So I woke up at 8 this morning and got ready for work. I arrived at 8:50, clocked in, and met the guy who was going to train me. After he did his normal routine of putting money in the registers, he proceded to train me. All was dandy, he talked very fast. I shadowed this girl named Ashley, who was really cool. We had fun. I start wrapping the breakables and after our first break, she let me cover the register and she 'took it easy' till we clocked out. Anywho, so it started out kind of slow, so it was good. I had ringing up mulch, it confuses me. I also don't like people who buy like 20 plates and are like "will you wrap them individually, I don't want them to break" and then tell them you are going to slow. Excuse me, if you didn't ask me to wrap all your precious plates that cost a dollar each, you would be out of here already. Yeah, we made sure that woman had a hard time getting into her bags. (It is procedure that when breakables are placed in a bag, you tie a knot at the top, well...we tied like three .) So yeah, that was fun. We took our lunch breaks, but because there were so many people in the store we couldn't take them together, so I got to be cashier 1 for 30 minutes. I hope I don't have that number tomorrow, that is the one that is most busy. I took my lunch around 1:10 and bought a fish sandwich in the cafe, it was yummy. I returned working; Ashley and I had our own little conversations the rest of day and customers would chime in everyonce and a while, it was fun. They commented on how she was 21, living at home, and dropped out of college, I laughed. So around 5 it started being uber busy, but we got to leave at like 5:45, not to bad. So I worked my 8 hours, and did 15 minutes of over time.

So I came home, took a shower, and went shopping for more polo shirts for working in. I got a really nice argyle one, yay. I think I did a nice job for a person who never goes out to buy clothes. I also baught a really cute fagbag, yay! I saw it and it looked like one that Tyler has...only it has some blue striped pattern on the inside, like some shorts that he has. It looked like Tyler, so of course I bought it.

My tailbone kind of hurts.

I went out to eat at a pizza place, it was good but took forever long for me to get back home. So here I am. I have to get up at like 6:30 tomorrow because I'm playing at the two Easter services in the morning. I get to go work after that...but only till 7.

Yay!

Well...It has been a while since i have written on here.... I am finally done with all-sing!! THANKFULLY!! It consumed my life soo much but i have to admit i made some really good friends and i did enjoy it!!! I went straight from All-sing into softball..But it looks like i won't be playing anymore!!!

Here is the story incase you haven't heard it yet:

Monday was our first game of softball..I was super stoked!! I hit the ball and ran to first..Little did I know that the bases were higher on this field... So i kinda rolled my foot...Well i didn't say anything and just kept playing!! Then on Tuesday I went and got a brace to wear....Did the same thing that night..Just not as bad b/c i had the brace on. Well..I just continued to wear the brace b/c my foot kept hurting...So i was like well i will just wear it until it stops hurting...Then just wear it when i play softball!!! Well....I am putting things up in my house yesterday and was going back to the couch when i trip over a hairdryer cord and fall!!! I couldn't get up b/c my foot was hurting soo much...So i just pulled myself up on the couch.... Well i called my mom and told her what happened..She laughed!! LOL!! Then she told me to hop to the kitchen and get an ice pack and prop my foot up.... I was really upset b/c i thought that i wouldn't be able to go out for Dena's surprise birthday stuff!!! But luckily my sister had brought home her crutches and I had to use those last night..Got up this morning and was a lil sore... But I went to work...I was hurting really bad when i came home so mom took me to a walk-in clinic..We had to get an X-RAY on my foot...It is not broken... but the doctor said that it might be bruised muscles and tissues..or it could be sometype of fracture that just isn't showing up...

So b/c of this i am on crutches for the next few days... NOT FUN!!! I already hate them..but for me to walk around and not hobble i have to use them...BOO!!!! I don'tknow what i am going to do since i live on the 3rd floor of my dorm... it will be interesting when i get back!! HAHAHA!!! Well i am gonna go to bed...Gotta get up for easter in the morning..I hope everyone has a great easter!!!

I'm home.  Good 'ole home.  Got to spend some time with my kimmybear.  That was superfun.  We just watched tv at her house but it was so good to hang out with her again. 

I'm worried about driving home tomorrow.  It's going to be thunderstorming all day tomorrow.  I want to try to get out of town as soon as possible.  That's not good though because it is Easter.

So I don't know what to do.   Grrrr!!!

happy easter. hope everyone has had a great day. and will have a great day tomorrow too. [&& for those who are off (like me) on monday, have another great day off.]

have u ever felt that you have too much, but dont give enough?

i kinda feel like that right now. easter presents u get to pick from ur parents are amazing. my parents were so amazing today! =]

my siblings and myself got to pick out our easter presents! i got a new mp3 [almost got an ipod video, but sadly didnt. oh well]

kayla got a guitar.

&& jordan got new baseball stuff, and new stuff for his game boy.

and sometime soon my dad is going to go get himself a pressure washer? or whatever its called.

idk what my mom is ganna get herself, but she deserves something great.

but yesturday afternoon, i was watching Operah. and it makes me feel bad, cause i have SO MUCH, but all those people have so LITTLE. they work FULL TIME, and are STILL homeless. its so sad.

it makes u think of all u have, even though i LOVE everything i have, i know i should//need to give ALOT of it away for those who have NOTHING.

i mean, there is so much crap in my room, that i think is crap that  i know other who have nothing would LOVE to have.

has anyone else ever felt this way??

well hope ya'll have a great rest of the weekend. i know i will.

<333

went shoppin with my mom.

the search for a prom dress continues >.<

i really like Asian stuff.                     and cute Asian boys ^^

BAHH! HAPPY EASTER!! BAHH! ^^

"Little by little the warmth you left me with is going out
If it's gone completely, what will my body mean?"
-Ayu (GAME)

I wonder how come when you think you have something but realize you dont.. it hurts more than never having it at all?

How come people turn on you so fast?

Why cant people be honest with you?

How come the people that really shouldnt matter to you.. matter the most?

Why are adults so stupid?

Why do  people hate me so much?

meag

WOAH!

WE WROTE THE ENDING FOR OUR (Ben Hunt and I) FIGHT!

Kick.  Ass.

It's so rad.

I'm so excited.

I was up until freakin' two in the morning sewing.

*Mini-Implosion*

The house is empty.... And quiet.... Oh, so blissful.

[EDIT] Okay.... So.... I'm bidding on a pair of boots on eBay (because I love eBay and I need new, non-Pocahontas, non-peasant boots for faire).  They are simultaneously described as "never worn" and "very comfortable."  How, pray tell, can comfort level be determined if they have never been worn?  Just something I found amusing.  Feel free to snicker and say, "lame" at will.  [/EDIT]

Hey Everyone....tomorrow is the final presentation of the trilogy. I was told by gus to be in it tomorrow but i just feel if i were to be in it i wouldn't really be in it.... you probably have no idea what i am talking about so never mind. lol. i wish i really knew what to write but i have no idea occupying the space in my mind at this current... oh wait... i know what i will write about.... ok here are a few random thoughts...

ToMoRrOw Is EaStEr! so i will wish all a HaPpY eAsTeR.

and talking about easter....

it took me forever friday to find out what i was going to wear tomorrow. we went to PlAtO's ClOsEt, PhAsE 2, PeNnEy'S, GoOdY's, SeArS, and finally KoHl'S. i spent 4 hours and then today i finally spent 30 minutes finishing my outfit. everyone will get to see it tomorrow. bye

So if you couldn't already tell, I was the Easter Bunny for my church's Easter egg hunt.. except for burning in it, not being able to see or breathe, and have my cousin almost cry when she saw me (she's 4) it was great... it really wasn't that bad... only a couple kids cried but alot of them really liked me... so its all good... :)

So tomorrow will be the day that the people that never go to church go

You will see people you didn't even know go to your church

You will go out to eat with your family to celabrate Easter

But don't forget that you are celabrating Jesus coming to this earth to live and die for your sins

Easter isn't about the candy and the stuff that you get from the "Easter bunny"

It's about this, and that is all

If anybody ever cares or reads this leave me a comment and I'll try to do better with this thing. lol.

