Lets play TRUTH 0R DARE,
or just dare because nobody ever really
tells the truth anymore.
*One Tree Hill

"I hate you."
"I love you.
"You're a freak, you know that? Everyone says so. They always have."
"I'm trying not to be."

 

I'll spend my whole day getting ready,
T r y i n g to make myself look beautiful
So that you'll fall in love with me...
But I wont be surprised if you don't even notice me.

now the sky is turning blue
the stars they disappear
one by one as the daylights nears
and yes you're in my head
but that doesn't make you here

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And covered with a perfect shell
Such a charming, beautiful exterior
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by.

I LIKE DEAD END SIGNS
they're kind,
they at least have the decency to let you know
you're going no where

he looked at me and said,
"do you ever feel like you're working for something
you're never going to get. you shoot and miss kind of deal..
like, no matter what you can't have it, but that makes you
fight for it just a little bit more?"
i looked at him, stared at him for a second and replied,
"everyday..."

A best friend is someone you can call in the middle of the night and tell them you killed someone and they would say where should we hide the body <3

so dry your eyes. clear your mind. you gotta take it one day at a time. dust off your heart. take it off the shelf. you gotta remember to love yourself.

If you're missing I will run away
cause I find myself in you
-Something Corporate

So, this is my life.
And I want you to know
that I am both happy and
sad and I'm still trying to
figure out how that could be.

I am very interested and fascinated
by how everyone loves each other,
but no one really likes each other.

0N MY KNEES SCREAMiNG AT THE CL0UDS
TEARS FALL FR0M THE SKY .. HATE iS A 4
LETTER W0RD -- L0VE iS A 4 LETTER LiEE*

I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you
to say that there was no one else that you could
ever be with & that you wanted to be with me
* One Tree Hill *

its like acoustic guitars and faded
tube socks, worn down converse and
a broken in sweatshirt. Youre so last season
but baby I never follow the trends

I would also like to post something a friend of mine wrote.

' In the mist of this immensely to short break I got to thinking..why do the people that live in Newton think it's so boring and there is nothing to do here..yet when they leave for college or some other reason..they end up coming back..also..when someone new moves to Newton the first question people ask besides the person's name and where they came from is..'Why did you come to Newton?'..in a translated version..'Why on earth would you come to such a boring and small town like this..?'..well here's another way to look at it and maybe you should ask this question with a different meaning like..'Why did you come to Newton'..meaning 'Why would you come to such a town that is full of immature high-schoolers that have nothing better to do then make someone elses life miserable..?'

     The simple answer is this..we have nothing better to do..our entertainment is scrutinizing someone else for how they dress, or what they have supposedly done with someone..are we honestly that low with ourselves..can we not just forget about what other people say and get on with our own lives and only care about ourselves and the special ones that mean something to us..so what if you have an enemy..don't influence what you've heard onto someone else

     In reality you aren't hurting the other person..you're hurting yourself..you are making yourself one of the worst people you can be..and with an attitude like the one you have  won't get far in life...I'm not picking out people in particular because if we were all to be honest we all have talked about someone behind their back..

     So next time you think about saying something you shouldn't..think of what is to come in your future..you'll make the right decision then..

<333 Krista '

makes you think, huh? i just love her writing. But really, what this says doesn't just apply to us losers in Newton... It could really reach out to anyone. So take it to HEART...

Erica<33

I am soooo glad that phusebox is back!! woo hoo!!!

I am soo excited about this weekend!! Party at my house (for those who have been invited)  Well I don't really have that much to say!! I hope everyone has a great and safe new years!!!

So life's not all that bad.
I decided I want a guy that can be sensitive. All the guys I end up with are like slave drivers and have hard hearts...most of the time anyways.

Now don't get me wrong...I don't want a guy crying all the time and being all emotional--that's my job. :)

Now for all you people out there here's some things you need to know aobut me.

I'm blonde
I'm crazy
I'm loud
I'm loveable
I'm a sarcastic smart ass
I'm Catholic
I'm a darn good Soccer player
I'm athletic
I heart Photography
I made a 97 in Honors Chem.
I'm allergic to wheat
I smile all the time...
I'm addicted to my friends
I've got an amazing mom
Now my siblings I'm not sure about
I've got a Xanga, MySpace, PhuseBox, and FaceBook
I need a life
I crush under stupid types of peer pressure
I'm a strong person
I'm a believer in many things
Miracles can happen
God is great
I'm single and pretty ok with it
Older guys like me
They have all been at least 20
It scares the royal crap outta me
Private school is blah
Public school is for druggies
Private school kids can afford drugs
Beer is nasty
I like wine
I don't really drink alcohol
I'm really bored right now.
Did I mention I'm a Sophmore
I'm in love with the South
Chick flicks aren't all that amazing
I believe in real life
I'm not all about seeing and believing
I have faith, hope, trust, and determination
I'm driven
I'm passionate
I love hugs
I hate drugs
I'm a mommy's girl
I used to be a tomboy
I'm still not sure if I'm a punk or a prep
I think I'm both
I like prep clothes in the summer
Punk clothes in the winter
I'm dyslexic
I think I'm finished now.

I love you alllllllllllllllll.

yay phusebox is back up that makes me sooo happy.it's awesome!

well had a great break i must say but being in a place where people don't have computers in there homes is torture.lol.but it's good to be back home and just in time for the New Year.

had an awesome time with Megan last night it was interesting to say the least and it is always that way though.umm....got caught up on all the gossip and what not so yeah it's great but i feel like i was in a forgien country for a week....lol....

don't really have any plans for the next couple of days so if you wanna talk or hangout or whatever just give me a call it's all cool.

I love you guys!

God Bless!

...Leah...(the one and only)

YAy FOR BEING BAXK ON PHUSEBOX!!!!!!

I misss it....

i havent updated in soooo long

once i get all the new photos i took on here you guys will be proud of me lol

well i hoped everyone had an awesome christmas

see you when school start(which i dont want to it to start)

      meg

UK beat UL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  and PB owes me lunch and some ice cream!!! hehe!! 
so i guess that means UK really is better than UL...but we always knew that!

well christmas happened

love happened

and surgery happened: yesterday

_wilson

Hey everybody, well Christmas was awsome and got lots of stuff. and yeah.. plus spent time with g/f and family which was crazy..and yeha im ready for new years tomorrow.. and yeah well im out..peace.. I love you Beth!!!

