ugh. nothing is going right this mroning. my phone keeps turning off, and my car is screwed, and my mom won't come get me for lunch, and i don't want to make another sandwich... cause i'm sick of them, and my dad won't come fix my car till later, and i don't have any plans today.

boo.

but i just discovered Gwen Steafni's new clothing line - Harijuku Lovers. i have mixed feelings about it. on one hand it is CHO KAWAII and i want some of the shirts, but they're cut for girls, and i don't really do that anymore. but i love it. on the other hand... it's what i wrote about a while ago about Jpop becoming popular and how i don't like it cause it's my thing. ah, well... it was at Urban Outfitters, so it's deff a good thing.

<3

~ And so I post another entry...Faith, if you read this, I want you to know that I'm hoping you're doing alright & finals went well. I also hope that you have a merry Christmas! :-) I'll have to remember to email you a list of people to invite to the lingerie shower you're giving me. ~

~ I've been busy today working on final stuff...I just finished an online test for Business Law and I have to finish another for Constitutional Law, then write a paper on either Locke or Machiavelli for Western Political Thought. ~

~ I worked last night in concession and previewed "The Family Stone". I worked in tickets on Monday and previewed "King Kong", which is crazy long, over 3 hours. I think Chris and I are going during matinee (about the only time I'm NOT working...) on Saturday to see "The Chronicles of Narnia". ~

~ Merry Christmas everyone! =) ~

Well seems people dig my ol days of DAP.
Yeah, that was a band I was in before I moved...  And people turned asshole.
But doesnt mean I cant put the pics up!

So yeah, check it out.  Pretty, uh, cool?

this started out as a longer poem but didn't quite make it that far...

17 years    
17 years I waited
For his kind words to touch my face
17 years wasted
Vanished, without a trace.

Why I let myself start to trust him
I still don't understand
17 years on a guessing whim
17 years, I "chat" cannot mend.

Calls are pointless
He tried and he did fail
My heart needs a seemstress
Effort now is as pointless as the mail.

17 years flew by so fast
But the images of hatred still do last.

-Katie Doebler-
Inspired by life.

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a social person who likes to talk and meet others.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

wow i can't believe there are only 10 more days until Christmas.. it's crazy!! i still got a little more Chirstmas shopping to do~

the semester is officially over.. i passed mass media (the class i was worried about) so i was very happy about that, i made an A in algebra! which is incredible because math isn't my thing..

well i hope everyone has a great day, i'm off to babysit! love yall~

--cp

I love you!!

Hey hey hey!

Wow just got done taking two midterms it  sucked ass! Its funny cause in the beginning of the test you try your best but, it starts going down hill from there it seems. But, anywayzzzz i slept with my stereo last night (not in that way you perv!) Because i came home from going to church with my awesome best friend Ashlee F. But, i was too tired to even fix my bed and get all my stuff off of it ummm like Erica haha jk. But, x-mas is coming around the corner and we got the stuppppppidddd x-mas tree down. I hate getting it down from the attic! But, shyeah i will be going to my dads like the day after x-mas and will be staying there for the rest of the break. So yeah the only thing i am stoked about is going to my dads and sleeping on my comfertable bed.. haha yeah..

Dude i am sooo buying this!!

Steph to the rad!

I'm not sure if everyone is familiar with the scavengers of the sea, seagulls, but they will eat anything and do anything to eat something. So today I was driving to staples to pick up envelopes for our christmas offering at church this Sunday and I almost hit a seagull on the road. It had droped it's food my lane and tried to retrive it as I was driving . I really thought I was going to have a Seagull stuck to the grill of my car. Dumb bird

photo from bouclee

I found a new man, well guy, actually boy. Last night when I was babysitting, I was working on a project, and out of the blue Grady said, "Miss Megan you look beatiful tonight" That just made my day.

One exam down, one to go, I think I did pretty good on my spanish one

**EDIT**

Ok done w/ my second, got a 75 on it, not horrible for not even studying for a second.

Yeah, I got done with it in like 30 minutes. Right now I'm just sitting here looking at nothing on the computer because I have nothing to do. I'm going to try and go to the Narnia movie after we get out today, that'd be really cool.

I have MYO rehearsal tonight, I'm excited. We're having sections so it'd be fun. Micheal (Ping) is going to try out my horn around 5:30 because he wants to try it. Him and Sean are going to the WWBW store in Indiana in January. I was going to go w/ them but there is that whole thing about me going to school. Oh well.

I LOVE this song lately!

"Yes, I stand up again and again
If there is a wall, we can break it
Don't you think our lives have only just begun?
So long as there is a way, we can open the door"
-Ayu (INSPIRE)

Moonlight
All alone in the dark night
Have you come to save me from myself?
Or will you leave like all the rest?
Moonlight
Shattered in my memory
the pain once dwells with me
Rescue me from this memory (misery?)
All that's left behind
is moonlight
Scattered once again in front of me
You've come to rescue me
O moonlight
Take me to that world you see
You see it so clearly
Far away from all but moonlight
I drift for just that one time again
I'm back again with memory (misery?)
But still you saved me
O moonlight
Moonlight
All alone in the dark night
Have you come to save me from myself?
Moonlight
I'm sure you've come
to save me from this waking nightmare
this endless nightmare
why are you stalling?
I need you to show me
I need me to see
This need of infinity (misery?)
O moonlight
If not you?
Than who?
To show me reason?
O moonlight
Will you come to save me from myself?
Who's moonlight?

---

"We believe that the best way to make decisions is to think, when I am 87 years old, will I be glad I did that?"

