so i had to talk to someone about something tonight (i think Amber's really the only one that knows what i'm talking about)... so umm.... i just basically poured my heart out... and wasn't expecting any reply... didn't even want one... but i didn't expect the awkward silence. i wasn't expecting for that person to look at me w/ eyes that seemed to search within me. i didn't expect to hear my own heart beat. so that friend just sat in my truck... speechless. i expected them to say "well... goodnight... here's my jeep... talk to you later" i had to say "well... it's late i need to get home... don't feel awkward... i just needed to talk to you." and they just sat there... and finally said "okay... goodnight.." hugged me... said a few goofy things... and we left. i knew that God wanted me to talk to my friend. after all we are friends... but i dunno... i felt like it could have gone better. but i also know that i am relieved as all get out. so... anyways... yeah... that was random...