yeah i cant wait til the end of this week! two  more days left but it has gone by soo slow. im soo bored!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!  jeez here is a message from waffa : she says HI!! and shes an overacheiver!! she tries tooo hard it gets on my nerves!

hey yall!  whats up?!  this week has been pretty good so far, i just hope it lasts.  geez, i cant believe its only wednesday, this week is going by so slow!

Today is my Erin's 20th birthday (she's old...but I love her anyway!). 
So I thought I'd play with all my pictures of us and make a wonderful little blog about my wonderful little Erin.   So......  PITCURES!!!!!!!!!!!
                         
TAAAAAAAAAAAAACO BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELL!!!
  ...Erin be curly
so maybe she's a little crazy...or maybe her toungue is just naturally blue...i'm not sure...
but either way we are so Disney princesses...even if we're too cheap to actually buy the hats...lol
NEMO!!!  o and did i meantion we can speak whale?

we're buggies!!!!
so yes...we like Disney...just a little bit.
hmm...more disneyworld!
  and apparently we take really random pictures...

                                     
           
yet another random picture from DisneyWorld...
(we gorgeous just in case you didn't notice)........so maybe we can be serious every once in a while...
        
                  ...  OR NOT!



So basically...  HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

* i realize this blog probably makes little if any sense to anyone...but that's ok...cuz i love my erin ...and its 1 in the morning.......

Hey guys wrote a new song for you.  Hope you enjoy!  Peace.
----------------
"The War Is Over"
(verse 1)
so here they came - the sighs of relief
all is over - all that's left is peace
and there we stood - standing so proud
the cheers came - screaming oh so loud
it's been so long, i'm so glad that it's done
our battle's fought and the war is won
and everything's as good as it should
i'd have made it sooner if only i could
and

(chorus)
i love to shout it out
at the top of my lungs
the war is over
and life has just begun
here we stand ready
for the rest of our lives
and all looks well
across those clear blue skies
i can't help but think
that this is really the end
that the page has turned
a new chapter's began..
we're standing at ready
for the rest of our lives
as hurt is draining
from our tear wrought eyes...

(verse 2)
and there we sat - looking back at ourselves
at all the hurt - upon all of the shelves
as if every photo's - another anthem to all
that war is bad - that it's all man's fault
and it's all so plain to see
that it doesn't - solve - anything
i'm glad for the moment - it's gone and done
i just think i'd feel better - if it'd never begun
and

(chorus)

So I'm so happy that I get to sleep in my own bed for more than one night! I mean yeah, the bed I was sleeping in at Abby's house was really nice...and the sleep number bed at the hotel was awesome...but nothing beats your own bed. I was slightly confused as to where I was at when I woke up on Monday morning.

So, we had our band trip to DC last week. Well, everyone knows I'm not big on "let's go see monuments and be all patriotic" but DC is BEAUTIFUL! It is so clean there, and all the buildings...I love big cities. It has like 10 parks and everyone was really nice. I enjoyed it very much. I know I should go into more detail, and post some pictures...but I really don't want to do that...so if you want to know about it, e-mail me or something. I don't think that it tops the Chicago trip though...nothing can top Blue Man Group and the Chicago Symphony (playing Mahler 1). DC is amazing, if you get the change, go!

Tyler, being the sweetie that he is, came to meet me at school when I got off the bus. We went to the greenway and walked around. I love being outside and just walking around, it's so peaceful walking on the greenway. And being with someone you adore to death just makes it all the better.

I saw him again last night. We were going to go to a concert, but we were short money...even though the lady was going to give us tickets with the money we had, we just decided to go sit at the park. Let's talk about that for a second. So apparently in Murfreesboro, the park closes at 30 min. past sunset. I didn't know this, and the gate was open. Well, we were sitting at a bench just hanging out and enjoying the outside, and what happens? I cop pulls up. He's all like "hey guys...what are y'all doing?" Smoking Pot! J/k. He said that we were in violation of something for being there...but how were we supposed to know? THE FREAKING GATE WAS OPEN! So yeah, we left, making fun of the cop who was closing the gate behind us, and just went to find something else to do. Mr. Turner was sick today, so I drew him a picture on the back of some manuscript paper during music theory. I think I did a good job for not being an artist.

But yeah, so I'm offically employed at Old Time Pottery. I work this weekend on Saturday (9-5) and on Sunday (1-7). I'm going to be a cashier, so nothing to difficult. I'm so happy that I'll have an income now, gas money!

I rented a game called Sonic Riders and it's a lot of fun! 

"You have to believe that life is more than the sum of its parts, kiddo."

i found out the guy i like is not in jail but he wants me to stay the fuck out of his life but its ok and sucks at the same time and there is a new guy i like but he got a lady and i got no chance but at lease im out of the hospital well G2G!!!!luv ya all!!!

analyzing poetry = :-(

its not cool at all and i hate my poem o well only 27 days of school left

love ya kids

okay so this is my advice for u if u ever go to Chicago: don't EVER eat the cheesecake at midway (don't ask lol).

so yeah we had fun. and i'm exhausted and could sleep until noon tomorrow but i have to finish my term paper (which was technically due today) and daddy won't let me skip. so i'm up til atleast midnight and then i will most likely be up early to finish it so...yeah, maybe this time i will actually upload some pics lol. caitlin had to take a ton for my b/c i couldn't get the flash to turn off on my camera and they kept yelling at me. but i still got some cool ones with my phone. and yeah i think that's about it. i don't feel like re-telling the whole day b/c it feels like it was four days and plus my head is still spinning from the plane ride. it has been weird. moving sidewalks, the el, buses, bad landings on planes....lets just say i was glad to be back in slow moving murfreesboro in my little blazer.

love u guys. ciao.

Evening...
Karen and I went to MTSU's Tucker Theater to see the Chinese Arcobats. They were AMAZING!!

I will upload some pictures and some video later. Right now, though, I'm tired!

Peace out- Lemonade

Congrats to my homies.  ^_^

BNCO:  I won't tell, because I'm sure that this person wants to spread the good news around the internets on his or her own.
BNXO:  Nina Meins
CSM:  Jamie Fields

[The last two don't have phuseboxes, so I'm not fussed about spilling the news.]

