Just a few more days till I leave for Memphis. Tyler and I spent all of Saturday together, it was fun. We went to the Science Adventure Center and played around there, then to one of Nashville's malls for lunch/walking around. We went back to his house to watch a movie and then make this cute little memory book (we made one for each other) to look at when we're lonely and stuff. I shall miss him greatly. We checked both of our calendars for when we'll get to see each other next, and it looks like we won't get to see each other till my fall break. In September. The end of September. He gave me his grandma's ring. Yay. :-)

I miss him already.

So yeah, Siegel had the first day of band camp today. It went very well, we put 15 or 20 sets on the field with music, so it's exciting.

I have tan lines on my feet. :-)

Tyler and I have been together for five months now, as of August fourth. We have matching rings. :-)

I love him.

I have 15 more days.

It's all going to change. I'm not ready.

So Thursday, Tyler's mom called me saying Tyler was having panic attacks and was asking for me. So I went to go see him and help him feel better. It was scary, he had a mini one in the shower but I woke him up and held him till it was over. I cried a few times while he was in his resting and I was just petting him. We assume that all the stuff going on with band (instructors bashing him for being better than they are and him getting more respect from the students) cought up to him and his brain shut down. His mom got all fired up and said she was going to talk to the band director and hangout because she's been hearing some things about this happening to other kids as well. (She's scary when she's angry, much like him.) I'm just so glad he's okay.

 I think that after all the drama and stuff that's been going on the past month has been put to rest. That makes me so happy. Even though we fight more than we should, we both love each other, and that's what matters. Now that we've made-up and stuff, I can see a more healthy relationship around the corner, even though we'll be four hours apart.

We'll make it work. According to his mother, we are meant to be.

So yeah, I was on my way home yesturday around 9:00 and had a fender-bender. It's all ok, it was the wet road's fault and the other lady and myself are okay. The damage that I have are a busted headlight and bent hood, shouldn't be too much to get fixed. I'm just glad I'm ok.

I have like...17 days till I leave for school. I'm totally not ready.

So this storm happened today, right? Old Time Pottery was without power for 25 mintues and everything was running off batteries. (The first time the lights went out, it was really dark, when they came back on Mallory and I were holding each other, twas funny.) They batteries only go for 30 minutes and right before they were going to run out of power, the store came back to life.

I was pissed.

So being a really slow day at old time pottery tonight, Mallory and I have decided to become pirates.

Our pirate names are Salty Sally (Mallory), Four-eyed Pete (me), Captain Pink Beard (Mitch, the head cashier), Tipsy Marie: the tavern wench (Tonya), and Drunken Pegleg Schme McGie (Stephanie). Our ships name is the Rusty Russian. Supposedly my job on the ship is to sit in the crows nest and yell "There ain't nothing out there!" all the time. It was really funny...we said "arr" to each other all night.

Being pirates, we had to have a treasure chest. Well, Captain Pink Beard went to McDonalds and got the treasure chest toy, so Salty and I decided we would go get our own. We drove to the McDonalds close to OTP but, alas, they only had the blow up sword. So we drove to the one close to where Salty lives...and they said they had the telescope thing, so we decided to get that one. After waiting in like for like 5 minutes (in the freaking drive through) we get up and ask again, if they had the treasure chest. No, she said they didn't get that in till next week. So we were like "ok, whatevs" and got our happy meal. What was in it? A freaking red bandana. I was pissed. "No, we only have the telescope." Grr. So we're going to find out where Captain got his tomorrow...and go get it.

The end.

Arr.

So my sister and I went shopping, it was great! We went to Kohls and she picked out this great comforter that was on sale, I was proud. It's grey and navy (school colors), two sets of grey sheets, some towls and wash cloths, and yeah...a big limegreen jolly rancher pillow. She was good and found everything that was on sale, so she saved me lots of money. Jeff (the roommate) and I are going to shop for his stuff tomorrow, as well as go to OTP and get some stuff I can get discounted...like cleaning and bath stuff.

I'm kinda dreading leaving on the 15th of August to move into my dorm. I'm going to miss people...mostly Tyler. He's going to make living in Memphis really hard, until he gets there (hopefully) atleast. We're going to go eat lunch together on Saturday, I hope. He's doing band camp stuff (as he is drum major) and is doing his second semester of English for summer school (he's graduating early) so I don't get to see him during the week anymore. Oh well, we'll find a way to see each other, we have been for the past four months.

All college people should get on facebook and be my friend.

I saw Pirates dos tonight at the drive-in, wow it was amazing! I can't wait till the 3rd movie to come out. Ok, so I'm sure you guys are like "well, how'd you like the music?" cuz you know I only go see a movie if I think the soundtrack will be good. I'm quite happy with what he did with the score, I liked very much how he used much of the music from the first movie and carried it over, while still adding new stuff. The part with Davy Jones playing the pipe organ on the ship was too cool. I'm quite pleased with the movie over all.

