i looove my sb

yes i do yes i do

ok

sooo i never write in here i just realized...so i thought i would:)

well, another day has come and gone and nothing majorlly important has happened. i am still confused in math and it is annoying the heck out of me. in english we r still reading huck finn and i hate when jim talks b/c i don't understand half of the typing.  ho hum, oh well.

Yep, it's that time of year again.  That time when Oaklands nerdiest and most perverted load up on a bus and head out to some distant school to compete in a series of competitions that gauge our skill, talent, and total lack of actually having real lives.

That's right.  Tennessee Junior Classical League state convention!  Woooooooooohoooooooooo!  Oakland's biggest Latin losers are loading up and shipping out to Rossview High School in Clarksville for two days.

This year the lineup is:  Sean Holden, James Holder, Cora Rowland, Ella Strawman, Sarah Vermillion, and William West representing for Latin 2.  And Michael Thoe for Latin 3.

That's it.  Not joking.  Seven people.  Six 2's and one 3.  We actually had a 1 and another 3 going, but they couldn't make it.

Hahahaha....  Can't wait.  If it's anything like last year, there will be lots of card playing, eating, dirty joke making, test failing, and cross-dressing.  I even made a CD so that "Seandra" and "Jasmina" have a variety of dance songs to pick from.

Oh yeah - JCLers.  Our t-shirts?  Look like CRIZNAP.  We totally botched them.  There were a lot errors on the shirt and Denn-Dogg accidentally approved the artwork before they were corrected.

Anyways. It's 10 PM.  I have yet more laundry and packing and shiz to do.  Later, all!

IM SIXTEEN.... there is no difference... ugh not fair!

and yes that is the FIRST pic of me bieng 16.....

love you all, meag

ps i miss my best friend.... alot

So today was overall pretty good.

NAI Grand Nationals are saturday and i am really excited. not sure how we are going to do but hopefully ::crosses fingers:: we will do great.

Going to get a summer job. dont know where yet.

Pictures should be in soon within the next day or two. and i want to see them.

The Patriot Players Present:

The Wizard of Oz

 at Oakland Highschool Theatre

Thursday, Friday, & Saturday at 7:00 pm
& Sunday at 2 pm

PLEASE COME SEE IT! I promise it's going to be one of the BEST shows you've ever seen! &.. I'm also a munchkin.. hahaha.. if that's not a reason to come see the play then I don't know what is!

NO. It's not going to happen.....

...........

It's just can't.....

what bugs you? 

for me, one of the things that bugs me is when people just sign off aim with out letting you say good bye.  its like theyre hanging up on you and saying "i dont want to talk to you, leave me alone"

also...please remember the golden rule. and treat each day like you were dying, so that you have no regrets.  either if its that "what if" or "i shouldnt have done that"

How is it that I can be so critical about love and relationships, and I find myself suddenly doing the very thing I have criticized others of?

It's nothing bad or anything, but I practically passed out running from Peck Hall to the KUC after reading a text message from Amonett. Lol, now that I think about it, I'm pretty humored by it.

Love, or in this case, a small crush, can make one do some idiotic stuff.

But is it worth it? Who knows.

nathan oughta be able to answer this one, but i want to hear what ayll have to say too.

the most remarked blog for the day had 22 remarks when i saw it. so i decieded to look and see what it was all about. when i looked at the remarks i noticed how probably 18 of those 22 were by the guy who posted the blog.

so the question is:

does it really count as the most remarked post of the day if the one who wrote post remarks on it him or herself?

 seems kinda foolish to me.

just a thought

piece

so it's practically
"fo-twenny" and
everyone's lost
his head............

i think it must
be my job to
find it for them.

for my life to be good. Last night was so horrible. My heart was broken by the guy i loved most but  you know every good thing must come to an end.  But right now i have this new guy that i do like and i have liked him for a little while but no one knew that.  My friend decided to tell him today that i liked him which was cool cause i think that he likes me too.  His name is Jacob and who knows what could happen. later

So yeah,

My band, Sound Presidential,  is going to be recording on the 28th of May. The final product is going to have six songs on it and two of them are only going to be played once, if that before we record it so a couple of these songs are brand freakin' new. Hoepfully we'll get a bigger name in Murfreesboro because of it....at least I hope so. But I have faith that it's going to be a lot better than some people might think it will be.