I wuvvvvvvv yous guys!

Can everybody pray for my mom. She's having trouble speaking. She might have had a stroke.

well.. easter is just about here! im sad because i am going to be in ohio visiting family all easter weekend-- so im gonna miss yall! but i hope that yall are preparing your hearts for the whole season.. i know how that is. but before the wonderful triumph of Christ over death, there is the most beautiful act of love for His children-- the crucifixtion.and even though it is the greatest love story ever told, it still wrenches my heart to think how undeservingly He did that for me. i know that im one of those people who hates to get punished for something i know i didnt do, so i cant even begin to imagine how hard it had to be for a SINLESS man to die a criminal's death. but then we see the wonderful promise fulfilled in a way never done before-- Christ rose from the dead. how truly amazinggg! just keep that in mind this week, as i too try. love yall! 

im way!!!!!!!! to busy.  i bet there is a few people out there that agree with me. 

I heard something lately that intrugues me.  Christians mature spiritually just like people mature emotionally. 

Babies believe everyone is alive solely to make sure they're fed, dry, comfortable and happy.  They can tolorate no discomfort!

Children question everything and try to understand what they cannot. They believe adults (or God in the case of a Christian) know everything and can and will fix anything.

Adolescents think they know everything and get very annoyed when things don't go their way. They expect God to do what they think He should.  They think if someone (including God) doesn't think like they do they obviously just don't have a clue!

Adults understand that it's not all about them.  They know they don't always get what they want or even what they need sometimes.  They know they don't know everything and accept that life happens no matter what you do or think or pray.

Senior citizens live in acceptance and tolerance.  They smile at life's discomforts and at others still in the stages they have passed through.  They enjoy moments as they come each day and wait to see what tomorrow brings.  They seem to be the ones at peace.

Where are you?  I'll admit - I waffle back and forth between spiritual adolescence and adulthood most of the time.

Three greek test in one week. No Jonathan that can't be right. That is impossible. Well the impossible just became possible. 3 greek exams this week! I had one today. I have another on thur and then another on friday! Im pretty sure this has to be a sin somwhere in the Bible! haha j/k... But 3 test in greek in one week is craziness. all i can say is wow and that i need God's help to not stress too much. The reason i write this is to inform yall that i need prayer. thur - 8am-9:30am and friday 8:30-9:30. Thank you very much! Have a wonderful day!

If he says you're hot…

          …he's looking at your body.

If he says you're pretty…
          …he's looking at your face.

If he says you're  beautiful…
          …he's looking at your heart.

its been  more than ages since ive updated this!!..which is ever so pitiful..lol

hmm i hate my school still. lol

i have a boyfriend...

my best friend is still laura..

and i still dance.

Hey,

So I went to Kids R Kids today. I filled out and application and talked to one of the head ladies up there. She said more than likely that I will be hired on. So I am so excited. Just pray for me. I mean I really need some moola coming in. You know, gotta pay the bills.

So I don't have anything wrong w/my appendix. Which is good considerin I was still planning to compete at fine arts regardless of if I had an operation or not. However, I do have an infection. And apparently I had a cyst on my ovary which caused a lot of pain and could be part of the reason I'm sick now. The pain is pretty bad, but not as bad as yesterday. And the antibiotics I've been given also don't make me feel any better. So this is just a great big fun situation! But I guess I should be happy. It could've been the appendix or somethin worse. And on the bright side, I was told to not go back to school till Monday. So yea. It all worked out ok I guess.

My Confessions
09:23 pm

[ x] I'm afraid of silence.
[ x] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ x] I'm afraid of the dark.
[ ] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[x] I Can't sleep in a room if the door is open.
[ ] I am homosexual.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ x] I've stayed out all night.
[ x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping secrets from others.
[x] I watch the news
[ x] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for green eyes
[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ x] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse sometimes
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fallen in public.
[ x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I bake well
[ x] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ x] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[i want one period] I want a better job
[ x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil
[x] I like someone.
[ x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I have a lot of scars.
[ x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I hate chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[ well yeah its me here] Gotten lost in the city.
[ ] Thought of suicide before.
[x] Seen a shooting star...
[ ] Gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ x] Have kissed a stranger.
[x ] Have kissed someone really strange....
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex.
[ x] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Been arrested.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[ x] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ x] Bitten someone.
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ x] Crashed into a car.
[ ] been to Japan.
[ ] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ x] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ x] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Been married.
[ ] Gotten divorced.
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] have a list of people you want to kill.
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[ ] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[ x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[x] Eaten sushi.
[ ] Been skiing.
[ ] been snowboarding
[] love milk
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[ x] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone almost 24/7
[] Hated the world.

I figured a more intelligible entry was past due for a while, and so here it is.  I never told my mom, but on her way home, because my dad was unaware of that fact, he managed to somehow engage in a cellphone conversation with her about it.  So she calls me later and freaks out, as I knew she would.  I think it still hurts her, but she seems to be making an effort to hide her emotions about the situation, while I am unphased by it.  Besides, it was months ago...the fee involved is the only matter to me.

In a conversation with Chris Morgan (very) early this morning, I realized that my current belief system (or possibly lack thereof) lacks the needed reasons why and explanations behind it, but it is, however, a very hard thing to explain, seeing as I have trouble explaining it to myself.  I guess I'm more a deist than anything.  I figure God created the world and let it be, and then somewhere along the line, humanity tried to fill in where they thought it ought to be.  Although the general of manking might be to "glorify God", I highly doubt if someone missing from that group will be cared about.  You see, I think, when people say God helped me through it, really they just got over it, and God really had nothing to do with it.  I don't think God really answers prayer; at least, He hasn't answered my own.  Those cases did have lack of belief or anything so come with me with your reasons for why God didn't answer me or why I seem to have no purpose in life.  You don't know my life, and most of you because you simply didn't bother.  That's what I love about people: they're really good at passing judgment without being involved in the situation at all.  I guess I'm one of the most guilty.  So the current plan for suicide, if and when it happens, looks to be driving my car into concrete without killing anyone else.  I chose this because it seems to be easy.  The van has no real value, and if all goes well, it should be over quickly.  Still, the issue is doing it cleanly.  So I was wondering whether I should wear a seatbelt or not if and when it happens.  The only thing that makes me hesitate is my parents because I think it'd be a burden to hold a funeral and all that.  I'm sure the a lot of the people I thought were my friends won't show up, yet a bunch of old retards with nothing better in their lives than to pry into lives of others will show up.  That would suck.  I wonder what people would say.  I mean really.  God, he was dumb, and he's in hell, so let's go eat!  What a world...it's quite depressing...