---

 well yesterday turned out to be a great day... school sucked but after that i went and picked up kimberly and we went ice skating with my church and went to eat at angels.... its an italian restruant.... well i gotta take this on line test so i'll get on later and see if anyone has commentd me... well later.

okay so i guess its time for an update...well not to much happening. monday absolutely nothing, tuesday i got my liscense!!! and i went to an open house thing for where i used to work and then i went with andy to target and wendys and then he showed me around murfreesboro because i didnt even know what half of the places were(kinda sad being that ive lived here all my life)then tonight church and then andy,weston, and elise came over and we watched madagascar and played the piano and looked under christmas trees and ya know just chilled....but yea so tmrw and friday i havce midterms and again on monday..so booh on that!but anyways...i guess i shall talk to you folks later!!love you all!!

Quote of the Day:"You have to have a heart as big as an elephant and skin as thick as a rhino"......so ive known that but today someone explained it to me and it hit me. so yea...

I JUST WISH I WAS THERE....^.^.^.^.^.^.

wow..i dont think ive ever looked that good in a pic that time of night....josh,i guess your the only one who can grab my looks in a pic..by the way my AMAZINly lovin and hot(lol) boyfriend...joshua d. walton...took that pic of me durin hidin go seek in the dark

i love you josh

i was driving home from work today, listening to the black eyed peas. the road is a country road so it was kind of dark. there is a lot of trees to my left. as i am passing these trees this thing comes shooting at me as if it were from a gun. i see it in the corner of my eye and i hear it hit my vehicle. that thing was a deer. in a matter of 2 seconds that deer came out of them trees hit me and died, i think. i couldnt see if it was on the ground or not. if you are wondering what vehicle i was driving it was my dads truck. it hit the front part of the bed. had i had been in my car i probably would have kissed the thing.

the semester has come to a close. thank the Lord. it was a wild roller coaster ride. my spring schedule is pretty cool. i just got to fix my english class. i scheduled it at the wrong time.

i have come to the conclusion that coldplay is the best band to ever play on this earth.

I just got my psychology grade back... it was a B+.....which means I will not have a 4.0....

BLOOP!

OMG is that a snowflake?!?!?!...wait nvm forgot we were in Tennessee

So thought I would update this daily, but looks like that isn't happening.  Oh well! The semester is over whooohoo!! I have all A's so far, but that is from Karate and Speech so if I didn't get A's that would be pretty sad.

There is only eleven more days until Christmas!  AHH!! I don't know what colors I will use then. I am almost done shopping after I get paid on Tuesday I should be able to get finished and only spending about  40 more dollars so that will be ok.

This is awful I hate waiting for my grades to get out in.  My kids at school the other day asked me what I got on my report card, because they got theirs and  I was like well we don't get those. Man there are a few kids that I am really going to miss at the 'Ole CLA I kinda hope I might be able to work some over Christmas break, but it all depends on my schedule at Patterson. That would bring in some nice money though, and I would have good money to take to Gulf Coast.  I really hope I get enough money to buy a coat before I go to Gulf Coast it would be nice. We'll see though because getting my $100 in to go to NY over break in top priority and I don't know if I am going to be able to get that in. We will see I think I will come up with it somehow.

I have 2 hours of paperwork and videos to do tomorrow for my new job, oh what fun I am sure that will be.  But at least I get paid for it, well I hope I do anyway. I better. Haha.

OH well I am going to go I have to get up early in the morning I have so much stuff to do before I go for Training or whatever it is at 10:00. Ahh!! I am having to get up earlier now than I did when I was in school.  OH well I guess this is part of being older and responsible.  Being responsible sure does stink. Ha.

Love ya,

Becky

Well...  So, um...
My girlfriend broke up with me.

Yeah...  It sucked.

So.  Nick is now single and ready to mingle :P
...Yeah, that wasnt as fun as I thought it might be to say.

I Celebrate The Day ~ Relient K

With this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know
How much You've touched my life because
Here is where You're finding me
In the exact same place as New Years Eve
And from the lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I wanna be

And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare
The things I've felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me
And the hope that
That You give
That You were born so I might really live
To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me…

And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that You opened Your eyes
Did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And I
I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day
Pray for You to save my life
Pray for You to save my life
Pray for You to save my life

i woke up to this...


and then, i went to eat...


and ate some birthday dessert


and i came home to find all my friends...

and then i got a cake!!!


so, all in all, my 18th birthday was fun...sorry it has taken so long to post...have a great week and good luck with midterms...

love_rebekah

Man I can't wait 'til Christmas!! what's all this mess with "Merry Christmas" vs. "Happy Holidays"??Both are acceptable but Holidays refers to Christmas so what's the struggle? - Christmas is the reason for the Holiday season and Jesus is the reason for Christmas!!! So MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you all have an awesome Christmas- and don't forget what it's all really about!!

Oh it feels great to have finals over! I wish all of you who still have them the best. Just keep truckin along. Anyhoo just wanted to express my joy!

To Shelby - I LIKE BEANS!!!!! haha


Yall have a great day!

So everyone likes my new haircut. Woohoo! I need to do more stuff in my life. 'Cause I do nothing but sit around all day. And I hate it. Any suggestions from my....one reader? haha

Tomorrow we begin

what we call, midterms.

1st && 2nd period

then we are out.

So that is wicked awesome.

Then 3rd && 4th

Friday followed by Charlie Brown.

Then the weekend!!!

Monday is going to go by quickly,

easy classes.

Choir Concert too.

So i'll be at school from about 1-2pm.

Then the concert is at about 7:00-:30

and it should last about an hour.

So come see me.


That look.

Those eyes.

I can't help but fall.

One word from you sends me spinning.

I'm on cloud nine,

and for once.

I'm happy I'm stuck.