<3

"The cross and the resurrection stand as the pivotal events at the heart of the Christian faith. Christianity stands or falls with the substitutionary atonement wrought by the death of the incarnate Son of God on the cross and the resurrection of the Son of God on the third day. If Christ did not die in our place, then we are still under the divine verdict. If Jesus was not raised, He was merely a victim, and not the Victor.

The church comes each year to this celebration of resurrection because we must constantly remind ourselves and the world of the resurrection hope, and of the reality of the risen Christ. The church of the Lord Jesus Christ must always remain a company of resurrection witnesses, speaking the Gospel of the cross and the risen Christ to a world desperate for genuine hope.

Yet, the world is not always ready to hear the challenging clarity of the Easter message. Words such as sin, guilt, redemption, atonement, and salvation are often seen as intrusive, impolite, and unsophisticated. Individuals who flee from the admission of their own sinfulness know that the word of the cross and the witness of the resurrected Lord come as judgment, as well as grace.

Some within the church have decided to help the Easter message conform to cultural expectations. David Jenkins, the former bishop of Durham (England) prompted an outcry in the Church of England over his suggestion that the resurrection was "real," but not an historical fact. Christ's resurrection was real, in the sense that the disciples experienced the "livingness" of Jesus. Nevertheless, says the bishop, the resurrection of Jesus was not a bodily resurrection.

The modern flight from the reality of the empty tomb and the resurrected Christ is but another example of the revolt against classical Christian orthodoxy seen in some segments of the church. But the biblical message will not allow such compromise. The gospels record the bodily resurrection of Jesus from the dead and the appearance of the risen Christ to the disciples and to others.

Paul left no door open to misunderstanding when he stated: "If Christ has not been raised, your faith is futile and you are still in your sins." (1 Corinthians 15:17) If Christ was not raised "we are of all men to be pitied." But, Paul proclaimed, Christ has been raised, the firstfruits of the resurrection of the believers.

The resurrection of Jesus Christ is the vindication of the Gospel and the eternal sign of the atonement accomplished on the cross. The resurrection was recognized by the disciples as God's sign that Jesus was indeed the incarnate Son, that His messianic claims were true, that His preaching of the Kingdom of God would be realized, and that His sacrificial death was sufficient for the salvation of sinful humanity. The resurrection is also the sign of his return.

Furthermore, the Scriptures make clear the fact that Jesus's resurrection is the promise of our own resurrection and the concrete hope of life beyond the grave. The reality of the resurrection prompted Paul's triumphant cry: "Death is swallowed up in victory."

The church must never apologize for its celebration of the resurrection. Indeed, though Easter is celebrated as Resurrection Day, each Lord's Day is a resurrection day, and each congregation is a body of believers united in the hope and witness of the resurrection.

The two great annual festival celebrations of the church provide for worship and witness. Churches must be faithful witnesses to the reality of the bodily resurrection of Jesus and bold to speak the truth of His resurrection as both judgment and sufficient hope."

Excerpts from Albert Mohlor's commentary of "Death Swallowed Up in Victory."
http://www.albertmohler.com/commentary_read.php?cdate=2006-04-14

these memories are like shadows

always following me around, even when the sun's not shining

i try to erase them from my mind

but every time i try...

they come rushing back like a tidal wave

everything seems to remind me of you

a song, a place, a word...everything

and then come back the memories

well its exactly two months today since i last typed on here. a lot has happened since then. let me take you though the last months.

i have a new vehicle. it is a 97 eddie bauer ford explorer. its pretty tight. check it out.

heres a look at the cockpit. notice the air freshener.

its got a display where it tells you to the exact mile how much you can go on a tank of gas. it can also tell ya if you need to change the oil, checks the fluid levels, and can change from the standard to metric system.

the thing even has a sunroof

a look backwards

the view from the back

if you look closely you can see the fat lady aka the mustang. you know i couldnt get rid of that thing. it is pretty much my identity. my plan for it is to pretty much rest it. its been running all around town for 3 years and its time for her to rest. ive banged it up on a metal trailer and almost took out a sonic tray with it. plus the seats are tearing up really bad.

another thing im an official younglife leader. im at oakland. it is so tight. i love every minute of it. cant really go into much detail but thats about it.

i only have a week and half left of school. i have been on the brink for a while. stuff needs to be in at certain times and i dont have enough time to do it. plus some other personal stuff gets in the way too. anyways just pray for me so that i dont go crazy.

well i think thats it for me. thats what has been going on in my life. i hope i type on here more often. till then have a wonderful easter holiday and peace.

hey guys!

i'm home for the weekend :) i saw AMBER THIS MORNING!!!! AHH!!! i've missed her so much! i've missed everyone... but i saw everyone else at Christmas... well... most everyone. God is so good. i turned in my research paper last Wed... only by God's grace... man that was a bear. everything else is going pretty good. in 3 1/2 week i will be a sophmore! i can hardly believe it! i'll be home 2 1/2 weeks and then i'm off to the Wilds. i'm so excited!!! anyways... i love you guys! miss you!!! comment me! ~Hope

this is me and my friend Mike at fine arts :)

Okay, this whole deciding which site to blog on is difficult, but today Phusebox wins!  I may just copy and paste this to MySpace...

I saw in the Religion section of the paper the other day that there is a church in Minnesota that refused to care for a transsexual.  For those of you who do not know, a transsexual is someone who begins life as one gender and then later in life is surgically altered to become another gender.  In this case, the person was born a man and became a woman.

A little more information: the church worked with the community to take care of invalids and others who may need care during the day.  People who needed assistance would register with a community organization that would then divide up the list between the participating churches.  This church received this person and refused to care for her.

When asked why, the minister at the church said that the church wishes to minister to everyone, but this person was living in direct contradiction to the teachings of the church.  First of all, who is NOT living in direct contradiction to the teachings of the church? Last time I checked, we're ALL sinners and ALL sins are in the same book.  They would have to turn everyone away if they were consistent with this policy.  Secondly, what exactly is this church teaching? Certainly not the Bible, because the book of James advises the church not to turn ANYONE away, to not be a "respecter of persons."  Thirdly, if you want to minister to everyone, like you say, DO IT.  The people who are living in such "blatant disregard" of the scriptures are the ones who need ministering most.

What have we done, church?  Where did we turn wrong?  We've lost our heart.  We've lost our burden.  We've lost our vision.  We are to LOVE.  Christ said to love our neighbors as ourselves.  Guess what?  Sometimes our neighbors struggle with different sins than what we do.  Love them anyway.

I hope that with this Easter, or as it is popularly called in evangelical churches, Resurrection Sunday, that we focus on Jesus.  Not on our new outfits or who is going where for dinner, but on Jesus.  Newsflash: He died for ALL of us.  We don't get to choose who can be saved.  Christ already did that.  He also decided who we have to love.

