Wednesday...I passed out in fourth period.... It was terrifying... i've fainted before but not around people who are all freaking out and i cant respond... i cant even see them.. i could only hear them... ugh anyways..i stayed at school.. somehow.. dunno how i made it! and then i went home and got in bed and stayed there...

Thursday.... I tossed and turned all night.. but i stayed in bed all day cuz everytime i sat up or stood up i got really dizzy and i had spells every so often where i couldnt breath ( my chest got REAL heavy), my face would pale, and i couldnt see anything without it spinning and it was horrible.. but i stayed in bed all day and slept on and off for most of the day...

Friday.. well at 2:30 i woke up and needed a glass of water so i tried to get to the kitchen but i got really dizzy and every thing was spinning and i couldnt breath... so by the time i got to the kitchen i fainted... didnt lose conciousness though.. anyways..i finally got up after a few minutes but was still really dizzy so i got a cup of water and sat down to drink it... then after i felt i could make it to the room again i headed back to the room... i did make it but i collapsed in the bed.... At 5:30 i had the worst spell ever...i couldnt breath i was sweating but i was freezing cold..i was PURE WHITE pale!, the whole room was spinning, and i had the worst migraine EVER.... i just banged on the wall trying to get my parents attention.... they got up and came in gave me motrin and tons of water and after like a half an hour i calmed down.... i slept on and off again until 9.... at that point i had to SIT in the bottom of the shower to shower off because i couldnt stand long enough without getting extremely dizzy..

then mom took me to the ER (we got there a little after 9)... once we got there they immedietely admitted me and we were there FOREVER... they put an IV in me, took 5 tubes of blood, made me pee in a flippin cup, did a CT scan on me, EKG test on my heart, testing to see if i was anemic, checked my electrolytes, took my vitals thirty billion times, and gave me drugs through my IV.... once all that was done they told me to rest awhile to let the drugs kick in and then they came in with results... so basically things werent so bad.... the dizziness was due to a very serious  ESTENSIVE sinus disease that if they cant get the "fluids" moving then surgery MAY come... and also i have tract infection... UGH! anyways. they couldnt explain the headaches and the spells or the blacking out... until just before it was time to go they were checking my vitals and a spell hit... and he realized what was going on... i ws having panic attacks... so stress and anxiety was what was causing all this crap... yeh... so i got lots of meds to come home with... one to drain my sinus crap and another was my antibiotic and the last one is loritabs!!! lol im supposed to take them temporarily everytime i have a panic attack.... the doctor said.. "they have street value" so keep the hidden.. i was like great now im drug addict to put on top of all this.. so i got home early evening on friday and this is the first time ive been allowed out of bed since.. and once im done posting then i have to go back to bed... i MAY get to go to church tommorow... but no night service... great huh? anyways.. i gotta go ... im feeling kinda dizzy so im going to bed..

ill see you guys tommorow..

love you all,

keep me in your prayers.

meag

ps you know what the worst part was???

I MISSED PAINTBALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!