MY OTHER PRAY TO YOU AS MANY MORE TO COME ALWAYS

September 23 2005
Dear Lord,
Hello my father.
Im praying to you cause I have so much love for you and Im always needing.Why must there be so many hypocries?I wish people could just be real and not judgemental cause were all human and gonna make mistakes.I have made mistake's but from each mistake I have learned something about myself and that you cant keep making those same mistake's but I know you loving me so much that you will get me through this.I have no doubt in my mind that you are behind me 100% in whatever I do even if its a mistake cause your behind me in the way of getting me out of it and just blessing me to learn from all the mistake's I make and to help me grow as a spirtual person.I know Lord I havent been true to you lately and that Im just now getting back up in believing in you again.I had strong high doubts in you cause everyone doubted me and juged me and hurt me bad.I lost my faith totally since about 8th grade and now Im getting all of it strong and back and Im the happiest I have been in a long time knowing that I have my faith back and its a Thanks to Sanctuary on this past Thursday.If I wouldnt of gotten to go I wouldnt be typing these blogs now cause it changed me like things started coming in real fast like boom boom hitting me left and right like a wake up call.Gosh! I know its personal and detailed but what Im trying to say in this prayer to you Lord is Im sorry and I own up to you now and I want to pray for others to never loose there faith in you.I used words and said things months and months ago I wish I never said like I hated you.But,I felt dark and alone cold and scared and like I had no one to go to.But,I should never say some of the things I said and I will never forsake you again my Lord like that I was wrong to.Now that Im praying and letting this all out in the open just please bless me to pass the good word of your name Thy Lord around.There's not a day that goes by now that Im not gonna stop saying to myself how much I Love You and that Im so Thankful to have such a strong Christian family meaning my parents,sis,grandma's and other people in my life.But,I couldnt of gotten through any of this if it wasnt for you.I got through it cause I wanted to and needed to and cause something a girl said at Sanctuary. Thank you girl from Hondorus that goes to Lipscomb and every one else at Lipscomb who touched my heart when they got up there and spoke.WOW! Lipscomb is what can I say a power touching school with so many beautiful people that just really pore there heart out to the Lord.I cant stop thanking you and wont stop.Lord your just so amazing to go and die on the cross to save our sins and wash them away.I dont think I or any human can sit there and say they would do that for any of us and for you to do that is something truely beautiful and amazing like that you are more than GREAT.I cant even start to explain how much Im glad I got you fully 100% back in my life.We dont relize how blessed we are to live in this world even though there is evil out there.Tempation is so hard and we go through it everyday rather we want to or not.
In Him,
KIRSTEN

MY PRAYER TO YOU MY LORD

September 22 2005
Dear Lord,
Thank you dear Lord heavenly father above all name's for giving me this great beautiful amazing oppurtunity to come visit my sister Kaylei at her college David Lipscomb University for 2night and the rest of the week end.I went to Sanctuary with her at Otter Creek Church of Christ and I learned alot. Getting to go to that church and hear so many people praise his name with there amazing singing voices and the girls and guys who went up and read Scriptures and told stories really opened my eyes.It was like an eye opener for me to get right back in check with you.I need you not just now but forever until Im with you in Heaven even than I will still need you.Well one of the girls that got up there who's from Honduras really touched my heart by something she said.She said something like Hurricane Katrina that just hit not to ago should be an eye opener to us that these things are happening around the world all the time that its not safe and there are tragedies all over besides Hurricanes and that we should really just go to God cause were say lucky to have him and that people who just here about God in other countries just cry and are so excited cause they never knew how amazing he is.When she said that I just broke down in tears right than and there and was really thinking to myself about you Lord.I have made some horrible mistakes in my life that I wish I had never made and could go back in time and take back but I cant.Now all I can do is just sit here and pray to you and try and change and be a better person cause you and I both no Im far from perfect. But,see no one is but you cause we all make mistakes thats what makes us all human. Without God nothing is possible and I mean nothing at all.We wouldnt be here until this day if it wasnt for him.We are so blessed to live were we live and we so need to notice that more often.Well Lord you and I both know I have been going through alot here lately and Im always needing you and gonna need you.Please show me the light and lead me down the right path.I know I always question you and thats cause Im confused and I have so many questions for you cause only you and you only have all the answer's for me but cant just answer all of them.I know your here to answer them when you think the time is best for me.Why is there so much evil in the world? I mean what makes people judge others I mean I dont get why there's just so much hate.It seems like there's no good people like no good in anybody anymore.Why isnt it my time to be placed with my spouse yet?Okay I know its almost been a year since me and my ex-fiance Jake broke up.I know you remember he broke up with me the day after Christmas meaning 6 days after my 20th birthday.We were together a year and six months.I have been on alot of date's since we broke up and sometime's it seems like I try to compare every guy to him or sometime's it just feels and seems like all the guys care about is trying to get in a girls pants anymore and Im not all about that.Im not easy and I dont go sleep around with every guy I look at.So if a guy doesnt like that about me oh well cause I know there's more fish in the see.I know I will find me a guy who fits the nice guys finish last line.Lord I know your doing what you think is best for me and I know I have and we all have made mistakes.Im trying to change and become a stronger and better person. Please just show me some sign on what Im doing wrong or how you want me to be.I wanna please you Lord I really do.Its so hard on me and I feel like your punishing me for something I did wrong and I wish you would show me or tell me what I did wrong.I do not know what I did to not please you.Its just I dont get it sometime's.Im the girl thats always dreamed of her wedding day and finding her soul mate to love and to marry in sickness and in health until death do us part like that type of love they share in the movie The Notebook.God when your ready just give me a guy who fits my standards that I have set.I know every girl sits here and dreams of her wedding day.But,Im just like my Grandma and I know you know that Lord.She told me that she wasnt ever worried about a job or a car her main thing was to find her soul mate to spend the rest of her life with and Im the same way. Lord just show me the light and lead me down the right path you think is best for me.Im just gonna leave all this up to you and you just do whats best for me.
In Him,
KIRSTEN

“Not only so,but we also rejoice in our sufferings,because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance,character; and character,hope.”-Romans 5:3-4-

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.Love never fails."-1 Corinthians 13:4-8-

My Standards
Im looking for a Christian in other words they gotta have at least faith in the Lord
A old fashion gentlemen
Someone really funny
Someone doesnt want me just for sex
Someone who doesnt mind that I dont drive cause I have a fear of driving
Someone who is ready to settle down
Someone who's funny
Someone who loves kids
Someone sweet
Someone romantic and affectionate
Some one who respects me and likes me for me

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August 17 2005
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