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June 27 2005

Toothbrush Inventory

June 27 2005
So there are 10 toothbrushes total in my house... 3 downstairs and 7 upstairs... and there are three people living in my house. I investigated the matter and this was the inventory I came up with:

Upstairs:
1 toothbrush belongs to my dad
2 toothbrushes belong to my mom
2 toothbrushes belong to me
1 toothbrush belongs to Amy Amonett
1 toothbrush... well... we're not sure who it belongs to...

Downstairs:
1 toothbrush belongs to my dad
2 toothbrushes belong to my mom... including a Scooby Doo toothbrush (she says it was the only one she could find to fit in the toothbrush holder holes..)

yeeeah

June 27 2005
well.. heres to a lonely summer...and road tips to Tupelo, Mississippi, Indianapolis Indiana, and Baton Rouge, Lousiana

SOME Impact Pictures

June 27 2005


photo from BeautyFromPain

this got me any and everywhere



photo from BeautyFromPain

Barlow Girl


photo from BeautyFromPain
again



photo from BeautyFromPain

BG signing



photo from BeautyFromPain

"It's Anna looking in a mirror." -Brian King


photo from BeautyFromPain
Mom and the Bison



photo from BeautyFromPain
me and Mom



photo from BeautyFromPain
me and Chelsey



photo from BeautyFromPain
Sean Knox!



photo from BeautyFromPain
Me working the spotlight



photo from BeautyFromPain
the cast of the skit



photo from BeautyFromPain
me with Col. Ingleson, a POW from the Vietnam war



untitled-licious

June 27 2005
almost all of my gazillion cd's are on iTunes!!! i only have 3 left!!

wow! VBS is sooo fun. i love my little 4 year olds and my last class has brooks, hadley, reyna, beylan, and caleb! it rocks!

love you!
r.

Knoxville

June 27 2005
Orientation should be fun.
I hope so, anyway.
See you all Thursday!

new

June 27 2005
Yea..So I'm new here.I will probably use this as a place for ideas for entries on my xanga.Yep.

Im a Newb

June 27 2005
sup, just tryin this out......last time i did something like this i got bored sooooooo attempt #2.

Its being mega-retarded and not letting me post a profilem pic, so i have use this gay tree

later


Cool New site

June 27 2005
I'll keep updating my xanga but it is nice to be part of something new. lots of people actually have these. ya. okay. - Jacob

And every time I see a boat by a lake, I wanna jump up and say "let's row away from everything"...

June 27 2005
Hmmmm....I'll be home in 5 weeks. And none the sooner...but I'll stop thinking of that now...
And move on to happier things...like, Munchkin coming back from the vet this afternoon so I can play with her! I looooove this dog. It's 3 and 1/2 pounds, and that's as big as she's gonna get. A Yorkie and something mix...she's sooo cute!
And...I called the college, but they're not doing Fall Admissions yet...dammit...by the time I'm aware that they're going on, the classes I want will be full...
Ah well....in 2 weeks, I'll be in the arms of the 2 most hottest chicks in TN...yes you sexy specimens of the female race...I'll be there NEXT WEEKEND!!! Yay! Provided of course, that the adult I'm staying with gives her consent...lol...and you guys can see my kick ass car too!

wow

June 27 2005
Shaun of the Dead is such an amazing movie...
...i wanna see it again...

JR. HIGH

June 27 2005
Jr. High Laser Quest
This Wednesday
Be at the church @ 5:00 (not 5:05 or 5:10)
we will return @ 10:00 pm

Bring 10.00 plus money for food

If you need more details leave a remark or email stephen at stephen@proxy521.com

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June 27 2005
ok, so does having 5 restraunts all in the nashville area count as a chain, because when i think of a chain, i think national or regional. i don't know...would we count la siesta as a chain because there are 4 of them or whatever? just wondering

1 year of no dating...