mk so.... here is what i'm allowed to eat....

notice just how much of the gatorade is gone!

in the past 24 hrs i've had 3 cups of rice, 4 pints of gatorade, one mini banana, and 2 cups of applesauce.

i'm starving and this stuff does not NOT fill me up

this is the cute mini-banana ~ it tastes about the same

here are the fun yummy foods i'm not allowed to eat.

i'm so sick of rice

well yesterday i spent the day at home because i slept in early, but i also helped my grandma move around the furniture because we are remodling like half the house... so yeah and she's like 78 and still kickin so i don't want her to hurt herself. :| so i stayed home (:

i wanted to drive up to Memphis to see my cousin. she is really deathly sick because is in in the hospital with a ruptured appendix which is really scarey. ):

i got my prom jewelry. its pretty :D i would show you a picture but you would call me hickey because i got them all over my neck :p i like 'em. i don't understand why people don't. i feel they are a sign of affection and love. and... i like when i get them too. >:} mwuahahahahaha.

anyways im off to eat home made tacos!!!! isn't life great? (:

life is good.  =D

SWEET JESUS, YES!

For two weeks, I put almost all of my time and attention to reviewing and studying for a Spanish placement test. In a two week time period, I reviewed four hours with Mr. Tomlinson and about four hours on my own. Yesterday, I took the test. It was pretty difficult, and I don't know what I was exactly graded on, but I tested into Spanish 2020. That means I tested out of nine hours of Spanish, and as long as I get a C or higher in 2020, I get credit for those nine hours. This is a huge deal for me, because I'll be a semester ahead, Spanish wise and it proved to me that even though I've gone a year without a Spanish class, I've still got it.

Yeah, you could say I'm pretty excited.

What's even better is that when I registered today, I was able to get one of the six spots left for the class and teacher I wanted :) Spanish is on TR along with my Sociology class and hopefully another if I can find one I want for 9:40. On MWF, I'll be taking Astronomy and History.

Aimee and I are planning on having a picnic type deal at Old Fort this weekend Saturday evening. It'd be nice if everybody could bring something. Nothing big.

these past few days have definetly been interesting. we got back from washington, and were loaded with crazy amounts of homework and tests that (at least I) hadn't studied for. so it wasn't a great start to the new week. at least there's only 2 days and 5 weeks left of school!!

DC was fun, not as cool as san antonio, but thats ok.

yesterday afternoon i got something cut out of my foot. my warning to you is to not wear heels all day in a grassy/gravelly area. or wait for four months to do something about it. :

isn't it pretty?

[ ] I'm afraid of silence.
[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark.
[x] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[x] I Can't sleep in a room if the door is open.
[ ] I am homosexual.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ ] I've stayed out all night.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping secrets from others.
[x] I watch the news
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for green eyes
[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse sometimes
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fallen in public.
[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam
[x] I bake well
[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[i want one period] I want a better job
[ ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil
[x] I like someone.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I have a lot of scars.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[that's crazy] I hate chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.
[x] Seen a shooting star...
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] Have kissed a stranger.
[ ] Have kissed someone really strange....
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex.
[ ] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Been arrested.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[x] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] Bitten someone.
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car.
[ ] been to Japan.
[ ] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Been married.
[ ] Gotten divorced.
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] have a list of people you want to kill.
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[x] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[x] Eaten sushi.
[ ] Been skiing.
[ ] been snowboarding
[x] love milk
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone almost 24/7
[x] Hated the world.

oh wow.
it's been awhile.
thanks to the wonderful Celia I at least came and looked at my page, lol.

This is THE FORM of my college career. This is what will make me an official part of the EMC program by spring 07, Lord willing. If not, I'm dropping school. Nah, it won't be a problem, unless I unexpectedly flunk all my classes this semester.

So I'm registered for next semester. There is a possibility of it changing, but currently I am enrolled to take Sociology and Tennessee History Honors on MWF and Sight, Sound, and Motion and Early American Literature on TR. Yeah, I suppose it's time for me to start my minor. I'm also going to take Orientation to Art during summer school. I think I can live with that for a month. With this schedule, I would only have one gen. ed class left to take next spring. Yay.

i have a picture of mr right
he's perfect
in my mind
a drawing mind you
he doesn't exist
or i haven't met him

so i'm new to this
help me with it?
please?

i fucking can wat for summer

one more six weeks left!!!

yay

what is there to do in mrytle beachhh??

any ideas? let me know.

thanks <333's.

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happy birthday
   trish!!!!!

wow....yeah i went on a little icon spree yesterday these are the ones that made me smile and reminded me of me, certain people, or great times:

 i tend to say this a little too much...lol

 this is so me...all the time

 ha! this is to all the emo kids that hate life

 this is the hot vocal for relient k...ahhh dreamy...lol

 finding nemo rocks my face off!...this reminds me of all my dramatic friends...i have alot of them..

 ha! anchorman! good times good times. matt bain, jeff, ......i love this movie...ahh...sweet mahogony..lol

priceless memories......

words from Layne Edwards in his AO Facebook newsletter...
Thank You so much man

...Well this week is special because we have the Lord’s
Supper Thursday night. Which is so cool because
what I’m going to share with you God showed me
before I knew about the Lord’s Supper being this
week. One of the big part of the Lord’s supper
is to examine your heart to make sure it is pure
before you take bread and wine (a.k.a grape juice
and crackers :) Deuteronomy 30:6 says
"Moreover the LORD your God will circumcise
your heart and the heart of your descendants, to
love the LORD your God with all your heart and
with all your soul, in order that you may live”
God makes it very all though His Word that sin
comes from the heart first and that leads to
physical acts. God also makes it very clear that
he will not look upon sin. So how can we love God
with ALL our hearts if we have sin in even the
smallest part? The answer is to pray that God
will purify our hearts so we can offer them as a
sacrifice to him. What is hidden in your heart
that no one else can see? Please take time this
week to pray that God will reveal your sin so you
can ask forgiveness for it and come to Him this
Thursday night with a pure heart. Only God can
purify us, we can do nothing on our own. God
bless…

