i'm sick of this... sick of it all.

i've tried to fix things with her, i really have.
i've tried to keep our friendship, but its like she doesn't
care at all.
i can't fix something that i didn't mess up. Yet it seems that i'm the one to blame for whatever the hell happened.
I just don't get it.
this is definitely not fair to me.

but i see it in her attitude.
she doesn't care.
she's a different person.
she changed.
she doesn't acknowledge me.

so, i guess its over.
our friendship, is over.
i wish this weren't true. but she doesn't care.
and i am sick to my stomach.
why does it have to be like this?

so, people have told me to just forget her since she's being like this,
but she was my bestfriend.
and its just so hard to see her treating me like i'm stupid or something.
but along the way of trying to move on,
i've made some truly amazing friends.

and i thank God for them.
because they've helped me get through this sadness.
So, maybe this was meant to happen for a reason.

BUt i just don't know.