June 27 2005
God,

Thank you for calling me to do such a small thing like this. You cared enough about me to request a simple year for me to give myself to you. When I did, my whole world changed. God, I want you to know that this commitment isn't over. I don't want to date until you send that right person. I want to devote myself to your calling for my life. God, you are so huge, yet you love me in an intimate way. I can't believe you cared enough about me, but thank you for changing my life forever... I love you Father....

Guys, no matter what God calls you to do,answer the call. People think that God is just looking to destroy our lives when actually he knows more about you than you do. He truly has a HUGE plan for your life. Pray about what direction God is asking you to travel down. This has been the best year of my life, and by NOOOOOOOOOOOO means is it over. This is my life now. I know I will get married someday, but I know that it will be a relationship God intended me to have. He truly has the best intentions for you. So who are you going to listen to when God asks you to step out of your comfort zone. In Louie terms, "Are you going to participate in the little story of you, or would you rather join a story that never ends." God's calling you. Answer the call and be forever changed.Your father only wants to be intimate with you forever. I think he deserves more than that. Each name in his character alone deserves eternal praise. He deserves our lives guys, and if you need proof that he does you can look at the guy who was pinned to a cross because he wanted you to live forever. We definitely don't deserve it, but he looked at you and smiled. You are so beautiful to Him. Just remember that God has a plan for you, and it may be uncomfortable but I guarantee you that if you trust Him, he will take your life and change it. We truly have an amazing Daddy!!

: )

June 27 2005
Belle Aire's VBS starts today!


This ought to be fun.

Edit:

I watched "Fox and the Hound" for the first time today. Holy cow, that movie is way sad. I cried in the waiting room of my brother's orthodontist. They shouldn't show movies like that in public.

me.. i am so ugly!!! lol...

June 27 2005
hey this is me, tiffany. don't i just take ur breath away?? NOT!!! lol... and i prolly won't have many pictures cause my dad won't let me use the camera... he's such a loser!! lol.. but when he does i'll let u know... meanwhile go to my xanga site... just hit the link over on ma profile.

love ya!!

Photo From lil bit perfect

June 27 2005


photo from lil bit perfect

Nevermind, scratch that

June 26 2005
The hospital sent my mom home.

They don't know what's wrong with her.

Her heart and her gall bladder or anything that could have been causing it seems to be in working order.

But she still can't eat.

Maybe they'll do something if I have to drive her back up there in 24 hours because she's starving to death.

Retards.

---IN OTHER NEWS:

Oh.
Shit.

today

June 26 2005
read isaiah 6
today my pastor talked about divine appointments, and how nothing is by chance. i then proceeded to ask God to put divine appointments in my life.
since then, i've had spiritual conversations by "accident" with both of my neighbors, and gone to lunch with a new friend who really encouraged me in Christ.
so God does answer prayer!

i had fun just now at ihop with my friends jim, john, jeremiah, josh, and wes (odd ball without a j on his name). we all went after our college group from church called the gathering. i really love the gathering because i am always reminded of God's goodness, mercy, love, and grace everytime i go. plus all the people are pretty cool! at ihop i started laughing and inhaled my coffee (which turned out to be pretty gross coming out of my nose)

tomorrow i'll wake up bright and early for camp. we have the older discipleship girls at my camp, and i'm really excited (but a little nervous).

i have been wondering what God will have me do after graduation.

LINDA ROX MY SOX!!

June 26 2005
ha ha ha ha, i had some fun. Made new friends. Heard linda sing a dr. pepper song. I got to make a wish in the "wishing well." Brett called me Aisha. It was great. Well, I'm debating whether or not I'm gonna do this more than my xanga site.
EDIT:
I'm very happy. Senior year is like the BEST!

impact

June 26 2005
it twas awesome. so many good stories to tell...just ask. I saw God work through some close friends of mine....truly amazing. thank you God, so yeah my computer dosent let me upload pics on here so check out www.xanga.com/americandesi765 if u wanna see pics. see ya later.