Love everyone.

so hey guys! well, the debate was on Thursday. i think it went pretty well. it was kinda funny to me that most people were on the side of ID rather than evolution. it's also really cool to see that there are some matters of faith that you just can't argue. but one of the things i really learned was how not to go about discussing things with people. you can't jerk them up by the collar and tell them they're going to hell. you can't just throw scripture at them or take scripture out of context to convice someone of their folly. the one thing that no one can argue with is your testimony. no one can tell you that God hasn't done something amazing in your life. and He has really been reinforcing that to me. but He has also been teaching me that if i don't live my life to back up what i say, then it doesn't show anybody anything but a hypocrite. and the coolest thing, is that i can't even do it on my own. it's God who makes me not a hypocrite. He is one who changes me. how cool is that? anyways, just thought i'd share that with you guys. so, on another thought, have you ever had a dream in which you confessed everything to someone, only to wake and find that it's still all in your head? ha. my dreams are kinda funny. oh well. life goes on. w/e. i gotta go, but i'll all of ya on the flip-flop...much love to you all-------Cari

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom, Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

 

High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

im tired of waiting, yet i cant stop

i find myself forever lookin at the computer screen

just waiting, always waiting...

photo from ben

So I was told yesterday that iframes were cheating in the wor for stats so I got rid of mine. I wan't to see if I can compete with Ken and Kenny. I doubt I can but I am going to try. so you should all visit my site at amazinzay.com. Check it out.....

So these past 40 days have been great for me. God has opened my eyes to so many things about myself, my relationships with other people, my relationship with Him, and things about the person Im wanting to be. I may not have always been obedient and filled my time that I wouldve gotten on the internet with prayer or reading His word, but whenever I did it was always wonderful. The things He's opened my eyes to have been amazing...it's just going to take a lot to become the person im wanting to be.

This was one of the devotionals from the 40 days that made me sit in awe...

"Then Simon Peter....went to the tomb, and he saw the linen cloths lying there, and the handkerchief that had been around His head, not lying with the linen cloths, but folded together in a place by itself."- John 20:6-7

"During Jesus' time there was one way a carpenter let the contractor know a job was finished. A signature, so to speak.

Imagine a hot afternoon in Galilee, Jesus has completed the final pieces of a job he has worked on for several days. The hair of his strong forearms is matted with sawdust and sweat. His face shiny with heat. He takes a final-and welcome- drink of cool water from a leather bag.

He pours water over his face and chest to clean himself before his journey home. With a nearby towel, he pats his face and arms dry.

Finally, Jesus folds the towel neatly. He set it on the finished work and walks away. Later, whoever arrives to inspect the work will see the towel and understand its simple message. The work is finished.

On a Sunday of sorrow, Peter will crouch to look into an empty tomb and see only linens that the risen Lord has left behind.

A smile will cross Peter's face as his sorrow is relaced by hope, for he will see the wrap that had covered Jesus' face. Peter understands. The carpenter has left behind a simple message. It is finished."

-Sugmund Brouwer

It is finished...with Easter quickly approaching, I have taken so much time to think upon our Savior's death. But more importantly, His ressurection. I dont think the real meaning of Easter has ever been as real to me as it is this year...I mean wow...I cant even believe Jesus died for my sins when I dont deserve it the least bit....how great and awesome is His love.

After all that pain he still said, "I will forgive them their iniquity, and their sin I will remember no more."- Jeremiah 31:34

Man am I in love with my Lord

Have a wonderful Easter you guys! He has risen!

Andrea

This song is soooo pretty , and I <3 it ... so everyone should definately listen to this song... the words are sweet too, so read them !!!

Lyrics:

You never looked so good
As you did last night
Underneath the city lights
There walking with your friend
Laughing at the moon
I swear you looked right through me
But I'm still livin' with your goodbye
And you're just goin' on with your life
Chorus:
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

You, I hear you're doin' fine
Seems like you're doin' well
As far as I can tell
Time is leaving us behind
(Leavin' us behind)
Another week has passed
And still I haven't laughed yet
So tell me what your secret is baby yeah
(I wanna know, I wanna know, I wanna know)
To letting go, letting go like you did, like you did
Chorus:
How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all

Did you forget the magic...ohh
Did you forget the passion
Did you ever miss me
Ever long to kiss meeeee....

Ohhhh ohohh ohh Baby, baby

Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved...at all....

new pictures of my new cousin

Check my photobox

"i say all the right things, at exactly the right time,yet i mean nothing to you,and i don't know why..."vertical horizon

ok ok i got done w/ my poster^^^
and i am tried

yesterday was fun
work on my poster
hung out w/ kac, ley, and danial(yuck)
drove around
ate pizza
then went to kay's house
yeah i had a buzy friday
but it was fun
and i got of looks yesterday too
well i am out

                meg

yeah so its like saturday im bored lol got the internet back and im still bored go figure i had alot of intersting emails tho >.< anyway ill talk to u guys later

I love everything that is going on right now. Work yesterday was fun. My boss is amazing and my job fit right into what I was looking for. Plus she even gave me Wednesdays off. YAY. And I have all the hours I need.

I've been jogging/walking on my road, either early in the morning or right before the sunset and I love it. It's wonderful "God time." I literally have conversations with Him while walking. I imagine my neighbors must think I am crazy but it's wonderful. I feel energized and happy.

I have work today and then after I get off I have to rush home because we are celebrating Easter and my niece's birthday with my ENTIRE family. It should be interesting.

I hope life is going well for all of you.

I can't stop SMILING. :-) :o)

hey yall i'm new but i have a xanga site also rotcgirl549oneither one makes it easier on me actually d'rae got me strated on this just by looking through some old e-mails i 'll come back and write more see ya

I think I am falling out of love and he is pushing me away...........does it always have to hurt so much. this sucks

So, tonight; Hodge, Justin, Blake, and myself went down to Lahaina to cruise front street. We got some food at Bubba Gump’s (it was a’ight) and ended up taking some totally random pics cause all of the shops were closing down. So after taking our pics, we were pretty much ready to come home. And that’s when the coolest part of the night sank in.

As we were going home, Justin made the obscure comment, “Why don’t we stop and look at this (talking about the ocean)?” So, we did. And that’s when God met us. And holy crap was it amazing.

We sat there on a beach looking up into the sky, gazing at the stars, moon, and palm trees all around us, and God totally, utterly, and completely blew our minds. It was if he was saying, “Hey, check out my beauty that I have displayed for you in my creation.” It was truly breath taking (as much of the ride home was spent in silence pondering the vastness of the love of Christ) And it was on this ride home, as the wind was blowing our Blazer around like a rag doll through the West Maui’s, that I had this astounding epiphany.

AT THIS VERY MOMENT, 2000 YEARS AGO, MY LORD AND SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST WAS IN THE MIDST OF FIGHTING FOR MY SOUL.

At this point 2000 years ago, Christ had suffered the sting of death, submitting himself to the will of his Father, even to dying on the most retched of all torture devices ever thought of in the history of man. And was now fighting Satan for the souls of the lost and dying world that has existed since the beginning of human history even until this day.

It was his undying, never eding, never-changing, steadfast, ever-true Agape love for us that sent him to the cross. And at this very moment, he reached out with his nail pierced hands and took the crown and scepter that Satan planned to use to rule over the earth, and broke their power. It was with his blood stained feet that he walked up to death, and took the keys of the Abyss, thus ending its reign of terror over the lives of the children that he so dearly loved.

And in just a few days, he would rise again, forever sealing the fate of all of those who would believe in him. That we would all know that our salvation was certain because the one who loved us so much to die for us, holds the keys of death, hell, and the grave, and is no longer subject to them. He instead, has the power to give all who call upon his name the right to be called sons and daughters of God.