-me


"You're a terrible singer, but I like this song"

Happy Bday to me!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! school's out!!! it's such a relief! sucky part is, i'm getting my tonsils taken out tomorrow...so no fun for carla for the next couple of weeks! and i can't talk for a couple of days after the surgery! :( anybody that knows me understands what a big deal that is! so if you want to get in touch with me or come visit me, send me an email or a text and i'll communicate with you that way! i would love visitors to come watch movies with me or just hang out!

so hears the thing my voice is gone... hahha i got up this morning and i was horse ya know... and then i went to school had to sing at the chamber choir "feild trip" and had a solo it was aweful!!! but then after the preformance i was totally deprived of my voice hahah oh well ... hope i get better good luck to all on exams!!! love ya!! Sarah

So. Yeah.  Done with finals.  Now what?...

I think I've even gotten bored with the ninja scarves for a while. *sigh* This is bad.  Meh.

A readable version of my schedule might be helpful...
Tuesday-Thursday:
French Conversation 9:40-11:05
Japanese 2 1:00-2:25
Women's Choir 2:40-4:05

Monday-Wednesday-(Friday)
Intro Philosophy 9:10-10:05 MWF
Honors Intro Anthropology 10:20-11:15 MWF
Social Psych 12:40-2:05 MW
Intro Social Dance 3:00-3:55 MW

my days have been so normal lately...it's kind of like i've memorized my lines and i'm going through the day just doing what i've memorized...not a real life...a scripted one...i keep waiting for someone to yell, "cut! now let's take it back and try this scene over..." but it's not happening...



maybe church will help a little...

Hey, all

im staying in the Navy Lodge a few minutes from 'Aiea (pronounced eye-AY-uh), which is a few miles down the interstate from Honolulu. It is 80 degrees here, and will be the whole three years i am in Hawai'i.

---

So we had the most boring flight ever:

We woke up at 4:00 in the morning to go to the airport, and my dog was packing her toys in my suitcase. She knows we're going somewhere, and she thinks she's going. We left the house, and got on the interstate for Nashville Airport. We got there, and we sat in the gate to Denver for an hour.

We arrived in Denver in no time. We had an hour and a half to spare. We went to Dominoes to eat lunch, I bought The Client, a Grisham book, and then roamed the largest airport in the world. When we boarded the plane, it took five minutes to take off, because the runway was so freakin' long. Then we were in the air for 7 hours and 6 minutes. We played "Halfway to Hawai'i" and filled out paperwork, paperwork required to be done by the state of Hawai'i. They are into the save the Hawaiian Environment thing, so they don't want you to bring crap in. We watched the Polar Express, which was the worst movie of all time, and then finally landed after 3 forevers.

We drove around, with my dad (we felt like hicks, since we still had our Rutherford County Tennessee plates on), and found out that the radio stations suck. We ate at the NEX mall food court (NEX is the Navy Exchange).

Then at 11:00 PM we went to Honolulu Airport to ge tmy mom, who had originally been scheduled to fly in at 8:30, but she missed her flight at LAX, because her Nashville to Chicago was late, and her Chicago to LAX was delayed. Yeah, it was fun.

TTYL

Matt

   Today was just really depressing. First, I found out that I lost fourteen pounds in one week. Yeah, not good, but at least I know that is because I have never been as depressed as I am now. Secondly, I am starting to feel weird about certain things. Things that I once enjoyed, now just seem strange. Perhaps, I am just growing up or the depression is hitting harder than I thought. Thirdly, I have a 75 in Physics without the three points, the test we just took, and the corrections I did today. So, I have a feeling it will not be good. Finally, break is coming up and I am not allowed to see her outside of school or technically at all, so as if I haven't had a hard enough time, triple it and you get what I will be going through.
   I also had an extreme urge to slaughter people today. Not just hurt or kill, but slaughter and torture certain people... ... I REALLY need to go see someone about this.

smoke.

If I could I would be smoke
And I’d float myself out of here
And I’d go wherever you are
And I’d never have to be too far from here
And I’d linger in your fingers
A transparent shade of gray
And watch as you watch me
Slowly fade away
Into the night
Where are you when I need you by my side

Shouldn’t it be that easy
To just be happy for awhile
Get lost in a moment
Wasting time trading smiles
Shouldn’t it be that easy
To just be happy for awhile
Come on won’t you waste my time
Baby waste my time
Won’t you waste all my time

Tristan Prettyman

SO.. it was a good day..we're one step closer to christmas break!

tomorrow i have english hon. and chem adv. hon. midterms..so hard

fri - spanish and algebra 2 hon...ugh.

mon- art and Ap Us History...

so thats the plan.

love love love.-kels

So.... I think I'm going to submit a poem (or two) as my essay to Columbia.  And then it's FINISHED!!  Party!!!
Debating whether I should post them (my 'essay') here or not.
Hm.
Decisions.

This is partially a legitimate response to their essay requirements, and partially desperation in response to said essay requirements.

-- NYU is almost finished.
-- George Washington University is almost finished.
-- I haven't even LOOKED at Boston College's yet (curses).  This is largely due to the technical difficulties visited on my computer by their website.
-- And University of Chicago is a real jerk in the essay department.  I mean really.  Chinese symbols?!  How is that germane???
-- But Chinese symbols aren't as lame as me having to send an MTSU transcript.... To MTSU.  *Slams head*

Caroline and Tori are watching Moby Dick downstairs.
It sounds quite painful.
Personally, I despise Melville.  "Inter-chapters" are a crock.  You just know that author was trying to beef up his page count and sound arcane.

Three finals tomorrow.  Government, English, and French.  Boo!  It's going to burn my poor little brain cells (however few I have).

Then dressing up in full peasant regalia to go stand outside a theatre and promote Narnia.  How Narnia and Elizabethan peasants/nobles relate, I have NO IDEA.  We just tend to ignore that part.  We're going to be outside, though.  Bloody hell.  The peasant costume was sewn for the exclusive purpose of aerating during the hot and muggy month of May, not for standing outside in December.  Gah.  Stupid nobles and their nice warm velvet.  *Glares*  Why can't peasants wear velvet?  Eh??  Instead of thin cotton, and linen, and cable ties from shoulders to waist.  At least I can pester all the lovely men who might wander by.  "Peasant free to a good home!  Automatically defrosts upon adoption!  One-time offer!  Rebate!  Coat -- ack!"