Well, that's about it. Let me know what you think....or just leave a random pointless comment, I don't care.

-Marshall

HEY YA'LL WHATS UP,ME NOTHING MUCH JUST CHILLIN' WELL ANYWAYS MY COUSIN STARTED GOING TO SIEGAL YESTERDAY, SO FAR HE LIKES IT BUT MY LITTLE BROTHER WILL BE GOING THERE NEXT YEAR. ANYWAYS I DID JUST HAVE A BOYFRIEND BUT HE WAS CHEATING SO I HAD TO BREAK UP WITH HIM ,LOVE STINK. WELL I WAS JUST GIVING AN UPDATE ON WHATS BEEN HAPPENING SO FAR SO UNTIL THEN TOMORROW HOLLA.

P.S.

I THINK THAT I'M GOING TO GIVE UP ON DATING FOR A WHILE BECAUSE EVERY GUY THAT I GO WITH CHEATS AND I REALLY DON'T BE FEELING THAT.

well i didnt go to school yesterday...i was "sick". i went with travis to get his tux, show him where proms going to be, and get the corsage (?). it was fun...proms next week! ahhh! im so excited! so far everything ive dreamed prom would be has happened or atleast ive been told its gonna happen...the traditonal prom night...minus the cliche' end...you know..hotel...lol. but yeah....prom!!! ahhh!! lol.

Here is this year's video to the coaster contest.

I love the rain!!!

Today is the best I walked out of my house this morning and sat on my porch drinking coffee and watching the rain. It  is so awesome its like it just cleans the earth like nothing else can. I enjoy just watching it as much as I like running out and just standing in it. I like hearing the thunder and watching the lightning when i go outside. The rain is so awesome!!!!

so that last entry was pretty interesting huh?..chemistry class missed me...:-)

let  me paint you a picture of what im doing at "school" right now...the room is dark and the door to outside is wide open with a nice breeze comin in...a movie is playing...im listening to slowdive.. and writing to you.

i guess what im really trying to say is that school is a complete waste of time and i really would love love love to be done...yesterday i spent the whole day walking around mtsu...it was pretty nice. the art building was really fun, but (im sure ive said this a thousand times) i just feel  so at home there because i truly know what it is that i want to do ...i want to be a silly girl in college covered in paint ..doing something that i truly love..

ah. i guess itll come sooner than i think..but for now..ill sit in a spanish class, listen to music and daydream about where my life might go..

-kels

un jour la défectuosité connaissent votre puits de visage ainsi que ma brosse n'aura pas besoin de mes yeux

je veux seulement

d'etre moi et

d'etre content

avec moi-meme

 et ma vie.

"Again, I'm afraid of
something small and insignificant.
In trying to hide that fear
I'm showing my habit of feigning strength.

You come up next to me
and talk about nonsense.
You're trying, despite your
clumsiness, to encourage me.

This must be how
it'll be for us.

*Looking up and smiling slightly,
gazing at the sky,
tiring of running we walk a little.
Just like that... are you ready?

One by one, little by little, see?
We leave behind footprints.
They form one path,
they form now.

It can't be only
good times ahead, but...

It seems like I need you
and if you need me
then we don't really need a reason.
These days aren't bad at all, are they?

*repeat

It seems like I need you
and if you need me
then we don't really need a reason.
These days aren't bad at all, are they?"
-Ayu (independent)

I love this song, cause it explains just how much god loves if only we could see that its like this song is looking at gods grace.It remeinds me when I want to give up that god is there.

 Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

asdjkd.
uhm..
BUTT SEX?
-raises eybrow-

stress.

taking.

over.

i already wanna nap and i've only been up one hour.

Hitomi wo fuseru to sugu kiete shimaisou de.Hakidashite shimatta kodoku no kehai no kazu wo tada kazoete ita. Kawaita jikan no naka de,oboreteru mogaiteru kokoro memi ga suru kurai no uso wo uketomete hikisaita.Soshite wastashi ga mayoikomu no wa usuyami no sekai.

My flesh patterns my spirit,
And I'll prove it.
Have you ever had a lingering love?
Like a distrust of divinity, or that mistake you made?
Did you lose sleep over it?
Did you try to solve, but the other won't return your calls for help?
What would you do?
Cause I've lied and lied around
To make this seem better,
Hid from people my feelings,
Expressed interest in unworthy things
Cause I'll leave this place and return home
To deal with both situations staring me in the face.

