurtures the vine and waits patiently for the right moment to harvest the grapes, so too am Iworking tirelessly to prepare you to bear nuch fruit. Don't run ahead of Me or try to fly before My plans are complete. Your strength will fail you, and your dreams for you are far greater than you can dream on your own. You will run farther and soar higher if you will patiently wait for the season of My blessing. Draw close to Me now, and I promise that this season of waiting will bring you the sweetest of rewards.

Love,
Your King and Lord of perfect timings

I LOOOOOVE RACHAEL ROBERTSON!!
SHE IS DEFINETELY ONE OF MY
FAVORITE PEOPLE!
I LOVE HER BUNCHES!!

I MADE HER A PICTURE ON "PAINT" BUT PHUSEBOX WOULDNT LOAD IT...SOMETHING ABOUT BLAH BLAH BLAH   : (  <sad rebekah

I dreamed I was on a tropical island and it was raining.  Nearby, off the shore and under the ocean, a woman who looked like Ms. Matuzewski was crying in a cage.  All around me were large pink creatures which looked something like fleshy domes, singing "Boogie Wonderland."  Immediatly I realized that this was the song that would unlock Ms. Matuzewski from the underwater labrynth, so I tried to persuade them to sing it for her.  It didn't work, so I began hacking at them with my machete, hoping it would persuade them.  Instead, they began to wail and kill each other.  They all died, and I felt horrible for what I'd done, so I pulled off my ears as self-punishment.  Then I realized I couldn't help Ms. Matuzewski if I couldn't hear, so I tried to reattach my ears.  My attempt was in vain, though, because at that moment a swarm of flesh-eating grasshoppers began to attack me, tearing away at me as I ran toward the nearest palm tree until I awoke suddenly with a cry of "But my ears!" that had my sister inquiring the next morning as to the nature of my previous night's dream.

...and that's all I have to say about that.

So, umm, yeah... Anyways, I got this to upload pictures onto my xanga background.... the question is... how do you work this thing??? *pushes random buttons* ....*beep*...Uh-oh.... this can't be good...

Ok, so i didnt now how to update...tyler u bitch....anyways wusup all

so okay... i felt like it was thrusday all day today. and i was really disapointed when i remembered it was tuesday...

bummer.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLY!!!  she's growin up on me. ::tear::

teehee. xoxo

well nothing much good going on.  just a bunch of crap at school. im figuring things out about my friends, and things about myself.  ill update later when i have more time. or when something good happens. cya

This Semster has been packed with all kinds of fun things, and with it came great people.....The first pic is Me and My roommate Amy she has ben my sanity .... we live with slobs............The second is a picture of the ones that carried me through some of my more  tough of time minus Colleen they assisted MY WONDERFUL SAVIOR GOD!    mmmmmmmmmmmmm

I cant believe my birthday is almost here and I keep getting older.But,in some way I still feel like a child cause I need to be treated like one but other ways I  just am like WOW! Im so old.Anyways I cant wait until I get in my 30's I guess.

yes, I wasn't at school today.

no, I wasn't skipping.

I am sick.

I woke up @ like 11:30 last nite and couldn't get back to sleep cuz i was burning up and i had horrible chills. I just couldn't stay warm... and so i yelled for my mommy and cried and moved to my mom and dad's bed... now, i have a fever thatz on and off and i just feel off ya kno? o well, i should be back at school tomorrow...

check this out! Ayu the pimp:
http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=TJLOgYycTww&search=ayu
lol

was he right or what???

life blows right about now... we should fix it.

Gutters full of Rain by David Gray

I think that this is pretty cool....even though it was supposed to come out this year, oh well, I guess you cant win them all.

I just downloaded firefox browser. It is ok, it just does not look as good as Safari. But again you cant win them all.

Later
JT

I can't wait till December 25!!! WOOT! I didn't ask for much but I got a lot of gifts for my wonderful girlfriend, and I am trying so hard not to spoil the surprise of what they are to her!

If you can't tell, Christmas is my favorite holiday. ; )

Anyway, a lot of stress has been lifted! I finally got my chemistry project turned in so that's a relief. And english class isn't so chaotic anymore. You guys have no idea how overwhelmed I was!

More exciting subject starts now: SIEGEL GAME TONIGHT!! We are gonna slaughter Riverdale...hopefully! See some of y'all there?

Love in Christ,

~Rhett

I decided to come home for a night since classes are over with and as soon as I walk in the door, I see the Daily News Journal laying on the kitchen counter and what is on the front page? Complaints about another Wal-Mart being built in Murfreesboro.

