alright. so ever heard that amazing phrase"whats done is done"... i dont think that is completely relevant, sure no one can erase what is done, and we are human.... so ALRIGHT!! we make mistakes, but i think its more of how much you desire to be forgiven, and step towards moving on, how much effort you put on making things right..

 so the new saying goes something like this... "what's done has happened, but it's not done yet. finish it."

 so i have made an awful mistake, its already happened, now i've got to just give it to God, and try and make things right, and not turn around.           

       everyone says the first step is the hardest, i think thats also a cop out, its the steps you continue to take when you're tired of dealing with it all thats the hardest. and honestly, that would be where i am, ive taken the first steps, and the second & third steps, but we have to keep taking steps even when we feel far from the fire, because we are in dry land and fire catches hay fast.

 so though i feel like i am far from my fire i still have farther to go, because ive seen the hay catch on fire too many times, and every time ive been burnt, bcause i was still to close.

so my advice is keep running even when you see butterflies.