Seeing as how I'm working on adding friends to the "friend box", I think I deserve a few interpretations of this piece. What do you think?

**Edit**To you I've asked a favor, don't take everything really personally persay, or extremist, just explain your emotions about this piece.  The author of this poem realizes his own fallible nature and bias, even in writing what he writes.  What do you think?

Sweet Chariot by Charlotte Martin

Wild Horses by Charlotte Martin

^^ two songs that have and do make me cry^^

shes got the most amazing voice EVER.

i think part of my crying is how she sings the lyrics.

I read a poem in English today...it was really sweet..I think it was called your laughter. It's my new favorite.

"Ode to joy, my lover boy's speaking in tongues
And the sky's bleeding gray
Now I pull my bag of prayers out
I hope to find one to save the day

And he judged my love, my lust
My taste with the straightest face
As I crumple up inside
A papier-mache, a shell with no name

Sweet chariot
Come, come, take me away from my fear
Sweet chariot
Come, I have to get out of here"

"I watched you suffer
A dull aching pain
And now you've decided
To show me the same

No sweeping exits
Or offstage lines
Could make me feel bitter
Or treat you unkind

And wild horses couldn't drag me away
And wild horses couldn't drag me away."

ahahah i look stupid.

So let's see..last time I blogged last was Saturday? So here it goes.

Easter was on Sunday (duh) so I had two services to play for at church, there was an hour and a half between them, so I went home and took a nap. I have all the pizzas out of my fridge, finally. I went to work around 12:45. I met some other the other cashiers, they are all nice and willing to help, work is enjoyable. There is the one girl (Jamie) who is ghetto, and utterly histarical. We talked about obiestity (sp?) in today youth, teen pregnancy , as well as spending 10 minutes talking about hand sanitizer. Again, as customer or two would chime in, lol. For my lunch break I went to sonic and got a slushie, played sudoku, and just relaxed, it was nice. Left around 7:30, yay.

Monday I was very tired. English was...uh, she passed out papers and then we just sat around the rest of the time. I hate being in classes where I don't do anything. We learned about minor chords in music theory- I wish we would move on to harder stuff. But yeah, enough of school. I gave a trombone player a lesson about good practice habbits and how to develope a nice high range without working as hard. It was nice.

Radu cancelled my lesson, I was a little bummed. I didn't get to see Tyler either...because of reasons, I was bummed again. Hopefully, I have found a way to help Tyler out with lessons. Seeing him would be great, but I would love it more to see him taking lessons with the guy he wants to- hopefully that will happen. On the subject of Tyler, we didn't really have a great night last night. I guess it started with "what if" kinda questions, but it didn't go well. Thank you Abby and Matt for offering your support if I asked for it.

I went to see him today though, during and after his band practice. I stopped and got him a beautiful tie-dyed rose because I felt really bad. He is an amazing boy, if you don't realize it, you should. We went to his house so he could change clothes and put his flower in some water. We just kinda drove around and talked- which talking is good. I took a picture of the sun behind some clouds as it was going down, it was amazing. We returned to his casa, his momma made us supper, and it was really good! We sat on the couch and talked some more, about last night and other things. I'm possitively sure that we're ok. After dinner we went outside and swang on his swing, it was cute. I haven't done that in years. The sister joined us. We also just sat on the grouned and looked at the stars- that is pure romance right there. As far as college goes, we both know we won't get to see each other often, which is sad. Everything logical is saying we won't last, but I'm certain we will. We have something special, which can't easily be broken, and we're both going to try to keep it that way.

He took me back to my car and explained for me how to get back home. So here I am, eating some mini-cheese burgers.

Then end.

well... i guess its about time for an update.  it just feels like im so busy now that i havent had time for anything.  and hopefully im not so busy that i might be distancing myself with some of my friends.  but i guess that can also be a good thing.  in a way. 

but i dont know.  it just seems like a lot is going on right now in a few of my friends life.  and ive never been through any of it.  so what do i say.  i mean, im always here for them, and im praying for them.  but i just wish there was a physical thing i could do, just to make some of them smile.  just for one second.  aaahhh that would be great.  i know for myself that God challenges us.  but its sometimes so hard to see your friends going through a rough time, and not seeing God in it at all.  and then they ask the question.  WHERE IS GOD IN ALL THIS?  you know the feeling, right when it comes out of their mouth.  then what?  do u just say o well he is there, i know he is. and everything will work out on its own.  yea, that might trick a few people, but i just wish there was a way for some of my brothers and sisters to see God.  face to face, and it seems like some of them are just slipping away. we all are.  i just pray that you dont get in the attitude of doing things tomorrow.  finish them today.  stop right now, and turn ur eyes to God.  he has been there this whole time.  i dont know, ive just been a little broken seeing some of my closest friends drift away.  and i really dont enjoy that.  but God is God, and whatever happens, we must give him praise.  because it is coming from God.  so it is good. 