Track meet today. Can't wait to race the mile. Hopefully it will be a good race. So BHS student council elections are tomorrow so yeah... if you go to Blackman vote for me asb vice president. <><

So yea. Isnt life fun. Went to the doctor yesterday. They said I might have an infection, come back in the mornin. Went back this mornin. NOW they think it's my appendix. So guess who gets to drink 2 enormous containers of barium and go back at 2:30 for a CAT scan?? Yea...hopefully surgery will not follow. We'll see...

happy? I try to be.
content? I'm almost there.
angered? not really.
sad? not anymore.
hopeful? most definitely.

hungry, I come to You
for I know you satisfy.
I am empty but I know
Your love does not run dry
so I wait for You
so I wait for You
I'm falling on my knees
offering all of me
Jesus You're all this heart is living for.

it is well, it is well
with my soul, with my soul
it is well, it is well with my soul.

 i  HATE  making hard decisions....

Blood drive is today.  I am escaping fourth period to work at it as moral support.

Why is it that every time I give blood, something happens?

Last year: "Here's a vein!"  "If I can see it, I don't want it."  "Um... Okay..."  *Nurse misses vein because she can't see it*  "Hm.  That's not good."  *Wiggles needle and tube around like she's brushing teeth*  *I spasm silently*

This year: *I am draining much too slowly for one nurse's liking (heretoafter referred to as "Evil Nurse").  A noted absence of pain on my part, which I was happy about.*  *She messes with my tubing*  Nice Nurse: "I've already tried all that."  *Evil Nurse moves needle around.  High levels of pain ensue.*  Me, trying to maintain a calm facade: "Yeah, that kind of hurts."  (This is a code term for "Stop doing that now before I beat you with my tubing.")  *Evil Nurse moves needle again.  Pain does not change.*  "Is that better?"  "NO."  *Moves needle again.  Insert a powerful stinging sensation.  Evil Nurse tries to leave.*  "Iiiiit's still hurting."  *Moves needle again.  I seriously contemplate a high level of rudeness by saying "Everything was great before you got here!"  But abstain.*  ....And then I bled through way too many layers of gauze.  The hag.

So that's been my day.  How's yours??

((P.S.  I meant a French-Italian last night.  Drool.  Allison, I'll love you forever.))

well... i'm still sick... and it sux...

but i have a voice lesson today! w00t! ^^

no, i'm not getting this dress...  itz just a dress that Rae liked alot...

i'm still on the search for a prom dress... i miss the dress i saw at Hickory Hollow mall.... -_- i liked that dress...

"Will I be inhuman?
Will I be invisible to everyone?
I find nothing I want in a place like this
Which I escaped and tumbled into
I rip my feelings off my heart
And stick a smile on the mask
Please take me away from here
Before everything becomes a memory"
-Ayu (Happy Ending)

 Time is becoming an issue for me. My boyfriend is going through a hard time and is ignoring me right now and my best friend Brittany is having a baby. It both sucks and is quite funny.

I am so happy Sunday was the most amazing day of my life.......since sunday god has been doing some amazing things in mt life.......I  got my love back for god he was all I really needed i wish that i had seen that a long time ago so i would not have had to figure it out the hard way but sometimes thats the only way. And the trials he put me through were not to hurt me as i once thought but to make me grow. every morning when i wake up and pray god let me have a closer walk with you let me be a witness  to my friends, lord use me as a vessel, it may  be broken but it is still useable......god is so wonderful and i want the world to know but some people still fight, still run, god is there  to love you not hurt you. I don't know but since sunday  have felt this amazing peace around me something i haven't felt in a lonnnnng time.I can finally sleep and in the stillness listen to gods voice instead of trying to hide.I can love again and let people i pushed out of my life get closer,without the fear of getting hurt. And the youth choir did great(since i'm in it(lol) but the funny thing when we were practicing lindsay said brandi do you feel god she was like I do. and when we sang its like the youth group just broke lose like we didn't care if the rest of the church worshiped with us we needed that we have been stuggling so long and trying to hide it but god knew and he was there at the moment we needed it. My chains have finally fell of off and I feel so free. Now it is my turn to hold my friends up, to talk to them tilll two in the morning it is my turn to be an example. It is our youth groups turn to bring the roof down, it is time we worshipped like no one else had we are pentacostals for goodness sake we need to act like. God is our god why are we ashamed of that?He has shown us the power he holds in his hands and the power he has placed inside of us when he put the holy ghost in us.(and if anyone wants to know more about the holy ghost let me know i will be happy to share it with you) you will never know how much happiness the holy ghost gives you till you try it. You live like you never lived before.

trust me!

hey everybody, don't forget to invite friends for Wednesday!  see you then.

I actually got the scheduele I wanted for the fall, thank you Jesus.

Wow, those are some strong words.  Our Savior died in the most inhumane way possible just so we would have eternal life if we believed in him.  So as good Friday and Easter approach just think about what Jesus Christ did for you.  What an awesome thing to know that because Jesus paid the price I will have eternal life in Heaven.

 

John 3:16 (New International Version)

    16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,^[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.


What an amazing verse. So now my questin to you is, Do you have a passion for God like he has a passion for you?

Have a great day everyone and I'll see most of you Wednesday night.


Jesus paid the price, will you pick up your cross and carry it?

I want this to work, and I'm determined to not let this hurt me. I'm not going to let distance break me down and cause me to lose one the best things in my life. That would be... awful. I love him, and I'm happy for once. So why do I feel like me world is crashing down around me sometimes?