I've written enough unimportant things up here for one day.
Catch you kids later....

i failed
i'm not going to public school next semester
i'm staying at rta
& i'm happy.

no regrets at all.

So we had chair tryouts today. I ended up getting 3rd, but by very little. Ruth seemed really suprised that Jordan beat me. I'm kinda glad I got 3rd though, I get to play all the high-notes that I love, but Mr. Medford said I need to challege because I'd pro'lly win. I don't know if I want to or not...I kinda want play 3rd...

oh, how i dread the fading light,
but welcome darkness
with open arms... for I know soon.
i'll be dreaming of you...

You in all your sweetness..
running through my veins...
Has waken me inside...
But I'll lie still forever...

Because you leave me that way..
At peace, with everything.....
Even this world that separates..
The two of us..

Sleep tight, sweet angel.

offcially tres days til my el birthday.

yeahyeah I am in Spanish but
it's just more fun making up your own little words.

my weeks plan;;

wednesday--
chuuuuurch

thursday--
midterms
staying after school to bake 600 dang cookies!

friday--
midterms
MY BIRTHDAY!
dinner/oprymill/ opryland hotel

I'm so excited about friday.
I'm going crazy just waiting for it to come around.

saturday--
hanging out with claaaaaire :]
well most likely

past events;;

Christmas parade--
it was fuun
I love dancing in it even though
I get sweaty and grosss.
afterward though we went to this church thing
but we got there at 5 and it started at 7
so we hung out at wendy's [me, paige, & tiffany]
wiiiiild.

okayokay. thanks for the comments.
I love yaaa.

hey hey people srry for not updating....

i need to study but hell i am not i am eatinng

of course exma(how ever you spell it) are toomorrow>>

math and health for me

damn...............oh well

later

               meg

I'm a good person....right?

OH YEAH WHO GOT A 'B' IN A & P??? THATD BE ME BABY!!!!

i went from expectin to get a low C to somehow pullin a B, i am ecstatic, hopefully my other classes will follow suit! lol we shall see........

Love you all! Guess who comes home tomorrow!!! YAYYYYYY!!! lol but anyway im gonna go sleep, went to bed at 1 then got up at 6 to take 2 finals lol so i am exhausted... byenesss

so school right now pretty much stinks. Im really happy that i have my first semster over with. I just really pray and hope that i passed all of my exams. im so nervous. ahhhhh!!!!! I just want it to hurry up and be friday or saturday so i can see my grades.

I have so much stuff on my mind and i just want to be at home with all of my friends. I miss my friends that are at freed and harding.

Well i have to go pack to get ready to go home. i cant wait. to bad my mom is not at home im kinda sad that she isnt going to be there when i get home she is in Pennsylvania.

Have a great day

:)

I can't really say how i'm feeling cause i can't find the right words. So i was listening to "Fix You" by Coldplay and i guess that is sorta how i feel. (I know that this makes no sense at all but i don't really care at the moment.)                  

                                

         When you try your best but you don't succeed

           when you get what you want but not what you need

           when you feel so tired but you can't sleep

           stuck in reverse

          And the tears come streaming down your face

          when you lose something you can't replace

         when you love someone but it goes to waste

         could it be worse.....

                                 -Coldplay

Yes , i know i'm quoting coldplay but it is really kinda how i feel at the moment and i couldn't think of anything better to say.

 section1- 125

section two-123

section three-125 or4

section four-12

essay:  five p. effects of the expansion of industry. what happened socially, politcally and economically. read section 1 hows it effectiong people

what effect does the rr have on gov. and on expansion to the west.section two

what is the effect of labor and labor unions on the economy and does it have an effect on our government section three

*Sighs Big* Shew, the end of the semester at last. I am so glad to be finished with this semester. Classes are over, Labs are over, Tests are over, and most importantly, Finals are over. So if you are not yet completely finished with your finals, you only have one more day to go, only one and then the big sigh of relief comes to you. So if you are glad that the semester is over and you are glad that Christmas break is finally here then let us see how many remarks you have to give. Later....

So I've taken lots of pictures with my new camera. My apologies if you fall victim to its eye.

bored again. this time we have a free period in speech.  hmmmmmmmmm. mid-terms are coming up. tomorrow i am going to youth. Mr.cing said that we are having a christmas party or something like that. chelsie got grounded b/c she crashed the car.  i have to do some last minute shopping and figure out if i really do have strong feelings for one guy. at first i didn't think that i did, and then i thought , wow i really like him, now i am not sure what to think. i finally figured out how to enter onto the anime club website and have been in communcation with the members.i took my criminal justice mid term today and i think that i did fairly well. normally when i think that i end up doing poorly but in this case i believe i did do well. i still am doing pretty poorly in math but my mid terms should bring that up.

It has been a long time I know that. I have not been doing much around lately. Me and Tj are doing good. He is so cute and adorable. I saw him last night. I met him when he got off work. I am going to Jackie's tonight. I am debating on whether to go to church or not. I know that I am going to have to study for exams. I am so ready for Christmas. Well, time to go now. Love you all,

Hannah

Alright, so my good buddy Shaunzys gotta move back.
Really bummed about that.  My Magic playin buddy : [

*sniffle* He gave me his Qui[something] Champion today as a parting gift. 
Ok, well Im in Engineering Design atm and, uh...  Yeah.
Woo woo, Minute Maid all teh way biotch.

Hey PB... Man I'm Going Crazy Today At School... I'm Still Tryna Find Someone For Me... I Like So Many People But I Don't Know Who To Choose... Well, I'll Get Back At Yall Later Ok... Holla...

So last night my lovely friend Lacy Evans told me about this song by Chris Cagle titled "Maria".