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June 26 2005
dono life is really boring at this stage. im in the time of waiting. im waiting to get my truck. im waiting for my permit.im waiting on vacation. im waiting on high school. im waiting on us moving. im waiting on a job. this is the most boring part. id rather be out there doing something with my time rather then sit here wasting it. im stuck here while everyone else is out there doing something.. i get my truck for christmas or next summer.i go on vacation end of july. i get my permit in november. school starts in august. we are putting the house up for sale right after christmas. i get a job after christmas some time. so really there isnt much to do . i cant ever see my girlfriend. i sit here 24hours of the day all 7 days of the week.last summer i was out everyday, everynight, every minute of the day i was doing something .whether it was legal or not is another thing though. now that im good it is boring. but hopefully this summer starts getting better and quick because its passing by quickly. i love you megan

These chicks don't even know the name of my band... and, well, I don't either.

June 26 2005
So, I might be in a band. I have to go try out on my bass guitar, but I'm sure I will make it because they need a bass player and well, they don't know anyone else that plays bass. So, I might be in a band. Its old name was Surviving Monday, but some other band had that name copy righted, so, they might change it to this other really cool name... I just forgot what it was. I recieved a copy of their EP, and I have been workig on the 2 songs. I think I sound pretty good... definatly good enought to make it. The bass lines were kinda easy, but, I still practiced them for like 55346 hours just because I wanted to play them right for my tryout.

Anyway, I think thats all I have, so, I'll run.

Later,
Brett

:EDIT:
I am very happy right now!

GAAAAAAAAAH!

June 26 2005
Ther is this gnat-like moth thing in my room. And it keeps doing stuff like landing on my arm or bumping into my nose or crawling accross my computer screen but I can't catch it!!! OMG! Driving me nuts.

I got a desk today (and a CD tower to match). That's right, Sebastian is no longer on the floor. And I got some new desktop speakers so I can actually hear both audio parts of whatever I'm listening to or watching.

Can you say "Rocky Horror Party in Sarah's Room?"

I bet you can.

My mommy has slipped back into not being able to eat. She's been throwing up everything solid and most things liquid. She hasn't had a substantial meal in about 4 days. I took her back to the ER today and they admitted her pretty fast. When I left she was hooked up to an IV to get her all un-dehydrated and watching TV.

When the docs figure out what's causing it, I'll tell you guys.

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June 26 2005
nothing much to report on the homefront...other than the fact that i am exhausted and can't wake myself up at all. i did have a fun time hanging out with becca last night. i like non-chain restraunts...murfreesboro needs more of them. we went to calypso cafe. very fun indeed. and jeff and i finally finished fight club after falling asleep about halfway through on friday night. yeah...i'm going to bed...i need to get my crazy back

zzzzzz.....

June 26 2005
i'm not sure i've ever been this tired in my life. perhaps after band camp or something, but after a week of getting 5 hours of sleep each night, i'm exhausted. i'm sure it's way worse for the roadies and counselors and youth ministers.

i've had so much fun with my new phone. it's a camera phone so i've been taking pictures of people and then getting them to call me so their picture pops up. it makes me giggle XD

i start driver's ed on tuesday. should be fun, but it seems like its messing up my social life because i can't spend the night with anyone because it's so early in the morning. at least i get the afternoons off.

my neighbors went away and i'm house/petsitting and i'm gonna make some sweet moolah.

i can't wait to get my computer back and put my Impact pics on here. *squee* they are amazing.

Worship at Ground Zero

June 26 2005


photo from nathan

Tonight was really awesome. Dinner at RED with some people from Murfreesboro was a lot of fun. We then walked down to Ground Zero.

A large group was there (obviously from some church in town for the Billy Graham Crusade). Quietly, one of the girls from this group started to sing. At first, you could only recognize that she was singing. Her voice was too quiet to recognize anything else.

Slowly, a few more from her group joined in. Eventually, there were about 15 or so people singing worship songs at the top of their lungs at the fence at Ground Zero. It was AMAZING and very encouraging.

As people walked by, they could not help but glance over to the group with several hands raised toward God.