I hate this. I'm crying, and I don't want to. In fact I probably shouldn't be crying at all. Those of you who read this, and I know its a small number, know that I've tried to pump up my strength and stop crying really. I don't cry in public anymore. If I've got to cry, I'd rather fall apart in private, in my room where no one can see me break down. I hate when I feel like this. I'm supposed to be happy because I finally got what I wanted. I finally found the guy I was looking for, but I'm not happy. I am happy... this is making no sense what so ever because I am just typing on my train of thought... I am happy don't get me wrong. Because for the brief moment that I can hear his voice I'm smiling, for the brief time I get to talk to him I'm soaring higher than anyone. There are days when I feel so bad, when I feel so alone and I miss him so much that I close my eyes and ... I know this is going to sound crazy but... I can see him, I can almost feel his arms around me, his hand in mine, I can almost hear his voice. But then something happens. I'm pulled away and I remember he's not here and that I don't know when I'll see him again.

What I wouldn't give to have a view into his mind? I would give anything to know whats going on with him. Does he miss me as much as I miss him? I know he doesn't break down. At least I'm almost positive that he wouldn't anyway. Don't get me wrong I don't him to be miserable; I'm not miserable just a little bit down right now. I don't mean that I want him to feel like that.I want him to be happy, whatever that means. If he's happier there instead of here then so be it, but it doesn't mean its not gonna hurt like hell.

He's the expert at reading people. He reads me like an open book just by looking into my eyes. That's not me. I can't read him except sometimes I can tell a little bit. But what do I do? What can I do? I have all the faith in him, and I love him. He makes me happier than I've been in a long time. It's just that there are good days and then there are days like today when I don't know what to do. Days when I fall apart and cry my eyes out. But I don't want him to see. I don't want him to worry about me.

so, i'm going to be getting a website of my own.  i want a URL that i can keep for a while, and not be embarrassed to give out for official-ish things.

thechrismorgan.com is open.  what do you guys think? 

any bright ideas?

Cripple me stupid
May I think for myself no more
May you guide me through firey rings
And through my battles with horrid fiends
Please bless my abilities to strike back
And strike with a force that's mighty...

well looking back I have realized I update alot more then I give myself credit for.....it just seems that lately I haven't been updating as much as I once did.....anyways......what do you get when you cross me with any girl I like?......give up......a very confused guy who has no idea what to do........its kinda sad......the girl I like just broke up with her b/f and I know it was brought around by me but he treated her bad so I am happy about that.......but now I am o so confused as to what I should do......any advice??

"our love was comfortable and so broken in"...i hear this line written by john mayor and it reminds me that God's love is always so comfortable and so broken in . He is alwyas so open and willing to love you right in the exact way that you need it. It's amazing how he has molded my heart into someone who i never thought i could be. He has the control in my life right now and he is making me a stronger, wiser, more loving open person. I have been learning so much and i pray it keeps coming.

so yes..............
today i decided to try out student government.........i'm running for seinor class representative..........
VOTE FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'll let you know how that works out
anyways
i think my computer is seroiusly messed up because aim isn't working and i still can't e-mail anyone anything....................................:'[
not cool

i did have some of the german exchange students in my class today.....they never said anything though................
but this one guy had some cool shoes.........
yup yup
that's about it

"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

**Im in LOVE with this song**

Me riding a bull...at Cotton Eye Joes in K-town...sunday night. I am really sore...you know where...


I need to be doing homework...like the annotated bibliography that is due in the morning...but I am a procrastinator *sp


Later
J-Bird

Some pictures from San Antonio

Enjoy.

Last night I felt as if I was going to to explode due to stress...but everything is fine now. Ahh....stress....it comes and goes...

So this is my life:

Wake up at 6:15. At school by 7. Leave school at 2:30. At work by 2:45. Leave work at 7:15. (Work is wonderful btw). Eat a quick dinner. Run for about three miles and then work out with weights. Shower. Homework for about 3-4 hours. Bed. REPEAT.

As busy and stressful as life can be...I love it. I'm finally learning time management....something that has taken me a long time to learn.

God provides. Duh. :-) :o)

"Lord, help prune away my suspicions and self-absorption and see the world around me with Your eyes, not mine; to be slow to judge, quick to love, slow to criticize, quick to tell of Your love- just as You were and are with me." ~Unknown

Learn From Great Bible Personalities

If you are impatient, sit down and talk to Job. If you are just a little strong-headed, go and see Moses. If you are tired and afraid, take a good look at Elijah. If there is no song in your heart, listen to David. If you feel cold and lonely, get the beloved disciple John to put his arm around you. If your faith is weak, read about the apostle Paul. If you are getting lazy, listen to James. If you are losing sight of the future, climb up the stairs of Revelation and get a glimpse of the promised land. ~Author Unknown

we MIGHT have found the cause of my pain!!! after my post asking you guys to pray, the pain has continued to get worse. in fact, i don't remember the last day since Christmas that i haven't had pain. today it reached a boiling point when i missed my 8 am lab cause it hurt so much i couldn't get out of bed. Well, mom flipped, but she talked to my "family" doc. te he he. my poor cousin is a dr. and gets plagued w/ all our medical woes.

---mk so now for the news you are actually reading this for---
she says it sounds like i have an ULCER!!!!
kinda  freaky, but if that means we can make the pain stop............yeah

so i'm now on a BRAT diet at the order of my mom
(Bananas, Rice, Applesauce, Toast)
and
Prilosec OTC at the order of my cousin

Thank you Lord for even this possibility!

I'll tell you if it helps in about a week!

So......

well this weekend was really fun....with 2 exceptions (storms that scared me and taking the act, however it wasn't as bad as last time)

so sat. after the act lauren d. comes over an we get ready for the pagent together. we had 4 curling irons an 2 straightner pulled in in my room all at once. an all my make-up i never use all spred out in my bathroom. then we had to get to school. The pagent was a lot of fun, and a lot longer than last year. I didnt place, but i only did it to have fun anyways.

Sunday i went to work and then to law explorers and after that youth group. Which was the 1st time i have gone in forever. i had a lot of fun. an i'm gonna try an go more often. 

Today was good. school wasnt that hard. and i went to the interest meeting for student council and i'm goin to run for sr. class rep. so if your goin to be a sr next year please vote for me!!!!!!! i would appreciate it!!!! thanks.

well this is holy week so i hope everyone will have a good week like always!!!Just think it's a 4 day school week whop whoop!!!!!

later

lisa

keep smiling!!!!!!!!

is it possible for the world to look this way forever?

welp.
im bored.
myspace people are getting to become fakes.
not all people....
but mostly.
i hate it.

