October 19 2005
Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails. Proverbs 19:21
There is no point in making plans as if God doesn't exist, because the future is in his hands. My question is how will I react if God steps in and rearranges my plans? It is necessary to plan ahead, but place God's desires at the center of my planning, and know that he will never disappoint me.
I have a new love for Fido's, not only is it a social place, but it is somewhere where I can relax. A place where I can go to clear my mind, and put things back in focuse. I went last night and had an amazing conversation with my father, my creator, my friend. It was a conversation well overdue!
As I sat there I came across a verse that spoke to me. It is James 4: 14, Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while, and than vanishes away.
It was like a breath of fresh air. I do not know what God has planned for me. I am just a vapor that can disappear at anytime.
* Life is short, enjoy it! It doesn't matter how many years that you live on this earth, but what matters is how you lived them. Live for God today! If you live for God today, than no matter how long you have lived , you will have fulfilled God's plan for you.
Humble yourself in the presence of the Lord, and he will lift you up. The word that gets me is WILL. It says he WILL lift you up, not he might, or maybe, but WILL.
Humbling yourself means recognizing that our worth comes from him alone. To be humble involves working with his power, according to his guidance.
* I don't deserve God's favor, but he reaches out to me with love, and gives me worth and dignity despite all of my shortcomings. That love is what I have been longing for, searching for, but searching in the wrong places. Only God can provide an unconditional love, not others like myself.
October 13 2005
If you know me I have probably already talked to you about this, so it should make sense to you. If it doesn't than bare with me.
The title was brought about by my thoughts, is this my last October here? I moved here in October of 96, and nine years later I am wondering, is this it, my last October.
Like I said, if you know me this isn't new, so here it goes. As I sat in church on Sunday Drew said that, "There comes a time in our lifes where we have to turn the page, and begin a new chapter of our life." Jes, looked at me and said, "But I don't want you to start a new chapter." I laughed, but in reality that is where I have come to.
God is reminding me that all of the broken friendships, heartaches, and trials that I have been through have brought me closer to him. He is also reminding me that, he will never leave my side. Which makes me think of the footprints in the sand. The times where there was only one set of footprints, he was not walking next to me , but carrying me.
I am not perfect by all means, and there are things in my life that I deaply regret, but those are the things that have helped build my character. So if you don't know about those things in my past, let me remind you that that is what it is my past. I can't change any of it if I tried, and if you love me now, you love all those things, because that past is what made me the person I am today. (another tangent)
Anyway, October has come along, and it brought some decisions that need to be made. I am not scared anymore, those feelings have kinda turned into feelings of excitement. I am excited to see what God has in store for me. Maybe a new begining, a new school, new job....new life!
I needed God to remind me, that it is ok to move on. The question still is, is it time to turn the page and start a new chapter? Please pray for me & my family
October 05 2005
September 30 2005
was about to begin, the mother returned to
her seat and discovered that the child was missing
Suddenly, the curtains parted and spotlights
focused on the impressive Steinway on stage.
In horror, the mother saw her little
boy sitting at the keyboard, innocently picking out
"Twinkle,Twinkle Little Star."
At that moment, the great piano master made his entrance, quickly moved to the piano, and
whispered in the boy's ear,
"Don't quit.""Keep playing."
Then, leaning over, Paderewski reached
down with his left hand and began filling
in a bass part. Soon his right arm reached
around to the other side of the child,
and he added a running obbligato.
Together, the old master and the young novice
transformed what could have been a frightening situation into a wonderfully creative experience.
The audience was so mesmerized that they couldn't recall what else the great master played.
Only the classic,
" Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star."
Perhaps that's the way it is with God.
What we can accomplish on
our own is hardly noteworthy.
We try our best, but the results aren't always
graceful flowing music. However, with the
hand of the Master, our life's
work can truly be beautiful.
The next time you set out to accomplish great feats,
listen carefully. You may hear the voice of the
Master, whispering in your ear,
"Don't quit." "Keep playing."
May you feel His arms around you and
know that His hands are there, helping you
turn your feeble attempts into true masterpieces.
Remember, God doesn't seem to
call the equipped, rather, He equips the 'called.'
Life is more accurately measured by the lives you touch than by the things you acquire.
September 06 2005
I also think that the main reason I want to get married id because I have grown up so fast for someone my age, and what is next? I have a good job, I am about to graduate well in a few years, and the next step is what?
Please if you would pray for me
September 02 2005
September 01 2005
August 16 2005
Guy # 1: You are very special to me. I love the way you love everyone, you have such a big heart. Everytime I see you with those kids it makes me so happy to know that there are still amazing guys in this world. You are the guy in every dream, but right now isn't the right time, and only God knows when it will be.
Guy # 2: I don't know how one person can make one girl feel everyone emotion at one time. You had the love that you are searching for, but it is gone now. I can not wait for that day, the day you realize that I was the one that loved the real you, and not the guy that you want to be. It is nice to know that everything is back to normal for us. I miss you, but I can't be around you b/c that can lead to more unneeded emotions.
Guy # 3: You have grown up so much, and that amazes me. I know that you are tired, and Stressed, but you have resposibilities that need to be taken care of and I hope that you have a new outlook on life after that incident. You really and truely mean a lot to me and I am so glad that God has blessed me with you.
Guy # 4: You are stubborn, arrogant, and you have a part of my heart. We went together like Twinkies & cream filling, Beer & baseball, and a cigarette after good sex : ) (j/k) What happened? I guess life moves on, but I have learned a lot from you. I miss our long talks, listening to con-hoptry, Silly qoutes, Big Daddy & Skeetor, and your hugs.
Guy # 5: You are not right for me at all, but I think that God has placed you in my life for many reasons. I know that you are trying to get your life together, but if I am with you I know that I will fall b/c I am not strong enough, and you could probably be a weakness b/c you are very charming! All I can say to you is Don't be somebody that your not. Do not change b/c I don't agree with your ways, but change b/c you want too!
August 03 2005
July 29 2005
July 27 2005
*Update on the nephew: he is doing really good. He is in Atlanta with his other grandma while his parents celebrate their anniver.
* Another prayer request: My friend jenn had a baby on Friday. He is doing pretty well, but he has down syndrome. She is handeling it very well and every time i talk to her she is thanking God for her little blessing. It is really and truely amazing how God works. Anyway she is 19 & a single mother so she really needs your prayers.
Verse of the day:1 corinthians 6:19
July 19 2005
*please pray for my nephew. He is in the hospital for dehydration, and some other stuff. He will be fine, but he is just so little. i hate to see him in that big bed.