Kelly Clarkson- Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

i didn't mean to fall in love with you,
and baby, there's a word for what you put me through;
it isn't love, it's robbery
i'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
-bbmak

does this apply to anyone? maaaaaybe. . . but not really.

i loaded a few more pictures.

Powers and I were talking about how excited we were to get back on this thing once we left Kaylei's. . .

In other news, I'm in need of a job. Right now, being a counselor at Girl Scout camp is looking REALLY good: I could have off for Impact, and it's about $175 a week. However, I would have to leave very soon, and I wouldn't be back until the end of July. . . so I probably won't take it. But it's nice to think about.

I'm supposed to be getting my computer soon. I hope so; I want to start loading pictures on it, and getting things set up just for me. Woot.

Liking who you think and know what someone can be, and liking who they really are are two totally different things.

I guess it takes really seeing what you don't want to realize what you do want.

All night long on my bed I looked for the one my heart loves; I looked for him but did not find him. -Song of Songs 3:1