Ha life is so funny. I mean really, sit back and look at your life.......now that you've done this, did you think you would end up where you are? I sure as heck didn't think i would be where i am. Where am i? you ask...(if you didn't ask..to bad your gonna find out :P) I am sitting in a chair at the computer..rather cold but deeper then that i'm slipping and moving forward at the same time. Its rather weird..i mean everytime i hear or read something about my EXBestFriend / EXboyfriend life is the one thing i dont want, no lie i stop breathing and die a little more. But when i'm with anyone else or at church i'm a whole other person. I laugh and smile and really mean it. At times i'm moving forward in Christ, i finally found where i need to be and i have an idea where i need to be and people NEED me. It always feels good to be NEEDED. And yet again i'm crushed b/c someone that makes me smile...has let me down...and my mom is always on my case for not being who she wants me to be. You know what i need...you guessed it..a girls night with FLINT! :P Face paint...laughing..randomness! sounds like a party! :P hahaWell yeah now that this is overly long and no one will read all this so i better just close it off and say sorry for not making you smile today..i'll try better next time.