A group of middle school girls came in OTP on Friday and whistled at me...it was funny. When they left they said "bye Kyle!" and all the other cashiers were laughing. Hehe.

Grr Tyler and having to go do drum major junk this week as well as finishing up his English class in order to graduate early. I was hoping he could come shopping with me tomorrow to get dorm junk and come back to my house and watch a movie. Oh well, I might go out on limb and have my sister tag along. We've never hung out before, isn't that crazy?! Well, I think that with me going to college in Memphis this fall, it's something that we should do. I think after we go to the mall and Kohls for a lil while, I might take her to Bath Junkie and get some new bath wash...we've both used all of it, lol.

Ok, so work as been less hellish. I guess having your two days off makes it not so bad.

Fourth of July was great! It was also Tyler's and mine 4-months of being together, and it was the first one that we got to spend together, so that made it even more special. It was so nice sitting with him and watching the fire works at MTSU. We held hands going back to my car and supposedly someone shouted the F word at us...but it didn't do anything. It reminded me of that one thing going around on myspace about why is it that peope are more scared seeing two guys holding hands than they are around two guys holding guns?. We ate at Demos' and it was yummy.

Wednesday I had that little recording thing and it went very well. They were pleased with me, so I'm glad I made them happy. I left from there and went to Tyler's. It was so cute! I got there and found him, his mom, and sister all in the sister's bedroom playing with the dog. I got all warm inside when Rylee (the sister) was like "come in here with us!" She is too cute- and very country.

I woke up and saw that Tyler and left without leaving a note and I was kinda confused. I dunno, I got kinda mad and left him a note and just drove around for a while because I didn't know how long he would be but I saw him driving home so I turned around. I felt bad, he had went to get me flowers and breakfast. He's so sweet. We ate on outside on the patio. We then left for Opry Mills.

So yeah...Tyler having lots of money in his pocket and being around lots of clothing stores is very funny. The boy's gay side came out. Haha. He spent like, $140. I'm not saying it's bad, he got some really cute clothes. We had dinner at TGIFridays, yum. I drove his car home and he slept, it was cute. He held my hand the whole way home.

So we get back to his house and he puts on all of his clothes so I could see what they all looked like and compliment them. Come to find out he had senior pictures the next morning, so we spent the next 30 or so minutes picking out clothes, getting all his stuff (a trombone, a trumpet, flag, sabre, riffle, clarinet, lots of music books, 4 batons, yeah...it goes on) together. He had some good ideas...like throwing some music out, him laying in the middle surround by his horns and guard stuff, with the picture being taken from the top. I can't wait to see them. But yeah, we watch E.T. with Rylee. <3 I was supposed to go back home Wednesday night...but I didn't. I mean, would you want to go home at midnight when you live an hour away? No. So I just stayed the night again.

Woke up this morning with him and his sister in the bed talking. They're so cute together. She calls me "bubba's best friend" and it's so cute. Tyler refered to me as her brother-in-law and she was like "y'all should get married" I mean, how cute is that? Had to leave in kinda a rush, Tyler was almost late for his pictures so he left before I did, oh well.

I almost fell asleep a few times driving home...not good. I made it home in one piece though, thankfully. I took a nap for around an hour and a half before work. I got to leave at 8 tonight, rather than 9. Having superiority is good :-)

So here I am, I just had a yummy frozen pizza and found out that my granny got me a lil fridge and microwave for my dorm. I move in August 15th. Wow, it's not far away at all. I'm going to be sad when it's time to leave. I'm going to miss all the high school stuff, the marching band, the band directors, my old friends, my family...and most of all Tyler. It's going to be hard living 5 hours away from him and not being able to see him once a week like we've been doing for the past four months. Hopefully we can make it work and keep the fire going during the school year and pick back up next summer, and then keep it going because he'll be with me in Memphis...I hope. He has a few choices picked out...but I know for sure he'd go to Memphis for free...with his grades, ACT, music, and all that government stuff, he'll be getting paid to go there. We'll see though.

We got crazy at Old Time Pottery today. My ghetto friend, Jamie, and I were the only two cashiers tonight. We called each other names and ended up with me in a headlock and her sitting on top of me. It was great. Linda, the old head-cashier just sat there laughing at us. My new name is Daphnie (given by Jamie).

I've recently learned that going to bed sooner, and getting up earlier makes one feel much better. This, shall be a habbit.

Tyler, the amazing person he is, got his ACT scores back today. If you're on myspace you should leave him comments (myspace.com/charlestylerturner) because he might be going to college for free. Not just tuition, but tuition, room and board, books, everything. I'm quite proud of him.