I wanted to share the chorus with you...

this made me laugh out loud...

hopefully one day soon this will be true...


Maria

Your kisses knock me over

Make me drunk and then leave me sober

They let me know that I'm a man

Maria

Your touch, it almost kills me

Then it turns around and heals me

I get lost and found again

In the arms of a woman that a mother gave the name Maria

Tender power

The gift she gives me gets me through the day

Midnight hour

I reach across the bed where she lay

Then I look up and see the moon dance on her skin

My heart starts poundin' once again

It's a sweet intoxication, a powerful frustration

How I want her, oh how I need her

Je t'aime

Praise Jesus, school is out for winter.

 Hello people

   pretty sure school s boring. i am in CMS right now && it is boring.
   i wish that i was home.

 I dont got to stay after school as long as i usually do. i only gotta stay after until 4:45...

Bye

Bye

Sarah...</3

I'm having a very good day. . .even though I could fall asleep.

We. the christian youth of America, are the light. We are what shine in the dark. Don't hide who you really are, all you christians out there. We need to make that little candle light into a big huge UNCONTROLABLE flame; burning thoughts into the sinners minds. We need to really get out there and show people what God has done for us. Shoot, we're still alive. . we have a home ot live in, shoes on our feet, foot to eat. . presents under our christmas trees. . We are ultimately blessed by being Christians. I know I don't want anyone to go to hell just because I didn't bring up the conversation of God ya know. I mean, God will go to everyone, but maybe that one person whom you sit by in class is just waiting for you to mention God to them. To introduce them, possible ask them to church. Little stuff can add up to millions of blessings. It could spread like wild-fire.

I guess the reason I'm going on about this is because Marlo dragged me off yesterday morning to a little pray circle that they have every day outside. They have prayer requests, and things of that nature and they end with prayer. Well, today Travis N. went on a little thought about being a light and it just expanded into my brain. I just loved it. It's so simple yet it's so complex. I love it. Well I must be going now. I need to study for my Biiology II test today! UGH! say a prayer for me for this test cuz I need this test to work out really well! Well, I'll talk to oyou guys later!! LUV YA'LL!

Cay           aka            Hub

With the recent exection of Tookie, this has been a big issue. I will not give you my opinion on this subject, because not everyone would agree. But I want to know yalls thoughts on the Tookie case and whether or not you think he deserved the sentence he got. Josh Hornbaker made a good point...he said that whether or not this man was guilty of the 4 murders he was charged of....he is still responsible for all of the retaliation between the bloods and the crips gangs. So leave me your thoughts.

had the two toughest exams today but i did ok glad to finaly get a break from school for a bit. of course then i am sure that i will have towork more... speaking of that you people should come see me at toots... if you want to know when i am gonna work just tlak to me online or leave a message here and i can let you know. anyways i will update more later. see ya.
Ben

i hate taking finals.. they ARE easy.. but i hate them!! but i really do love these half days!! =) tomorrow a bunch of us r walkin down to mc d's or something.. but idk.. then maybe a movie.. OMGOSH after my art final.((i know its so dumb how we have finals in art.. "what are the 3 primary colors?"... ))... we had to clean the WHOLE art room!! it was so GAY!! it really was!! and then WILL had to CLEAN our table.. and CASEY had to clean the other one next to ours.. and I DIDNT have to do ne thing.. but i helped ne ways.. and then casey was like uhh im not doing it if i have to use bleach cause im NOT getting my clothes all bleached.. so MRS.BALL asked me to do it.. so me and will had to clean the tables.. it was the dumbest thing EVER!! so now the other art classes ((tomorrow)) dont have NE THING to do!! its so stupid!! but whatever.. she gave us all extra credit though for cleaning... so its ok i guess... tomorrows finals r ganna be STUPID cause its english and creative writing and will said that the english ones are REALLY easy and the c/w one's like what is a simile what is a metaphor? so its ganna be a easy A... well i guess thats all for now!! *kelly*

so, justin is moving to Hawaii for 4 months...

So, yesterday I thought was Saturday and stayed at home and didn't realize that it was Tuesday until about 12:30.  I was like, "There aren't any good cartoons on what's going on?"  So yesterday was crazy cool.

better i guess you could say... but still need help... i know it but i am too scared to get it.

Yeah, I totally owned them all with my mad discount-stacking skills.  I got over $300 worth of Game Boy/PS2/GC games for about $150.  It made me happy.  Especially since now I just have to go in search of the old Game Boy games I want to get, since I have nearly all the GBA games I could ever want to play.  I'll haveta get another copy of Zelda: Four Swords and FFTA and a link cable, so Marissa and I could do some mad linkage.

And, my god, Animal Crossing is one of the most addictive games ever.

And Devil May Cry 3 can still own me any day of the week.

I have only one final left, and, of course, it's the toughest one I'll ever have taken thus far; well, either that, or one of the most important ones to take, since this will either make or break my grade in there, quite literally.  Lessee here...  700 points possible for the class, and 200 of them are invested in the final.  Out of the 500 I've been graded on, I probably got a measly 300-350-ish.  Well, maybe closer to 375, but yeah, not doing 2 25-point assignments will hurt the grade.  So, if I were to make 500 points for the class...  That'd get me a C.  ...Damn, I guess studying will be much recommended...  Especially since this is one of those pre-requisite-classes-for-another-class type of class...  A required class for the class I'm taking next semester...  Crap.  Must get a C or better, or else I get to retake it next semester and limit my work schedule.

Alright, time to get to studying.

how do you fill about this month

Mark Hoppus!!!!!