This went on for quite some time as the girl that started it all would pick up another song when one ended.

We left before they stopped singing, but as we walked back to the apartment, I could still hear them singing a block away tunes from Amazing Grace and Shout to the Lord.

The group that I was with tonight then came back to our apartment and went to the roof where we hung out for quite some time. It was a lot of fun hanging out with some of my regulars now but also some new people that I never knew from Murfreesboro.

[nt]

A new level of lazy

June 26 2005
Ok, I will definately admit to being lazy, but today i reached a brand new level. Let's see, here's where the lazyiness starts...i have remotes for just about everything, in fact i sleep with my tv remote so i don't have to ever get up and get it (no i don't have a table next to the bed, its a really small apartment), i also have a wireless keyboard and mouse so that i can type from bed while watching tv, although it is very hard to see the screen...but today i have finally reached a new level. as i was leaving work i decided to pick up some wash cloths because i no longer have any clean ones...yes i know it would be easier to wash them, but i don't want to laundry before wednesday and this seemed a lot easier than walking 2 doors down to the complex "laundry mat" well, i'm off to bed (because i'm actually at my desk right now)

Today

June 26 2005
so now we might have 3 new kittens, and there all staying in my room..its cool.

no update on my brother...

my sister leigh's birthday was today, had a cookout, ribs....chicken...corn...good times, i picked up a tirtle soap dish from target for her...turns out she has been wanting it for a while...*score* who's the best at gifts?

goin to florida on fri. with donald for 9 days. I couldnt be more thankful.


Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. Isaiah 43:18

God grant me the Serenity to
accept the things I cannot change.
Courage to change the things I can
and Wisdom to know the difference.

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June 26 2005
Hey yall!

Well i have ben so frustrated lately! My father is getting married next weekend and i am in the wedding! He has been spending a ton of money! It is CRAZY! I really dont wanna be in the wedding! But whatever!

This week my cellphone get damaged and i don't have the money to pay for it right now! My dad has two phones that he uses and im gonna ask for that phone while he is gone on his honeymoon! Then there is this whole car situation w/ my dad! Me and my dad just arn't gettin along and im so frickin tired of fighting w/ him! Then my mom and stepdad have been gettin into it lately! It is so dum! They just won't stay off my case! There always yellin at me and it is drivin me insane! But, i sure can't move in w/ my dad! I just can't wait till next summer! I will be GONE!!! It is the stuff that has been happening in the past week that are pushing me even closer to go to school in mobile,alabama! 10 hours from home! I mean i would be away from it all! But who knows what will happen to me over the next 6 months! Who knows what GOD has planned for my life! I wish i did know what he has planned for my life! I've just gotta quit stressing over stuff like this! Well i gotta go to bed! Im gonna work this week at VBS! I will see someof you there!!!!

Ali May

Taking a Trip to Merriment

June 26 2005
so i'm gone tomorrow to 6-Flags over GA w/ some ppl from church! yes!!! yeah... i plan to scream like a lil girl... and i also have a feeling that there will be quite a war involving playing cards... i'm so ready! i'll see you guys in a few days!

anyways... i wanted to write that i finally looked in my journel to find out the actual date of my no dating commitment and it's October 17... :) i can't believe that it's already been 8 months! wow! and i look back and i can already see how much my views have changed. how much my heart and life has changed. it's got to be a God thing. He's so awesome and i'm looking forward to what He's going to teach me in years to come... single, dating, or married. i know that the school of Christian life is never out for summer... and graduation day is when the commencement speech is given by Christ Himself... and after that words can't even describe.

EEEE!!!

June 26 2005
i have pink and a little teal hair!!! its sooo exiting!!! and if you see me in the next 8-10 washes you will probably get to see it! i love you all!!! especially gracie because she did it for me!

Simple Joys

June 26 2005
AHH...the simple joys in life amaze me, long bubble baths, finding a new unopened box of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream in the back of the freezer, warm-right-outta-the-dryer towels, and blaring your favorite song when it comes on the radio at the perfect moment....:-) :-)

If anyone wants to do something this week, just gimme a call!!! love you!