Of all places, I figured no one here would ever complain about Wal-Mart. For God's sake people just let them build the store. It's helping you out so you don't have to drive across town to the other Wal-Marts. They're trying to make money and I'm sorry if you don't want a Wal-Mart or any other kind of store right in your back yard but when you've got a city expanding as rapidly as Murfreesboro, you'd have to expect it to happen sooner or later. If you don't want to deal with it, then move out to the country, move to another part of the city, or just deal with it and go on. This would be different if there were only 20,000 people in town but there's close to 80,000 and it's still growing. Deal with it because it's inevitable.

My dad has worked for Wal-Mart for 25 years and most of those 25 years came as the store manager at the Wal-Mart by the mall. He has worked his butt off for a company that went from nothing to the biggest in America and I'll be damned if all of these people want to try and stop the company that my father works for from expanding and trying to make a profit. He has put up with more crap than anyone I know and he deserves a break from all of this but no, you people insist in complaining and I'm sick of it.

I'm sick and tired of hearing how big it is and how much they hate it and how they won't shop there. Get over it. If you don't like it, go to Target. If you're tired of working for them and complain about wages and all that then find another job.

Wal-Mart has fed me, clothed me, paid for my car, our house, and me going to college and it is what holds my family together and I'll be damned if someone tries to take that away from me.

I had to vent and get all of that out..

how do you make a hot dog stand?

................................................................................ take away its chair!!!

ha ha ha!!

So this is my new place.  I hope you don't know me because i want to type what i want.

Why are we so afraid to learn?  We sit in class, and we close off our ears to the things that could actually serve to help us.  I know that there are many things we never seem to have a use for, but they expand our horizons none the less.  It is not so much this that I have a problem with, but the problem is when we let this carry over into our spiritual life.  Everytime we start to learn something we seem to be in a situation that we can't help but let slap us in the face.  It's almost like God has to crush our spirits to get us to listen to Him.  Don't you know He hates having to do that?  Think about the way He tries to speak to us every day.  We cut Him off and tell Him that we will have time for him tommorow.  The problem is, tommorrow never comes.  This is today, we can't live in tommorrow, and nothing will ever happen as long as God asks us nicely.  We are not promised another day.  Jesus admonishes those who brag about what they will do tommorrow.  So why does He slap us in the face?  Because we are idiotic humans.  If we would only listen, our lives would be as He would want them to be, and He wouldn't have to do something He hates to do.  Punish us.

In Christ,
Zach McCain

okay...so if you read my last blog "Crazy weekend" youd know that my eye got cut and screwed up. well i went to the eye doc last night and like the cuts healed but my eye is "internally bleeding" which apparently isnt as bad as it sounds but anyways. i got some drops...but no eye patch? what the heck man...al day i was looking forward to getting an eye patch....i mean when you screw up your eye your supposed to get an eye patch...thats how it works. Man...workin on that pirate accent all day for nothing......Put some Crazies in that bag

I've got my ticket. You got yours?

She asks questions
        They listen
        and answer
She cuts her finger
and cries
        he runs to her
        with a bandage
She cries
they cry

they talk a lot
       and shut her out
she asks a question
they ignore
they love a lot
each other

screaming and yelling
and shutting her out
         an asked question
         no answer
slammed car door
no bandage
         slammed door in her face
        knife in front of her

they're not home
        she shuts the door
she asks a question
to herself
she ignores the answer
        crimson stained carpet
        in front of her
she cuts...
but this time no one runs to her
with a bandage
       she cries herself to "sleep"

Don't wait around for your life to happen to you. Find something that
makes you happy, and do it. Because everything else is all just
background noise. ~George Mason (24)
  By the way...season 4 is finally out!!!! YAY!!!!

Have a couple blog sites, checking this out to see how it compares.

internet is leaving tomorrow.  this's the last communication from the far side of the world.  should be in the states this time next week. 

4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, should I honestly feel guilty about being promoted at work because they didn't post it and other people feel as though they deserved a chance.  But if the decision was already made on who to promote, what does it matter if they go through the formalities? Everyone knew it would happen.  I'm sorry, but the corporate world is survival of the fittest and i have learned that the hard way because i am always walked on at work...in fact i took the promotion with no pay raise. it is only to help out...no one complained when i was moved to the dairy dept without that position being posted...sometimes i think people should just leave well enough alone.  I'm sorry that I have open availablity (i.e. i'm willing to work 24/7) and the person who is upset is only willing to work a maximum of 25 hours a week.  but honestly, is being passed up for a promotion that you don't deserve worth crying about? ok, now i'm ranting so i'm done.

