It has been a while since I have posted so I thought it was due time. - - - - So much has happened in the past couple of weeks! I know I might be late saying this but... Big Stuf camp was AWESOME! You could really tell that God was working on every person's life there. I really needed to see God in such a real yet different way. Big Stuf Camp really helped minister to me in my time of need. Through the the death of Kyle I have felt both an extreme seperation from God but also an extreme closeness with Him. It is weird how God uses these so called valleys in our life to become even more real to us. I know that God had me at Big Stuf for a reason and I KNOW that He was moving in my life there. That to me is amazing to think about. I can still remember getting the news about Kyle and screaming that I couldn't do it again. I was certain that I couldn't go through what I had done 2 times before, especially with Bruce. I was broken in half and felt like God was taking my already wounded heart out and riping it in half and stomping on it once again. It is so so crazy how hopless I felt, yet now exactly a month since Kyle's accedent, I can say I have victory with Christ!There are so many example of God moving in my life the past 4 weeeks. I wish that I could write about all of the examples of God's work in my life but if I were to do that, I would be typing for a long time, so I will spare yall. I just want anyone who reads this to know that if you are feeling hopless I have gone through a hoplessness this past month, I never thought I would have to experience. Yet God continued to help me and mold me into the man he wants me to be. Please know that if you are in a where' s God time in you life, God is beside you whether you feel him or not. ---- Maybe I will write more later on what God has taught me through this situation. Until my next entry, I hope everyone is having a great day, night, week, ect.