I'm not dead yet...

Although I sure feel like it.  Working all the time, not getting paid a whole lot, and always working when my friends and Marissa aren't in work or school...  Not to mention obviously not getting my assistant manager position just yet, and my hand's been scratched up to hell thanks to this stupid piece of crap tower display I was building at work...  And there's the computer of mine that worked marvelously for 2 1/2 years and goes up and dies, just in time for my house to get wired with Comcast.  And my car needs a new timing belt.  And I don't have Thursdays off to go play the WoW TCG I've sunk a bunch of money into at Grand Adventures.  And when I do have a chance to play WoW on Marissa's computer, no one's ever on and way higher level than me.

...I'm sure that I can come up with some other stuff that bothers, annoys, and/or angers me if I wanted to sit down and think about it.  Oh, yeah, there's the tax refund I haven't gotten yet that I could most certainly use.  Gosh...

Normally, I wouldn't mind all this stuff bogging me down.  The main issue, though, is that I can't really find anything good happening to counter-balance it all.  I normally carry a burden of thoughts, issues, and whatnot, but usually don't care about it since there's usually something in my life that keeps me going.  But here lately...it's just been a draining experience, and I find myself desiring to go back in time to my senior year of high school, the time I had to do most anything I wanted and enjoyed everything I did.

I imagine something will get me back on my feet again; there usually is.  It's just a matter of waiting and/or grasping it.

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Has it really been that long since I said anything here?

Well, apparently it has.  Apparently, for the past several months I've just been kinda-keeping an eye on things with people on here and nothing else.  It seems like I made a post not that long ago, but apparently I'm wrong.  Oh well.

Anywho, lessee...  Well, in case you all haven't figured it out by now, I'm not in college anymore.  I just kinda decided that I really don't care about college right now at all.  There's nothing really worth goin' back for to me at this point.  As long as I make it to at least assistant manager at EB/Gamestop in the next year or so, I'll be good to go.  For right now, I'm stuck at home payin' all my bills now that I don't haveta worry about college, mainly car insurance and cell phone, and eventually internet, if Comcast would hurry the heck up and get my parents' house some friggin' cable.  We want their services, but they refuse to give them to us.  Or at least it seems that way.  ...Oh well.

Now that we've covered what's been goin' on between August and some of November...  I'm now the proud owner of a Nintendo Wii, thanks to my parents getting me the thing as a birthday present.  The only thing not-so-great about it right now is the selection of old-school games to download.  Otherwise, I recommend anyone to get one, 'cause they are the hotness.  It most definitely proves that graphics play one of many roles in what can make a game great.  Eat that, you stupid "mainstream" gamers that care nothing about how a game plays, only that it looks good!

Of course, I can't lie, I'm getting an Xbox 360 as well.  Sure, it looks great, but they've now finally come out with games that are worth something.  Dead Rising proves that having better hardware can make a difference in a game's potential.  The game requires the technical power of the 360, simply because it has so many zombies to keep track of.  I can't wait to play it.  And Oblivion is also cool.  Gears of War is great and all, I just can't get into it nearly as much as you "mainstream" gamers that listen to G4 as if it was the voice of God telling you about videogames.

Well, anyways, I guess I need to end my break and get back to work.  Take it easy, everyone; gimme a call if you wanna get together and check out the Wii.

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Blurg.

It's not even 9am yet, and I'm already on the internet.  And not playing Guild Wars for once.

I can't say I have much to say about what's going on, other than how I wonder my parents will feel about me not going back to school.  I'll probably get kicked out of the house.  I don't know.

My mind is at a complete blank at the moment.  It's as if a giant cloud came out of the sky to become fog, just to annoy me.

Well, anywho.  I guess I'll go back to doing other things.  Yay for random Six Flags trip tomorrow!

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Farewell MTSU, Hello to my New Life

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Well, it is now official: I'm not going back to MTSU for the Fall semester.  I went and dropped all my classes the other night.  And y'know what?  I feel somewhat glad about that.  Of course, I'm sure many of you reading this are probably wondering what the hell is wrong with me.  Well, to be honest, for the first time in my life, nothing.  Nothing is wrong with me.

I've come to the ultimate conclusion that college basically gives you nigh-guaranteed financial stability in a job that some, if not, many people could care less about.  It's all about money in many peoples' minds, that's what it comes down to.  Well, I feel that a man isn't judged by the amount of stuff he has but is instead judged by the goodness of his self.

When it comes down to it, I feel obligated to remind people that life isn't simply about working your ass off for money you shouldn't care so much about.  There's more to it than that.  There's the element of fun that I think so many people forget about; we forget to take the time out of life to enjoy what is there.

I feel that's basically what I've been doing for the past several years of my life.  Then I met Marissa.  Ever since I've gotten into this relationship, I've come to realize more about life than I could ever hope to have realized on my own.

And so, I think for the first time in my life, I've finally got an idea of what I truly want to do with my life: remind people to have fun.  What better way to do so than to work for a game store.

I'm at least movin' up the chain to a position I could feel comfortable being in, in terms of a balance between money and fun; I'm now the "part-time manager" at the EB outside the mall here in town.  Once I become a normal manager, life will be sweet for me.

I will kinda miss college, though, I will say, for the times shared with people when not in class (or even in class in some cases).  Whether just chattin' it up or doin' somethin' cool...  It was good times for all.  Days spent talkin' to Graham/Amy/Anna about whatever, or making a demo of an RPG with Cameron as a class project, or even the times of philosophy class with Ed, Chad and Cameron...  They were good times, and I will miss them.  At least, of course, you're all still here, so I can try to have good times with you all at some point.

Of course, keep in mind that overall, I really find nothing wrong with college.  I just don't care about havin' a ton of money, which, if I kept up my studies, is what I would've had.  It's always good to learn, and if it gets you a job you deeply, truly desire to have, then all the more power to you.  I've just come to the conclusion that there's nothing for me there.

...It's times like these that I really realize the times of our lives that are truly our greatest are already behind us: the times before graduating from high school.  Children don't have to worry about any of the crap that will be faced later in life.  They get to explore the world, live with little worry of anything.  They're as close to being truly free as possible in today's society.  If only I could've embraced that freedom moreso...

Anywho, it's really friggin' late right now, so I'm off.  I mean this with the utmost seriousness: find the inner child and go have some fun.

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