Dear Daughter,
I wish you could see yourself the way I see you. You are beautiful from the inside out. I love it when you smile and share your joy with others.
You are talented. I'm glad you notice and cherish all I have given you. It makes me smile when I see you blessing others with the talents I have given you.
I designed you especially to bring My Love into this world. I made you just the way you are for special reasons. It is such a joy to watch you grow, mature, and discover your gifts. You are My own daughter, My special creation, My unique treasure.
Always remember that I made you in My own image. That means YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, kind, loving, caring, giving, and full of many gifts.
Continue to ask for My direction as I show you how to use your time, treasure, and talents. Be happy and know that I made a treasure when I made you.
I Love you forever,
Your heavenly Father

........ya'll read that again.....soak it up....you are a treasure to God!!! WOW!! If nothing has made you smile or happy today, may that light up your face and make your heart feel as if it were dancing!! :D I love ya'll! Take care and Stay Strong!!

I'm home and I had a blast!!!! Anyone miss me!? lol!! jk! ;) love ya'll lots!! Also... I know this will be long, but I'd like to share with ya'll something I read outta the book Captivating:
God's Heart For Relationship
The vast desire and capacity a woman has for intimate relationships tells us of God's vast desire and capacity for intimate relationships. In fact, this may be the most important thing we ever learn about God- that he yearns for relationship with us. "Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God" (John 17:3). The whole story of the Bible is a love story between God and his people. He yearns for us. He cares. He has a tender heart. (Verses) Isa. 49:14-15,18; Jer. 24:7; Matt. 23:37.
What a comfort to know that this universe we live in is relational at its core, that our God is a tenderhearted God who yearns for relationship with us. If you have any doubt about that, simply look at the message he sent us in Woman. Amazing. Not only does God long for us, but he longs to be loved by us. Oh, how we've missed this. How many of you see God as longing to be loved by you? We see him as strong and powerful, but not as needing us, vulnerable to us, yearning to be desired. But as I wrote in Wild at Heart, "After years of hearing the heart-cry of women, I am convinced beyond a doubt of this: God wants to be loved. He wants to be a priority to someone. How oculd we have missed this? From cover to cover, from beginning to end, the cry of God's heart is, "Why won't you choose me?" It is amazing to me how humble, how vulnerable God is on this point. "You will find me," says the Lord,"when you seek me with all your heart" (Jer. 29:13) In other words, "Look for me, pursue me- I want you to pursue me." Amazing. As Tozer says," God waits to be wanted."
Can there be any doubt that God wants to be sought after? The first and greatest of all commands is to love him (Mark 12:29-30, Matt. 22:36-38) He wants us to love him. To seek him with all our hears. A woman longs to be sought after, too, with the whole heart of her pursuer. God longs to be desired. Just as a woman longs to be desired. This is not some weakness or insecurity of the part of a woman, that deep yearing to be desired. "Take me for longing," Alison Krauss sings,"or leave me behind." God feels the same way. Remember the story of Martha and Mary? Mary chose God, and Jesus said that that is what he wanted. "Mary has chosen what is better" (Luke 10:42) She chose me.
Life changes dramatically when romance comes into our lives. Christianity changes dramatically when we discover that it, too, is a great romance. That God yearns to share a life of beauty, intimacy, and adventure with us. "I have loved you with an EVERLASTING love" (Jer. 31:3). This whole world was made for romance- the rivers and the glens, the meadows and beaches. Flowers, music, a kiss. But we have a way of forgetting all that, losing ouselves in work and worry. Eve- God's message to the world in feminine form- invites us to romance. Through her, God makes romance a priority of the universe. So God endows Woman with certain qualities that are essential to relationship, qualities that speak of God. She is inviting. She is vulnerable. She is tender. She embodies mercy. She is also fierce and fiercely devoted. As the old saying goes, " Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." That's just how God acts when he isn't chosen. "I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God who will not share your affection with any other god!" (Ex. 20:5 NLT). A woman's righteous jealousy speaks of the jealousy of God for us. Tender and inviting, intimate and alluring, fiercely devoted. Oh yes, our God has a passionate, romantic heart. Just look at Eve.
*Ya'll...............all I can say is WOW!!!! I'm amazed to see how God is constinlty teaching me things and having me gain a deeper understanding!! PRAISE GOD!!! God.....I want to be fiercely devoted to you!!! And you alone!! God you're the only one who can make my heart skip a beat and have me stop breathing all at the same time!! So many times have I stood in awe of you...and to me that's the best place in the world!! In front of you....amazed at all You are!!! Many my heart only belong to you!! May I choose you!! And forever hang on to that!! I love you!! Thank you!!.......Ya'll who will you choose?! A God who is always trying to woe you!? A God that is hopelessly romantic and knows the deepest desires of your heart...who holds on and PROTECTS (doesn't destory) your dreams!? Or something that will not last...to only leave you brokenhearted?! That's another awesome thing about God....even if you choose the other...He still waits for you to choose Him! And He's there placing your brokenheart back together!! Wow....HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD!!!