-Josh-

been gone for a month and i haven't missed out on much lol...

happy new year to all

best wishes

Max

someday baby,

you & I

are gonna be the ones.

dear kidds.

hmmm to day kind of sucks
I had all these plans that got canceled
first it was to claire's house but
things didnt work out well so we're just going to
take a raincheck.
then laura and cody was supposed to come over
but laura is going somewhere else
it just seems like cody & I have no luck with
the movie planning.
and then I wanted to get my hair cut
but the lady got sick..
and my mom is being a...mom
I got dragged to wal-mart
only to walk around aimlessly for an hour and a half
(but I found c.d's I'd like to buy)
she's getting aggitated with everythig I do
and it's making me mad
because I'm not really doing anything!
erg.
hopefully it'll get better when
I talk to chad or when tifany comes over
she hasnt been here in a while
and we have lots to talk about.

I would like to see king kong.
josh said if you are a logical person, you shouldnt
but I'm not really a logical person, so I might as well
he said it was weird that there's a giant monkey
and then a lady, and this monkey is killing all her friends
yet, she still loves the giant monkey..
hmm, yep sounds good to me. ahaha

school is going to start back up soon.
and I am not really wanting to go back
usually I'm like, "yeah! school"
but lately, I just dont want to go
at least I have laura, without her
I dont think I could survive oakland
I also have to go to work monday, ick
I have to work longer though
instead of going in like at four I shall go in at two
I might finish early but then again, I might have to work
until about seven thirty, and I really dont want that.
my paycheck shall be bigger than usual this month though
so that's a benefit :D

okayokay. have a wonderful day.
I shall leave you with this quote.

"I believe in Christianity

as I believe that the sun has risen:

not only because I see it,

but because by it I see everything

else."
--C. S. Lewis

love,

jamie

Finally it works.Finally it works.

Free music video codes by PCPlanets.comA Day Late by AnberlinA Day Late by Anberlin" target="_BLANK" rel="tag">


Free music video codes by PCPlanets.comA Day Late by AnberlinA Day Late by Anberlin

proccessing wednesday
basic training may 9
tech school june
final assignment don't know
hope it's Rome, italy
or colorado

Phusebox is back!  It was really weird while the lovely blogging site was down, though.  Normally I have to make the rounds between my four internet homes (yes, four -- some people only have LiveJournal or MySpace), but then I would realise.... No, wait, that one's gone.  Temporarily.  Maybe it's what parents feel like when their offspring leave for college.

Speaking of college.... I finished my first essay.  I'm so proud.  Nine words below the maximum limit.  Go me.  Now I just have to correct my truly heinous grammatical errors.

Things are going to be intense until March 1.  Why, you might ask?  Macbeth auditions.  The play I'm already in.  SAT II in French and Literature the day before faire auditions.  Faire rehearsals.  Costume creation for faire.  Gold Award completion.  Hopefully auditions for NYU (just for fun).  And I know there's like one or two things I'm forgetting.  Eating isn't one of them.  Neither is sleep.  Hmmmm.
As I said -- holy highwaters, Batman.

So, um, a belated Joyeux Noël and all that jazz.
Happy New Year.
Gleeful Hannukah.
Etc.

Well, since it has been al ong time since we have last updated it, alot has gone on.  The first thing is that UK actually beat the muchly overated U of L.  Enought of that... Christmas was crazy.  My dad's family came in from everywhere, and my uncle was sick.  After he left everybody else started getting sick.  Then my grandpa started getting sick and on Christmas Eve, he had to go the Hospital and was there for about 5 hours.  Every Christmas Eve we always open presents, so when they got back at 11:00, we opened presents.  And then I was up all night trying to get my iPod to work. It wouldn't so I had to take it back and return it (but I got a PSP to replace it so that was cool).  Well, thats pretty much whats been happening with me.

wow new years is ganna stink this year!! no ones doing ne thing!! and even if they where.. no ride.. =( parents outa town for wedding.. joy outa town for wedding... and everyone else cant like drive yet.... =(  bummer..

It's back...
hah.

I dyed my hair the other day.
i'll put pics up later.
Nothings been going on,
Christmas was fine,
New Years Eve Tomorrow.
Anybody got any plans?
I don't.
O well i'll party like it's 1999
yeah...
Okay, well that's
all I have to say I guess.
Have a great rest of
Break kids, peace holla.
Keep it real, Kick it old school

  
  
-Sarah


Why do men have nipples?

So phusebox is back up... well I suppose that's obvious. I'm in New Hampshire right now, and I got to play in the snow!! built an igloo and a snow-woman/caroler and got to know Jeff's fiance, Anady, better. I also went ice skating for the first time ever!!!! It was sooo much fun! I'll try to put pictures of my vacation up here....

I know all you people back there miss me and yeah I miss you all too... haha sure ya do. anyway christmas was amazing, loads of fun!

So yeah life without school is definatly awesome and I really don't want to go back right away... ::sigh:: but yeah there is a lot of stuff that I need to do before then.

So are you all making any new years resolutions?

I am going to:

Start (or continue as I have the last week) running, doing my workout routine and eating more healthily (word?) so that I can lose some weight.

Read the one year bible again... I haven't gone through the whole thing in a while, unless you count my devotions, but those are usually pretty  much new testament, old occasionally but I always find myself going back to favorites for devotions.. like james, I &II Timothy, and Psalms.

Be more organized with my school... I need to get caught up with filing and get my room in shape.

And continue trying to have more fun... not changing what I do but have more fun doing it... basically enjoy what God has given me, but don't mistake that as kicking back, I want to do more for Him now than ever! Life should be completely and totally lived for Him, and that is my #1 priority.

So any resolutions? I think it's fun to hear others.

PHUSEBOX IS BACK!!!!!! yeah!!! nathan you rock!!

everyone has their good days and their bad days. today is  bad one. i cannot take this anymore, why does everyone have to rely on me to solve their problems, yet when i have a problem, i'm pushed aside? yesterday travis was being truly annoying, and may have made elizabeth hate me. elizabeth if ur reading this, u kno i'm not like that. truly not. but then again, no one knows who i really am. i'm so sick of being the guy who jokes all the time. really don't think anyone has a clue about who i really am. the worst part of it all, i don't think anybody cares. to add to this day, i blew off my new year's plans to be with u-kno-who, but stupid me thought that she might actually want to spend new years with me. like that's gonnna happen. i'm not even sure we could  ever happen b/c we are just so different. but this thought roams my head, and it will not desist.

i don't think i'll update in a while, b/c nobody would really care. i'm out.

      Hey, phusebox is back finally....my friend said the other day that she thought she broke it....lol...anyway....I'm going to be gone for a few days....I'm going skiing! yay....for the first time too.

well, see you guys in a little while.....mwa

<3 Lizz

Wow... so I have like 12 days to update on. Well, my haircut turned out ok. Nobody even seemed to notice it... I can easily make the short layers blend in with the rest of my hair so it looks pretty much the same.

I got a Panasonic GS150 for Christmas (it's mini-DV format, Anna). For those of you who don't know, that's a video camera. Anyhow, I took some very exciting footage of trees and stuff in Mississippi when I was down there and I started editing it together last night and I have forty seconds so far! And it's a GOOD forty seconds!

