Hmm trying to figure out what to write on here is killer. Ive got so many thoughts running around in my head that they dont even have room to run around they are just stuck in one part of my brain and cant move dur to all the thoughts and worries that are in there. I cant believe that within a lil bit over a week people will be leaving...hmm the bitter sweetness of it all is very hard to take. I am not at all a person that does well with change so literally that is all that is consuming me right now... I hate it. I hate how it makes me feel and how it makes me act. I feel like suc a downer these past couple of weeks. Its scary to know my life and my wonderful and amazing friends are all fixing to change. I know I write alot about this but its like thats all that I can think bout lately. Hmm Derek's wedding is next friday..that will be interesting dont get me wrong Im soo excited bout goin and him getting married but of the one I mean the ONE and ONLY person that could make it all awkard and stuff will be there and will be bringing to other person who can make things extremely hard on me.. but hey you gotta take the good with the bad I guess.. Oh well this entry was pointless and kindof dumb and sad and depressing maybe a happier
one later..we'll see!
I wish I wouldnt let myself get soo emtionally involved......

Don't you get ahead of me
and I won't leave you behind
if you get unhappy
show me a sign

there's no love like lost love
no pain like a broken heart
there's no love like you and me
and no loss like us apart

promises promise is
only a word
and when softly spoken
is never heard

and a heart
is not a stone
and is fragile
when alone

by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side

my care for you
is from the ground up to the sky
it's over under up above
down below and to the side

no use in pretending
no use in saving face
my love is never ending
you are my saving grace

by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side
by my side
by my side
won't you be by my side