It is well, with my soul, it is well, it is well, with my soul. 

i've decided that i'm going to write a story.

my story.

the one of senior year. with the drama, cap and gown orders, fights, relationships, secrets, stupidity, lies, smiles, disappointments, triumphs, laughs, crying fits, random trips to whoknowswhere, bonding with people i barely know, pictures galore, and that little moment at the end of the day where i lay my head on my pillow and thank God he didnt pass me up on learning experiences.

my title?

"Welcome to the Fall"

**edit**

I came back to school yesterday about 2:30 and sat in the theatre. watching everyone run around painting this, fixing that, explaining how this and that works. alone in the theatre audience. and it took everything not to cry.

 my role has changed from the actress to the audience.

I finally got a cell phone lol. A big step in the life of Garrett Haynes. I guess it was about time though. Message me and i'll give u my number. Peace.

- Garrett

Hello All.

I set up my senior picture appointment today. June 30 @ 1:30.

SO what's new. nothin much here. i nominated my mom for that khols shopping spree for mother's day that is rapidly approaching. school is comming to an end.

a year a go the 20th would have been when just started Dating Allen. he's in my photobox. 

Have a 100 in Geography! i am estatic.

so i'm way too excited that jamie cullum's coming to nashville this summer and i might get to go. =)  yaya.

*dances*

need to study.

oh, and lemme explain this..

that was just to inform everyone how hot it was the other day.

so yeah.

have a nice day. time to study so i can kick some bootay or somethign. yay.

<3<3<3

sometimes it doesn't matter if you have to be up at six the next morning to go to work. sometimes it doesn't matter if you will be half-asleep all day. sometimes you would rather lose that hour and a half of sleep to talk to someone b/c u miss them even if you just saw them that morning. sometimes they are all you think about all day. and sometimes they are what gets you through your day.

Look how weird my evil cat is! Evil little bastard...yet so cute when sleeping!

So today has been interesting and fun. I won't go into much details.

I'm at work right now and bored to death. I have to close tonight...by myself.

I have a lot coming up.

And I keep getting so much stuff from MTSU in the mail and none of it makes that much sense so I'm going to the Business Office tomorrow to sort everything out. Fun.

My Marybeth

"White Houses" - Vanessa Carlton

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bungalow with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day

Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
Beer through the nose on an inside joke
I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
Summer's all in bloom
Summer is ending soon

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses

Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's cracked leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last

It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses

My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake

Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses

And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I"m never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life

We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

Never Alone - barlow girl

arggg... its not much fun.  but the songs spells it out so well.

So...

ive decided that i wanna go to Bonaroo this year!

Radiohead, Beck, Death Cab for Cutie, Bright Eyes, Damian Marley, Ben Folds, and My morning jacket are just a few of the performers that are gonna be there! that would be amazing to go..just the whole experience would be...but i doubt my parents will be too up for me goin..but who knows..

How much do i love Lestat? so much

Hugh Panaro is my hero.

"I LOVE KATIE HOLMES! I LOVE KATIE HOLMES!"

WSS rehearsal tonite and tomorrow and Friday and Saturday  *sigh* letz get it together, ppl...

I got a 33 on the ACT!! 

It's really ironic, too, because English is my best section and science has always been my worst, but this time I went down a point in English but got a freaking 36 on the science section ---- how?!?!  I don't know.  But I raised my sceince score nine points, and I didn't even study.

I'm hoping this will be enough to warrant a new cell phone...my green-screen, no text messgae, no camera, no ringtone phone with teeth marks in it is getting pretty old....

Yeah - excitement.

So I remember an instance from elementary school when the lights went out. In a twist of fate, however, one of my classmates had randomly felt like she should pack her flashlight that day. So we had a flashlight in class while the lights were out!