It is crazy to walk down the street singing do-wa-diddy-dom-diddy-do!!!!! 

 They call me mellow yellow!

MY name is ToM jOhNsOn but really its RUSSIA

i would just like to say that i am sorry for any misunderstanding that happened, kaleena. i don't understand why you are so pissed at me but there is no point to say things that are rude about me and roth or anything like that... that just hurts and why would you hurt me when i didn't do anything to you?  ......... rae rae

anyways i don't get to see roth in lunch today cuz i have a voice lesson but o well i love Mrs. Donna.  she rox my face off. 

me and my mom got in a huge fight last night... to make a long story short she basically called me a freak because of what i wear and she said i acted like one too... so i didn't have a very good night.

so if anyone hasnt noticed i have been really just quiet and not really loud wherever im at...(well execpt for with jamie...we always are loud when where together).....sorry......

God has really just been laying things on my heart..and i have been thinking about them a lot! yeah i think to much! o well! everything will be okay in the end!!!

my weekend was a blast!!!
the lights are amazing at OpryLand!!!
dont eat tha the Irish Pub in the hotel! unless you get a burger!!!
make sure you wear a lot of clothing in 16 degree tempertures....i froze in ICE!!!

kinda sad...
have to take my promise ring back b/c well its kinda 2 big and they sold me a fake ring!!! soo yeah!

well im off to class!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

Yes, it's true.  My computer is currently incapacitated.

Our power went out twice on Sunday morning, and my computer's power supply blew out.  Luckily though, Elaine, the hardware chick from my Dad's office is willing to salvage a power supply from a broken computer and put it on my computer.  Yay!

Sebastian will be home soon.

Right now I'm updating from dun-dun-daaaaah!  Physics class!  Exciting, no?  I love this whole you-can-get-into-phusebox-from-school thing.

Wow.  I don't know if I just missed the exact right combination of days, but I am tooootally confused.  We're doing potential energy, kinetic energy, and how all that stuff relates to friction and force.  Seeing as how I never really understood the fiction equations in the first place, this is no good.  Nooooo goooood.

Ah well.  Class is going to start soon, so I should get off of the computer while I'm ahead.

Ciao, honies.

although phusebox kills xanga. this is no longer any fun, and i get way more comments on xanga. but nathan is a genious and i applaud him for what hes done here. and so i guess ill see you all later.

On the way home, this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way. This weather. The wind outside is biting. It has left me feeling tired & exposed. You've been asking me to bleed. It seems these kinds of questions come too easy to you now. Your lack of shame comes naturally. I should not be surprised. I should have seen it sooner.

You expect me to apologize for things you've done wrong. While you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, because you're not going anywhere. this damp air is fighting my defroster. My sighs they ring victorious & fog this tinted glass. It's clouded and so is my head.

The hint of these new tears are sharp I try to hold them back. Its useless. I am useless against them. They are beating me with ease. On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight i'll take the long way.

So I really should update more....what an original opening line! well here it is, 1:37 am AGAIN! School is once again almost over.....Im ready for these classes to be over with but at the same time I don't really want to go home....really, what am I going to do for a month....with tons of family and sleeping on the couch. I'm ready to get everything moved and in one place finally! Our living situation isnt quiet what it used to be...like last year! There were things like our "You love me but you don't, over and over again" friend and stuff to keep things interesting! well Im probably not making any sense right now...Im pretty tired- even after that caffine buzz from joes. goodnight and sleep tight! Love4all!
JNB

I'm uberexcited! I leave in 13 days. It will be a little tough while I'm gone, but He's with me.

I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight. I'm bursting at the seams with excitement. In my anticipation, may I not to forget to live today while it's here.

"Oh, clap your hands, all you peoples! Shout to God with the voice of triumph! For the Lord Most High is awesome; He is a great King over all the earth. He will subdue the peoples under us, and the nations under our feet. He will choose our inheritance for us,..." Psalm 47:1-4

update on my granddanny....he's back home from the hospital. he had a TIA (aka trans-ischemic attack) which is just a fancy way to say a mini-stroke.  but TIA's are usually a precursor to a full blown stroke.  so i'm a little worried.  please keep him in your prayers!

