Phusebox

i just don't get it..

October 31 2005

erg. yeah.

Does anyone give a fuck about how i feel?
about my feelings?

I'm effing human.

And damn... I just cannot get over something thats been bothering me for a few months now... and i'm still extremely sad about it all...

Here's the thing...

Me and Morgan used to be bestbestfriends, well, all the sudden we meet Brianne, and it was on the CatholicHeartWorkCamp that they got to know each other better...
as time went on.. I became replaced by her.

It fucking sucks to be replaced,
and the feeling hurts a lot.

Sure... everyone tells me to move on, because i have more friends... but Morgan was just the only true bestfriend that i hadn't had in a while.

but now, i'm hoping that our friendship isn't completely diminished..

but i think it is...
and it sucks.

i hope its not true.

And so... i've practically cried every night because i lost the best friendship, and i wish i knew what the hell i did wrong.

will i ever know?

but seriously, i'm so effing emo... i never was, but i guess i've changed, and sometimes,
just sometimes,
i feel like giving up on life.

Super Ste

November 01 2005

you prolly didn't do anything wrong. stuff just happens and people change and they turn into losers sometimes. and i'm totally sorry that happened to you. i HATE being replaced. <3

Chris Slate,

November 01 2005

this has nothing to do with your post::: but i know that you are an amzing person... amazing with a caps "A"... seriously... u have like a perfect personality... ur georgeous...; funny, smart... make shirts... haha... and ur just Amazing... when we met... i fealt like i found a long lost best friend... i fealy like you were EVERYTHING i ever wanted... ever... and so we hung out... we went to the "concert" first... but no one was there... then the next night it was the cornmaze... then it was randomly hangin out until Zach got mad... haha... then it was school.... i got to see the face of an amazing girl everyday... and that made me estatic... then wednesday was awesome cuz we went and ate lunch with ur parents... i seriously seemed like you were my best friend ever... and i wanted to be close with you... possibly even a "more than friend" way... but just as i think that... we stop talking... u kinda walk past without even a raise of the eyebrow in the hall... u kinda act like i dont exist... and i didnt know what was going on... i fealt like i lost my own life... to think... we only hung out for less than a week... we only met one friday at a game... we only went to the movies and a corn maze for one measly night... i only met your parents twice... and once was awkward... haha... u know what im talkin about... ur perfect karla... u really are... (now this is about ur post) if morgan thinks she can find someone better than its DEFINATELY her loss... i love you karla... i mean... hell... i only screamed it at the top of my lungs 8394752983459824 times... and i meant it every time... Karla... your amazing... lets be friends again... call me sometime... i got yet another new number... 397-6777... Coconut Bay Cafe friday?