To Him who was slain, be all glory and honor and power forever and ever, amen.
-Jeff

My mom and I planned an Easter egg hunt for the kids I baby-sit about 2 weeks ago. The egg hunt was this morning and I dressed up to be the Easter bunny. 12 kids came and they all had a good time. Almost all of them figured out who the bunny was though. I knew I should have gotten a mask. Anyway so that was this morning, and then for lunch we met Melody and the boys at the lake for a little while. When we got home I finished making Hannah the collage we started when she spent the night, and I gave it to her at trilogy practice. She loved it! Now Mehgan and Ali want one too. I love making those. Trilogy practice went very well. We’re really working hard on that so please pray that the real thing will be amazing and that souls would be saved. After practice some of us went bowling until midnight. Right now I’m really hungry because I was going to eat dinner when we got home from practice but we went straight to bowling instead. Oh well. It was fun. Here are some pictures:

Richard and Steven

me and Tyler

Tyler after he got a strike

me bowling

My sister Ali, Tyler, and Megan

How can you know that you miss something that you have never experienced?

my answer--

God

see, when you know something is missing but you don't know what it is...when a part of you feels void, or empty, or lonely...God gives us that sensation, that longing, so that when we find that one thing...we are truly happy...not just emotionally happy...but we come alive and we truly live for the first time...everything changes...our eye's open...and for that brief moment in eternity...

we are complete

God is available in every situation...He is there and He is in control...the situation may not come out the way we want it...in fact, it probably wont...we don't have any clue what is best for us...He has something unimaginalbe in mind...you think you have found you best and He just sit's back and smile's...then He hands you His best...and it is SO much better...

He loves to see you smile

He loves to be the cause of your smile

He loves to be able to give you reason to smile

without Him...there are no smiles

if you only knew

Pain, difficulties, trials, tribulations, testings...all things we go through so that we may truly enjoy the moments of breif happiness given to us...this world isn't perfect...far from it...and the people in it can be cruel...but that is because they have yet to find happines...

Happiness...true happiness...everlasting happiness...comes from Him...

and He never runs out

given back my smile and my joy and my life

~ash

Me!!!

Eye Color:: Blue
Hair Color:: Brown
Height:: 510
Favorite Color:: Black
Favorite Band:: Hawthorne Heights
Favorite Movie:: 10 Things I Hate About You
Favorite Show:: Law & Order
Your Car:: A DREAM
Your Hometown:: Norwich
Your Present Town:: Cbury
Your Crushes First Name:: Steven
Your Grade:: 12
Your Style:: Punk Emo Preppy

* . . Have You Ever . . *

Sat on your rooftop?: Yes
Kissed someone in the rain?: Yes
Danced in a public place?: Yes
Smiled for no reason?: Yes
Laughed so hard you cried?: Yes Most Def
Peed your pants after age 8?: No
Written a song?: No
Sang to someone for no reason?: Yupp
Performed on a stage?: Oh Yea
Talked to someone you don't know?: DUH yeah
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: Not that I do remember
Made out in a theatre?: Yes
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: Yes
Been in love?: Yes

* . . Who was the last person to . . *

Say HI to you?: um ben
Tell you, I love you?: SOME ONE WHO LIED TO ME
Kiss you?: a kiss i regret
Hug you?: carrie
Tell you BYE?: Courtney
Write you a note?: uhhh I dont know
Take your photo?: Sarah
Call your cell phone?: Karlee
Buy you something?: um I dont know
Go with you to the movies?: Karlee
Sing to you?: yea a joke
Write a poem about you?: No I dont know ever
Text message you?: Nick
Touch you?: In what way lol

* . . What's the last . . *

Time you laughed?: Today during the Teen Dating movie
Time you cried?: Monday
Movie you watched?: 10 Things I Hate About You
Joke you told?: Today
Song you've sang?: Today
Time you've looked at the clock?: Right Now
Drink you've had?: Coffee Milk
Number you've dialed?: home
Book you've read?: Lord of The Flies
Food you've eaten?: Breakfest Sandwich
Flavor of gum chewed?: um I dont remember
Shoes you've worn?: AE Clogs
Store you've been in?: Walmart
Thing you've said?: ok

* . . Can You . . *

Write with both hands?: Yeah Right
Whistle?: Yupp
Blow a bubble?: No sad kinda now that I have my tongue pierced
Roll your tounge in a circle?: yupp
Cross your eyes?: yes
Touch your tounge to your nose?: No
Dance?: Yupp
Gleek?: Nope
Stay up a whole night without sleep?: Depends
Speak a different language?: NO a lil
Impersonate someone?: yes
Prank call people?: no how old am I?
Make a card pyramid?: no
Cook anything?: yupp my dinner

* . . Finish The Line . . *

If I were a ...: Rich Boy I would buy a new car
I wish ...: I could hold ben in my arms right now
So many people don't know that ...: I HATE THEM
I am ...: Gay

Life's just like a treadmill. No matter how fast you go or how hard you try, you'll sometimes never get anywhere. It's like riding a fast rollercoaster blindfold. There will be ups && downs && you won't know when there will be sharp turns. You won't know when it'll even end... Life's like a book. Every page is a mystery... but you're the one in charge of the pen. When things go wrong, know that life is an hour glass. Sooner or later the sand hits rock bottom, but all you have to do is be patient and wait for someone to just turn everything around... It's like walking in snow. Be careful with the steps you take... because every footprint will show. Making a mistake dosen't matter. What matters is how determined you are to fix it. But remember, a mistake is a like writing on a foggy window, No matter how hard you try to cover it up, if you look close enough, it's always there. Some things in life are unexplainable; if you can explain them... you don't fully understand what they are... So live every day as it was your last, because one of these days, it will be. We were made for a purpose, so if you aren't yourself, then, well, that whole purpose is lost..

What is love? Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, and is your voice caught within your chest? it isnt LOVE, it's like. You can't keep your eyes or hands off them? it isn't LOVE its lust. Are you proud, and eager to show them off? It isn't LOVE, its pride. Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? It isn't LOVE, its low confindence. Do you stay for their confessions of love because they don't want to hurt them? It isnt LOVE, its pity. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? It isn't LOVE, its infatuation. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? It isn't LOVE, it's friendship. Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of? It isn't LOVE, it's a lie. Are you willing to give all your favorite things for their sake? It isnt LOVE, it's charity. Dose your heart ache and break when they're sad? THEN iTS LOVE... Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong? THEN iTS LOVE... Do you see their true heart and love it so deeply it hurts? THEN iTS LOVE... Do you stay because a blinding mix of emotions pulls you close and holds you there? THEN iTS LOVE... Do you accept their faults because they're are part of who they are? THEN iTS LOVE... Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? THEN iTS LOVE... Why do we love? Why is it all we search for in love? Why is it something we live for? The answer is so simple because iTS LOVE...

What is sexy? Sexy is standing in the rain, pushing me up against the hood of your car, kissing me with the intent to never stop. What is cute? Cute is young and inexperienced. Cute is holding hands and kissing at every red light. What is passion? Passion is knowing what you want, and stopping at nothing until you get it. Passion is putting your heart in all that you do. What is beautiful? Beautiful is all about the inside of a person. Beauty can only be found in the heart. What is love? Love is the amazing balance of all these things; in your mind, heart, body and soul…

Promise me.... That’s all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Please, losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you.

One day, I want to be the "you" in all those over-used quotes on your profile. One day, I want to count the little stars and have it add up to my name. One day, I want you to end every conversation with "I love you" or "Never leave me." And I wouldn't, leave you that is. It's only fair. After all the effort I've put in to finding the perfect quote to describe the exact emotion you put in my head, don't I deserve someone to do the same for me? Underneath all the "I'm glad I didn't die before I met you" s and the "The truth is I've never fallen so hard" s, there's a little girl, who wishes she could just take your hand and run away. I want to stand up on my tippy toes and kiss you gently on the cheek. I want your hand to reach down and push a lock of hair behind my ear. I want you to hold me, and cherish me, and love me. And only me. But, I know "I'm not your star" this time around. So here goes another day of away messages revolving around such topics as "The only broken hearted loser you'll ever need" and "I'm sick of writing every song about you". But you'll never know that "you" really is you. And your "you" will never be me.