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June 26 2005
I am bored.

I made a second one of these.

State Champions

June 26 2005
my team won the tennessee state championship(in baseball) and so now we get to go to nationals
:)

0.o;

June 26 2005
Wow ok so this is my first lil thingy sorta confused, Friend showed me it so w/e. I'm mostly on xanga so yeah...I'll more than likely forget about this site, sorry people. Well I must be going

neat little survey thingie

June 26 2005
I've done this one before, but stuff changes.

The Soundtrack of My Life
- Opening Credits: A Whatever Life- Hayley Duff
- Waking-Up scene: High of 75- Relient K
- Average Day scene: Every Little Thing- Hawk Nelson
- Falling In Love scene: Why Can't I- Liz Phair
- Love Scene: More Than Me- Jordan Cahill
- Fight With a Friend scene: Which to Bury, Us or the Hatchet- Relient K
- Break-Up/Post Break-Up scene: Goodbye To You- Michelle Branch
- Lonely scene: Never Alone- Barlow Girl
- Get Back Together scene: Want You Back- Mandy Moore
- Fight scene: Eye of the Tiger- Survivor
- Wandering Around Randomly scene: Over It- Annalise
- Heartbreak scene: My Immortal- Evanescence
- Mental Breakdown scene: Untitled- Simple Plan
- Driving scene: California- Hawk Nelson
- Sex scene: My Confession- Josh Groban
- Dream sequence: Hampster Dance Song
- Party scene: Saturday Night- Bay City Rollers
- Happy Dance scene: Walking on Sunshine- Jump 5's version
- Regret scene: I So Hate Consequences- Relient K
- Long Night Alone scene: You Led Me- Barlow Girl
- Closing credits: Suddenly- Superchick

feeling quite random

June 26 2005
what is something you wish for?
what to you is unconditional love?
what in your words is"love"?
are you content with who you are?

I love you.
Jamie

what is something you wish for? something I wish for is, to live a better life. I just have made so many mistakes & I just want to be happier

what to you is unconditional love? uncondtional love? is definately God because he loves us no matter what.

what in your words is love? love is when you can look past the flaws and still love them for who they are. it's a feeling you feel, you know it's right

are you content with who you are? yeah, I'm pretty comfortable with who I am. I cant complain, I am blessed with so many great people & things. so yeah I am pretty content.

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June 26 2005
Today, I went to World Outreach Church. It's a nice (BIG) church. I saw Cody...ahh, those good ol' memories of science class. Dana, remember being in the office with Cody? hehe.

Who is up for a game of "Truth or Dare"?

*edit* Pretty sure I just messed up my wedding...*cries*

newbie

June 26 2005
well i thought i'd try this out...i'm not too sure of how it all works..but seems a whole lot snazzier than xanga. hope everyone had a great day!

54 and counting...

June 26 2005
yay! I got my dorm assignment! And i have a room that has AC. Yipee!!

Pantas Hall, Room 316

Brooklyn- here I come... only 54 more days.
yikes.

oh dear. why is this happening????????????

Random...

June 26 2005
I have the hiccups... lol random

umm i leave tomorrow for Chatanooga and wont be back till uhhhh cant member ,which is gonna suck cuz i dont got a computer with me err so call me on my cell so i wont be bored...maybe there will be a skater guy up there! DUN DUN DUN lol

It's been a while

June 26 2005
I kind of forgot I had this thing.

Nothing much happens in my life. Except that I'm going to China in 3 weeks.

I'm excited.

WOW.

June 26 2005
I don't respond to change very well. At least not when it comes to my blogging habits... I'm still slightly partial to my Xanga... even if it is more work.

It's a Sunday, the most uneventful day of the week. They're either really lonely, or really really boring. And rarely ever exciting, with few exceptions.
I have a bunch of really great photos on my camera from camp and other things... but in order to post them, I have to go all the way to Antioch to get my USB cord back and download them into a computer that actually works. So I guess we'll wait on that one.....