Please pray.

man, getting ready for prom is tiring.  it is also  just a little pricey. so far i think that it will cost $400.  can't wait to get the dress. that way the hard part is over. i think that i am going to try on around 32 dresses this friday. oye, well g2g, will write more l8r

  Amber

 The Gang

 Me and Rachel

STate Capitol

White House

 Thomas Jefferson

Here is some for now more coming soon

Our God Reigns

Our God Reigns

Our God Reigns

Forever His Kingdom Reigns

Wow what powerful words! these 3 words (Our God Reigns) are so meaningful in my spiritual walk. When I down and out that MY GOD REIGNS. What inspirational words when i just want to give up on life that His Kingdom Reigns and MY GOD REIGNS!!

so in happiness today i found this site..

http://www.alicia-logic.com/capspages/caps_viewall.asp?titleid=15

with fun pictures

and this one

http://davesource.com/Fringe/Fringe/Entertainment/Scripts/The_Princess_Bride.html

with the script!!!!!!!!

today started out horrible. but progressively got better.
i love all my friends. i swear. they put up with my worst moods.
and make me smile.

i'm a sweet talker. i'm a pipe layer.
imma sweat you out your weave.
i'm a back breaker.
i'm a gentleman, i'm a mac playa.
i'm a dime piece layer, smooth operator.<3

hha. that song. ohh gosh.
[mm. boy still makes me smile.]
i know i know.
so anyways.
i ran today and it hurt so bad but it let out a lot of my stress.
so instead of being a butthead to everyone. i just ran.
it felt hella good.

k. so.
i'm donee.

<333

Veni, vidi, velcro - - - - I came, I saw, I stuck around.

too emotional to say anymore **eMiLy**

I broke up with kelsey but it was mutual so that's great!!! And that lifted a heavy stress burden off of my shoulders. Not because she was my girlfriend but because for about two weeks I knew that I kneeded to break up with her but I didn't know how torn up she would be, if at all. But apparently she felt the exact same way that I did so that was a huge relief but also quite irritating! All that stess for nothin'! I went to Chicago last week and it was awesome and I'll try to get as many pictures up to let you guys know how it was!!! But I guess that's it for now. See ya

Today is monday... I went to school, then boys and girls club just like always. It was a boring day. Last weekend was fun though I ran in a 5K even though I hate running then hung dry wall at my bosses house. Well I'm gonna go ttyl

Alden

my brother willy....

he got dem skills

I miss him a lot and I always try to keep him in my prayers.  As my brother, it hurts to see him, just lost ...not having the hope and direction of our Lord and Savior.  I wonder if he ever did read the Bible and my Purpose Driven Life book that I gave to him.  He says that life is going good...but why settle for just good when you can find true happiness in Christ Jesus.  Its hard to see him struggling, trying to make a living and  find success on his own.  Sooner or later he's gonna get tired and fall, if he hasnt already.  And maybe in letting go, he will let God.  But I just wish that he didnt have to experience that pain and heartache before he sees the hand of God reaching out to carry him .........  But if that's what it takes...

E ko makou Makua i loko 'o ka lani,

I can only pray that one day he will not only be my brother in blood, but my brother in Christ. 

Ka inoa 'o ka Makua

A me ke keiki

A me ka 'uhane hemolele

'Amene.

Freedom can be determination.

It feels good to feel the freedom to sit and write once
again.

 

 â€œNow the Lord is the Spirit, and where
the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” 2 Corinthians 3:17

 
I currently find myself in my lovely little house here in Hilo Hawaii.
I awoke this morning on a different island, Maui,
but after a quick 7 am flight, I’m back where I began. The weekend was crazy
and God is faithful. I got a chance to go to Maui,
so I did. Wouldn’t you if $150 was all it cost?

The weekend was filled with whales, fish, lots of water, a lost Japanese
guy named Yuji who was introduced to the Name above all Names (you can pray for
that), Krispie Kreme doughnuts (praise God), a lot of “chillin”, late night
conversations, and very little homework done on my part.

Bet you can't pick out who Yuji is...

 

These are from a sunset whale cruise we did on Saturday night. At 30 - 40 tons and 45 feet long, Humpback whales are an awesome creation.

It was a really romantic setting... with 3 other guys... something/someone was missing, haha!

I’m thankful for freedom. We serve a BIG, chain-breaking, big axe
carrying, light-shinning, freedom giving, gracious, loving God; and all the
darkness in the world, which we are contained in for the moment, TREMBLES at
the sound of His name!

 

“Yes, Lord, walking in the way of your laws, we
wait for you; your name and renown are the desire of our hearts.” Isaiah 26:8

I was walking with Kira (L) on campus today and the
definition of “renown” was “something everybody should know, has no negative
connotation, and you’re proud of.” Pretty good definition if you ask me,
especially coming from a girl with no concept of the word in its truest form.

 
Why don’t you pray for Kira, right now. God is working on
her heart.

 
(Did you pray for a prospective sister, or did you skip that
part?)

 

Question: What’s you purpose in life? I’m not after a "church
answer." I’m after an honest one… just honest. When you wake up in the
morning, what’s the first thing on your mind? As you go through the day, what
consumes your thoughts?

