i'm at work, which is the only place i have time to write on here. I miss jared... he comes back on friday- very very excited about that. Just out of curiosity if anyone reads this... are there ever times that no matter how much you pray or read the word or beg... you still don't feel like God is there? I mean, you know he is, but it's like he just wont make his presence known to you. I definitely feel that way now. I am so frustrated. I feel so distant but i dont know why. I want a fire in me for God like i've never known before. I realize i'm not going to "feel" God all the time because it's not all about that, but i want to feel for him. please pray for me.