So Anna and some other people are going to have to help me out here and film more stuff with me. I want some people in there so it'll be more interesting, and so I can have a storyline. The background music is Lifehouse's "Walking Away." It goes really well with what I have now. And then after I finish this video (which is called "A Journey" by the way), I want to do a music video that is really geared towards the story in the song. Anyhow, I'm pretty excited! I still have to buy a DVD burner though, and some more memory, and a microphone...

The trip to MS was kinda hard because my granddaddy's really gone downhill with his Alheizmer's (sp?).

Oh, and in case you didn't read it on Xanga... I ended up with a 4.0 after all! *Beam*

So, it's almost the New Year!  I forgot all about this thing, but then I wondered how many of my friends were still using it.  I guess most of our friends use another journaling/blogging system, and it's really hard to maintain two of them, don't you think?  But, then I saw that Carrie was on only moments ago, and I was hopeful!  I'll share more thoughts later, but I knew I had to write SOMETHING while I was here.

1) Was 2005 a good year for you?
It was bumpy, but I don’t regret it.

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
Hmm….tough….probably closing night of Aida, along with IHOP and the cast party.

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Wednesday, January 19th

4) Where were you when 2005 began?
Home with my family  : )

5) Who were you with?
…my family.

6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?
I don’t know yet.

7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends?
I’m not sure (I still haven’t made plans)

8) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005?
No

9) What was your favorite month of 2005?
May and June were really exciting.

10) How many different states did you travel to in 2005?
TN, MO, IL, CO

11) How many concerts did you see in 2005?
None, I’m not a big concert goer…

12) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005?
Well, no.

13) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005?
My grandpa in the Virgin Islands…he gave me wine with dinner…but it was with dinner…and while I was there I had a couple of Pina Coladas…but it’s hard to go to the Carribbean and not drink anything.

14) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005?
None

15) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
There are times, thinking back, that I acted completely stupid and deserved to be smacked upside the head…

16) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005?
I don’t want to go into it.

17) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005?
I’m sure.

18) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005?
I don’t want to go into it.

19) How much money did you spend in 2005?
Probably about $500-$800, but only about $400 was my own money.

20) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005?
Heh, that time I almost was halfway topless onstage (by Richard’s unwitting mistake) in front of an audience of people with my head covered up…but luckily they dragged me off before Jesse pulled the curtain…that was an avoided humiliation…

21) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something, what would it be?
I don’t know of one thing specifically, but I would have changed a lot of my mindset all throughout sophomore year.

22)  What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? 
Stage managed a musical…got my driver’s license…had my heart broken…got a job…was an upperclassman…

23) Did you keep your new year's resolutions and will you make more for next year?
Eh, resolutions smesolutions.  I didn’t really make any, and I probably won’t this year either.

24) Did anyone close to you give birth?
My aunt.

25) Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year.  

26) What countries did you visit?
The British Virgin Islands!

27) What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?

Contentedness (though I'm working on it...)

28) What date(s) from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
The Gala…Model UN… NYC squared…Aida…the day I got my license...our week in the BVI…The Variety Show…Chicago…starting work…

29) What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Well, it’s not really my achievement, but Aida – the whole process, start to finish – was a huge achievement for everyone involved, which includes me.  And I guess my personal achievment would be my 31 on the ACT.

30) What was your biggest failure?
That stupid boy.

31) Did you suffer any illness or injury?
I had my tooth implant…which technically isn’t an injury so much as the final step in correcting an injury I got in 2003… 

32) What was the best thing you bought?
Gas!  No, I’m totally kidding.  I don’t know.

33) Whose behavior merited celebration?

The pope…he died, and he was a good man.

34) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Well, different people for “appalled” and “depressed”.  I don’t think anybody did both.

35)Where did most of your money go?
Starbucks, clothes, movies…and right now, all my money’s going to NYC, honey.

36) What did you get really, really, really excited about?
The Gala, Aida, the BVI, Chamber Choir, trying to get a job.

37) What song will always remind you of 2005?
“Aida,aida,adia,adia,aida,aida,aida…….it’s enough! Ahhhhhhhhhhhahhhhhh!” (Dance of the Robe) – that would be the song of the second semester of sophomore year, and then “ Lonesome When You Go” would be the song of the summer, and probably “Boogie Fever” would be the song of this fall semester…or maybe "What'd I Say?!?!"

38) Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Well…neither?  I’m really different…
ii. thinner or fatter? Fat like a chubchub
iii. richer or poorer? In two weeks, between Christmas and work, I’ve made $706 dollars…so yeah that would be richer. : )

39) What do you wish you'd done more of?
Try to branch out and make new friends…though I did do that to some extent.

40) What do you wish you'd done less of?
Worry, worry, worry…about grades, about boys, about other random crap.

41) How did you spend Christmas?
At home, with immediate family...the way I like it.

42) Did you fall in love in 2005?
No.

43) How many one-night stands?
Dozens and dozens…  : P

44) What was your favorite TV program of 2005?
I <3 the Discovery Channel

45) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

No, my enemies have remained fairly consistant…lol.

46) What was the best book you read this year?
The only book I can remember reading and really liking was Fear by Michael Chriton.  And this weird book called My Sister's Keeper.

47) What was your greatest musical discovery?
The Postal Service…Phantom of the Opera… Madeleine Peyroux…There are so many…

48)  What did you want and get? 
into Chamber Choir

49) What did you want and not get?
into Governor’s School

50) What was your favorite film of this year?
Willy Wonka was fun…King Kong was amazing (and if you haven’t seen it yet, I recommend you do so immediately)

51) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I believe we had rehearsal for the Broadway review on my birthday…and I had to wait a day to get my license…and I was sixteen.  No party; mid-May is too busy a time for parties.

52) What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More of my time given to God

53) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
A sort of a retro boho ironic preppy…no, I have no idea; I don’t have a certain style.  Lots of jeans and always, always flip flops…

 

54) What kept you sane?
God, friends, coffee, music, sleep, food.

55) Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
J-Depp will always be my favorite…I also took a liking to Adrian Brody…

56) What political issue stirred you the most?
Just recently – The Ugandan War.

57) Who did you miss?
People I didn’t get to see over the summer.  

58) Who was the best new person you met?
I couldn’t narrow it down…I have so many friends this year that I didn’t know last year…

59) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
We are growing up, whether we like it or not, and there are pluses and minuses to the whole process – if you dwell on what you’re leaving behind then you’ll never realize what you’re gaining and all the opportunities that are ahead.