 "I, the Lord, have called you in righteousness; I will take
hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the
people and a light for the gentiles, to open eyes that are blind, to free
captives from prison and to release from the dungeon those who sit in darkness.
I am the Lord, that is my name! I will not give my glory to another or my
praise to idols." Isaiah 42: 6-8

 

you sought attention in your town

you threw your morals to the ground

you told me that you did not care

your touch was more than i could bare

take me instead

your habits end

my will, will end quickly

so try again

to take my hand

its me you've been kissing

you find yourself alone again

dont think you've been dreaming

take me instead

your habits end

cause my loves worth seeking

hands intangled in my hair

you lead me quickly to you lair

in the lightness of the day

you catch my eye and then looked away

what a chilling remark you made

when you threw it all away

take me instead

your habits end

my will, will end quickly

so try again

to take my hand

its me you've been kissing

you find yourself alone again

dont think you've been dreaming

take me instead

your habits end

cause my love's worth seeking

my body's all that you aspire

for what's inside theres no desire

i cant live with how you feel

while my innocence you steal.

take me instead

your habits end

my will, will end quickly

so try again to take my hand

its me you've been kissing

if you wake up alone again

dont think you've been dreaming

take me instead

your habits end

cause my loves worth seeking

you sought attention in your town

you threw your morals to the ground

you told me that you did not care

your touch was more than i could bare

take me instead

your habits end

my will, will end quickly

so try again

to take my hand

its me you've been kissing

you find yourself alone again

dont think you've been dreaming

take me instead

your habits end

cause my loves worth seeking

hands intangled in my hair

you lead me quickly to you lair

in the lightness of the day

you catch my eye and then looked away

what a chilling remark you made

when you threw it all away

take me instead

your habits end

my will, will end quickly

so try again

to take my hand

its me you've been kissing

you find yourself alone again

dont think you've been dreaming

take me instead

your habits end

cause my love's worth seeking

my body's all that you aspire

for what's inside theres no desire

i cant live with how you feel

while my innocence you steal.

take me instead

your habits end

my will, will end quickly

so try again to take my hand

its me you've been kissing

if you wake up alone again

dont think you've been dreaming

take me instead

your habits end

cause my loves worth seeking

comment on this.. a little feedback would be cool. it's an article from my youth newsletter written by some kid named Sven Bronski. and i found it to be exceptionally interesting. anyway, read it and tell me what you think. (i was unaware we had a youth newsletter..)

Tell Me All Your Thoughts On God

"I'm going to ruffle some feathers with this. So please disregard any fallacies you stumble across, we Germans have a history of being fallacists (and I'm fully aware that I just made that word up).
Back in the day, back in elementary level Sunday school, the Sunday school teacher was pretty adamant on teaching the miracles of Jesus. That's what I remember about Sunday school anyway. I remember the stories about Jesus' powers to alleviate the ailments of the lame. He could make the blind see, He could make the deaf hear  and the paraplegics walk. Pretty impressive.
Well, it got to be that these stories were told so much- and I heard them so much that I really didn't question their authenticity. And where I came from, you didn't question God's authenticity. No one ever did. I didn't question God and I accepted those kindergarten stories as truth.
But then I grew up. And I questioned my faith. I questioned the Church. It suddenly dawned on me taht nothing I was taught in kindergarten was logical. None of it made sense. How could anyone relieve someone of an ailment they were born with, maybe a loss of one of the five senses, to suddenly be made well again?
During my grandparents' time, people were dying left and right of tuberculosis. Today there is a plethora of incurable diseases (tuberculosis doesn't fall under this category. Riampcin cures it.) I thought about one idea, one possible answer as to why that sudden turmoil. Jesus wasn't around to perform miracles anymore, hence crises such as the AIDS pandemic in Africa. But miracles weren't performed only in Jesus's day. So that panacea of an answer didn't work.
In the old testament, miraculous things were abundant. There was a burning busg, horrendous plagues, the death of a giant and oh, the birth of the universe. These would all fall under the category  of "miracles". But why... why are there not such miracles of grandeur being performed today? And I wonder- did any of those "miracles" really happen?"


mmk  there you go. i thought it had a point...
thoughts?

hey... chicago was sooooo fun! Wicked was amazing..i loved it! I want to go back...
we had so much fun.im so sleepy .

Andrew and I have decided to set the wedding date back quite a bit for financial reasons.

I'm going to be completely honest - right now, my life isn't the most enjoyable thing in the world to face every day. I'm quite optimistic, and I can stay in a good mood just thinking about stupid little things like the fact that I just dyed my hair for the first time in months or that there are only 3 more weeks left in the semester. Then, there are the big things like the relief of putting the wedding off for a while and the prospect of getting a studio at the same place where Andrew has band practice. Oh, but if I take five seconds to think about the biggest things going on in my life right now, it takes everything in me not to cry. It's just one of those times when a lot of exciting things are happening, but just as many horrible things are happening. Whether I'm optimistic or pessimistic, I just have a lot going on.

today was odd
had 1st lauch today>>
i didnt like it-glare-
SUMMER IS IN 7 WEEKS!!!

yay for summer^^
me soo happy for summer^^

later

Well life is just great right now! My God has really come through for me! Only 25 days left of school!!!!!! Then comes summer, fun, and money!!!! And of course I get to see my alabama friends! I can't wait! Summer is so close I can smell it...we just have to make it through six more lousy weeks of school. But be encouraged! Joshua 1:9 says "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go." 

Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. (1Thes.5:16-18).

Be blessed by His spirit, 
                          <>< Garrett

hey hey

well we had WGI this past week/weekend and it went awesome.we got a 77.3 which was higher than like everbody  in our circut so that was really awesome but we didn't make semis or finals but hey it's all good cuz we had alot of fun.

but yeah so now guard is over and i really have nothing to do but work and what not so it should be interesting. if anyone ever wants to hang out just give me a ring!

..Just Me...

i hate school. i hate rhody. i hate makeup worke. everyone should just die....especially mrs. coddington...and rhody.

So just last Saturday I auditioned not only for the school of music, but also for the VOICES OF LEE!  It was pretty crazy.  You can learn about what happened here.  I am confident about the school of music, but not so much about the Voices.  My audition went well, and I even got a song stuck in their heads, but they are just so good.  I just have been praying and wouldn't mind you guys praying about the situation.  If I made it I would be travelling with them all summer, but they would take quite a financial burden off of my back for the next year.  It's been a dream of mine to be on the Voices of Lee, but I am trying to keep humble and not get my hopes up.  That's all I've got for now.  Later folks!

i just got the new third day cd and I love it!!!!

second God is amazing I was having a rough morning and my mom texted me and told me to look outside and that God was in control!! That is so true! I love my mommy!!!

have a great week and trust in God!!!

college blows.

and it's gonna blow even more in chattanooga.

next fall.

yeah.

i think i'm doomed.

seriously.

someone send me a utc catalog...

PHUSE BOX BABY WOOHOO!!!

