im jealous.

October 24 2008
laugh at me if you like, but i totally fell head over heels in like with matt manes from cloud chase, and idk. just a little girl crush on a drummer in a band.alot of you know how i just could barely even talk when looking at him, and how i thought he just did it for me. i didnt think of pursuing that, or anything, but i found his myspace... and well. i saw his gf.  i cant help but feel so JEALOUS! & cant help but compare myself to his gorgeous amazing girlfriend. why do we do that? why do i do that?
im feeling pretty down right now. :(