Flash forward to yesterday. I randomly felt compelled to put my iTrip in my purse, thinking that I should store it in my car in case I ever want to listen to my iPod while driving. I mean, that is why I had gotten the thing. So, I put it in my purse and what do you know, EMC class rolls around and a guy asks a question about if the FCC has to approve the FM transmitters that people use with their iPods. Dr. O'Neal said that something about FCC approval should be on there. Wow, I realized, I had my iTrip in my purse! So I took it out and looked at it, and low and behold, there is a FCC ID on the sucker. Wow. Now you know!

It's really cool how our seemingly random actions and the timing of everything we do is planned out by God. Have you ever thought of that? In fact, this morning I was driving to school and at a certain spot it was backed up. It was a wreck scene they were trying to clean up and part of me wondered if I had been there a few minutes sooner, could that have been me? And I don't mean that to sound paranoid, but thigns like that sometimes really get me to thinking...

God always knows what we need, and He provides. And that's really awesome. This is something I am really trying to live by the semester winds up here and I'm starting to feel the pressure of final grades and the impact they will have in some of classes (because I have a borderline A/B in a few of them). God knows all though, and that's comforting to me.

I'm getting a new digital camera & I'm buying it with my own money. I'm independent. it's a strive to be my own person & being able to take care of myself. is this right?

I frustrate myself. I blame myself for everything; all my heartbreaks, all the bad stuff going on. I almost feel superstitious sometimes about it. it's a work in progress. is this right?

I want to be content more than anything. it's like my new obsession; being happy. I feel like I'm forcing myself to be that way, but I want it to come naturally. it's a struggle taking it's sweet time. is this right?

I'm not content just being his friend. these feeling are starting to get really annoying & tiresome. I just want to help him, but he doesn't realize that's my decision. I pray & plead "help me help him," but for some reason I can't & that annoys the fire out of me. is this right?

I say I hate drama, but it continually presents its ugly self right in front of me. I'm starting to think that maybe everybody was right. maybe I am the cause of it. there I go; blaming myself for things again. is this right?

I'm sick of wanting something I can't have & not being satisfied with where I am. I'm here for a freaking reason, right? so why can't I see the beauty in it? God doesn't like it when His children hurt, right? & He's never gonna give us more than we can handle, correct? then why do I feel like I'm in reach of my breaking point? does God not want me to be content in Him? that's all I'm asking is to learn to be content in Him. I know I can't do it on my own so I'm pleading for Him to make me content. why isn't He answering? after all, I am His child, aren't I? I'm here, I'm now, I'm ready. is this right? why won't He answer me?

so i went home last weekend and said,
"mom, do i get an easter basket?"
after much pleading and pittiful looks... i got this on Sunday morning!

yay! yumminess!

and i wanted easter gass too.... mom found one piece...

after church mom wanted pictures since we were all dressed up

we wanted all one picture....but er we couldn't

and my mother continued to take pictures

mk so...this is long enough.... *smooch*

having an amazing few days:

-went on a "adventure" with Monica(I would say walk but that sounds more like exercise)

-got cut by dirt...?

-found some caution tape:)

-found an awesome pocket knife...mmhmm

-got to read my Bible in English 2 days in a row...dulce!

-got compliments from random ppl

-finally got called to drive for D.Ed...yeah!parking lot, baby!

So I finally went back to school. It felt weird being out almost all week last week. I've got quite a bit of anatomy and english homework to catch up on, but otherwise not much of anything in the makeup work area. However, I get the joy of writing my term paper this week. I still feel just about as bad as I did last week. Only now, at least I can function w/o being in pain the entire time. There was nothin wrong w/appendix (crack head doctor), but now it's lookin like it might be my gallbladder. So not much better. Drama is about to freakin kill me!! We had practice AGAIN last night and only got like a 15-30 second part done. We still have a like 30 second dance and a chorus to get done, which doesnt sound like much, but is actually A LOT more than it seems. And we still have to refine everything. AHH!! This week of practice looks like another one tomorrow, possible one friday, def. one on saturday, and possible one on sunday. Next week will be even scarier. PROM is about the only thing I'm excited about, and the sad part is. I don't even have time to be excited about that. I'm in charge of finishin up collectin money on the limo and finalizing all that, and probably bookin dinner (altho I am gettin a lil help in that area). And my prom dress still isn't done being altered! AHH! I cannot WAIT for April to be over! Ok, pretty much that was a long pointless entry, but I had to get all that out. I'm just in stress overload right now. I hope everyone's having a great week, or at least better than mine. :)