Blink 182
Dumpweed

It's understood, I said it many ways
Too scared to run, I'm too scared to stay
I said I'd leave, I could never leave her
And if I did, you know I'd never cheat her


But this I ask, it's what I want to know
How would you feel, if I should choose to go
Another guy, you think it'd be unlikely
Another guy, you think he'd wanna fight me


Chorus :
She's a dove, she's a f*cking nightmare
Unpredictable, it was my mistake to stay here
On the go, it's way too late to play
I need a girl that I can train


I heard it once, I'm sure I heard it twice
My dad used to give me all of his advice
He would say "you gotta turn your back and run now
Come on, son, you haven't got a chance now"


Repeat Chorus 2x


Need a girl that I can train
Need a girl that I can train
Turn your back and run now
You haven't got a chance now


Need a girl that I can train
Need a girl that I can train
Turn your back and run now
You haven't got a chance now

So I am extremly happy about Christmas being REALLY close. I am going to Iowa, So I will have a white Christmas (for sure a really cold one) I not really excited about the presents this year.

 I am more excited about seeing my grandparents, and just enjoying all the traditions we have. Like homemade peanut brittle (I eat it even though I don't like it), the numerous gift exchanges, and my all time favorite, Midnight Mass. Let's not forget  all the food,  the tree, and the Christmas skits (we stopped those years ago, but they are still fun to think back on). I love decorated houses and Christmas lights!!! YAY!!!

One Club Christmas Party tomorrow morning! Remember to bring food

Have Yourself A Swingin' Christmas!

A Swing Dance, Brought to you by the OHS Swing Dance Club

Friday, December 16th  3 to 6pm

@ the OHS Annex Cafeteria

$1/person @ the door

As the unofficial Queen of Swing at OHS, I'd like to invite everyone in the Swing Clubs at Siegel, Riverdale, and Blackman High Schools.  Everyone from Oakland is welcome as well.  If you're not confident in your dancing skills, no worries.  We'll be there to offer you a crash course in swing dancing.  It will be incredibly fun for everyone, so come!!  We'll have refreshments for you, too.  No excuses--- you've gotta come!

If you have any questions at all, leave me a remark and I'll get back to you.  Thanks! And have a wonderful holiday season!

Elaine

So I love the show the Amazing Race, and I was not really happy about last nights finally. I thought everyone was really mean to the Weaver family this season and so part of me wanted them to win just so they could rub it in everyone elses face that they won but they didn't they came in thrid and I think it was their own fault. They should have kept looking for the departure time, they had a huge lead going into to that part of the game but they lost it! I did like the other two teams, if the Weavers didn't win then I wanted to dad and the three daughters to win but they came in second. Any way, It is again really cold today. It's about 15 degrees out and tomorrow they think we migh have an ice storm, lovely. I still need to do some Christmas shopping so I hope that this Friday is not going to be like last Friday when we had a pretty good snow storm. This weekend I want to get all of my Christmas shopping done, baking, and I need to decorate the apt.
So I am not sure if I mentioned that I am getting a new roommate, Susan, she needs to be out of her apt by the Jan. 1st but she is leaving for Christmas on the 21st, the same day that my current roommate is going home. Cassandra will probally need to sleep on our couch for a little while after the new year because she does not have a job or anywhere to live yet. So I will have a very full apt with three people and all of their stuff in it. 
That's about it for now !

LIKE OMG.....last full day of shool<<< TODAY!!! ... oonly exams left PRAY FOR ME!!!!! love you guys!

~tRISH

all the hype and histeria... over gifts and religion and family...

however i  never get in the spirit anymore. not since i was little and even then it was for all the wrong reasons.  Presents...

I think one person has it right this holiday season.  Sarah Hayley. One of the girls that bekah goes to school with in Maryville Tennessee.  She is neither giving or accepting gifts this year.. no exception. As a protest to the corprate Christmas. 

christmas is lame overrated superficial and hypocritical.. People act like they care about others at christmas time but every other day of they year they dont give a fucking shit.

Maybe i'll find a christmas worth celebrating this year.

Have you ever thought about what life would be like if the world was the way you wanted it to be? Have you ever thought about how the world would be if you were the only person in the world? Have you ever thought about things like "Where do I fit in, or Why does this kind of thing always happen to me?" Have you ever thought about what would happen if ................? I had all kinds of questions like these before I started going to church. I have been going to church for almost three years now, and every time I go I learn so much more than what I knew the day before. Church isn't just about seeing your friends that you haven't seen since last week, about making sure that you always have a smile on your face every you come, or about trying to find somewhere to go on Sundays and Wedsendays. It is about having a place to go when you want to be around christian role models who will always be an encouragement to you; but most importantly church is about having a place to go to worship God, and to give Him ALL the honor and glory and praise.

Having church and having a really good relationship with God the Father are two completely different things. Don't get me wrong though, but from the way I see it......it is. When you have church, you basically just go through the emotions. You come to church, go down to the alter, and then forget about what happened the day before. But when you have a really good relationship with God, you won't just be going through the emotions and forgetting about your time at the alter. When you have a really good relationship with God, you have a best friend that will always be there for you even when you don't realize that He is here for you.

Enoch had so good of a relationship with God that he was considered a friend of God and was taken into Heaven to be with Him. Elijah also had a really good relationship with God. When he earnestly prayed that it wouldn't rain, God listened to him and closed the floodgates of Heaven. Then, when Elijah prayed again, God opened the floodgates of Heaven and it began to rain. Elijah spent three solid years without rain before he had decided to pray for the rain. Anyways, Everyone here on Earth could have a relationship with God just like Elijah and Enoch did. But to have a really good relationship wtih Him, you must be obedient to Him. You must stay in your word and you must always make time out of your schedule to spend time with Him; not just at church....................I know that this is long, but I just want to be obedient to God by sharing all of this.

