i will not heal 

by the power of tylenol,

 not by any remedy of a book,

 not with philosophy,

or by the chances i took.

              i will never forget,

but excuse me im trying not to remember.

i will not let myself cry in simple fear of not being able to stop,

i refuse to say what i really just want because once i say it ,

 its no longer just in my thoughts.

  you're still in my heart, dont worry love, i want you to be mine, but i wont take your hand til im for sure its the best thing, just wait on me. ..

im going through this,too. the pain & the hurting. the fight to stay asleep, the day is a blur, my life's just not the same. one way or the other i will make sure you make it through.