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

wats up my crackersssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss how you doing CUBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

may the cubanssssssss rule over you alllllllll hahahahahahahaahahahahahah damn crackerssssssssss lol welll ok than so back tooooo my little mind set here

i begain the day off with a smile on my face knowing everything is going to go to helll today i take a shower eat a couple of jolly ranchgers like that shit gonna make me fucking jolly lol GOD !!!!!!!! some one shootttttttttttttttttt ME!!!!!!!!!!! well ok than i guess i keep filling in this wrothless shit ummm back to the begain well wait ill write this all in spanish so it piss you guys offf  

haga también mis ideales muy extraordinarios y tal caga encuentro que escritura en esto encajona tan jode arriba pero realmente debo pasar a ayudar tesis joden poco fuera tan si usted undertsnad esta mierda que doy usted mis la mayoría de los respeto imperecederos para que querría hablar con usted más de cualquier
onelse

hey, i like pocketwatches and dinosaurs! I am too good to go to school today, instead i went on a field trip. I am cooler then everyone else in the world..

my name is kelsey

and i love shebelseys

my dog is hoot

and it looks like a boot

this is my rhyme

and now im outa time

whew, finally...a day off!!!

since the last post:
second concert at graffiti-it was incredible, exactly what i had in mind when i first got it going, over 100 people came to hear the guys, 25 of those with no connection to any church, 1 of those wanting to know how to begin a relationship with Jesus
easter egg hunt with graffiti 2-over 300 kids, many more parents/grandparents, lots of games and prizes and snow cones, i was the bunny (big thanks to mosaic for the last minute bunny costume)
easter sunday at graffiti-all of the gift bags that were made were given out to newcomers (not sure how many there were), the nursery sure was busy, baptism and all

went to the beach yesterday on my first day off.  just walked around a bit.  then sat in the sand and listened to the waves.  got some sun too.  i'm now convinced if you want sun, then go to south beach (it's in staten island, and no it's not that far away). 

so after this week (college metro conference) things will get back to normal around graffiti.  and it's only a month til this whole tlj thing is over.  kinda crazy to think that i've been here for almost a year. 

Well, my weekend was pretty good...with a few exceptions...I spent about three hours at my mom's office typing TWO papers due on Monday! But that wasn't the worst part...the day before that, Friday, I was walking my dog on my street and a car full of guys honked at me, then a guy in a truck whistled at me..now normally that would flatter me, but this guy was the most redneck man I've ever seen! If you've seen House of Wax, imagine the guy who takes the roadkill to the pit...that's what he looked like. Well, here's the worst part...I went to see Scary Movie 4 on Friday with my friend Justin, the movie was pretty good, Justin was nice(as always)....but none of that was the problem...the next day I'm leaving to type my papers, when the phone rings...I answer it, a guy whose voice I don't recognize says hello. I ask who it is, he says " who do you think", now I know who it is, I say "oh God.." he laughs and says "I'm hurt you don't remember me". One guess who it was...my ex-boyfriend. I tell him I can't talk because I gotta go type my papers, he asks "were you at the movies last night?", I say "yes", he asks "were you in Scary Movie 4?", I say "yes", he says "I saw you" He then went on to ask stuff like if I saw him and his friends there and I told him I didn't, which was true. Then I told him I really had to leave now, and he was like "Call me later" and I said I would, just to get him off the phone, then he says "Even though you probably won't" and I said "You're right, I probably won't. Bye." Then I hung up. Now that might seem harsh...but he does deserve it. This is the same guy who would call me everynight..WHEN HE HAD A GIRLFRIEND!!!! You don't do that! And of course I liked him, so I told him that I did, he says he feels the same...then the next day he tells me he likes me...he just doesn't want to go out with me...SAY WHAT?!? What the hell? I could go into the very sordid details of our VERY rocky relationship...but I think that phusebox would crash if I did...But anyway...you might be calling me a bitch right about now...but I don't care...he deserves it.

For it's no use explaining it

everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I go my way
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
Humming a song
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
If it makes no difference whether I may cry or smile
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I smile

I prepare an expected answer
But

What's the use of saying it?