Aight...I wiped it again and deleted allt he stuff that wont be used right off the batt...so who knows imma try and get this to work...an update...o_O;
Layta

Oh my gosh this is a cause for celebration!  Just kidding... Hm.... not much to say.. I've been playing an awesome video game called "Prince of Persia: Warrior Within", and it is awesome!  well anyway.. here's more writing... this will show off my crazy bad white boy rapping skillz!
--------------------
Yo listen up, that's right
I got sumtin' to say,
I've been lost an' confused,
But now see my way

It's clear as any-ting
Danglin' free befour my face,
It's way off from
Between a rock an' a hard place...

It's an open ocean,
A free sea waitin' for me,
Tell you what,
Can't wait til' I leave

Lead me on Lord,
Through shroud and plain sight,
Stan' close to you Lord,
And for you will I fight.
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WHEN WILL SCHOOL EVER END???so many projects so little time...im so ready for the soon to come and much needed christmas break!!YAY!!hope you all had a wonderful day!!i love them i do!

Well, since this whole deal is new to me, I thought I would see if I can keep the whole entry a day thing going...  Don't worry.  It won't last long. 

Today was sadly one of those days when I just feel very inadequate.  I feel like I haven't learned anything in school, or I am incapable of using what I've learned.  I feel like everyone is in a competition with everyone else, and we can't just all be friends and a team.  Well, it is sort of a competition, but that's not the point.  They shouldn't make me feel bad about my ideas...  And I think a teacher got mad at me.  I don't like it when teachers are mad at me.  Oh well, I only have to take that guy's final and I'm done with him.  For good.

Sometimes I feel like I try so hard to not get ahead, but merely to keep up, but no matter how hard I try, I end up falling behind. And I don't think there is a cure. 

*Sigh* 

Oh well, onto the homework...

this season was meant for me.

have you ever felt like a season was just perfect for you... well, i don't know if i'm going keep this thing. just thinking about everything. life is going absolutely wonderful.. just one thing is on my mind.?.. hmm..


i love winter more.

hm... yeh life is boring.. ok boring is a bad choice of a word.. cuz its stressful and confusing definetely not boring... but not really all the great... ive had alot of ups and downs lately.... ugh.. pray for me..

love you, meag

hey guys... so formal is on the 20th and yeah i needed to get a black and white cocktail dress...so this is the one that i got... i like it...

ugh!!! we have like a week and a half  until mid terms... not lookin forward to that...

a charlie brown christmas is startin soon... i couldnt be a stage hand likei wanted to be cuz of my job but im workin as a like ticket person ... so i still get to watch the show for free... i think... ive heard that it was good so yall should go and see it!!!!

christmas is sooo soon... i love it ... the season just makes me happy,,, other than the coldness...

went to sugarees today with  cole and the lady was SUPER weird... she was like oh youll looove these!!! and cole was like ohhhh those are  amazing!!!! and then we got in the dressing room and fell on the ground laughin... or trin to not laugh!!!! it was hard... but the dresses were very weird!!! they had crazy HUGE bows and big polka dots!!!

well i hope everyone doesnt get too crazy about mid terms....

have a great day

So I was told the phusebox was better so I am starting my own phusebox aren't you guys proud?  I shall be adding more pictures some time, I know all my pictures are of me, but hey its my blog so why shouldn't they be huh? LoL, haha.  Oh well I am supposed to be studying so I am going to go but I will talk to you guys later! This is kind of Christmasie, lol I don't know if that is a word. But I love Christmas so here is some color for ya!

Love ya,

Becky

yep that's right! Only 2 more weeks till Christmas break! I 'm so incredibly excited and extremely stressed out because the teachers are piling everything on us this week and we have midterms next week. But if it's the price i have to pay for 2 weeks out of school then that's fine with me.Now all we need is snow.

i'm officially tired of people being jerks to me.

just because you're having a bad night doesn't mean you have to take it out on everyone around you and if you're busy doesn't mean that you have to be rude about telling someone you're busy.

i have this one "friend" that whenever i ask him for help with school work he flips out and acts like it's this huge inconvience for him then he promptly turns around and asks me for help with a different class...

seems like every day someone else decides to be a jerk and make things just that much harder for me.

7moredays7moredays than i can be away from you for 2 weeks.

7moredays

JCSS was amazing. i'll miss doing stage crew for nardin. some of my best memories are in the last three musicals. like dancing backstage crazily with eliza.

almost done w/ college apps. thank. god.

i'm 18 on thursdayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

I have really been looking forward to the snow this year. It will be my first official full winter here in NY. Tonight it is supposed to snow 9 inches. But I can say it's different knowing that I will still wake up early and work tomorrow.

