You know I have been thinking a lot lately. I am such a hopeless romantic! I love the thought of being in love, having someone who actually cares how your day went, and just spending every moment thinking about that person. I think that I am ready for all of that, but I guess I am not. I know that God knows exactly when that will happen to me, but I lose faith. Lately I have been doubting that he will ever let me experience that kind of love, a mutual love not just one sided, but equal. I realized that the only person that will be able to give me that unconditional love his him. Gosh it is crazy how I get so overwhelmed with my life. I want to be happy with my life and my choices, but I always ask "What if?" I really need to just give it all to god, and stop asking questions because I need to have full trust in him, and he will do something TOTALLY amazing i know. It is just that whole issue of letting go, and trusting him.
I also think that the main reason I want to get married id because I have grown up so fast for someone my age, and what is next? I have a good job, I am about to graduate well in a few years, and the next step is what?
Please if you would pray for me