(everybody GO! everybody JUMP!)

everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
You can fly higher
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
Because you have wings
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
You don't have to be afraid
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
I'm just the same

What I adore is
Commonplace scenery
Even if it's not understood by anyone
Please don't deny
That this is my wish

everybody GO! everybody JUMP!
everybody GO! everybody JUMP!"
-Ayu (Humming 7/4)

ah. so. new boy.
amazing beyond reason.
<3.
yeah. it's good.

Eye on  the TV

'cause tragedy thrills me

Whatever flavor

It happens to be

Like:

"Killed by the husband"

"Drowned by the ocean"

"Shot by his own son"

"She used the poison in his tea

and kissed him goodbye"

That's my kind of story

It's no fun til someone dies

Don't look at me like

I am a monster

Frown out your one face

But with the other

Stare like a junkie

Into the TV

Stare like a zombie

While the mother, holds her child

Watches him die

Hands to the sky cryin,

"Why, oh why?"

Why can't we just admit it?

Why can't we just admit it?

We won't give pause until the blood is flowin'

Neither the brave nor bold

Will write us the story so

We won't give pause until the blood is flowin'



I need to watch things die

From a good safe distance

Vicariously, I

Live while the whole world dies

You all feel the same so

Why can't we just admit it?

Blood like rain fallin' down

Drown on grave and ground

Part vampire

Part warrior

Carnivore and voyeur

Still have the

Transmitter, sing

to the death rattle

La, la, la, la, la, la, la-lie (x4)

Credulous at best

Your desire to believe in

Angels in the hearts of men.

But pull your head on out

Your head please and give a listen

Shouldn't have to say it all again

The universe is hostile

So impersonal

Devour to survive

So it is, so it's always been ...

We all feed on tragedy

It's like blood to a vampire

 I'm just setting myself up for another heartbreak.

Life is so unpredictable.

Today just completely made me smile from ear to ear. I couldn't stop grinning.

Life can be so unpredictable.....so amazing...so wonderful.

And God has His ways of sending people to make life so much more beautiful and exciting.

And you know.....it's such a wonderful and beautiful surprise.

"Unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. It's such a surprise." ~Under the Tuscan Sun

When there's no one else in the world you'd rather be with-
A simple hello is the greatest sound in the world and one kiss is never plain, its the most extraordinary thing ever experienced. A slight touch on your arm sends tingles through your body and you can't help but anticipate the next one. You can't concentrate- all thoughts drift to that special someone. There's never any "I guess I'm in love" because from that first moment you met, a relationship bloomed, a spark flew and chemistry combined- to the sweet scent that can only be unmistakable love.

                          -H.

Well the weekend was wonderful. Not only was it Easter weekend, but it was also the start of the 2006 Coaster Season for me.

Friday morning I got up and took off to Six Flags back home to get my season pass. After getting my picture taken and all the other stuff taken care of I decided to head in the park by myself just so I could get a ride on this new behemuth they have there.

And what a ride it was...I've been on taller, I've been on faster, heck I've even been on longer but some how this coaster made my Top 10 List. Goliath is an amazing ride from start to finish: the lift hill is excitingly steep and gives you the sensation of being tilted upward for liftoff. And that first hill actually got my stomach going even though it was only 200 ft. But the most exciting thing about the whole ride experience was what we Coaster-nuts call "Airtime". After every hill, and I mean every hill; the back of the train gets the best airtime I've ever experienced. Since the thing never really slows down, I was lifted out of my seat after every hill at speeds close to 70 m.p.h. It's so exciting that a coaster like that lives just 6 miles from my house back home.

Well after I snuck on and got my fix, I headed over to the ride that has been my favorite since I was 7: "The Great American Scream Machine". I had a blast just being taken away by the multiple hills with the wind on my face and holding on for dear life because I'm either getting older or something; the ride just seems a little rougher these days. After that I headed back home with another season upon the horizon finally reached on the highway of hills and thrills.

Mysti came up for the weekend and we had a blast. Spent saturday at my Grandparent's farm shooting snapping turtles in the pond with the .22. Showed her all the horse buggies and classic cars in the barn and just had fun showing her where it is my "country" side comes from.

Well, I'm back to homework with only 3 weeks of school left. Looking forward to the break, I've got Disney World and Oregon in my sights for May....