*so before work today i prayed that God would help me to take a new step of leadership... whatever that was... and guess what i was put incharge of? back! yeah... i was actually upset about it at first... but then i realized that God was answering my prayer. lol. the night went really well and everyone was so encouraging. and we got out at 10:40. i know that it was a God thing.

*so i've been struggling in this one area just lately... and like... i'm just like... i've been praying that God would change my desire for a relationship... and everything... and one break tonight i was reading "Every Young Man's Battle" (the girls are suggested to read it... to see why modesty is important and all...) anyways... so i'm reading it... and there's this part about how when there's a struggle in our lives we want God to take our desires away... but in most cases He doesn't. in example the only way for a guy to take control and have victory in his thought life is for him to step up... be a man (not just a guy... not just a boy but a man) and do whatever it takes to fight wrong thoughts. and it hit me... the only way to have victory in this battle is to stop thinking like a teenager (you know the "but how can i not follow my heart?" or "but it feels good" attitude) and be an adult... but real about this. i have to look at exactly what's tripping me up and stay as far away as possible. when i'm tempted to flirt i have to be real and refrain. i have to trust God and obey what i know is right. i dunno... you prolly think that i'm nutts... and that's okay. i'm not trying to impress anyone. and no... i don't think all relationships are bad... but 1. i'm still on my year of not dating and 2. i'm not ready. anyways... that was long. night, guys. ~Hope