9:27pm...can't sleep...
is insomnia a disease? or maybe a result of stress or malnutrition, who really knows for sure? gotta be at work in 3 hrs. i think i'm gonna go for a run. i always feel better after a good long run.
21 days between me and the states!
i'm anxious to get home and see what my apartment looks like. so my roommate decides to just up and get rid of my house and move us both to an apartment in town. something about spores or asthma or something. i think he went a little crazy living by himself while i'm gone. so much for privacy and fireworks. now i'm living under a youth pastor and his family. nothing against them but there's a certain amount of noise that comes w/ a group of college guys. i really don't think it's gonna fly too well. we'll see.
have u ever had a moment of clarity? like when a situation is out of control or frustrating or whatnot and it's just like things stop and everything becomes very clear for a moment. i had one of those today while i was working. is this making any sense at all?

listening to Counting Crows:Films about Ghosts.

this blog is dedicated to bob. bob passed away today from unknown causes. he will be sorely missed by all.


photo from Habas

i actually had a pretty good day today apart from the death of bob, but lets be realistic, we're at war and he's just a hedgehog. got the day off so i got to sleep in for once which was awesome. i slept in so late i cant go to sleep now. i got 2 more days off from my platoon sergeant. he mixed a thing of milk w/ a bunch of mustard and bet me 2 days off that i couldn't drink it and keep it down. well i did it and believe u me i'm collecting on the days.
i feel it's time to explain "Habas". the locals that work the laundry place at the camp here can't read english too well. they looked at my uniform and thought my name was bread. the arabic word for bread is habas, so that's what they call me every time i go in there.
so i checked my phusebox this afternoon and i had messages from all kinds of people. so many new people to get to know! totally cool. really lifts your spirits to know that people care. maybe there's hope for this world yet.

today i'm listening to Five for Fighting:The Battle for Everything. good music. thank you to cassie for introducing me to five for fighting back in the day.
cyaz

25 days! can't wait to get to the house. hot and dusty all day w/ high winds. i ran the trackhoe all day which was lucky cuz it's probably the only piece of equipment in kuwait w/ an enclose cab and air conditioning!! ac is hard to come by these days. the old beat up radio is broke but that's what ipods are for. caught up w/ a friend of mine which was cool. also a big encouragement. few people realize what kind of impact they have. i've never felt like i've made much of an impact on most people. idunno if that's good or bad, just the way i feel. but like i said, if i did, i didn't realize it very well. oh well, i'm tired and talking jibberish. g'night.

so i go out to get in the truck this morning and there's a desert lizard in my seat. how he got in there is beyond me. i gathered from all the hissing and snapping that he doesn't like people too much. another day in the desert.....
no good, no bad, just another day.
no emails, no messages, hmph

today officially stunk. i don't think i've ever hated anybody in my life. however i'm starting to develop a strong hatred for some people in my platoon. it's just not healthy. i know it's not how i should deal or even close to how God would want me to deal but sometimes it's just hard when somebody's in your face. my patience is just wearing thin i think. if u know any passages that are encouraging w/ this kinda stuff let me know cuz that would help alot. i looked but didn't come up w/ anything direct. i need more time, and a vacation.....
i think i need some good influences in my life. i can always rely solely on God and i am so thankful for that. support from those around you can also be so helpful.
27 more days!!
Listening to Live:Birds of Pray. love this album! i can relate to "what are we fighting for". i can also answer it. bush is an oil man right? u do the math.

bear w/ me on the photos. middle eastern satellites aren't quite up to par. about a pic a day is all i can upload w/o getting kicked off the net. $40 measly bucks for cable internet doesn't seem quite so bad anymore. it's probably even cheaper than that by now. 29 days till my 2 wk leave!! i'm stoked! i can't seem to remember what it's like being at home. i'm sure it'll be better than i remember. first stop is starbucks for an irish cream breve! i tried to explain to haji man what a breve is. it didn't work out too well. after we went in circles for half an hour i gave in and got a macchiato, which tasted more like a mocha w/o any foam or whip. arabian coffee is supposed to be some of the best in the world. these guys are really slipping. being a coffee enthusiast (addict) myself, i am sorely disappointed in these people's sad attempts to serve up a good cup a joe. however i am thankful that on occasion i have access to any kind of coffee house, especially considering my environment. i should be counting my blessings for the coffee i do have..........or just making it myself. enough about coffee and now my fingers are tired. tonights selection is David Gray: A Century Ends one of my favorite albums by him. check it out if u get a chance. "wisdom" is one of my favorites. doesn't deliver the best message in the world but still a good song. Laters

So I bit the bullet and joined the "bloggers". A genuine leap of faith having no previous knowledge of what a blog was. Rather daring on my part i think. According to this nifty online dictionary, a blog is a a personal chronological log of thoughts published on a Web page that often reflects the personality of the author. I'll do my best to reflect my personality through the many blogs to come. Anyway, a little bit about me. I'm in Kuwait for 8 months now. Over 15 months since I've seen my own doorstep. Only 4 more to go! I'm an aspiring automotive engineer with so many doubts about what I wanna do with my life I can't even begin to scratch the surface here. There's really nothing I can see myself doing for the rest of my life. The more I work for other people the more I want to work for myself. Starting a coffee house is looking pretty good about now. Who needs big bucks anyway? Moola=Happiness? Hardly I think. Who exactly am I writing this stuff to? Does it matter? Take it for what it's worth and with my blessing. I actually only know a couple people connected to the phusebox. Until more come along me and my 2 blog buddies will persevere. That means u nate and cassie. Nate I'm still very bitter at you for abandoning eric in the face of all those dangerous spores. We'll work through this...let's never fight again. My fingers are tired and I need sleep. 4 hrs a night for 2 months and I am running on empty!!! Thankfully we finally finished the neverending project on Saturday and sleep is so sweet. This makes no sense to most of you. I operate heavy equipment in the army and we were building a staging area/defensive position for tank convoys. Improving a flat desert so all terrain vehicles and roll over it smoother i guess?? the colonel in all his wisdom. ... Tonight i'm listening to Allison Krauss & Union Station: Lonely Runs Both Ways. Very peaceful music. I'm gonna sleep soooooo good...