 

60) Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

I’ve seen love go by my door

It’s never been this close before

Never been so easy or so slow

Been shooting in the dark too long

When something’s not right, it’s wrong

You’re going to make me lonesome when you go

Dragon clouds so high above

I’ve only known careless love

It’s always hit me from below

This time around it’s more correct

Right on target, so direct

You’re going to make me lonesome when you go

Purple clover, queen anne lace

Crimson hair across your face

You could make me cry if you don’t know

Flowers on the hillside, blooming crazy

Crickets talking back in forth in rhyme

Blue river running slow and lazy

Oh I could stay with you forever and never realize the time…

Anyways Im glad to here phusebox is back in service.I was so sad to hear it was down for the 12 days it was down for.Well Im officially 21 now and have been since Dec.20th.I hope everyone had a safe and very merry christmas.Anyways I got movies,clothes,makeup,a cd player,ipod generation 6 with the music video's the 60 gb.Anyways its like 4:31 AM and me being a insomanic is so hard on me.Im off to go to sleep now sleep tight and dont let the bed bugs bite.

uhh ohh...i think i like a college boy....

i have a feeling, this is not going to be good...

Well here's a recap of the last semester.... I figured I'd post this before Christmas is here.

So....... first up it "love-lives"
1) I started this semester in a relationship that ended a little more than a month ago...
2) realized another relationship and I are better friends than dates
3) now single and I haven't been for a long period of time since I was 15... I'm 19 now. I haven't dated a whole lot, it's just that each relationship that I've been in have all been REALLY long and back to back.
4) my roommate Anette got enganged and married
5) my friend Beth got engaged

Family
1) I have AMAZING parents and I know I am lucky to have the relationship that I have with them
2) Dad had surgery to have his thyroid removed because of a benign (sp?) growth and the doctors found a growth in his lung which they've decided is also benign.... my dad doesn't smoke or drink and the doc's said that's a huge reason as to why it's benign.
3) Mom and my aunt's relationship is getting better and better each day (had a falling out a while back that they've gotten over now)

School
1) with my wonderful gift of a scholarship, I would have been happy to have gotten through this semester with a 3.5....... I got a 4.0
2) Wonderful school and I've found my niche
3) I've made SO many friends at O'More that I cherish SO much....... Anette, Van, Beth, Micah, Catie, Clair....... and more
4) I never did get involved in the whole "high school" scene, but yet I've managed to get myself onto SGA.......? So far so good =)

Work
1) I still work at Hot Topic in the Stones River mall in M'boro and I love that job. I've been there since October of 2004 and like I said, I love it =)
2) They understand that I live in Franklin so it's hard for me to get into town and they REALLY work with me on my schedule.

My Health and Body
1) ok, I'm thin, but not as healthy as I look, so my goal is to work out somewhat everyday starting next semester.
2) I got my wisdom teeth taken out last Wednesday (12-21) and my mouth/face didn't swell, or bruise, or anything. I was even able to work that Friday.
3) I'm getting my two small tattoos on my feet REALLY soon which I've decided are going to be very small shamrocks..... They won't be larger than a dime, and I'll have one on each foot in my arch. Yes I know it'll hurt... a lot
4) Oh, and I'm going to start becoming a vegetarian I think. I'm researching it right now to see what I need to do in order to still get all the nutrients I need that meat provides....just minus the 'meat' part

So....... that's my life as of now.

It's back!  It's back!  We have Phusebox again!

*throws confetti*

I would like to leave you with this piece of vaulable information:

People are stupid, stupid, stupid.

I am stupid.

You are stupid.

Your mom is stupid.  My mom is stupid.

Your second cousin thrice removed is stupid.

Stupid stupid stupid.

Not to say that no one ever does smart things.  It's true, the human race has had it's clever moments now and again. [The invention of cheese in a spray can, for example.]

But on the whole, we're still just a big blob of stupid.

If I felt like living...I couldn’t really do it. I’m such a big chicken...I have no guts. I can’t go for something. I can’t be openly jealous. I have too much pride, but nothing to remedy it. No one to knock me off my rocker...no one to tell me that I suck and that you need to be better at ______ . I really need someone to just smack the shit out of me and just scream at my face. I really think that would help me. There are great things in my life. I love them very much. Friends, Music, Music, Friends, Music, Baby Sister (not sitters), and few other things. It all seems so normal. I need something to put an edge on the dull blade that is my life. Something that doesn’t consist of getting drunk off my ass and partying or any kind of substance abuse. Just something. Maybe to sneak around with someone, when one of us isn’t suppose to or go somewhere I’ve never been and find out that it was made for me. To just experience something that isn’t plain jane...freakin, I do it all the time bullshit. Something risky. Something...not me. Something...

Float on.

phusebox is back. so thats pretty cool

my life seems to be topsy turby right now i guess you might say. i dont really know what to think at times. but what ever i do think. i know that things could be alot worse than they are.

i've been told that i've changes. but i've only changed because those around me have changed.

it's good to be home, and it sucks to know that i have to leave and go back early.

piece

phusebox is back. so thats pretty cool

my life seems to be topsy turby right now i guess you might say. i dont really know what to think at times. but what ever i do think. i know that things could be alot worse than they are.

i've been told that i've changes. but i've only changed because those around me have changed.

it's good to be home, and it sucks to know that i have to leave and go back early.

piece

soul searching is good.
thats what my break was about.

sure, santa treated me nice.
but God showed me oh so much more.

_kt

So I didn't have that good of a Christmas.
It was pretty boring.
Learned that Ambien makes me all drunk-like
And I don't remember much after that.
But you know what I love?
Me and Sean dancing in the middle of my room to our song.
Yeah we're cheesy.
But it feels so good to just be in love.
And I don't want to lose this feeling, ever.

So last week I had the pleasure of seeing the band Over the Rhine live in concert in Nashville. I have been a big fan ever since I first heard them a little over a year ago. There's something about them and it's really hard to explain. The feeling at one of their shows is kind of like when someone comes over for dinner and they say something like "Wow, I love what you've done with the place. It really feels like home." You can really tell what fills the room is straight from the heart. If you've never heard of Over the Rhine, you really should check them out, but do it alone in a quiet room. Thanks Amber for the ticket!

hey hey... it's up and running. how cool is that?!

"i'll remember the suffering your love put you through, and i'll walk through the valley... if you want me to."

