so there comes certain points in yor life...times when you realize things that come with maturity and a deeper level in your relationship with God. you realize somethings are meaningless and you learn the cherish other things.

you realize you are not promised tomorrow, and you better be living right today.

you may think back on your life and automatically want to go back and do it all over again. but if you think about it for a minute you will realize how those events shaped you into the person you are today.

i was thinking like that a little while ago and earlier today. at first i let the feeling of regret enter me, but quickly pushed it away. i know that God will use that for the good somehow. i was thinking about my heart, and how i did not guard it the way God would of wanted me to. it started today when i was listening to "bless the broken road". i began to realize how i did wish i could go back and pick up all the pieces of my heart i so carelessly threw away. and tonight the thought came to me again as i was reading something. i thought about all the "firsts" that were taken away from the special man in my life, because of my mistakes. i wish that i could of honored my future husband ALL the days of my life, like it says in proverbs 31.

think for a moment about that day you meet your future spouse. think about all your past relationships. think about all the times you gave away your heart, and even how you may of given yourself away physically, yes, this even includes holding hands or kissing. and think about what you may hear.

that breaks my heart to think about...

with the more i learn about God's faithfulness, i have realized that if it is His will for you to marry, then He will bring you and that person together. you don't have to date around to find them or just to see what you like or don't like in the opposite sex. God does put desires in your heart about certain traits in the opposite sex for a reason. He will fulfill those desires and bring you one awesome person. instead of dating around, wouldn't it be awesome to devote your single years to having an intimate relationship with God?! letting Him develop you into the person He created you to be, learing how to have a godly relationship and serving Him with an undivided heart.

i know some of you are thinking that is too radical of thinking and you are crazy...

and some of you maybe thinking that is a good idea, but are thinking "i have made mistakes and i can't possibly to that now"...

and for you, there is hope

God has been behind you picking up all the pieces of your heart you have given away. He will give them back to you and restore your heart if you let Him. the process may not be easy, but it will be worth it.

this is something that has been on my heart lately. i hope i didn't offend anyone, that was definitely not my intention. i want to encourage you guys to seek being satisfied in God alone. making Him number one in your life and not a boyfriend or girlfriend.

just seek after God and He will guide you in the direction you need to go.

i hope everyone has a great night!