.i acheived my goal.

 i cant stop the tears either. 

why does it mean so much after so long??

this is the worst feeling.

i wish i could go somewhere.

if i could change anything in my past, i would change my answer that night.

::b

"My dearest Allie,

I couldn't sleep last night because
I know that it's over between us.

I'm not bitter anymore, because I know
that what we had was real.

And if in some distant
place in the future

we see each other
in our new lives,

I'll smile
at you with joy

and remember how
we spent a summer beneath the trees

learning from each other
and growing in love.

The best love
is the kind that awakens the soul

and makes us
reach for more,

that plants a fire
in our hearts

and brings peace
to our minds.

And that's what you've
given me.

That's what I'd hoped
to give to you forever.

I love you.
I'll be seeing you, Noah."