Yea for phusebox being back! Elizabeth is coming back tomorrow. Yea for that as well! I hope everyone had a good Christmas. We went to my dad's church in Clarksville and I really enjoyed being able to worship on Christmas. I can't believe some churches decided to close...pure madness I tell you! What do they think they meaning of Christmas is exactly? To have the day off to open presents at home? Not quite, it's about celebrating Jesus's birth and where better to do that then at church with other believers? Anyways, I am climbing off of my soap box now, my point was just to say that I enjoyed being able to worship on Christmas and I hope you all had the same opportunity. Only 2 days until New Years Eve! Anybody have any big plans?

i'm sure i'm positive most other people will be with me in saying "WELCOME BACK PHUSEBOX!" i've missed you. i had to temporarily resort back to this "xanga" thing. heh. oh well...things are back to normal.

lately, nothing of true importance has gone one.....except for Christmas....that was cool. haha. i got the laptop that i am currently on and a new Gibson ES-335 guitar....SOOOOOOO sweet. haha. i love them both. i bought a buncha junk for my laptop today. and tomorrow i think i might get more to finish it off. haha. i'm spoiling myself. a wireless optical mouse, a USB/monitor/audio/other stuff docking hub, an external soundcard which is awesome! haha. i got this all today to accompany the laptop and the 160 GB external harddrive i bought a few days ago. haha. in the next few days is a surround system...nice one for 60 bucks...father is paying half...i'm excited....yay computer stuff! well i might go play some more Start Wars: Battlefront II...so laters. out

-KYLE

I was definitely going through Phusebox withdrawl so I'm super happy it's back on.  I am having a good time being at home but I am really bored.  I'm trying to fundraise all the money so that I can go to Poland.  We're hoping that we can use frequent flyer miles to get to Poland for free.  Right now it looks like it is still going to cost $300 to $600 for the flight.  But that is less than half of the regular cost so that is still good.  Lauren is coming into town on Saturday, I'm excited to see her.  I miss her.  Colby came to spend the day with me yesterday and it was awesome.  We shopped, ate at Skyline, and watched Walk the Line.  It was a good day.  I was really happy to see him.  Kim went to see Walk the Line with us which was fun.  She loved it, he loved it, I thought it was ok.  It wasn't as phenomenal as everyone made it out to be.  But doesn't matter, it was a good day nonetheless.  And Christmas was good.  Small Christmas, but good.  It was actually kinda nice to have a small Christmas.  And I liked having in on Sunday.  Would've hated it when I was little but it was nice now.  Anyway, I'm gonna go.  You all have a nice night!

Yes, I missed this place.  And I frequently checked to see if it was back online and unfortunately today we moved offices so I missed the boat.  I wanted to be one of the first to blog again on here.

THANKS for getting it resolved.

i was lied to again. and hurt.

yippee

seems like thats all im ever good for. just being used then dumped. and its such a great feeling too

phusebox is back.. and that makes me terribly happy =)

heyyyyy

well i hopw everyone had an amazing christmas! i sure did...my uncle got me & my sister both laptops & i got clothes & stuff...well, i love you all! & nhave a happy new you!

it feels good to be back

So yeah...  Basically...
Nick isnt a happy camper.
And girls are mean.
...And no Im not gay.

Grr.

I have missed phusebox soooo much, I've been checking it at least twice a day, sometimes three, and I checked and it's back!!! Well not much to say, going to Resolution tomorrow w/ the youth group, I'm excited to hang out w/ my friends that I havent seen in about a month! and then to see my friends that live out of town, in like KY and places of that sort.
Well I got pics recently developed from all the way back in August!!! Yea, it was funny to look at them b/c I didn't remember some of them, but anyways, I got to get to bed...
good night

Welcome back to the Phusebox and all its members!

haha.. so i just figured out how to update =)
garrett haynes teached me! haha.. hope that yall are having a great break.. ahh-i cant believe that its almost over.. boooo

nothing is new.. volleyball has started up-we have our first tournament january 14th in nashville (hint hint-if you want to come) haha..

mm.. cant believe that school is flying by like this!
already second semester.. im surviving! haha

welp.. have an amazing day and i will talk to yall later!
love, kaitlin

Well Phusebox is back. Always a good thing. Not much else to say. Went to my dad's. The trip sucked. I do not fit in my family, or at least that side. This Christmas vacation hasn't been great. Some reason I cannot be happy. I jsut have been here, nothing else. Not happy, not exactly sad. Depressed maybe? Ugg. Well I cannot wait to be happy again or at least me.

It is about time, huh?


PhuseBox has been down for 12 days now. I have heard that some of you
are going through PhuseBox withdraw. You may now end your support
groups and return to your computer screen. First of all, I would like
to apologize for this unexpected downtime. Without going into too many
details, PhuseBox was taken offline WITHOUT NOTICE by our hosting
company almost two weeks ago for taking too much of the server load.
They would not reinstate our account and we were forced to look for
other options.


I am pleased to tell you that we are now on a brand new server (cue
angelic choir). You should see that the site is much faster now. In
addition, PhuseBox will now be able to expand freely without being tied
down. This will also allow for new features for PhuseBox in the coming
months.


If you have logged in since we have returned, you may have noticed many
of your photos and/or profile image may be missing. This is only
temporary. We are still trying to transfer the huge amount of image
files from our old server. They should be online shortly.


Thanks for your patience through this matter. We are happy you decided
to stick around. Again, we apologize for being gone for so long, but we
are back to stay. Take a look around the site again, it has missed you.

-{n}

Well I guess it's about time. Let me run u through my christmas break real quick.

Here's the 411....

Its been a sweet break. Saw some relatives, hanged out with great friends, got to spend some time with Meredith, and got alot of chill time. So yeah its been great. For Christmas I got a digital camera, which is really nice. I also got this awesome poker set which is really cool. I can't wait till Passion '06 I am really pumped about that. Well I guess that is it for now. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their break.

   - Garrett

well...its about time...

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH

BYE

hey you guys well once again im leaving on another fun adventure with dad and elle ( i swear they are the coolest adults ever) were leaving at 630 tomorrow morning to go to niagara falls!!!! were gonna go to the canada side cause supossedly is better

IM GOIN TO CANADA!!!!

so i hope yall have a great next coupla days ill see ya next year

ah wow next year.....

this past year has been amazing and its cause of all of you guys

its been great, but every now and then kinda sucky lol, but really i LOVE you all more than you could ever dream and i would be lost without you all  

to all you guys who have really made this year you know who you are...

I LOVE YOU

- emily

so......

met a boy today...

had a great christmas...

phusebox is back up and running...

so, therefore, life is good...

Houston we had a problem
and I hade fallin
into a state of withdrawal
and was using xanga!

My Princess....
GUARD YOUR HEART,
If I were to hand you a fragil, newborn baby girl, I know that you would protect her with your life. Your arms would be strong, your feet sure, and your eyes ever watchful. Be careful, my trusted one! For I have placed something just as precious and delicate within you. It is your heart...your very life. Treasure it! Protect it! Watch over it with all your strength. For the world and all its pleasures are like kidnappers who will stop at nothing to steal your heart away from Me and destory it. I want what is best for you, my treasured one, and although you sometimes feel that the sinful pleasures of this world dont seem harmful, they will seperate you from Me. Just as a newborn is helples without loving care, you also will suffer if your heart is taken from Me. So im asking you to guard your heart and cling to Me, the source of life.
Love,
Your King and the Life Giver.

