1 John 4:18

February 15 2008
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.


November 10 2007

i like back massages

i dislike papers that are late....egh


i want a hug from each member of my family right now

i miss wide open spaces without concrete



i love the gift that God has given me

i hate being behind or feeling useless 


  goodnight all 



September 28 2007

my throat is tight

i can't swallow

all of my emotions seem to have collected in the pit of my stomach and they seem to swell with each tear i hold back 


i don't want to cry,

but i don't want to hurt either

yet i can't seem to prevent either 


i feel my heartbeat throughout every part of my body 

i don't want to think because i don't like my thoughts

anger, hurt, dissappointment

fear floods in bringing with it even worse

those things unnamed by the heart because i don't want to admit    

    they are there 



if little things are impossible, then what of the big things?

what does this mean?

why do i hurt? 


is being numb better than feeling pain? 

last day.... hmm

September 11 2007

well..... today is the very last day of my life as a teenager.


very very odd. 

very final sounding.


 do i magicly become responsible and.... adult?nothing changed magicly when i turned 18 

life is... life


breathe in. breathe out.forgetting either one is a serious problem. 



life is good-ish

July 14 2007
yesterday i hiked mt. leconte- exhausting! amazing! today we went to dollywood. i rode mystery mine- accomplishment for me. then one of our guys accidentally hit the curb in the van and blew a tire. interesting- i want to go horseback riding so bad- it's about all that would help me clear my head right now... don't like the new phusebox.  

Write me! my mailbox is sad!

June 11 2007

ok so everybody's getting mail... and packages.... and funness from home..... except me! lol! drop me a note sometime!


Smoky Mountain Resort Ministries
3327 Camp Smoky Lane
Sevierville, TN 37876



June 06 2007
k not sure how i ffel about all this newness-- won't have much time to play with it - i'm in the smoky's working for Smoky Mountain Resort Ministries until Aug. so yeah... no internet at dorm.... brent... can you still confirm my pix request?

Quote of the Week

May 27 2007

If you are ever going to experience love, you must surrender to it.

a la the movie "Fools Rush In"

Quote of the Week

May 13 2007

You can turn painful situations around through laughter. If you can find humor in anything, even poverty, you can survive it.
Bill Cosby

Quote of the Week

May 06 2007
How you treat people
is about
who you are,
not who they are.

exams bite my ankles

April 30 2007
Econ - 10 am... about to begin studying

Constitutional Law- 1pm- began studying 2 weeks aog -still feel horribly unprepared

Quote of the Week

April 29 2007

A woman can say more in a
than a man can say in a sermon
~Arnold Haultain ~


April 25 2007
I wish to be... admired.
I love to be... held.
I hope to be... precious.
I deserve to be... sought after.
I long to be... enough.
i need to be loved.


April 23 2007
why do romantic movies always involve someone missing a flight for love?

Quote of the Week

April 22 2007
Our lives improve only when we take chances
- and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
* Walter Anderson *

i just dont understand

April 20 2007
if not now,

ME defined!

April 18 2007
Dani Westerman --

Visually addictive

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

Quote of the Week

April 15 2007

kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when
words become superfluous. 

Ingrid Bergman


April 12 2007
blessed are those who mourn
for they shall be comforted

why is phusebox so pokin slow?

April 10 2007

i mean at this rate it's following the speed limit on mtsu campus it's so slow. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

bitter.... hmm ..uh... so.... yeahNO

April 09 2007
so apparently i'm bitter.

one thing.
bitterness is always discribed as an aftertaste.

while you have me, i'm sweet -perhaps bittersweet.
like like anything great, the sweet is worth the bitter.
it's when you let me go, turn me loose, cast me off-

it's then that you taste the bitter.

and my dear,
you've not tasted that bitter.

and so penguins are better than you

April 05 2007
I was in deffinite need of an awesome day and let me tell you...
God blessed me with a totally awesome, de-stressing- make me happy, wonderfully amazing day. But, ya know, that's not suprising because He's just that kind of guy!

i'd hug everyone if i could.... a picture of me hugging austin (___who is fun to molest in coffee shops ;-P ___) will have to suffice

you wish...

April 05 2007
... that you recieved a random phone calll asking if you could possibly help MTSU by registering early to test the new system.... such a hardship to take upon myself but i guess i can sacrifice and get in all the classes i want...
so i'll register today at 1:30 to help out my school..... he he he he

Quote of the Week

April 02 2007
“Patience is waiting.

Not passively waiting.

That is laziness.

But to keep going when the going is

hard and slow

- that is patience.”


Quote of the Week

March 26 2007
A ship in harbor is safe -- but that is not what ships are built for.
John A. Shedd, Salt from My Attic, 1928