well more lovely news from the drama filled house of Farrar....my brother's new girlfriend candace is pregnant.

I HATE THIS SHIT!! I HAVEN'T SEEN CLAYTON IN NEARLY THREE WEEKS AND I ONLY GET TO TALK TO HIM FOR 20 MIN A NIGHT IF I'M LUCKY! A NORMAL NIGHT IS ABOUT TEN MINUTES. B/C HE IS SO BUSY WORKING AND TRYING TO PAY OFF BILLS HE BARELY HAS TIME TO TAKE A DAMN PISS MUCH LESS SIT AROUND AND TALK ON THE PHONE. HALF THE TIME I DO GET TO TALK TO HIM HE'S WORKIN ON SOMETHING WHILE HE'S DOIN IT. AND YEAH I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO GO SEE HIM 1. B/C I'VE BEEN BROKE AS HELL AND 2. B/C DADDY IS ABOUT TO HAVE  HEARTATTACK THAT CLAYTON HASN'T COME UP HERE AGAIN SINCE GRADUATION BUT LIKE I SAID THE POOR GUY BARELY HAS TIME TO TALK ON THE PHONE AND DADDY THINKS HE'S GOT TIME TO DRIVE TWO HOURS UP HERE JUST TO COME SEE MY PITIFUL ASS? YEAH RIGHT! AND PLUS I'D MUCH RATHER BE DOWN THERE B/C WHEN I'M THERE HE DOES STILL WORK BUT I'LL HELP HIM AND WE JUST HANG WITH HIS PARENTS ALL AFTERNOON AND THERE'S NO WASHING DISHES, NO COOKING FOR 15 PPL OR SCREAMING BABIES. WE ALL JUST CHILL. AND IT'S SO NICE. BUT UP HERE THERE IS ALWAYS SOMETHING THAT NEEDS TO BE CLEANED CLOTHES THAT NEED TO BE WASHED A BABY THAT'S CRYING SOMETING! AND DAD IS IN A FUCKING PERPETUAL BAD MOOD AND THEN THAT PISSES MOM OFF B/C SHE'S BEEN WORKIN TIL TWO IN THE DAMN MORNING AND THEN I'M STILL TRYING TO WORK AND THEN COMING HOME AND HALF WAY TRYING TO HELP MOM TAKE CARE OF THE KIDS WHILE DAD SITS ON HIS ASS AND STILL GET MY SCHOOL SHIT TAKEN CARE OF. I SWEAR TO GOD IF IT WOULDN'T PISS MOM OFF I JUST WOULDN'T GO. SHE'S THE ONLY REASON I'M GOING. IF IT WERE UP TO ME I JUST FLAT OUT WOULDN'T GO AND I WOULD JUST FIND A BETTER JOB THAN THE ONE I'VE GOT NOW AND I WOULD SO JUST START SAVING UP SOME MONEY TO OPEN UP MY RESTAURANT AND THAT WOULD BE THE END OF IT! AND ON TOP OF ALL THIS ANGELA MOVED BACK TO CANADA TODAY SO NOW I'M BACK WITH NO ONE TO HANG OUT WITH B/C SHE'S THE ONLY PERSON THAT WILL EVEN STOP AND THINK HEY, I WONDER WHAT BETH IS DOING TODAY? SHE IS THE DEFINITION OF A BEST FRIEND. WE ALWAYS TELL EACH OTHER NO MATTER WHAT U NEED JUST CALL ME. AND SHE ACTUALLY DOES THAT. I CALLED HER LAST WEEK CRYING, FRUSTRATED AND JUST PLAIN PISSED OFF AND SHE SAT THERE AND TALKED TO ME AND TOLD ME EVERYTHING WOULD BE OKAY. AND JUST. SHE WAS BEING A FRIEND. SHE IS THE ONLY PERSON I CAN DO THAT WITH. EITHER HER OR STACEE. NO ONE ELSE EVEN GIVES A DAMN. I HAVE TWO PPL WHO ACTUALLY COMMENT ON THIS DAMN THING ANYMORE. (AND U KNOW WHO U ARE) NO ONE ELSE CAN EVEN BOTHER TO JUST SAY HEY LOVE YA. OR NE THING. I HAVEN'T HEARD A DAMN WORD FROM 3/4 OF THE PPL I HUNG OUT WITH EVERY DAY AT SCHOOL. WHATEVER HAPPEND TO BEING BFF'S???? APPARENTLY ANGELA IS THE ONLY ONE WHO STILL REMEMBERS WHAT THE SECOND F IN THAT MEANS.

