a week and a day til warped tour! 

  anyone going? 

  holly is FINALLY 15! 

  sheesh, it took long enough to get here! 

Alice came to a fork in the road.
 "which road do I take? " she asked.
"where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat
 " I don't know, " Alice answered.
 "Then," said the cat,
 "it does not matter.

 lol! brilliant!

 this band is wow.

 hee hee!

   <- best book ever.

i want to go back so bad.

 <--woah...  

  *gasp* it's ororon!!

   aww sora!! i want to hug him!

  aw, riku! i want to hug him too!

 oh. hello!

  ^^aww...not even cool.^^ 

  got my hair cut today 

  went grocery shopping and some fat old lady laughed at me. 

  i'm so sick of people it's not even funny. 

  i'm sick of wasting time and energy on hating them though so i just walked on by whereas a week ago i would have told her to shove it up her fat ass.  at least i don't weigh three hundred pounds. 

  you know what? let them laugh. 

in the end God's the only one that can judge you and he will take care of things. 

  but i will never understand why people are made to be so closed minded. 

  if they don't believe in it then surely it must be wrong. 

  if you don't look or act like everyone else then surely there must be something wrong with you. 

  you know what? 

  I'm so sick of adults trying to force their thoughts, their morals onto me. 

  all while they blow each other up on foriegn soil. 

  as we were told growing up, as we will one day tell our children "don't fight. violence is not the answer". 

  why do they tell us this and then turn around to fight a war? 

  it's the same basic princible. 

  no matter what you say, it's still violence. 

  and i'm not trying to sound like a tree hugger or anything. 

  because i'm not. 

  i don't know what i am. 

  i don't even know where i stand on my thoughts of all this. 

  just stop trying to teach me to be fucking righteous when you can't even control your own pathetic little worlds. 

  i don't want your war. 

  new screenames everyone! 

  Xxdidyoujustpoot 

and

  imaloserkidyeahh 

  welp, this is my second post of the day, thus pointing out that yessir indeedy, i do have an addiction. 

  anyway...i've been trying to skateboard lately since there's nothing else really to do. 

  i love it. 

  it's so incredibly fun.  

  but i have to use my sister's board because i dont own one and her's is a crappy gross board. 

  so... 

  anyone have a board that they would be interested in selling to me? 

I CAN'T WAIT ANY LONGER!!!

 band time is almost here and i think i'm going to cry!

 leadership workshop was today (and tomorrow) and i dont think i have a chance.

 but it's all good.

 i can honestly say i've never loved anything so much before.

  i'm just so excited!! 

 oh, and congragulations to ari and milly for making dm!

 i'm so happy for you guys!

tomorrow is graduation.

this could be my last chance so speak up, to let him know how i feel.

but then again you can never tell just what's going to happen.

too late?

i dont think it's ever too late.

just as long as you speak up.

will God give me the strentgh?

i guess we'll find out tomorrow...

yeah, so this year went by so incredibly fast.

i figured that i better start wrapping things up into my yearly end of year blog, but this years would have been so long i figured i'd just put it into a few blogs.

yeah. so i've learned so much this year.

and number one that sticks out is never allow anyone to become your everything because they might not be here the next day, and then what do you have?

the answer is nothing.

and that's exactly what i felt inside.

just....don't. life is too short to sit around and mope so get your sorry asses up and have some fun.

number two...friends really do become family. i dont think this year would have been half as great without my friends.

three....you really can get abs by laughing.

the cause? usually too much spare time spent with a few good friends and large amounts of caffiene.

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how do you deal when you care about someone who doesn't care about you back?

i mean, i like him, but obviously he doesn't return those feelings.

i dont even know if he knows.

how do you tell someone you never get to see anymore that you care for them?

he's graduating this year.

time is running out.

for what?

i dont even know.

i expect too much out of life...

mmmm......bagels.

na ni na fa la...

BALLOON!

...

i have decided to go back to being the person i was in 7th grade.

i liked her better than the idiot i was these past two years.

sorry you guys.

...

JAZZ FEST THIS WEEKEND!!

you better be there...or else!

it's going to be fun!

ohs plays at 7:40....???? i think  ????

...

percussion and jazz band concert in the ohs auditorium thursday at 7 pm.

please go.

it's free!

...

so...things are going pretty great.

the band trip was simply amazing but i'm still recovering from a lack of sleep these past few months.

i have decided that guys are pretty ok after all.

but why does God make them so dern confusing?

but i do like the way they smile, the way they smell (well, some of them), the way they laugh, the way they fidget when they get nervous, the way they look all scared right before you chop their heads off with a huge machete.

(just kidding about that last one)

so there's this one kid.

yeah, he's pretty special...

i've known him for a long time but only recently have i been talking to him.

found out he even liked me during middle school when i liked him too...we were just too shy to admit it.

and then he said "it's not too late".

(awww)

so we are hanging out later this week.

...

somebody call me or something!

spring break is boring!

so the band trip rocked harder than anything!!!

i'll put pics up later, but my camera conked out halfway throught the trip so i didn't get many pics.

and i've been talking to a guy i liked pretty much all through middle school and i just found out that he like me too, we were just to shy to admit it to each other during middle school.

wow.

talk about an akward conversation.

anyway, i'm really sleepy and i'm super glad that everyone had awesome yet safe time in nyc.

(it's crazy there!)

and it really is true that you can stand on one street corner and see like....two, three starbucks.

screw disney world, new york is the happiest place in the world!

EDIT....here's some pics from the trip.

and yes. i spilt coffee all in ari's shoes.

yeah, so i just got back from the yaws thing at oakland. the skits were cheesy but they were fun. i guess...

i really wanna do drama next year. and art. and photography. and....well, there's just not enough time in high school to do everything i want to.

but anyway, things are going pretty great lately. i don't even miss him at all anymore. lately i have noticed what nincompoops guys are and who really needs them anyway, but apparently we do because i've got my eye on a couple and if you haven't noticed who yet then you are just either really stupid or don't spend much time around me.

you know, only lately have i stepped back and enjoyed high school. the first half was fun, don't get me wrong, just not like it is now.

i always took time out to do stuff with him, but he would always back out at the last minute saying he had to go to his mom's and other various bullshit.

i'm just glad i didn't waste more time than i did.

never again will i be so blind as to allow a guy to blow me off and waste my time.

i won't take anymore bullshit.

but despite everything, i look around and i really truly realize that i've never been happier...

anybody who drums or plays bass interested in starting a band?

you can only wish you were this cool

I don't think i'm going to do Lent this year.

I don't think its a really big statement to just give up something for one measly little month and then go back to the horrible people we were before.

the point to this is to make us remember the sacrifice God made for us right?

well, i think that's something that should  be remembered and honoured all year long and not just for one pathetic month of the year.

when i look around at the people who do participate in Lent, they don't say anything about Jesus or anything. They just whine and complain that they can't eat their candy bar or whatever it was that they gave up.

i'm trying to be a better person and i'm trying to not be cynical all the time.

i must say, these past 2 weeks have been happier than most.

I'm going to stop doing what my church asks me to do and i'm going to do what God asks me to do.

And isn't it that He wants us to love other people regaurdless of race, gender, social status, sexual preference, and any other pathetic reason to hate other people?

I dunno...there's just a lot of politics and hipocrasy in churches lately.

and i just can't see such a loving, gracious God asking for something so stupid.

I think what He really wants (and what we really need to do) is for us to love other people.

i'm sorry if i offended anyone.

I''m just putting my thoughts out into the open and i don't think we are being the people we should be...