DC = Don't Care


Rides a skateboard: DC

Dresses like a surfer: on

Dresses in all black: DC

Dresses nicely: DC

Plays a musical instrument: on

Sings songs: on

Is taller than you: on

has chapped lips: DC

Has brown eyes: DC

Has hazel eyes: DC

Has Blue eyes: on

Has Green eyes: on

has short hair: on

has no hair: DC

Drinks: DC

Smokes pot: off

smokes cigarettes: DC

has brown hair: ON

Has Black hair: ON

Has curly hair: ON

Has blonde hair: DC

Has long hair:DC

Works out: on

Smiles when you walk into the room: ONNN

Calls you just to say hi: ONNNN

Lets you know he was thinking about you: ON

Holds your hand: ON

Whispers in your ear: ON

Has facial hair: on

Wears makeup:OFF

Eyebrow piercing: DC

Lip piercing: DC

More than one ear piercing: on

Body Piercings: on

Has a birthmark: on

Talks dirty to you: on

Loves God: DC

Wants you to meet his family: DC

Doesnt party a lot: DC

Doesnt care about what ppl think about him: on

Believes in love at first sight: on

Loyal: ON

Laid back: ONNN

Rich: DC

Where do I start? So I am no longer dealing with Stevens shit, he is now dating this guy and I supposedly threatened him, and if I do it again ill get hit by a car. Yeah fucking right like that will happen HAHAHAHA. Also I have been talking to Josh now for a month and a half and he is a great guy. He is one of those people when you talk to them all you do is smile. So I basically want to take this somewhere. But anyways my life has had its ups and downs in the past couple of weeks. I have been dealing with stuff from everything to my father to my mom to Steven to Josh to my friends and much more. I don't know what I should do. I am soon going to be out on my own in this world and I need to get so much straightened out before I want to leave for college. I am having serious problems at my house and I basically just need to have that person there for me and I don't know if I have that and if I do it would be nice to know. So like I am having this quite kind of distance between a lot of people in my life and I am only talking to those people I care about because I just don't care about all of this bullshit now. People can move on with their lives shit changes I know but I am one that is in the intertwined mess of my past and I just don't know how to let go of stuff and it just lingers in my head like this massive web of chaos. Does that make any sense I don't know. I love so many but I push them so far away with my actions. I only can be me and I don't know what that really is. I can't just sit down and look at my life like a movie I wish I could and edit what I wanted to edit. So school basically blows I am behind in my work and I can't do this again I had a really good first semester and I want to keep it that way. But I have all of this stress in my life and I don't know how I can't help myself. I don't know if I need someone to help me with it? So I must say that I miss having someone I can sit down and talk to. I wish I could sit down with the one I care about and spill my guts because it would make me feel better yet I don't know what he is thinking and I am afraid. I have that problem of thinking too much and it always seems to be what's on my mind 24/7 these days. LOL!!!


So Basically I have been around thinking about my past and how to break free from it and move on I have bigger and better things out there to help me with my future. I don't need my past pulling me down.




I LOVE YOU BABE AND HOPE YOU WILL BE THERE FOR ME...

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual. (yes, this actually happened)

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person ashamed to tell my own friends im a lesbian, because they constantly make fun of them.

I am the boy tied to a fence, beaten to a bloody pulp and left to die because two straight men wanted to "teach me a lesson"

I am the gay male student that had to switch to another high school on my senior year, because I told my teachers that I was gay. One said that I was going to hell the other wanted to cure me.

i cant stop thinging of him its in my mind 24/7 god just please help me i need it i know i do bad things and cant take it back and im sry for it but i cant take this shit any more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what os up my fellow citizen I got wrote up at work today and it was not my fault . aint that some shit I was so mad and plus these girls I work with like talking about me in front of me like I am not there what kind of shit is that I am so mad right now it is not even funny plus the Guy at work he want to do that thing again and I told him no but he is not getting the picture oh yeah does anyone want to be my prom date lol lol lol I crack myself up.

Okay, so I made the 4-hour trip today from Cookeville to Cordova, the small bit of Shelby County that is still unincorporated by Memphis.  Things have been going well so far.  Naturally, that's all going to change tomorrow as we go to my dad's family's celebration of the Easter holiday.  I'm going to be in mental agony for the day as I deal with idiotic cousins, spoiled brat aunts and uncles, and an out-of-touch step-grandfather.  They're the kind of people that make me appreciate the morons of the world for their intelligence and coherent thought.  It is seriously that bad...my mental powers fade faster at these gatherings than while watching From Justin to Kelly (this, as you should know, was the movie that dropped my IQ score by upwards of 90 points).  Bleh.

slowly but surely...im moving on.

life is taking me for a ride....up on a mountain one minute then back down it the next...buts its life, thats how its suppost to be...right?

God...oh man...GOD is AMAZING! I can honestly say i dont know what i would do without Him....He is my EVERYTHING, and without Him i am NOTHING. He gets me through all the hard times and carries me to the good, and blesses me with some pretty darn AMAZING friends to help.<3

:::Just like this picture...one minute im on that mountain there to the left, then i fall back down in the water, then climb back up that mountain on the right....:::

So my surprise for Tyler went well, yay. I woke up around 7 and cleaned myself up, that was hard! It is no fun waking up early when you don't have school (or work). But yeah, I left my house around 7:45 and got to Tyler's around 8:30. His mom was outside and let me in. I walked in to find a half asleep Tyler, who looked muy confused when I walked in and yelled surprise! Lol, it was all good. We just kinda layed around all day and watched TV. He played the movies that he and Lynzi made, they were cute. We watched a pool tournament on TV. (We slept through some of it, too.) I left around 2:30 and pulled in to my house at like 3:20, not to bad of a drive. I was craving a sonic burger, so I went.

I fell asleep around 4 and didn't get up again till 8. I think that my drugs are working, woot. Speaking of working, I start my first day at Old Time Pottery tomorrow. I'm supposed to be trained the first hour and then I'll shadow someone the rest of the day. My hours are from 9-5. I get two 15 minute breaks and a 30 minute lunch break.

I am currently learning about pop culture. Tyler, and the amazing person that he is, typed up a lesson for me on pop culture which includes CD's. Maybe now I won't look totally confused at prom.

just when i thought all the drama was over i realized it was just the calm before the storm...

just when i thought all the drama was over i realized it was just the calm before the storm...

today has been pretty awesome.  i went to the mall with bronwyn and elizabeth and we tried on some prom dresses with a couple of other of their friends.(hopefully there will be pix)  and then we hung out at the mall.  so um...i was late to soccer practice by like half an hour. lol, whoops.  anyway, hope you all have enjoyed your day off!

So, today was pretty amazing! After practice and eating at Panera for only $1.95, I was taking Megan home, in which I almost left her at Panera. While taking her home, all of a sudden we see this car lose control, hit a trash can and literally flew off the road. It was scary! Then after that adventure, I went to church for our annual mime of the Passion. It was fun. We played frisbee and swung and just had a lot of fun. You haven't lived until you see Jesus play frisbee in New Balances and a loin cloth! I love our youth group so much and I am really going to miss everyone.

something that seem to be taking over everyone.

 the test- i stabbed it in the face and then i laughed
(translation- it was EASY for me....prob not for the rest of the class... but easy for me)

the doc- long story short - no ulcer - ibs- can eat whatever - had filet migon to celebrated for my tummy - going back for a test later

home - i love this place more than any other spot on the planet - went 4-wheeling and had a bubble bath--there's not much better

thanks.

so, i had an awesome Bible study with Debi and Rae this morning. i learned alot about Debi, Rae, myself, and God. Twas lovely.

