What has happened to that little happy girl inside me? So many ups and downs...it always feels like my day is going to get better...and then it always comes tumbling down...Nothing to look forward to...walking towards something or someone I'll never get...shot down...walking all over my heart...never ending pain in my broken heart...Always screaming in my "perfect All American" home...never find a sense of peace...feeling pointless...why is it I'm stuck here alone and no one is here to save me? I've got to find some way to make it better...got to make it better...cause I don't think I'll make it through this never ending disappointment...what happened to that little happy girl? Did she leave me to die here alone....when will I ever be happy? Maybe later today maybe tomorrow? Or will it be followed by another never ending disappointmet? I am my own never ending disappointment...