PhuseBox is back online...

I will post later with details on what happened...

Photos are slowly being added and should be back online soon. Other than that, let me know if you run into any major problems...

-Nathan

Nice to see this site's back up. Hopefully, my pictures will be restored soon.

I was at the mall on Friday. And I attempted to sit on the side of a trash can. It didn't work. And I stumbled.

You know what makes me very frustrated? Confusing people. I'm not sure who I like, if I like anyone at all. I dont know. I do have a lot of crushes though. But yeah, everyone is so damn confusing and hard to read and you can misinterpret everything. Who knows? I sure as hell don't, but I wish I did. I'm going to just start acting on impulses and see what happens...its something new at least...*big sigh*

I'm going to start posting here every day. Yes. Every single day. I decided I wanted to post somewhere every day, and this is my newest online journal. So, it gets to be the lucky chosen one.

I had some wine tonight, and I feel terribly guility. I drank enough to be tipsy, and I haven't done that since I swore not to drink any more. I guess we all slip some times though. I'll try very hard not to do it again, and I guess that's the best I can do.

My most important prayer right now is for all of my friends to be happy for Christmas. Every one I know that believes in God (including me) is doubting, and the majority of my friends don't believe at all. I guess I feel like if everyone could be completely happy....for just an hour maybe, not only would my friends understand that God answered my prayer, but my own doubts would subside as well. It feels like a naive childish wish, but we're supposed to have faith like a child, right? Even if God answers my prayer in an unexpected way, I just want to know that it gets answered somehow.

the questions never stop. first it was "where are you going to school?" (a question that caused my cringes for a year prior to graduation), then "what's your major". now it's "what are you gonna do with that?". give me a break, folks. my mom says it never stops. soon it'll be "you have a boyfriend?" (unfortunately, i've been getting that one for years too). then "are you ever gonna get married?" (like that needs to be pointed out...no, i dont have a boyfriend- wait, you didn't get my wedding invitiation though? please.) then "when are you gonna have a baby?" good grief.

there are so many things i want to do and i've been previously discouraged to kill myself in order to do everything i wanted.  upon returning from spain, i decided that while i'm young i just owe it to myself to kill myself in order to have the fun i want to have and do the things i want to do. i think that's totally acceptable and i plan to do such.  if i take my time, i'm going to end up a soccer mom who just can't take off and go backpacking through the alps like the von trapp family or take a day off to go base jumping in new zealand. the time is nigh, my friends.

i'm going to go sky diving, be on jeopardy, marry my best friend, hike the appalachain trail, live in europe, drive a saab, spend one hundred dollars on a meal just for the luxury of good food, own all 10 seasons of friends, drink margaritas everyday, base jump, hold an elected position, go ice skating in central park on christmas eve, be sworn in, meet matthew thiessen, smile involuntarily, write music, see saturday night live, kiss in the rain, have a nose ring, makeout with steve huffman atop the eiffle tower, drive a volvo station wagon, have an inside dog, and the list goes on... expect more.

It feels so good to be home and done with finals!!   I can't believe I'll be here for 6 weeks!  I keep thinking I've only got a few days here, but really I've got a long time. 

Tonight, a friend of mine Tiffany got married.  I can't believe it because she's only a year older than me!  I don't know what I'm going to do when people my age and younger are going to start getting married and engaged!  I'm not sure I'm ready for all this change.  :o( 

Well.. tomorrow is church, so I better get some sleep! 

In Christ,
Ashley

almost finished with my christmas shopping. i saw the lion the witch and the wardrobe today with some people from my youth group.  it was a great movie. i am still anxious about how i feel about this guy. i really need to stay away from them but every time that i swear them off, one guy does something really sweet and i end up going back in. i didn't get to talk to ryan that much this past thursday b/c i was busy talking to amanda. she's really cool and she seems to have turned her life around or at least is trying to. we played alot of games together and i only got to talk to ryan towards the end of the hour. i feel really bad about that. sean still hasn't updated his xanga, which confuses me b/c he made such a big deal out of getting one.

will probably write more later.

abby likes a boy.
and she thinks this
boy likes her back.
but she's too much
of a wimp to act
on it.. i lose.

cory's party was really fun.
until the cops showed up..

crazy.

I'm back Home.  I definitely need the rest.  I'm very tired of school right now.  I miss Morehead though, and the people that are in Morehead.  Like Colby, Lauren, Melanie, Cara, Dusty, Joe, George Carter, Megan, Summer, My Bigs, and everyone else.  I mean, it's like an entire month till I get to see everyone again.  How am I gonna deal?  I think I might go back to Morehead for at least a weekend or something.  Actually though, looking at my schedule, I don't think that will work.  I'm sad.  The only time I would get to do it would be over New Years.  I never have any plans for new years so I don't think it would be a problem.  I was so happy to see Kim today.  Mom and I went to see eat some Cheesecake at The Cheesecake Factory.  We got Chocolate Peanut Butter Cookie Dough Cheesecake.  It was delicious.  Awww, Mikey Blagg, I miss the announcements with Chuck Walters.  If you go to TNL, you know what I mean.  It's kinda cool that Christmas is on a Sunday this year.  I think it should maybe be on a Sunday every year.  We should definitely make sure we worship Him on Christmas and I think a lot of times...we don't.  I mean, that's what this holiday is all about.  Now that I'm on my soapbox, I think I'll go to bed to spare all of you all.  I hope you all have a merry Christmas and a happy holiday.

its been a while my dear phusebox

life is going quite well

exams arent too bad

went to aunt jenn's for family christmas today

had a blast hanging out with my band dork cousins

4 major band geeks in one place for prolonged periods is always great fun 

Christmas is in 8 days

man where has the time gone

mmmm i love you guys so much

i really do

i want to hug you all

well i ended up spending the night shopping with my sister. it was so fun. she got me a cool camo blazer in Hot Topic... and i got most of my family shopping done.

uhm...

i sang her the emo kid song. and she laughed really hard.

Asia and Natalie and some kids came and saw me at work! they are so amazing. really fun people.

omg... i work five days this week. not cool. at least i'll have a ton of money. that's always a plus.

kay. i'monna go make a list of boys i like.

xoxo

So....my new best friend is BRITTANY PAIGE DICKENS.  She is SO cool.  I love hanging out with her. I have hung out with her for like 24/7 now...and I LOVE IT.  She is so pretty and SO smart.  I absoultely adore her and I idolize her hair.  I wish I had her hair.  And her face...it's hott.  I love her so much, its like not even funny.  She is who I wanna be when I grow up.  She is gonna make an amazing lawyer...like Elle Woods.  She is gonna rule the world one day and look good while doing it.  I love her so much and I am gonna name my first daughter after her....and my son because she is amazing like that.  So leave me some love and I will tell Brittany you said hi!