Then Rae and I went shopping. We saw Elizabeth and her sisters which was great ^^

i had lunch at Rae's and then i went home

my mom and i went to Woodbury to look for dresses and pay for my cousin's tombstone

our car almost broke down on the way home

i went and saw Scary Movie 4 w/ Rae, Brady, Jackie, Linda, and Amanda.

do not go see SM4. rent it if u must but don't pay $7.50 for an hour of comedy you mostly saw in the commercials.

i love my mom.

"Move me
With all your might"
-Ayu

just came back from dress shopping. i believe that next year i shall get a dress the color blue that cinderella had and nearly the same make.  i am soon going to get a picture on here. i got a dress, its a cute black one, floor length.some time in the next twenty one days i will get a picture of it on here.

["I know all those sitters-and-talkers are going to worry their guts into fiddle strings until they find out what we've been talking about. That's all right, Phoeby, tell them . . . because my love doesn't work like their love, if they ever had any.

"Then you must tell them that love isn't something like a grindstone that's the same thing everywhere and does the same thing to everything it touches.

"Love is like the sea. It's a moving thing, but still and all, it takes its shape from the shore it meets, and it's different with every shore."]

-Zora Neale Hurston, Their Eyes Were Watching God

(It's in brackets because I translated it out of dialect.)

Horrible morning/afternoon:

Hence the angry post.

Dumb history test.

Wonderful evening/night:



A group of us from AO went to the McPhee's and hung out. Boy, do they know how to party!


P.S. For my friends who were planning to apply for Collage but have not sent in your application, please do so over the weekend if you're still interested and don't freak out about the letters. Just e-mail the application in and I'll talk with you about the letters if you have questions about them.

well guess what......can't figure it out......well lets see ummm.......don't have a  chance with the girl I had been talking about and really don't have any prospects for the near future.....bet you wouldn't guess how it happened......would you believe that another guy whom I thought was my friend goes and tells her that I am trying to get with another girl at the same time as I am trying to go out with her......yea people who know me best know I am not like that.....but w/e......yea ummm I just registered for classes this week I also changed my major.....it was very easy considering it is what I am basically planning my life around.....I mean you just go to the department you want to switch your major to and boom its done......I mean how much easier could it get?...they could make it where you can do it online but that would make it entirely too easy.....well I am working on Easter so I probably won't get to go to church so sorry everyone......I am working from 7 am till 3 pm and getting time and a half for it......so roughly translates to 12 hours of pay for 8 hours of work......but yea i am off peace out much love bye bye

hmmm have not posted in a while but here's a thought

Why does my mom hate anything that has to do with fantasy horror or anything else that i find interesting

so yeah i am totally bored. been doing some cleaning today. still didn't finish my room. 

well.....last night was our first scrimmage and WE WON!!!! it was very cool..... poor valerie got hit in the head- then the very next pitch- she slipped in the mud and fell on her butt...... she started laughing- but was still crying- it looked like it hurt real bad- i dunno wat the final score was- but we beat them by 2..... and the score was in the mid-teens- but neways..... have an AWESOME Easter... He died for You......

Jesus Paid it all

All to Him I owe.....

Sin had left a crimson stain,

He washed it white as snow.....

OH PRAISE THE ONE

WHO PAID MY DEBT

AND RAISED THIS LIFE

UP FROM THE DEAD!!!!!!!!

i love love love this song!!!!!!

Easter is not about the candy, or the bunnies, or anything else that we stupid humans came up with to replace the true meaning of another JESUS day..... our society has ruined every Jesus holiday with some type of worldly things..... but it is us Christians that know the TRUE meaning of Easter that can change the way people around us see it........

i love you all......<333

emily<>< 

okay. so i lied. i didn't break my knee. but this morning it sure felt like it. anyway. i'm getting my ipod fixed. pretty stoked about it. it's one of those old school ipods haha. it's retro fabulous.

and why is there not an edit button on the blog entries. it drives me nuts! i need an edit button.. ooh... just kidding..


= love


Leninade is real
i didn't make up although if i did i'd be the coolest kid on the block. wait.. i'm the coolest kid on the block anyway

today its going good finely any ways i've been thinking of this guy who died like 2-3years ago named jimmy it was so sad i cryed cause he was only 14years old and he didnt have along life after that happened i think life is so short i know i shoulden't but we ant promised tomorrow so i do ever thing at a young age i did stuff i shoulden't do until im 16-17 years old but i did it and cant take it back i cant change the past!!!!!!!!

An acquaintance of mine recently posed this statement, which got me to thinking...

"So you can be a complete jerk to people and still get to heaven as long
as you've "accepted Jesus" but a person who has lived and loved and
cared forever and never been exposed to Jesus is doomed? Sounds
backwards..."

to this question, I responded as such, which I think makes for a good Biblically-based answer, if any of you were wondering or curious about the same topic.

Ephesians 2: 8-9: "For it is by grace you have been saved, through
faith—and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works,
so that no one can boast."

This is simply stating that you are
saved by the grace of God only, nothing that we ourselves do can give
us salvation. Jesus further established that we cannot do anything to
gain salvation in John 14:6: "Jesus answered, "I am the way and the
truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." Only
through Jesus can we gain salvation

The Bible does not leave us with that only though, it also states the two greatest commandments of the new law in Matthew...

Matthew
22: 34-40: "Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the
Pharisees got together. One of them, an expert in the law, tested him
with this question: "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the
Law?" Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and
with all your soul and with all your mind.'This is the first and
greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as
yourself.'All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

The
second being to love your neighbor as yourself. This is also repeated
by Paul to the Galatians in Galatians 5:14. Lamen's terms: be a good
person to all people. The Bible does discuss thoroughly the importance
of maintaining a Christian (definition: belonging to Christ) witness.
This part of the relationship with Christ is often forgotten by those
who play the "convenient Christian" role, in which they conveniently
forget to act as a Christian should, according to the Bible, and this
leads to a large misunderstanding of the responsibilities of being a
Christian.

In Galatians 6:10a it says this: "Therefore, as we
have opportunity, let us do good to all people." The verse goes on to
say more specifically to do good to other believers, but the statement
clearly notes to do good to ALL people, which is a responsibility of
Christians.

Hypocrits also ruin the responsibilities and causes
misunderstandings of what the responsibilities of a born-again
Christian are.

In addition, Jesus stated in John 14:23-24a that
those who love Him will obey His teachings. "Jesus replied, "If anyone
loves me, he will obey my teaching. My Father will love him, and we
will come to him and make our home with him. He who does not love me
will not obey my teaching."

So, to answer your question in more
detail, you can only be saved by faith, but that is not the extent of
God's plan for Christians, nor the responsibilities of a Christian.


::b

so i painted in the youth rom for three hours and now im bored and want something to do

something to do outside and with friends

anyone up for a picnick dinner at castle park?

Surprisingly, I'm still half decent :-)

Paralyzed Girl Forgives Shooter in Court


By DENISE LAVOIE, AP

BOSTON (April 14) - Five-year-old Kai Leigh Harriott sat in the front
of the courtroom in her wheelchair and looked directly at the man
who had just pleaded guilty to firing the shot that paralyzed her

At first, she broke down, crying harder than she ever had since
the night nearly three years ago when Anthony Warren fired three
rounds at the house where she was sitting on a porch.

After a sip of water and some consoling from her mother, Kai
spoke.

"What you done to me was wrong," she said to the man seated
just 10 feet away. "But I still forgive him."