~We Have An Upcoming Track Meet Coming Up Tuesday @ Blackman... Try To Come And Show Us Some Support If You Can Or Show Us Your Love Right Here With A Comment That Would Be Cool... Holla Back Yall!~

this sunday was amazing. i have been struggling spiritually. i dont know why or how but somehow a barrier rose up around my heart. but sunday it let it down. i cried like a baby. it first started in sunday school when one of my teachers said that she loved me and that if anyone or anything wanted to come against me they would have to go through her and that im never alone. and then after morning service my other sunday school teacher prayed with me at the alter and i cant put into to words how amazing that was. then in night service the youth chior sung and we brought the ceiling down it was amazing. and after service i think one of my closest friends broke through what ever she has been going through. sunday definately changed my life.

I'm going to teh CMT awards tonight...I get to sit in the section of the stars! I probably will not know or recognize most of them...but I pretty excited!

I haev realized that...

       I have the absolute bestest daddy in the entire universe...

       I have amazing friends...

       I have a TON of homework to do in these next few weeks and I am going to have NO life for that period...

       It is starting to feel like summer and I really really need to start working out again...

       Even if slowly, I am gettign somewhere...

       I have things pertty good :-)

Enough randomness... I have to go wrok on my paper :-p

Texas. A lot more Mexicans than I expected. Shamu. Penguins. Stand-up comedy on the bus. "Ugh. So sick of Tex-Mex...Taco Bell?!" Authentic Mexican Cheeseburgers. Kelsey and Ben...aw. Boat ride on a river in a mall. Cherry bubbles. Stuck on Superman. 12 minutes. Crazy bus driver. Vegan roomie. Hair-parting roomie. Vacant roomie. Roomies. "Buuuuu-ddy." No punch line.

~Tell Me Why Is It That Everytime We Fall In Love It Fades Away, Why Can't We Have A Special Someone That's Here To Stay, Why Can't We Have Someone That Will Love You And Never Let You Go, But Not Be Here For A Memory For You To Remember Or Just To Know, Why Cant We Have A Special Someone That Can Change The Way You Are Feeling Inside, Why Can't We Have Someone That Tells You That They Love You Everyday & Not Let Their Feelings Hide, Why Can We Have Someone That Could Make Your Sun Shine Bright And Be Your Light To Guide You Through The Night, A Special Someone That Can Hold You & Be There Whenever You Need Them As If It Was Love At First Sight, Why Can't We Have A Special Someone That Won't Throw Away Your Heart, A Special Someone That Cares And A Special Someone That Has Loved You From The Start, Why Cant We Have A Special Someone That Can Be With You Until God Call Us Home, Why Can't We Have A Special Someone That You Wouldn't Have To Tell That You Don't Wanna Be Alone, Why Can't We Have A Special Someone To Be There To Wipe Away Your Tears, A Special Someone That Tells You Thats She'll Be Here Forever And Say There Is Nothing To Fear, Why Can't We Have A Special Someone That Can Share Her Pain With You, A Special Someone That Turns Your Morning Sky Blue, Why Can't We Have Someone That Can Be Around To Make You Smile, A Special Someone Whose Love For You Won't Ever Change Eventhough Its Been Awhile, Why Can't We Have A Special Someone That Loves You For What You Are Today, But Not Leave You With A Feeling So Empty And Leave You With Nothing Left To Say~


This Is Real Love....

i'm doin some hardcore work on my term paper thingy... bleah >.<

i stole this from Rachael Vance's phusebox cuz i love it:

i saw this on a random girl's myspace. haha i like it :)
----------------Girls----------------------------
------- -----are like apples-------------------
--------on trees. The best ones-----------
------are at the top of the tree.--------
----The boys dont want to reach------
---for the good ones because they ------
-are afraid of falling and getting hurt.----
Instead, they just get the rotten apples-
---from the ground that aren't as good,
but easy. So the apples at the top think
-something is wrong with them, when in
--reality, they're amazing. They just
---have to wait for the right boy to-------
----- come along, the one who's-----------
----------- brave enough to-----------------
-----------------climb all----------------------
----------------- the way---------------------
-----------------to the top--------------------
---------------- of the tree.------------------

w00t.     tru dat.

"Will I be inhuman?
Will I be invisible to everyone?
I find nothing I want in a place like this
Which I escaped and tumbled into
I rip my feelings off my heart
And stick a smile on the mask
Please take me away from here
Before everything becomes a memory"
-Ayu (Happy Ending)

He took massive beatings for us,

He stood there and let himself be mocked and ridculed on our behalf,

He carried the cross the Gasemane so we would be spared,

He died on the cross so that we might have eternal life in Him,

And He rose again on the third day so that all of His people will know that He truely is the son of GOD.

Well Easter is coming up on Sunday, so here are my thoughts on Easter.
Why, as Christians, do we put more emphasis on Christmas than we do on Easter?  Is not the day that Jesus rose from the dead more impotant than his birth?  Yes, I know his birthday is important, but our faith is based on his resurection, not his birth!  So, you would not miss or forget Christmas so don't forget the reason behind our beliefs!  Believe in Easter and recognize it for the amazing day that it is!  Jesus came back to life from the DEAD!!!!!Just think about that and then realize the magnitude of it!!  He rose from the DEAD!!!  He is alive and living and active!!  Let him move in you in this special season!!  And here is a amazing song that tells that story:   


In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This Cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My Comforter, my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand


In Christ alone, who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

'Till on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live


There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Brought with the precious blood of Christ


No guilt in life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life's first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

'Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

I'd like to take this moment to mention how much I DETEST blog services that require you to register before you can comment.

My real blog is found at:

slyflame.pitas.com

Let the dust collecting commence.

So I ran into one of my old high school crushes on myspace. We were pretty good friends in high school butlost touch after freshman year of college. So I message with one of our inside jokes in it. I found myself all weekend waiting for him to reply. Pathetic, I know! So today I go to check my email and I have a message and a friend request from Rob. Seriously I felt like I was a junior in high school again waiting for chior practice so I could talk to him! Why am I such a big dork? Why do I get butterflys in my belly becasue Rob wants to be my friend? Sometimes I hate being a girl.

strawberry yougurt burst cheerios rock my socks!