-Whit

Well then.  I'm home finally and astonishingly bored.  I wanna hang out with people but I'm finding that noone is really available to do anything.  Everyone has to work.  So I guess we'll just have to do stuff when everyone is available.  Give me a call guys!  I'm bored.

Yay!!! Two whole weeks away from school!

I just got home from eating with my family. We went to Marina's which is the best restaurant ever! I love going there.It's been a pretty good weekend so far...kinda lonely which is odd cause i'm surrounded by people ... have no idea what that's about.

Hmm...it's been a rough week...actually the past month has been hard.I don't know if it's just because it's the christmas season or what but i've been kinda sad lately...i know,i know , i should be happy...and i am but at the same time i feel a bit of saddness that seems to creep up on me the moment i least expect it too or when i really don't want it to be there. Oh well...life goes on...

ok what do u do when ur friend is going out w/ a guy that u talked to like 2 months ago.. and told her some stuff that he does when she's not around.. and then she goes and tells him and ur still friends w/ him and now he's really mad @ u for telling her stuff thats TRUE!! im so SCREWED!! this is what he IMed me..

omg kelly has got me really really scared now!!! she was talking bout you cause i said i really like u alot and she said that u wont be as nice when we break up and i said i didnt wanna think bout that and she was like yea he moves from girl to girl really fast!!! i really like u alot so i hope it u wont move to another girl anytime soon or in a long time!!! yea and she keeps sayin stuff to make me think that u dont like me. like she was saying that u like were hugging on every girl there last night and stuff like that. its like she dosent want me to go out with u or somethen?!?!

how do i respond to that.. cause EVERYTHING i told her was true!! and im NOT trying to break them up.. i just think she needed to know what he does when she's not around.. HELP ME!! what do i say to him??

DIAMMMN.

i love the world.

everything has been so amazing



andrew and i sword fighted yesterday.
while eating lunch
it was really fun.

and i figured out.
i'm a really cool person.

haha.

WTF LIES.



this is thomas. he is amazing. loll

i love his guts.

and i wish things were different between him and i

i always say that.
but it uh. will never happen.
lol.
we're too good of friends...

but he's still a fucking retard.

I GOT INTO COLLEGE!!!!!!!!! potsdam is a good 6 hours away from buffalo, and my parents, and these bitches i go to school with.

HELL YES.

and, im sorry, but if you're not friends with someone, dont they at least know? i really hate fake people. and hypocrites. cus apparently the ppl i thought i knew are both.

Reason number 8 on my "Why College Is Not Too Cool" list:  It alters my immune system and sleep cycles.  I was never really sick this past semester, but I always had a lingering cold that would show up every now and then.  Today, however I guess my body broke down, because I don't think anyone in the history of colds has had one like this.  To the Sleep Cycles.  Since my finals ended Wednesday morning, I don't think I've left the REM stage yet when i'm asleep.

Today, I was scrounging around the downstairs closet looking for, what we call, "The Sick Blanket," and I came across my favorite shirt from one of my retarded stages.(The Sick Blanket deserves a post all to its own)  The reads, "Prose Before Hos", I thought it was hilarious, blew twenty bucks on it, and never actually wore it.  My mother did not find it so amusing.

Dimetapp is a blessing indeed.

God shows the littlest thing to me when im not execpting them!!!

got new tires November 27th
today had to take my car and get 2 new tires!
one had a screw in it
the 2nd one had 2 nails!!!
AHHHH!!! to much money involved!!

the world is crazy!!!
i dont like shopping at Christmas!
and i hate working in retail over Christmas!!!
AHHHH!!!

got hit on by a 12 year old!!
a old lady tried to marry me off to her grandson in the store!!!
CRAZY!!!

patrick bday tomorrow!!! wooo hoo!!

im off to game night!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

huzzah my presents are finished. except my mom, and somehow i feel like thats gonna be a really last minute find :]

hmm my camera died, i guess just in time to get a new one huh?

the pirates of the caribbean trailer looks splendiforous. i'm so excited about it.

friday was a pretty sad day. i had to say bye to two friends. i pray that you guys have a great rest of your life, and hopefully my life and yours will intersect some day in the near future.

merry christmas!

hmmm...so have i joined every online blogging things yet???

What a God-forsaken mission THAT was.
We stood around in the theatre and handed out slips for some Narnia drawing-thing.  Prizes included soundtracks, t-shirts, and four tickets to the ice show at the GEC.  We were there from 11:00-4:00 with nary a chance to sit down or nourish our bodies.  Normally this would be only scarcely tolerable, but stick someone in a corset who only had 1/2-a-cup of coffee at 8:00 and it makes for one peril-laden drive to Murfreesboro.
((We kept most of the free ice-cream coupons for ourselves.  The ones we were supposed to be handing out to children.  XD))

And I want everyone to go out and buy the Hershey's chocolate-cherry-cordial-kiss-thingies right NOW.  Either try them and love them forever or give them to me.

Swing dancing soon.  Again.  Shall be most sorely sore tomorrow.

Getting new car tomorrow...<3

thats my baby and i am gonna love it...and no one is gonna have crazy make out session in this one unless it is mwah!

any takers...lol

..... ADK black and white party anyone want to go with me....it should be fun.....call me if you want to go....545-6082

i really like phusebox better than myspace (except you can't change your background to whatever you want on this ) but all my friends use myspace and their friends do too so they don't want to change!  But i am going to try and change this!

Hey PEOPLE!!!

I hope that everyone is have a great christmas break!! I know i am...soo far..I am sittin at my grandfathers shop b/c it is the only place that has internet!! It is crazy!! But ohh well!!! And when i get on no one is on for me to talk to!! NO FUN ON YOU GUYS!!!! I am getting home prolly like monday afternoon so i need some stuff to do!!! HINT HINT!!! I can't wait to see everyone!! I miss ya soo much!!

life is...well, chaotic at the moment..

too many people hate me for reasons unknown to me. probably something they made up in their tiny little brain...

[becca]

The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe is officially the most amazing thing I've ever seen. Phantom Shmantom... Aslan's the man- errr- lion.

And I have concluded I am never going to try to get the same trendy haircut as some model ever again.

And Garrett, Zach, and I are going to the Siegel play tonight if anyone else wants to join us! We're gonna have a good old time with the Peanuts gang! Yay for Charlie Brown!

well i got my permit, and a digital camera and 50 bucks so far, and i love driving, i go everywhere now, haha but the test was so easy it was like if you are drunk you a. drive better, b. drive worse, c. it doesnt matter, hmm i wonder, or maybe this one, if a pedestrian is crossing the street you a. hit em (swerve around em), b. honk your horn so they know youre there, c. stop and let them cross safely, i was just like wow, this is a joke, i missed 3 outta 40 questions like following distances of an emergency vehicle, so if youre driving an emergency vehicle watch out if im behind you cuz i dono where im supposed to be, haha anyways im bouta get outta here and go to the pub, seriously, my moms playing there on piano with somebody on handbells, haha so cyall later

-john

lmao, that last entry was so friggin happy.