Warren, 29, of Boston, had been scheduled to go to trial on six
assault and weapons charges last month. He instead pleaded guilty
to all charges Thursday.

Prosecutors say Warren, his brother and others had an argument
with people who lived on the first floor of the three-family house
where Kai lived with her family. They left, then Warren returned
around 11 p.m. on July 1, 2003, and fired three rounds at the
house.

One of the bullets hit Kai - then 3 years old - as she sat on a
third-floor porch with an older sister. The bullet shattered her
spine, permanently paralyzing her from the chest down.

After his guilty plea, the girl, her mother and two sisters gave
emotional statements to Judge Margot Botsford, who then sentenced
Warren to 13 to 15 years in prison and five years' probation.

04/14/06 06:30 EDT

you jump, i jump, right?

i want the romance, i want the connection, i want the secret story.

i want to risk it all to save the man i love. to brave drowning, tempt death at the very least for him to hold me one last time.

and the vivid memories that live in your head for the rest of your existence, holding on for dear life the one that you'd give your life for.

taking his name, holding his memory, keeping him in your heart for eternity.

and hearing the music fade in as you know you are in complete and honest love.

i want a titanic romance....

good friday! not only a day off of school but i time to reflex. WOW! we actually get a day out for a christian holiday! so yea Today during the day i have thought, "self, where would jesus be in the process at this hour." So today besides your homework you are doing (yeah right) take some time and reflex on what Christ has done for you. I like the words of a message i got on myspace, "When Jesus was on the cross..... You were on his mind!" It so cool to know that when Jesus was on the cross he had you, me, Osama, Saddam, and everyone else on his mind. HE DIED FOR ME!!

They took Jesus, therefore, and He went out, bearing His own cross, to the place called the Place of a Skull, which is called in Hebrew, Golgotha. 18There they crucified Him, and with Him two other men, one on either side, and Jesus in between. Pilate also wrote an inscription and put it on the cross. It was written, "JESUS THE NAZARENE, THE KING OF THE JEWS." Therefore many of the Jews read this inscription, for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city; and it was written in Hebrew, Latin and in Greek.So the chief priests of the Jews were saying to Pilate, "Do not write, 'The King of the Jews'; but that He said, 'I am King of the Jews.'" Pilate answered, "What I have written I have written." Then the soldiers, when they had crucified Jesus, took His outer garments and made four parts, a part to every soldier and also the tunic; now the tunic was seamless, woven in one piece. So they said to one another, "Let us not tear it, but cast lots for it, to decide whose it shall be"; this was to fulfill the Scripture: "THEY DIVIDED MY OUTER GARMENTS AMONG THEM, AND FOR MY CLOTHING THEY CAST LOTS."          

                                                                      - John 19:17-24

top photo courtesy of John Barron

Beautiful day today!!!
Not sure why I did this, but anyway....

RIGHT NOW
are you cold?: a little
are you hot?: no
is your hair up?: nope. down
are your shoes black? i'm not wearing shoes
are you wearing pajamas?: no
is your cell phone right next to you?: haha, I
don’t have a cell phone.

are you watching tv?: no
are you mad at someone/something?: no
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
are you wearing makeup?: ummm.no
are you wearing chapstick?: nope
what are your plans for tonight: Movie night
are you tired?: Kinda

are you excited?: about….?


RANDOM

whens the last time you ate: I have no idea

is your bed comfy?: yah

is your phone on vibrate?: I don’t
have one
whats the 2nd letter of your first name?: a
whats the last thing you said?: Doing a little
survey thingy

last song you sang: I realize
whens the last time you laughed?: No Idea
want ice cream?: um, yeah!
how old were you 4 years ago? 10

PAST
done anything you regret?: yeah
ever broke a bone?: nope!
ever lied?: let me think….yes.
ever stuck gum under a desk?: no

ever spit at someone?: probably
ever kicked something living?: yup
ever trip over your own feet?: lol. yes
ever had your nails done?: no
ever had a hangover?: nope!


YESTERDAY

Did you get in a fight with your mom?: no
Did you watch TV?: I think so
Did you drive a car?: no
Did you eat pizza for dinner?: no
Did you take a shower?: yes
Who did you hang out with?: the Grays and my
family
Did you go to sleep at 10pm? no


TODAY

Did you brush your teeth?: yes
Did you wash your face?: yes
Did you go to school?: nope
Did you have homework? yes
What did you eat for lunch?: nothing
Name one person you saw today: Isaiah
One horrible thing about today: I had to do
filing

TOMORROW

What time will you get up?: probably around 7:30

Will you go to school?: no
Will you shower?: yeah
Where will you eat lunch?: who knows
Will you see your mom?: no
Will you go to Starbucks?: no.
Will you go to work?: go to work? no
Is there one certain show you have to watch?: no

Don't forget what he did for you today!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't forget the pain, hurt, rejection, humility, and ultimately the sentence of death.    FOR YOU

FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR YOU, FOR U, FOR U, FOR U, FOR U.

 DON'T FORGET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HIS BLOOD COVERS US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD

AND HE ROSE AGAIN...

Which Disney Princess Are You?

Belle

You are bookish but incredibly pretty. Belle was first seen in Beauty and the Beast (1991)

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity.

Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly

Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

Date

Synonyms for patience: long-suffering, resignation, forbearance
These nouns denote the capacity to endure hardship, difficulty, or inconvenience without complaint. Patience emphasizes calmness, self-control, and the willingness or ability to tolerate delay.

What is patience? What does it take? Patience takes self-control. That is something I need alot of in my life right now. So many times, we want something NOW. That is the way we are built to think. Me me me me now now now. I have to have that NOW. But, if we are patient, things work out better in the long run, and even better so if there is alot of prayer and devotion involved. Why? Because this is God's will for us in Christ Jesus. I think the hardest answer to a prayer is not when God says no, but when he says WAIT. Gaahhhhh just thinking about it makes me impatient. God has great things in store for us, but it isn't His will to give them to us until we are mature enough. Maturity is a thing that is very hard to show as well. But once we truly  begin to show some maturity and dedication in our walk with the Lord, we start to get it right. We start to see things God's way. And then we get God's attention. We let him know that we are serious about something when we put alot of dedication, time, and most importantly PRAYER into something. So what does it take? Time + Devotion + Self-Control + Maturity = Patience, which ultimately ends with God giving you the desires of your heart (if the desires are right, that is).These were just some thoughts i've been having. Since I want to be a journalist someday, I like to write stuff down, as you can tell. I wish everyone a great Good Friday. Never forget what he did for you, on this day.

In Christ,
          Garrett Daniel

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♥hope your having a GOOD, GOOD FRIDAY lovesss♥

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thanks. ♥

so basically, I ♥ YOU!! =]

hello. the picture i wanted to put on here wont work but it was the one from band camp. i have my first A in english this six weeks.

here's a few more pictures:

        

     my cousin Campbell

 my little sister, Paige

You left something undone, it's now your rerun
It's the one you can't erase
You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
To put a smile back on your face
You fall away from your past
But it's following you
You fall away
Something I've done that I can't outrun
Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
But there's something you've said that can't be undone-the fray

this song it just...fits
in a way
in a celia way

last night was fun
on the phone
i think i have a date with him
finally
haha

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test- then doctor- then home.

prayers appreciated.

hopefully no more rice cause i want a steak like no other.

YES 3 DAY WEEKEND! NO SCHOOL FOR ME!!!!!  so today....im gonna go to the mall with some of my bestest friends in the whole wide world!

i think that i broke my knee. or seriously injured it. and i'm not exactly sure how. 