Well, I just got done reading "my heart" aka Hope's phusebox site, and the song that she post is one of the best songs for a girl to hear!! It's by Bethany Dillon and it's called Beautiful! But it's an awesome song of how we try to be outwardly beautiful by the world's standards...but she fails! And she's tired! She wants to try a new kind of beauty! And that's the beauty that she recieve from Christ!!
I was talking to Michael last night, and we got on the subject of how girls/women present themselves! How we dress, how we flirt, how we get guys attention and how we keep their attention...how we do WHATEVER we as girls do! And something that Jared Herd...a guy, girls.....said at BigStuf camp was, "Girls are so so valuable(sp)!! And if a guy doesn't accept you.....he doesn't derserve you!" Amen to what he says!! Girls.....you mean so much more than that!!! I asked Michael last night if he knew why girls did what they did, he kinda did, but not really! Which I think most guys don't, maybe not all but most! And I told him, because that's what the world tells us how we should look to be beautiful! We see these women, small, beautiful, and they get men's attention! And as girls, attention is very big to us!! We might not act like it, but it is! And how else is a girl who doesn't know that she's worth something, doesn't know what God thinks of her....how else is she suppose to be beautiful! And I think that's way I love to talk to girls around my age so much! I've been there! I've felt exactly how girls feel! I think every girl has!!! I'm not saying girls, to stop wearing make-up, to put on sweat-pants and a sweat-shirt....to never let a guy pay you any attention! All I'm saying is that you....yes, you....are beautiful just the way you are! God didn't make a mistake when He made you! Do you think that a God that paints the sky a different way everyday could make a mistake! A God so creative could do such a thing!? If you do, why don't you ask Him and talk to Him about that! He'd love for you to know the REAL Him! Not the one that are lies about Him! Girls...I know it's hard....we fight and fight to be beautiful outside!! But can anyone agree with me that the world will never be happy with the way you are?! You have to keep changing with how the world changes! And no one will ever be happy enough with the way you are!! Why make yourself tired?! I know what your thinkin'.....well how else am I suppose to get someone!! I've gotta hold there attention! And all I have to say to that is.....well, I hope someday you'll realize that if you have to hold his attention with the way your body looks....he's not good enough for you! You're a treasure....find a guy that'll treat you like one! They are out there! I promise!! Find a guy that would think your beautiful with no make-up and in sweat-pant and sweat-shirt! That loves you at your lowest of lows and when you look you're worst! Someone that sees and loves you for how you are in the inside!! That's the kinda man you wanna wait for!! And I know that all girls want a guy like this....but sometimes it's hard to let go of what you have! Let go girls.........fall in love with the perfect man.....Jesus! The one who never says the wrong things, does the wrong things and is always ready to talk! That's another thing! Don't hold guys to being perfect...I know I've done that! They aren't! They make mistakes just like us!! If you hold them to that...your in for a big letdown! But God will send you someone when the timing is perfect....are you willing to wait?!

"I'm madly in love with You, yes I'm madly in love with You..........Let what we do in here fill the streets out there.....Let us DANCE FOR YOU, let us DANCE FOR YOU!"

I love this song!!! Why? I dunno! Just do, I suppose! I love having this image of us going out into the streets and dancing for Jesus! Like this big party! Hey here's an awesome thought......all the christians dancing around, drawing peoples attention, and having people drawin in to join! Now, not literly! Just an image! That our lives as christian should be this big dance for Jesus! A party for Him! Wow! Maybe this only makes sense to me...oh well! So I haven't been up to much lately! The love of my life came over the other night cuz it was her birthday! That would be the famous Lauren Nicdao!!!! And it was fun! At least for me! (sorry babe, I wish I could've done more for ya!) :D I've been working a lot, which is all good and well because I'm very thankful for them being so helpful and willing to make sure I go to YWAM! By the way...ya'll pray for the whole YWAM thing, I'll write and explain more later about all of this, but God has opened a door for me to either go to the DTS in Kona or in Samoa! And I'm just trying to hear God's voice in where He's taking me! And pray that my parents would have a peace to the place I'm suppose to go! And that God will speak to them as well!
Well kids....I'm gonna go! Hope all is well with ya'll! Take Care and stay strong!! I love ya'll!!!

James 1:2-4
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trails of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
Hewbrews 10:35-39
"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, 'He who is coming will come and will not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.' But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved."

"Oh Praise the One, who paid my debt. And raised this life up from the dead!!"

