here i am

March 19 2009

 Here s where I am.
  The sun is shining down where I am. Its beautiful. I have opportunities everywhere.
school has been great just finished up spring play- lead female role. I’m not the smartest of us but been doing really good in my classes, and its taken effort. Worth it. Been involved in FCA. Next year I am going to be either vp or president. Honestly, I don’t think I’m ready for president, but if the girl who is going to be gives up on this battle she’s been struggling with it will be me. Made youth leadership. Been miming a little. Not on the team anymore, though. Been running. Ah.. piano, harmonica. Lots going on.

 Life is good. And God is good. All the time. He has put me back on my feet. It took me realizing that I can’t be depressive. I have to decide I want joy, and look for light not wander in darkness. Now there is light and it is good.
 Been single for over a month. When I look at him I get down but then I smile. We had a good thing. When I see couples I smile because they are so happy, then I cry. I miss that, but then I’m happy again because I’ll be like that again. Whether its him or not who’s to say. It ll come together in time. Always does. if its 4 month or 3 years it ll happen. For once I’m not worried about it. Why should I be, ya know? I am enjoying what I have now.
 and life is… wonderful. People are wonderful. Actually no, people are pathetic and low. But when you talk to the worse of worst you understand they are a lot like yourself. They have desires, and good intentions, but they fail, and fall. But yeah.. life is still wonderful.
 I’m sure by now no one is even reading this.  But its okay. Its more me than you anyways, but by chance someone is thank you.

Jacob Wuertz

March 21 2009
People aren't perfect; but the imperfections are really jsut pieces to a big picture painted by a creator with a boundless mind. Perfection is in His hands.