so i'm back from camp. camp was great... heard some awesome messages that really helped me understand where some of my weaknesses are. so i learned that my 2 biggest struggles are my attitude and what i say (and how i say it). so my friend came and visited me at camp on Tuesday... that was interesting. i met his parents. they were really sweet, but i really felt uncomfortable b/c i felt like they saw me as their future daughter-in-law or something. i didn't give him the "talk" that i planned to give. i couldn't find the strength... but i could tell that he knew i was uncomfortable w/ anything more than friendship... i could tell he was trying to protect my feelings. i really appreciated that. i think other than the preaching the highlight of the week was a game of "tub-tug" to make a long story short you try to get the tub across your line and fight of the other girl who's trying to do the same... which means... at all costs do what you have to do, be mean, be nasty, be visious. I LOVED IT!!! i played so hard i thought that i might have broken a finger... but i think it's just bruised and swollen... we'll see in a few days. but might i add that a broken finger is worth it!!! haha... my team won the week! heck yes!! so anyways... i got an application to work at camp next summer... it's funny b/c my councelor was asking me if i had thought about it... and then the guy who was one of our CIT speakers last summer really encouraged me to apply.. and then one of the speakers was talking about setting goals and continuing to persue them and he used working there as an example. is God trying tell me something? i wonder... i'm still afraid that i won't get it. but i've decided that i'm going to place it in God's hands... and if that's where He wants me.. that's where He'll place me. my sunday school teacher's wife has volunteered to pray w/ me about it. anyways.. it's late... and i need to go to bed. i do want you to know that this week was really a blessing. i needed it.. and i didn't want to leave... rough cabin or no. night, children of the Living God! ~Hope