I know that there are a lot of people in the world who have questions like the ones I used to have, which is why I need to be someone who can be a light to them and tell them the good news about the Lord Jesus Christ. First of all, God sent His son to be a light to all peoples; Jew and gentile alike. Second, God sent His son to die on the cross so that we could have a chance to be forgiven for ALL of our sins. Jesus willingly suffered so that we would have a chance to come to knew the Father and be saved from the firery flames of Hell. Third, God rose His son on the third day so that ALL could see that Jesus is Lord and that Death, Hell and the grave have NO power over Him. The bible says that Jesus appeared to His deciples during the forty days afer His crucifixion. It also says that sometime before He accended to Heaven, He had his deciples go to a room where they were to stay for a while after He accended to Heaven. Jesus told them that He would give them a gift and a comforter. When Jesus accended to Heaven, the Holy Spirit came down upon them and they were filled with the Holy Ghost; speaking in languages that they never spoke before. Since the time that they recieved the gift of the Holy Spirit, they were able to accomplish so many great things for the kingdom of God.......................

Yeah... this is long, but I am trying to cut this short. God loves everyone and wants to be here for anyone who will let Him.

Can you take a picture of COLD... Its cold outside

bored out of my mind. i finally figured out how to use this thing so i guess now i have yet another journel.  i have to take my criminal justice exam today. i hope that i do well. i have been worried about a bunch of things. first nick and then daniel. when will it all end? my drama is supposed to be over. not beggining all over again.

 

   

Hey whats going on... not to much with me... i have to get my wisdom teeth removed. yuck!!! i dont wana do it because i'm not going to get out of school... hmph... well yeah i had to miss school yesterday to go to the dentist and after that i went to alltel and i got a new phone.... the razor.... just like kimberly. well i love kimberly i have to get offline right now. bye bye

This is Jeff (my roommate)

 

Everyone say hi to Jeff!

 

Jeff likes to be on my computer late into the night. He also likes to put random pictures of me up on facebook and phusebox.

So I took some pictures of him last night has he was on my computer at around 1 or 2 and I decided to make a post about him. So to finish this off this is Jeff upside down haha!!!!

but dont take this wrong i love my roommate.

so nathan, hows the weather up there in NY?

so i cant sleep. it's just like back during the summer when i was workin the night shift, except for the fact that i'm trying to sleep during the pm hours now insted of the a.m. 

i have an exam in 7 hours, but i would rather rock out right now. i'm listening to waylon jennings right now. i'm about to let the Led out. that'll be some good stuff.

i just got done thinking about why i might not be able sleep. i actually just got off the phone, young called me and we talked for a few minuetes, and she asked me why i couldnt sleep and i didnt know, but then i thought about it. i had an tremendous thought tonight before i even climbed (literally) into bed. but i dont think i want to share that right now. maybe later.

i just put on some usher "yeah, yeah"

i might as well just pull an all nighter. i could go down stairs and study i guess. but everyone knows all the wacos are down there at this time of night, well, morning actually.

ok, maybe their not wacos, i just dont want to go downstairs and study.

did some pretty good studying earlier tonight. thank you jessica for all the help.

john put me in charge of getting roberts christmas presant. (those are my brothers by the way) crazy thing is, i'm at a loss. but i'll come up with something.

piece

I hate being alone.....but thats what i need right now....

.....................................sorry.................................................

please forgive me

  Ok...Thought it was time to update!!! I can't believe that the semester is over, it flew by!! Oh well, now I can look forward to interesting classes! My life has been going pretty well lately!! God has been showing me things and humbling me in so many ways!!! It is amazing!!! I have been helping in missionettes and I help with the stars 3-4 grade girls!! I never knew that 9, 10, & 11 yr olds could teach me so many things!! It is so awesome to see how on fire for God they are!! It was amazing to see one of them praying for people in the alters on Sun!! I was praying for Brady and I knew that someone was behind us...I turned around when we got through praying and it was one the missionettes !! It was so humbling...I had been stuggling with some things that week and God humbled me at that moment and reminded me to have faith and be like that little child who trusts in him and knows he will take care of it!! It was so awesome!!! That is only a small description of how I felt and heard from God at that time...I can't even begin to really describe it!! I love those girls dearly and I have only been working with them about a month now!! I love Wed because I know that I get to see all of them!! Well, that is about it...I guess I'll update again in about 3 months..lol!! Love you guys!!

  *Leave me remarks and make me happier!!...lol*

Only one more whole day.

Then mid-terms.

Then WINTER BREAK.

Ahhhh.  So close.

You'd think I'd be more stressed, seeing as how I'm failing a bunch of shizzle [as usual.]  But I'm not.  Amazingly.  Or at least I'm not a walking panic attack.  My stomach has been a little touchy lately, so maybe I'm really stressed out on the inside.

Whatever. SIX DAYS.  And then it's all over.  Hallelujah.

Stupid semester.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
Your caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When Hopes n dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Your not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
and when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again

Ok, so I survived the final last night.  I think I might have even done well on it!  And today was spent quite productively.  Haha, no.  But I did finish my takehome final and go for an hour long power walk in the cold.  *sigh* Of course then I came home and ate chinese food.  So, maybe I didn't do so well today after all. 

All I have to do is show up at school tomorrow for awhile and I am out of here.  Well, actually there is a party at my place that is going to involve left-overs, white christmas, and scene-it tomorrow afternoon, so I am not actually 'out' until thursday!

Man, I am so pumped about christmas this year!  I really do love it.  Now if only I had all my shopping done...

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!

Me and my sister!  A lovely picture taken by the lovely Miss Mary Lauren!

everybody!

Me and my Sunshine!

Props to my Mary Lauren 4 all the beautiful pics!

I hate these kinds of things. Ionno why I just made one. Damn boredom.

I've had enough of living life for only me
And reaching just for the things that keep destroying me
So sick of envying the lives of so many I see
Somehow believing that they have what I need

The semester is over; the thought of not going to school for more than a month is unreal. As I sit here and think back, it seems like the past three months have flown by. I wonder if I've changed. . . I know I must have. One doesn't just come back from her first semester of college unchanged. I have a stronger foothold in my beliefs and feelings on several issues, and I know I'll only have to continue to hold strongly to them.

