I can't really love her.
December 11 2008
Is it possible that I will ever be able to love her completely?
I love her, but so many times I feel this inner twined hatred within me when she is around. I just feel like I can’t fully love her because of who she is. And that is my problem. I can’t stand that I can’t really love her.
Yesterday was act 1 since she’s been home. All out screaming, and fighting! Tears fill my eyes. I hate it. I can’t take it. My mother gets so upset, and she shouldn’t be crying and stressed like this. It hurts me to see that. She hurts people, she ruins friendships, she is a liar, but She is my sister.
But honestly, this is my problem…. I can’t love her like I should. I have tried so many times. What’s wrong with me?