Ups and downs

October 13 2006
So this semester has really tested my faith...I've done well in some areas but I still feel that emptiness...I've done things I wish I didn't but we all make mistakes...I've become stronger because of them but it feels like I'm getting farther away...My trust has been tested and I know I have failed...my patience wears thin and I feel like I'm about to break...I need God more than ever...He has gotten me through so much and without Him I don't know where I would be...He has tested alot of friendships and thank You for getting rid of the bad ones...thankyou for making me realize money has no power over me...Ever since highschool I've gone back to my depression but God always seems to save me from my own insanity...I can't imagine my life without Him...I was so blessed this summer when I went to Dominican Republic...I would give anything to go back there...that place made me feel at peace and I was away from all distractions and all the drama that constantly pulls me down...I thought I would die alone but the whole time You were by my side...Thankyou for keeping my head on straight and making me refocus...without You I would be nothing...You have saved my life and I praise You for it. From the bottom of my heart I love you and I wish there was a way for me to repay you for saving my life. These tears are not only pain but also joy because when I feel the lowest and I feel like I can't go on...You keep me going and I know I can do anything through You. You are my strength and my rock. You are my best friend. No one will ever break our bond. We are unbreakable. Keep me strong and don't let these wordly temptations take me away. I don't want to go back to where I was...I love you...and I always will. You are my one and only true love. You are my desire...thankyou for each breathe I take...I love you forever and into eternity