Your Christmas Song Is

All I Want for Christmas Is You

I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true...
All I want for Christmas is
You

You only want one thing for Christmas
Love from one special person - and you've got it!

it's day 3...things should start to get better after today!! i can see my collar bones! haha. it's weird, my stomach is growling, but i'm not hungry. it's amazing how your body can react to pain to shut off everything else! well, one of my favorite girly movies is on TBS (the american president) so i'm going to go get back to that. leave me some comments to make me feel loved! muah! 

Fizzuck, I so need that job.  Well at least I have one promised for me.  After New Years.  Things are freaking wierd now.  It all just feels a little unreal.  Like my vision is covered in Saran Wrap.  Like everythings turned plastic.  Oh well.  I need to stop bitching.  Christmas is coming and I am as unexcited as ever.  I hate staying home.  Maybe I'll find a parking lot and go sleep in my car there.  I have heated seats......

hope yall have an *AMAZING* weekend!! i love yall soo much!

8 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!!!

hey friends.. well, my family is in this weekend for an early christmas and im pretty excited! my uncle is coming down form north carolina and he hasn't had christmas with us in a while so that'll be fun.. midterms are almost over and then itll be christmas break!!! YeA! well-- hope everyone's having a wonderful weekend <3

This picture = love to me lol

So life lately is amazing. I got my lip pierced, I am in a wonderful relationship with a beautiful person and I wouldn't change anything except for the amount of time we don't get to see each other. But for you, whether it's two weeks or two years ..I will wait. I went to Katie's part Friday night and suprisingly had lots of fun. The only reason I got mad at you was because when those other two people came you blew me off and the only thing I really wanted was to spend time with you. But outside, looking at the so-called "moon" even though it was fogged up up there, with just you and me, as we kissed. I wouldn't change that for anything. I love you

Highlights of my night

1. You

2. Friends

3. You saying "How could you fix your hair at a time like this? " lol probably the funniest thing I have heard in a while.

thank you guys so much :]
everytime someone told me happy birthday, I smiled
so I guess I was smiling most of the day.

exams went well.
I made above 95's on everything

school was fun for the most
and laura came home with me afterward
we went to sonic
when we got to my house
we went wild and laughed our butts off.
ahaha, man I love that girl
then we dropped her off at her house so she could get ready
and then tiffany came over so we could give her a ride.
and me and tiffany probably laughed the whole 30 minutes
until we got into the car to go pick up laura.
we got to the church
and we met tyler there, who gave me a stuffed animal :]
how sweet.
then we headed off to kobe's
which daaaang, it was butt load of money
but I got cake for my birthday, heheh
oh I forget to mention,
I got to spend the whole night with my favorite guy.
and it made me not want to go home at all
okayokay, then we went to opry mills and opry land hotel
and got lost, how predictable. ahaha
*sighs* I wish it would have lasted longer.

but I loved my birthday.
even if things didnt happened that I wanted to
it was all wonderful
and I got to spend time with my amazing friends
and my sweet sweet guy.

okay well that's about it.
I'm fifteen, feeling pretty good
hopefully I'll get to hang out with Claire today

lovelovelove

so school's almost over.

and the only chirstmas shopping i have left is for family and three frineds.

work today from 2 to 7. at least i don't have to close.

then i'monna show up at Cory Drake's party... cause Carly and Abby want me to.

xoxo

I'd have to say that if there is  one thing that really just botheres me it is this:

when people don't live life to the fullest...

they have so much to experience, so much to see, but they waste the day, the opportunity, the beauty...
they don't embrace it with open arms.

I'll never understand that.

Throwing yourself in the rush.

It's sad because sometimes people don't take the time to form relationships with the people they're surrounded by...no matter where they are.

You'll be surprised what you'll find and what kind of influence you'll have on these people...or what kind of influence they'll have on you.

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Extremely true verse. I've seen it happen. It will continue to happen. That's why I won't worry.

I'm getting more hours at work, yay! Now I won't always be poor!

Christmas is very near, yay. I don't really know what I'm getting-- clothes are a given, but I really didn't ask for anything big. I'm more excited about the presents I got people, because this is the first year I'm not buying gifts with my parents money.

I saw A Charlie Brown Christmas last night. I was really cute! Props to everyone that in it! Hollie and I sat together and were laughing about how we knew exactly what was going on backstage right before the curtain went up.

We've got a comic strip at work with three kids sitting on a bench outside the principal's office. The dialouge is as follow:

Kid #1: I said the 's-h' word.

Kid #2: I said the 'f' word.

Kid #3: I said 'Christmas'.

like cleopatra

joan of arc

or aphrodite . . .

[this would be why the brian has been in a good mood]

[just try to figure it out, kids . . . it's not who you might think]

So yeah, if anyone wants to come to Regal Cinema at Opry Mills between 11:30 and 4:00 and hang out with a shivering peasant (that would be me) and be sent on missions to buy me hot chocolate (or coffee, mwaha) or just plain mock me in my mission, that'd be cool.  (For some reason people in Elizabethan garb is considered germane for The Chronicles of Narnia.  I don't know why.  It's not our job to ask those sort of questions, lol.)

Yeah... I guess I need to begin to get Peasant-ed Up.

Feliz Navidad!!!!!

It needs to snow...

edit::
So this morning me and my bible study group, which consisted of clint, ben, michael gibelyou, rhett moser, and myself, went to the mall this morning at 10 am. So what were we doing there at 10 am? We went prayer walking. It was a great experience. Have u ever just walked around a public place and prayed for the people around you? We prayed that God would open up opportunities of conversation with people, and to be real with people. And we actually did get to talk with a few people just about what Christmas is really all about, and not this "Americanized" version of it where everybody is rushing to get everyone a gift. AWESOME experience. The feeling you get from the Holy Spirit when he is telling you to be bold and you do, is really amazing. You can't beat it with a stick. Well that's about all.

This just in...

I got my dad to sign up on phusebox so that he could see my pics and read my blogs while I'm in Hawaii....... THAT'S THE COOLEST THING EVER!!! I never thought that I'd ever get my dad on something like this.

Rock On...

-Jeff

I'm back home. It has been about a day and a half. It hasnt been bad...but i've really wanted to see you and havent been able to. I really hope that changes in the near future. You told me that you had a bad day...i wanted to see you and make that better. I still want to. Let's make this work soon. You know what to do. Fill the Void.

time to do that ^^

so i'm going to be a crazy old woman. and i'm going to befriend a grumpy old man. and it will be good.