ok so i'm back and it ROCKED! we rode like everything. i love acrophobia. it just like takes u up and then drops u. and it's scares the shit out of u b/c you almost don't stop. it's liek BREAK CHECK! and ur done lol. and angela totally talked me into riding the superman this time. i think that one is my fav! and like we stood in line for TWO HOURS to ride it! then we get up there and i'm cool i'm not like freakd out or ne thing. and they strap us in and we're waiting to go. then the floor drops out and the seats moved. (the whole ride u are facing the ground!) and after that i just said angela i can not believe i let u talk me into this! i wasn't scared i was actually kinda pissed but then we went down that first drop and i was fine. i smiled my ass off the whole ride. it didn't even make me scream lol. but my absolute and total favorite was GOLIATH! it's their new ride. we waited till the end of the night to do that one so the line wasn't too bad. we waited maybe 45 min tops. and it ROCKED! it doesn't go upside down or ne thing but u are like barely strapped in and they take u up 200 ft just to drop u down a 170 ft drop! it's soo big that at one point u aren't even in the park! you are over the freakin interstate! it was amazing. i thought angela was going to pee on herself. lol. she kinda has a height thing which is weird b/c she loves roller coasters. and yeah we didn't even get to ride batman this time.  the wait was THREE HOURS! forget that. i almost didn't want to wait for superman but we did. and man me and angels both are burnt. hers was worse than mine b/c i've kinda already got a tan but my shoulders still hurt. and my purse lays right on my burn damn it lol. and yeah that's about it. NO! wait. no it isn't lol. u won't believe what happened last night! we left the park at like 7-ish right? well by 8:30 we had already hit the hot tub and hung out or whatever and we were trying to watch tv b/c it had started raining so hard they had already shut down the park so we went and grabbed a snack out of the machine and we're sittin there trying to get something on the tv and our power went out! seriously. by then it was 10:30 ok? and like they had the emergency lights in the hallways and in the lobby but the rooms were pitch black. so we had like no AC or ne thing. and like when we called the front desk and askd what was up they didn't tell us anything other than power should be back soon if not u can come down to the lobby. wtf? but we calld later and they told us power should be back at 11:45. PSH! when did we get it back? TWO IN THE FUCKING MORNING! right after we both fell asleep too man. and wouldn't u know it we had like all the lights on when the power went out so when it came back all of them came on. not fun when ur trying to sleep lol. but man we had fun with the lights out. we had my laptop on playing really loud music and we were jumping on the bed and walking around the hotel talking to ppl. it was great. so ne ways. there was my nice long entry lol. love u guys.

why do boys have to be so damn confusing? and indecisive! (sp?)

so i've finally been accepted at austin peay! and yeah my last official day at work is july 12th. and i know that seems early but i got to thinking about it and i havne't had a summer off (like one where i didn't work) since the 7th grade! so i decided i wanted a little bit of a summer before i go to school. so after that i am spending like two weeks in erin either at my uncle's house or clayton's idk which yet. and he's going to help me sort out all my fin aid stuff. u know since he already goes there and everything. and then after that me and clayton are spending his week of paid vacation in panama since he's never been to the beach. then we'll be home in time for my birthday and after that me and stacee are going back to florida for the end of summer. yay. i can't wait. it's going to be soooo much fun! yay for summer!