Everything in Memphis went very well, I'm schedualed for my first semester of classes, I have 16 hours and the dean of the college of fine arts told me that it won't be difficult.

I have the most amazing person in my life. Everyone remembers Tyler right? Well we've always had a kinda bumpy relationship. I thought that all the bumps were out for a while, after what happened last month. It was going great, but I caused a large bump this time. This is why I deleted my myspace profile, it was basically taking over my life and causing many personal problems. I had told myself that I was going to take care of it myself, Tyler wouldn't find out and he wouldn't get hurt. This first part I did. He also found out and saw the evidence. This hurt him very badly, and it hurt me too that I was the one which hurt him. I went to see him today because I wanted to talk about everything so we could get over this and see where it left us. Basically, I felt what love feels like today. I was crying and he was holding me, I just can't describe how it felt. I know he loves me, and I love him. I have also lied to him and hurt him. I'm going to try my hardest to make it up to him and show him that I really do love him as much as he loves me. I know we'll be fine. This boy is a keeper. There's other stuff that went on, but I don't think a blog is the place to put it.

<3

oh yeah! I got called to go into a recording studio and record this guys music w/ some other people. I'm so excited!

So I'm in Memphis this weekend, for a marching band meeting and then orientation on Monday and Tuesday. I'm staying at Abby's house and we're being nerds till Saturday.

Today, we played duets from some kids at a camp, I think they liked it. We used the stanard duet book that all of the high school players have. They liked the little duet that sounded like pirate music. We also let them try out our horns, it was great. I'm told that the camp is Christian based for kids that live in not so great family situations, it made me feel good that I gave them something to he happy about.

But yeah, I deleted my profile on myspace because it was causing me problems, so if any of you are on there...that's why I'm no longer on your friends list.

I totally love new york!

I saw lots of horn players walking around on the street, randomly, it was funny. I saw the julliard school (I want to go there now) and the lincoln center (we watched the ballet and gay men's chorus rehearse) and WICKED!!!!

Yeah, it was fun...for pictures and more of what I did, e-mail me or something.

So Jeff called me today and told me that the room change happened and we're roommates now! Yay! I'm so excited that we get to go to Old Time Pottery and use my discount of 15% wootwoot. That store has everything...

I'm going to Nashvagas tomorrow morning, yay. I'm also getting my haircut...not so yay. Who knows...it might be the last one for a while. Lol. Lyndsey thinks that I should not cut my hair while away to make my mom upset...but send home pictures of me slowly turning into a gungy-grunge. I laugh. Rire.

New York on Monday!!! I can't tell you guys how exciting that is! I'll be going to see Wicked and some other show...not sure which one yet...but that's about all I'm excited about, lol. Sure, Statue of Liberty....but I mean, WICKED, on BROADWAY!! Woot. It's like sold out until 2007 now, I dunno how we got tickets.

After that, I get to come home for like...4 days and then leave to Ms. Kattentidt's house. That shall be hardy-har-har. We're supposedly going to help at this camp for kids that come from not so great homes, and play for them. [Pirate music.] The next day, we're supposed to go to the lake and take fun pictures of us being dumb. Friday I assume I shall teach her how to waltz like a mo'fo as we go on our "date" hehe. Marching band junk on Saturday along with Family Guy (hopefully), driving to Arkansas for lunch w/ Abby's horn friend on Sunday. Sunday night and Monday I assume is orientation unless things change or I have my dates wrong, oh well.

Ion Balu e-mailed me saying he was going to send me a "Got mutes?" shirt and a coffee mug along with my mute. Hehe, I love my Romanians.

So I love how if my parents want to tell me something, they e-mail rather than talk to me at home. Anyway, so my mom is yelling at me through an e-mail about being a slacker during high school and how we won't have money to pay for books and junk. Bull crap. My mother is so out of touch with the college stuff. She thinks that we have to buy new books. No, we don't that. Oh well. She doesn't think that I'll be able to pay for stuff, she'll see.

Ren Fair on Monday with Tyler! I CAN NOT WAIT!!! I also get Wednesday and Thursday off. I can't wait for that either...

I get to work from 3-11 till Saturday...gross.

I'm considered an alumni now. How cool.

I have new work hours, they are Monday/Tuesday 4-9, Thursday/Friday 3-11 (wow, that's a long time.) I'm glad though...I'll start getting fat paychecks to fund my college life.

I think I've decided to just live the dorm because I won't want to miss out on that experience (even though Matt says it sucks). I'm going to try to find a cool roommate (whom also has money) so we can share an apartment together, because I don't want to stay in the dorms longer than I have to...unless I like it. I'm calling housing tomorrow so I can get Jeff hooked up into my room.

I went to a graduation party tonight hosted by my Japanese friends, and randomly, my Mexican friends were there too. Pictures to come.

I'm going to bed.