We are playing Christmas music through the office now. And sitting at my desk with a warm vanilla creme from Starbucks listening to Bing Crosby sing White Christmas, I just basked in how much I love Christmas. I would like to find some sugar cookies and have hot chocolate breaks each afternoon.

Uhh...


Dunno what to say....

finally after months of deep prayer and relying fully on God i realized what i needed  to do and now life is incredible!! my friends were with me through it all :] thank you guys!

*andrea girl i really wanted to come to your voice recital. -sighs- im soo sorry i should've done homework earlier lol im sure you did amazing!! and i have confirmation of that from lisa! :]] love you girl!

whew... losing friends is NEVER fun but sometimes the only option... even though i never thought it would happen this way or none the less happen at ALL. God has definitely used it to show me he has more in store for me :] with the help of lisa's words (thank you lees!)

my best friend rachel :]

SHINE FOR JESUS!!

anyone out that plays guitar, need to get the new taylor T5. cause i got one. and its freaking sick man. ive been playing for like 6 years now....and its the crazy coolest thing ive ever played.

CONGRATS TO MY BABY SISTER ELISSA FOR MAKING CALL BACKS @ BLACKMAN FOR DAMN YANKEES! ^^ W00T W00T!

today was alright.... Bekah saw Richard at Hollywood Video... i'm jealous lol

Bekah lent me some mangas today and they were magical... * sigh*  i'm never gonna find a good fit! >.<

"I don't particularly feel like
walking in front of anyone.
But I don't feel like walking
behind anyone either."
-Ayu (AUDIENCE)

why do i always feel like a failure?

no matter what i do, i always seem to fail in some way....

well. another monday has come and is going..i actually had a pretty decent muanday:

i found my wallet!...thank the Lord! ..im a happy girl now that im not driving illegally...ha.

i want to just say real fast a few things about the people that im CRAZY about:

Donna Shearron. my mom. not yours! ha. sometimes i think all of her students from siegel are going to come home with us, but at the end of the day shes mine all mine. i love her so much. i hope that someday i will be just like her..a strong beautiful woman that lives for so much everyday of her life.

Johnny, or as i say- daddy..well what can i say about my dad..just like me and my mom we dont always see eye to eye..but good grief i could never ask for more. my dad is such a good dad. hes always been such an example of a man that loves God and our family.

Keato..frito.. burrito.. mosquito?..ha..she'll kill me for writing that..but yea. shes.. my sister! weve grown up side by side..from barbies to playing in the rain ..nobody beats my sis.

Em. wow. what do i say about miss. emily joy windham? shes more than i could ever have hoped for in a best friend. she never ceases to make me laugh..or to say exactly the right thing.. shes my accountablity partner and the real thing when it comes to an awesome girl that is going to do amazing things with her life.. the guy that gets her is so lucky

lauren nicdao: ..well we are both pretty busy, and we both have our own things going on. but gah lee we are the same person..i love that girl so so much- she doesnt even know.

rachel summar: .. this girl gets me through school. and helps me stay sane in oakland high school.

will veale: ..makes school fun and helps me make it through school too.

josh pipes: such an awesome guy- funny, fun, easy to talk to, caring... and of course he doesnt even see it ..he always has been there for me.

so ..yea, i just felt like those awesome people deserved some credit from someone that loves them all very very much.
-kels

so tonight after play practice, i went w/ Sarah, Katie, and Stroop to Blue Coast Burrito. Es muy bueno. man, queso is good. but too expensive. nayways, had fun you guys! i mistook a black lady for my mom. that was fun. tonight was possibly the funniest practice yet. i was in the middle of this "moment" with Matt in the play, and all of the sudden, this one girl let's out this insane retard laugh/war-whoop when she was supposed to daintily giggle...and if you knew her, you'd laugh too. gah. i love school. i revoke my statement about ppl sucking. i love ppl. i was just disappointed. so, no ppl don't suck. i love you all. school itsself was aight, i guess. i was really sleepy, so that didn't help. i'm actually starting to understand algebra again, so that's good. and man, dontcha hate it when a friend completely changes (or so you think) but then goes back to being a douche-bag, just when you get your hopes up? oh well...life is like a box of carrots...long, orange, and kinda pointless. hardy har. i think the queso has gone to my brain. oh yeah, by the way...I'MMA BE SIXTAYN ON WEDNESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but alas, with no car. oh well. life is still good. well. i guess i gotta go do el work-o de algebra-o. SEACREST, OUT! ----Cari