The last October
October 13 2005
I have spent all morning trying to write all my thoughts, emotions, and little tangents done.Just to read back over it, and push the backspace buttom because they make sense in my head, but not in writing.
If you know me I have probably already talked to you about this, so it should make sense to you. If it doesn't than bare with me.
The title was brought about by my thoughts, is this my last October here? I moved here in October of 96, and nine years later I am wondering, is this it, my last October.
Like I said, if you know me this isn't new, so here it goes. As I sat in church on Sunday Drew said that, "There comes a time in our lifes where we have to turn the page, and begin a new chapter of our life." Jes, looked at me and said, "But I don't want you to start a new chapter." I laughed, but in reality that is where I have come to.
God is reminding me that all of the broken friendships, heartaches, and trials that I have been through have brought me closer to him. He is also reminding me that, he will never leave my side. Which makes me think of the footprints in the sand. The times where there was only one set of footprints, he was not walking next to me , but carrying me.
I am not perfect by all means, and there are things in my life that I deaply regret, but those are the things that have helped build my character. So if you don't know about those things in my past, let me remind you that that is what it is my past. I can't change any of it if I tried, and if you love me now, you love all those things, because that past is what made me the person I am today. (another tangent)
Anyway, October has come along, and it brought some decisions that need to be made. I am not scared anymore, those feelings have kinda turned into feelings of excitement. I am excited to see what God has in store for me. Maybe a new begining, a new school, new job....new life!
I needed God to remind me, that it is ok to move on. The question still is, is it time to turn the page and start a new chapter? Please pray for me & my family
If you know me I have probably already talked to you about this, so it should make sense to you. If it doesn't than bare with me.
The title was brought about by my thoughts, is this my last October here? I moved here in October of 96, and nine years later I am wondering, is this it, my last October.
Like I said, if you know me this isn't new, so here it goes. As I sat in church on Sunday Drew said that, "There comes a time in our lifes where we have to turn the page, and begin a new chapter of our life." Jes, looked at me and said, "But I don't want you to start a new chapter." I laughed, but in reality that is where I have come to.
God is reminding me that all of the broken friendships, heartaches, and trials that I have been through have brought me closer to him. He is also reminding me that, he will never leave my side. Which makes me think of the footprints in the sand. The times where there was only one set of footprints, he was not walking next to me , but carrying me.
I am not perfect by all means, and there are things in my life that I deaply regret, but those are the things that have helped build my character. So if you don't know about those things in my past, let me remind you that that is what it is my past. I can't change any of it if I tried, and if you love me now, you love all those things, because that past is what made me the person I am today. (another tangent)
Anyway, October has come along, and it brought some decisions that need to be made. I am not scared anymore, those feelings have kinda turned into feelings of excitement. I am excited to see what God has in store for me. Maybe a new begining, a new school, new job....new life!
I needed God to remind me, that it is ok to move on. The question still is, is it time to turn the page and start a new chapter? Please pray for me & my family
Jonathan Moore
October 13 2005
I will def be throwing up a prayer for you and your fam. Im not real sure exactly everything you are talking about but I think I do in a way haha. All that said I know that God will work out everything in due time. Just keep trusting in him like I know you are. I hope you have a great weekend. It was good seein ya at church wed. Peace!
In Him,
Jonathan
1Thes 5:16-18