WOW!!!! Is all I have to say! What an amazing past 5 days! First, it was ok but I kinda wanted to be home, and I missed my friends! But then God changes the week around! I believe He gave me a taste of how YWAM will be for me! And I can't wait! This week was good for me to be reminded of things and to take a new look and a deeper understanding on some things! Course, I'm probably gonna have to read back over my notes and all, because that was alot stuff to take in, and I want to soak it all up and understand it all! This week we talked about Illusions and the illusions of life! One thing Louie Giglio said was something like this..."Are you living in the illusion of life that life is about you!? Because it's not! But don't worry, we all have!" And it was just so so cool to hear what he had to say! Another thing he was talking about was you can do anything you want! You want to be a docter? Guess what..you're in! You want to be a singer? Guess what...go for it! You want to get married and have kids some day!? Ok!! BUT in EVERYTHING YOU DO....do IT in Jesus Christ name! And for His glory and honor! God's not saying that in order for Him to be pleased with you that you have to be poor, go to distant lands and live in a hut, to throw away all your dreams, and that you can't have fun! SHOOT....you should've been at BigStuf with us Tues night!!!!! Christians, God-followers....CAN have FUN!!! Shoot! We were dancin' and havin' fun like no tomorrow in Jesus name! As for the distant lands and being poor and throwing away your dreams! God's not about that! Yes, some He calls over seas! But you can do missions in being a doctor, being a singer, being a parent, etc!! And as for your dreams....God's only asking you to trust Him with them! He's asking you if you trust Him, and believe that He knows what you want and knows what's right for you! This week was so amazing! Course another awesome point that Louie got accross was how some people ask..."Well what about in our home town...we need people sharing God's word there too!" True....but as Louie said, "Don't you think there's enough people in your town to share that with those people!?" He said, "If all the Christians we had in our towns would share Christ with the people at the school, work, etc. by the end of the day....the town would know!" But as Christians we don't do that! And course, God has called people to live in TN or where ever to do missions, but not everyone! Some people say, "Well we need to get our country right first before we go and help others!" When will our country ever be good enough?! When will the U.S. ever be "perfect" enough!? It's not happening! So why wait around on something that won't happen!? Why not, as christians go to wherever God leads us!? Shoot, I'm still tryin' to figure out why I question God where He wants me! But I guess we all come accross that in our lives! I dunno, I guess all I can say is that God was def. trying to wake up about 1,500 people these past 5 days, to who He is and what He has for us! It was amazing! And I encourage everyone that if you ever get the chance to go to BigStuf...please go! Night.....I love you all....

Ya'll wanna hear something cool! And one thing that might be small to some, but I think that's really cool cuz it was a God-thing! Well y/d i was mownin' the lawn...i'm trying to raise money for YWAM! But anyways! And it was pretty durn hot! and i was like, "Man, God, bring on the rain! it's hot and i'm dyin' out here!" No more than 5 min.'s later, i was walking to do the back yard, i felt a rain drop on my forhead! then i heard thunder and it started to rain!!!!! i pushed the mower under the carport thingy....went and layed down on the ground, and thanked God as I let the rain hit my face! To me....that was awesome!! God's always doin' some awesome things!!! I love Him so so much! And ya'll if ya'll could be praying for me, cuz i'm starting to miss my friends pretty bad! and though they are all doin' awesome Jesus things! and sharing the word, sometimes I still miss them! But i wouldn't want them doin' anything else!!

Do you ever find yourself day dreaming all the time?! I do it all the time! Last night, I was on my way home from the movies, I was riding in the back of the car.........with the window down and the summer breeze blowing in my face! *I love those kinda nights* And I just found myself dreaming and thinking of all the stuff God has in store for me, not only me, but promises that He makes to each and every one of us! God has so much in store! And it's an exciting plan....if I will just lay it all down, trust Him, and follow WHEREVER He might lead! Hummmmmmmmmmm....it's a very interesting thought! Where God might place me in a year or two from now! What new surprises He has in store! Even though I'm excited to know about them, I also know that I can't live in a dream and waste my life living for the future! I gotta live for today! And make the best for what God has for me right now! To soak it up and have fun! Right now God has so much stuff in store for me and later, on His timing, everything will fall into place! Hummmmmmmm.......what a GREAT and AWESOME God we have..........
(I thought I'd add a song on here! to make this even longer! lol!! anyways...this is to my one and only, my hero, my best friend, my husband, my love, my Savior.....Jesus! ;)
..........Wonderful Savior, my heart belongs to Thee. I will remember, always the blood You shed for me. Wonderful Savior my heart will know Your way, so let me embrace You always..as I walk this earth. Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high. Be treasured here, be glorified. I owe my life to You my Lord, Here I am!........Beautiful Jesus, how may I bless your heart? Knees to the earth, I bow down, to everything You are! Beauiful Jesus, You are my only way. So I will embrace You, always, as I walk this earth. Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high. Be treasured here, be glorified! I owe my life to You my Lord, Here I am!.....Beautiful Jesus, how may I bless your heart? Knees to the earth, I bow down, to everything You are! Beautiful Jesus, You are my only way! So I will embrace You always, as I walk this earth. Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high! Be treasured here, be glorified! I owe my life to You my Lord, Here I am! Here I am! Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high! Be treasured here, be glorified! I owe my life to You my Lord! Here I am! Here I am! Here I am! Knees to the earth, Here I am!

Do you ever feel in are stand in a crowded room, screaming to the top of your lungs...for just one person to understand, but no one can hear you. and no one can understand!? That's how i feel sometimes! But lucky, i know, that even if no one can understand me, or hear me, one person can! He's always there for me, step by step! holdin' all the tears i cry and putting His big, strong arms around me! holdin' me close and keeping me safe! I love Him so much! .............thank you God for understanding me!

I like ice cream......it's tasty!!! And Rachy-poo thinks so too! ;D lata my gangstas!!!