Odd and random, I just was remembering the first memory of my father, and the first song I ever heard. It was my father, playing House of the Rising Sun. I was very very young, practically a baby, but it is so surreal and blurry, but I remember the emotions so well.

just found out i was mentioned in the dnj on thursday for bowling. go me!!

go here to see it!!


i am so proud of myself...haha...

mucho love!!
[becca]

hey yall i just made this so give me a lil bit to get used to it well i hope everybody is doin good well i better go and study for exams so talk to yall later

Okay, first things first: I AM OFF ACADEMIC PROBATION!!! I know to most of you guys are thinking what in the world was I doing on there in the first place? But I got off, I am so happy you have no idea. I set a goal of hitting 3.0 for the semester not even imagining that would be enough to get me off, but it was. The Lord can some amazing things when you give it to Him. Because there is no way in the world I did that. Okay, another thought:

I'm a mess right now, and a mess I shouldn't be. I thought my life was getting in order, I was getting older had more things figured out; boy, was I ever wrong. I'm at a loss right now, such a loss. Confused beyond confused and about something that I shouldn't even be confused about....

Something happened that changed me and now I can't turn it off. I feel like a lost kid again wandering through Disney World for the first time. I'm completely amazed but yet confused on how the world could be this beautiful and would ever give me a chance to get close to it. I know most of you might be wondering what it is I'm talking about but yet I cannot tell because of the closeness to my heart this subject is: but its great and awful at the same time.

Over the last two days I've started to do something I haven't done in years: write music. And with this inside of me I feel like it deserves an audience. And one day; it will. But as for my problem I do not know what to do about it and for once in my life, I'm going to show a little patience. But the Lord has it in his pocket so I'm comforted. Well, back to the upstairs with my guitar and set of headphones to laydown the most heartfelt thing I've ever written...

well, not much new today... school was as school goes... but underneath i'm tryin not to get stressed out by my easiest classes! in Interactive Multimedia i have to finish a 24+ slide power point presentation (which is harder than it seems). in Web Page Design i have to finish the choral department site (which Mama G hasn't been clear on what she wants). and in choir we have all these random concerts >.< and... COLLEGE APPLICATIONS!!! I just won't go to college!!! lol

"What should I think?
What should I say?"
-Ayu (End of the World)

So, after 3.5 years, i'm graduating college...If anyone is in town, graduation is saturday at 2pm...

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself.
I've been burdened with blame,
Trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on...

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different, but they're always the same
They mean me no harm, but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change

But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on...

I'm movin' on
At last I can see,
Life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know.. there's no guarantees, but I'm not.. alone
There comes a time.. in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I.. have made up my mind that those days.. are gone

I sold what I could
And packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should
But lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out

Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on..

I'm movin' on...

I'm movin' on....

Im Moving On: Rascal Flatts

wow alot to think about in the last two weeks but i think maybe its all starting to make sense...

Nobody likes me
Everyone hates me
I think I'll just go 
        read a book...

So, Iv been wearing the same pants for about a week.
Please, hold the applause.  Its a gift.

Woo, first blog.
Not that I need another...

Yep...  That is all.

today has been kind of exciting. i found out i have a 96 in geometry. i finished my stuff for midterms in that class. i didn't sound too awful in band today. and i was playing kind of loudly. and in french we get to use a little index card with stuff for the midterm. so i don't have to worry so much about it. and then i got second chair. and i found transfer paper just laying around.

but only three people answered my question from yesterday.

not much help, y'all.

and brian... i'm not going to shave my head. that would be noooo good.

so you should still answer. should i cut my hair?

i love you

All in all, not a bad day.  I'm going to take a minute and talk to myself about dreams.  I dream alot, probably more than should be allowed, but that's the hand I play.  Every now and then a dream comes along that messes with my head and I can barely function the next day.  I had a true nightmare last night.  I blame finals for it.

Yes my favorite place to be is not a land called honah lee.  Mentally or physically, I wanna be in New Orleans...

We had a jazz band meeting after school...and it looks like I'm going to be the only horn player. I kinda like that though, he said if I didn't want to be the only one I could draft someone, but I pro'lly won't. I'm excited about his plans for this year. He said we were going to learn a bunch of tunes and go to a recording studio and learn how being a studio musician works.

Nothing much else to talk about right now...

¡12 mas dias para Navidad!

who? the man executed this morning 12.35 (PacTime).  He is half of the founders of the Crips gang.  Protests and vigils surrounded the event with recongnizable names like Jamie Foxx, Snoop Dogg, and Jesse Jackson.  I'm sure that this is not a new story to most, but it occured to me that this man, whether he is guilty of the four murders that a jury convicted him of or not, is responsible for all the acts committed by any Crips gang members and any Blood gang members in retaliation.  

The protestors asked for a stay because Tookie was reformed in prison and wrote children's books telling them not to join gangs, but his best selling book only sold 300.  I have to commend him for trying to make a difference, but my concern is this:

If people can fight for a man's life who has done so much damage to society, where are we heading as a nation.  I do not want to get into the death penalty because some may not agree with what I will say, but we should consider where priorities are being placed.  Which is more precious: the life of this man or an unborn baby?  Should not they be equal?  but, Has this man destroyed God's image in the four he murdered?  Whose life gets priority?  Will there be protests for Scott Peterson? (He is on death row at San Quentin Prison for the murder of his wife and unborn son)

These are issues that must be dealt with by us, as Christians, with people we come into contact with. 

they said we couldn't make it

each too different

and i guess they were right.

one day she was gone

and standing there alone

i looked to the window

calling me with open arms

ready to embrace me

in its beauty, and i let it.

through its frame and out

into the open sky

like a bird, never understood,

until i finally set my feet

down on the sidewalk

ten stories below.

later, there was a

closed-casket funeral and

they called it sin but

i call it art.