so pretty sure clayton has been in the hospital the last day or so. he was at work the other day and he busted his finger when he was putting a new crank shaft in someone's car. and yeah he got a chunk of metal stuck in his knuckle and some anti freeze and brake fluid and all kinds of crap got in there and it gave him blood poisoning. nice huh? and keep in mind he did this on tuesday and he didn't go to the doctor until he almost passed out on his lunch break yesterday. (idiot) but they kept him all night last night and until 1 today. they had him on all kinds of crazy drugs. he could hardly talk last night. i bet he has no clue in hell what we talked about lol. but yeah he's okay. he still can't use his hand very well. he said they used a syringe and sucked all the stuff out of his knuckle. i was like ew. but they sent him home with some anti biotics and loratabs so he's fine lol. and yeah that's bout it. i've just been working and hanging out at the house. daddy went to indiana again and took the kids with him so it's been nice and quiet around here. i've actually been getting to sleep in and not feel bad about it lol. but yeah. i guess i'm out. love u guys.

okay so i've told u guys clayton and his family are country but i bet u can't guess just how country they are. guess what we had for lunch yesterday... deep fried RATTLESNAKE. seriously. and clayton made me try it.  it was weird. it was all chewy and uhhh. okay the end. call me if u guys want to do something. i'm tired of having to drive two hours just to find someone who wants to go out and do something lol.

so when i went to erin this weekend me and clayton were driving thru dover when he saw this little red sports car so he pulled a u-ey and we were looking at it. and it was in pretty good shape. they had 3,400 written on the windshield and we were both stilll in the car but we couldn't figure out wwhat the hell it was. like the little emblem thingy was on the hood and i recognized it but couldn't figure out what it was so we jump out of the car and turns out the damn thing is a PORSCHE. a porsche! for 3,400!! the only thing wrong with the outside was a dent in the passenger side front fender. but that can totally be popped right out. the interior wasn't in the greatest of shape. but nothing a little tlc won't fix. i'm like in love with this damn car lol. i'm like seriously thinking about finding a way to buy it. b/c i know if i talk to the guy i can soo get him to come down on the price. it's been sitting there for a while and u can tell. the window chalk was running down the window lol. the only thing is that if i DID get it i would have to make clayton teach me how to drive a stick b/c it's a five speed but i don't care. it's cute! it's a little red two seater. and it has a sun roof!! c'mon. it has me written all over it lol. but ne ways. enough about cars. how is summer going for u guys??

graduation pictures!!

that's me and clayton...we were still at mtsu. isn't he cute??

that's me and miss janelle

me, linda, and jackie and omg i didn't realize how friggin tall jackie is!!!

and we'll end with another pic of me and clatyon. can u tell i'm half lit? lol.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! CONGRATS CLASS OF '06!

so today is our first official day as a siegel high alumni! we are DONE baby! AND me and clayton are now officially dating. so this weekend was pretty great for me. i graduated, got to party a little, made like 200 bucks just opening envelopes and i got to wake up all weekend wrapped up in the arms of the man of my dreams.....ahhhhhhhhhh. okay i'm a happy camper now lol.

so yeah we're ALMOST there. as long as i can make it thru tomorrow i'ts all downhill from there baby. and yeah, so i totally have this quote from a graduation card i got that i really like so i'm gonna post it.....

