so... my granny and grandaddy are both in the hospital... my grandaddy has been paralized from the waist down... since... as long as i can remember.... but he had to have most of his legs removed within the last few years... he's had some bed sores... and they've gotten so bad that they go to the bone... and my granny... she has broncitis (sp?) pretty bad... my parents are planning to go visit the in Alabama this weekend... i guess i'm going too. it's just really hard tho... i don't know how many more times i'll be able to see them... it's going to be hard to see them like this. but i know that it would be selfish not to go. i don't think either of them know Christ... if my grandaddy does... well... then he turned his back on God a long time ago... and my granny... i could be wrong... but it all seems outward to me... i mean... she goes to church... but she lives the same at home... and as much as i try to stay numb... and not feel it... it hurts to not know where your loved ones are going when they die.