I can't go to Bonnaroo this year and I want to go to
the Rites of Spring festival next Friday and Saturday... I may only go
Saturday considering it's the day Ben Folds is playing.  $40 for both
days and 25 for one.  both start @ 3.  talk to me and let me know if
you want to go.

www.ritesofspring.com

    When you change a tire be sure to tighten it REALLY GOOD. Otherwise the holes in the rim will get bigger and bigger till the rim just comes off over top of the lugs. Not fun at all. Especially when you have a car on the trailer that the tire fell off of.
    I think that I missed the flag football sign ups. I thought that they would be after arena football, but the games apparently have already started. Bummer.
    Trilogy practice tonight and tomorrow night. Everyone should come see this last one. It is on sunday at 8:30am, 11am, and 6pm
    For those who were wondering this is Mr. Green

well prom is two weeks from tomorrow and im so excited it is going to be so much fun now what we are doing after prom im not sure some people want to go to after prom some people want to go to a friends house for a little refreshments *cough cough* lol and im not sure wha else so what well actually do i dont know but i dont really care either way well ne way lifes going pretty good not much to complain about except the fact that i always feel broke but hardly spend any money is that retarded or what i dont maybe i should keep up with what i do spend better idk

"So if you care to find me
look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Everyone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo
at least I'm flying free!
To those who'd ground me
take a message back from me.
Tell them how I am
defying gravity.
I'm flying high
defying gravity.
& soon I'll match them in renown
& nobody in all of Oz,
No Wizard that there is or was
is ever gonna bring me down!"

I'm about to do the scariest thing in the world....
[i.e. Call GWU and say "Yeah, so um I applied there and I'd really like to know what happened with that so I can figure out whether to resign myself to a life of normalcy or not."  Or something to that effect.]

But why can't I touch the phone??

ARG!

Help....

[2 seconds later] --> AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I dialled the number I found online for the admissions office.  It rings.  And rings.  And rings some more.  [Hah, try to dissuade me!  I'll show you!  I'll stay on here FOREVER!!  Foreverrrrrrrrrrr.]  Finally, it picks up.  Eureka!  There is a god!!

"Hi, this is Marty Fehver with Combat Emergent Services. You have reached my cell phone --" *CLICK*

*Wahhhhhhh*  I'm afraid.  What the hell is Combat Emergent Services?!  They've probably already traced the call here.  Better lock the doors and get the shotguns out.  [Speaking of shotguns, my mother received mail from the NRA.  Something about a renewal membership, though she claims she's never had one.  Thus, she has rarely been out of my sight lately.  None can be trusted.... *Shifty eyes*  At least she hasn't taken out life insurance on me yet.]

so i officially have a ton to do today.

and all before noon-ish.

and she's off to start the day...

yay today i have the day off!!!!!woot woot!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am sooooo happy^^

might be going to kay's house later

and and i have to run to the store around nine to get a posterboard>>

fucked fuck.....
yeah i know that look odd...lol

well everyone have an awesome easter later

          president

Ok . Life is hard, so you gotta get through it.

So you might as well get through it with not just your friends

and family but with God. Recently I think I was going a little over

board about something, and sometimes, its best not to speak

about things , and let God lead you and I pray that I

have ears to hear and listen to what he is telling me, and words to

speak . Thats what people like myself need to go over in my head,

before I speak.So ... I hope everyones day tomorrow is fabulous

and that you walk the way God would want you to .

in christ

sent in my honors stuff.  e-mailed registration info.  cap meeting.  filed fafsa. cap and gown are coming next week.  its almost here.  17 high school days.  im graduating kids.  ive been so ready for so long.  now its here.  & its freaking me out in the most exciting terrifying wonderful amazing shocking way possible.

I am in love with Just Surrender.

You could ask me a billion timez why and I would have absolutely no idea. So this year, I have decided to actually do the end of the year test. Aye. thatz a surprise, compared to last year, when I took the Math test. I copied A-Buch and we had different testz. thatz how sad it was. But I didn't pay attention in that class. nobody did. and guess what. I still fricken passed. so. yea. but this year, I'm deffinetley doing it myself.

I never use this thing anymore... :[

bleah.

at the zoo... these monkeys do not have personal space issues



animal not at the zoo...



fun times girls! ... funny and talented. i just want to bottle that up...  and dance to outkast in washington square park and be asian for a day. oh wait...

this is pretty much amazing............

noone is on so i can talk to them and be bombarded with crazy im screens and have alot of fun carrying on 20 conversations at once.............

this makes me very sad...........................:'{

sup yall

I got a speech class on TR at 9:40. It's amazing how what you want is closed but within two minutes, someone drops the class allowing you to retrieve it. I really like my schedule now: MWF, I start at 9:10 and get out at 11:15 with Astronomy and History. On Wednesdays, I have a lab in the afternoon. TR, I start at 8:00 with Spanish, go directly to speech, get a two hour break to eat/hang out/study, and then go to sociology. I'm done at 2:25. That's so much nicer than getting out at almost 4:00.

Official Plans For Saturday Evening: We're going to meet at Old Fort Park at 5:30 in the area where the pavilions are. Bring a blanket ((to eat on. this is a picnic, mind you)) and $5 for food. Depending on how many come, you may not have to pay that much, but bring it just in case. We're having KFC. Graham and Amy said they have a deal where you can get a bucket with three different types of chicken and two sides for around $15, and we're getting two of them. PLEASE tell me through here, facebook, or phone if you're coming so I can make sure we have an adequat amount of food.

So everyone seems to be
talking about the new kid

but he's MY neighbor

so.... i win O_O

If you could spend a whole day doing EXACTLY what you want to do, instead of what you have to or should do, what would you do? 

I'd sleep late.  Then I'd get dressed in something sloppy and comfortable and poke around the house drinking coffee and checking my e-mails and phusebox.  Then I'd wander outside and do some yard work  Plant, mow, cut limbs, rake, clean out the pond - that kind of stuff.  Then I'd sweet talk Randy into taking me for a nice long motorcycle ride on a curvy road in the country.  Then I'd take a long hot bath and read my book until the water started getting cold.  After that I'd crash in front of the TV with whoever happened to be around and spend the rest of the evening hanging out with the people I love.

Hmmm... sounds FABULOUS!  Won't happen this weekend but I'm off work on Monday and there's next weekend... I'll have to work on a plan!

Some of the boards for next year positions in ROTC were this week.  I din't go before any of them; I'm going to next week, though.  So far here are they are:

BNCO: Michael Thoe

BNXO: Nina Meins

CSM: Jamie Fields

S-1: Sarah Vermillion

S-2: Steven Harris

S-3: Autumn Boyton

S-4: Jennifer Goodson

S-5: Trish Fusco

today the senior's had a meeting which was totally about after prom and they gave away prizes today in little paper chests. which on the stage where you saw the beach scene with the palm trees and etc... yes brigette helped paint that. (: smile and say wow! you're great! :P

anyways we got little treasure chests when we left which had bubbles and beads and bubble gum coins and i pirate eye patch. :P (which ayla smacked herself in the face with! ha!) it was cute.

but so me and this girl, named falon, had a bubble war with the cuban in our fourth period. lol she is the coolest. but she is strange. she eats like hot fries... everyday.. almost. :P yeah shes weird.

so i was totally going to put a picture of justin on here and talk about him but he said no because he was too bashful. (: i love him hes such a good best friend. its a nice picture too. i won't tell you what we were joking about... but, i'll tell you it had to do with me reading my porno-for-girls-books. :D

tomorrow im going to lay out in the back yard naked and tan..

:P no not naked. gotcha! lol.

now im gonna sit back and listen to Michael Buble` and relax.. (:

e'er'body ready for the easter bunny?