"We know what we are, but we know not what we may be."
      by- Willliam Shakespere

so it's totally cheesy but it's shakespere so of course i like it lol. and yeah, i guess i'm off. it's bout time to call clayton and i get to finish cleaning. YAY! (please tell me you smelled the sarcasm in that?? lol)
I LOVE YOU GUYS!

so today was my last official day as a high schooler and i could care less lol. yes i'm really excited about graduating and whatever but i'm just ready for it to be done with!! and i think i'm more excited about this weekend just b/c clayton is coming and spending the whole weekend with me. and you'd think that i would be kinda sick of him right now considering that saturday after i got off work i drove down to erin and spent the weekend with him but ne ways. =) i'm outta here. ciao ppl.

mom and dad gave me my new laptop!! it's supposed to be my graduation gift but they went ahead and gave it to me! its totally amazing!!!

fate hates me....boys suck... and i quit life

okay so prom was pretty fun. me and stacee were having fun just hanging out. we didn't do much dancing b/c we got to prom kinda late and like 6 songs later they presented everyone and then this really crappy band came on and like everyone stopped dancing lol. but everyone looked beautiful! i have pics of course so here we go....

 

that's me and stacee at the restaurant. we went to this cool place called the Aquarium that was in the mall.

now that incredibly ugly fish is a fish brady decided to name Gunther lol.

Jaleah, Jessi and Stacee at prom......

Cathy and Shane....

and yeah that's all i've got for today. the photo uploader thingy takes too long. and tomorrow maybe i can get u guys some pictures from when i went to erin today. ciao bitches!

so u guys all ready for prom tonight???

look it's 9:32 and i'm in the middle of my accouting class and i'm on phusebox! but when i tried to get to it from my 4th period it was blocked....something strange is going on here.

THEY SO JUST UNBLOCKED PHUSEBOX FROM SCHOOL!

why is it that when you are with someone who makes your world stop the rest of the world seems to move at double time?

sometimes there just aren't enough hours in the day.

i can't WAIT for this weekend! i'm gonna get to go see clayton and spend all day with him sunday. he said something about going down the lake. i haven't been down there since last summer when my friend miranda got married! tell me how sad that is? so ne ways, i'm sure u guys are tired of hearing about him so i'm out.....

sometimes it doesn't matter if you have to be up at six the next morning to go to work. sometimes it doesn't matter if you will be half-asleep all day. sometimes you would rather lose that hour and a half of sleep to talk to someone b/c u miss them even if you just saw them that morning. sometimes they are all you think about all day. and sometimes they are what gets you through your day.

well last night was...uh. well. hm. interesting. to say the very least.
THE END

(don't u love it when i don't tell u what i'm talking about? lol. here's a hint: lets just leave it at that it involved an old guy friend who gave me a VERY warm welcome when he spent the night last night. ::raises eyebrows::)

okay so for once i actually followed through and i have pictures!! i'm not gonna post them all but i'll atleast tell u waht's going on.

okay so this is the amazing Chicago skyline...

this is a cool piece that was in this dude's studio that we visited...

that is pretty self-explanatory. that is mr. brian king....

this is a weird, silver, jelly bean lookin thing that's in millenium park....

that is our class' reflection in the blobby thing....

so if u walk underneath the little blobby thing u can see a pretty sweet reflection when u look up...

another sweet piece from dude's studio.....

this is another sculpture/piece/whatever u want to call it that is in millenium park.....

and here is another pretty sweet refelction.

i have more pictures but these are the only ones i decided to post. and i have a roll and a half of film that i took but i haven't developed it yet. but ne ways. enjoy! =)

okay so this is my advice for u if u ever go to Chicago: don't EVER eat the cheesecake at midway (don't ask lol).

so yeah we had fun. and i'm exhausted and could sleep until noon tomorrow but i have to finish my term paper (which was technically due today) and daddy won't let me skip. so i'm up til atleast midnight and then i will most likely be up early to finish it so...yeah, maybe this time i will actually upload some pics lol. caitlin had to take a ton for my b/c i couldn't get the flash to turn off on my camera and they kept yelling at me. but i still got some cool ones with my phone. and yeah i think that's about it. i don't feel like re-telling the whole day b/c it feels like it was four days and plus my head is still spinning from the plane ride. it has been weird. moving sidewalks, the el, buses, bad landings on planes....lets just say i was glad to be back in slow moving murfreesboro in my little blazer.

love u guys. ciao.

strawberry yougurt burst cheerios rock my socks!