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June 26 2005
I am bored.

had to start over...

June 26 2005
so i pretty much FORGOT my password.. and i dont know anything about this thing.. so i didnt know if there was somewhere that i could go and like click a link that says "forgot password" but ... its just too easy to make a new one.. so i decided to do that! haha :] hope yall are having a great week--

LaLaLaLa!!!!

June 26 2005
well i have an awesome weekend.
Saturday:went to the lake with Meg,Bec,Christi and Mr.and Mrs. Amonett and that was alot of fun.WE had fun tubing except when i thought i was going to die.lol.but yeah and then you know MEGAN cracking fat JOKES was not nice.lol. just playing she really wasn't but yeah i like to pick on her about it."Free Willy"(that hurt)

Today or Sunday:woke up and went to church that was amazing like always.Then had lucnh with the rents and that was great.Now I just got back from an ADK meeting which was awesome it's cool just to see everyone.lol.well i don' tknow what to do tonight i think i should just sleep what do you guys think....but yeah.

well im going to go you crazy kids.....
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
GOD BLESS!!!!
lEAH

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June 26 2005
HeY! im bored rite now kt is coming over to spend the nite later! i havent seen her in over a week.....she was in FL! but rite now her cuzin is there.

me and kt r gonna wash the cars...idk when but we r so we can get a tan...lol!

kylie is coming back tomorrow! she was in FL too gosh whats up with this?

im listening to bowling for soup rite now!

next weekend were goin to cookeville to get my brother from gov school hes been there for 5 weeks! well im gonna go now ill ttyl

o and i tried some of robby's coffee at church today it was pretty good i tried oliv's once but hers wasnt....his burnt my tongue tho....it was hott!!!....lol


*lauren*

I Just Keep Going and Going...

June 26 2005
So yesterday morning and early afternoon I was happy. Then I was cranky. Then I was OK. Then I was cranky again and began plotting a sermon I was going to type here. I went to bed but had trouble sleeping. I woke up cranky. I went to church cranky and kept asking God to take it away from me, to fill me up with His joy. I remembered what Amber and Michael said Wednesday about worshipping God despite how you feel (and despite the fact that everything in the service is extremely kiddy because of VBS...) I was a judgemental mess all morning. I found a problem with pretty much everything and everyone. And then I was ok when I listened to Rom Moore preach. I thought ok I'm finally focusing on God. Then I was ok when we sang... and then the mood of the offering was interrupted and I wanted to scream!!! I realized I was seriously under attack...
I'm ok again for now. I'm learning to pray throughout the day through all circumstances. This past week has been insane. I've learned to trust God through the rough times, praise God through the good times, and that God is always moving even when things seem off-centered. I also saw the wisdom of God revealed to me through little children... one thing I did right this morning was recognize the precious and simple faith of little children. I need more of that in my life... and I guess that's what God is teaching me.

I Wanna do something...Big...and fruitful...for Christ. Right now!!

June 26 2005
Today was amazing. Our normal Sunday School teachers were handling their son's wedding, so they were out. Instead, we convinced J-Mo and Clint to teach our class. Wow. That was Divine Intervention, I can tell you that. Clint and J-Mo really opened up. I could feel the brokenness and hurting in that room, but I know that Christ was right in the middle of the whole thing. Each person prayed for another person, and I could really feel the power of the Holy Spirit flowing through that room. It was an amazing and uplifting experience.
So now I'm all spiritually amped up and I want to go serve the Lord in a big way. Or just at all. I want to go and pray with everyone and anyone who needs it. I want to go on a mission trip. I want to go door to door right here in the 'Boro and share Christ with the lost and hurting. I want to tell others what God is doing in my life, and I want to ask what He's doing in theirs. I want to hang out with my brothers and sisters in Christ, and talk about deep things, Godly and righteous things. I want to listen to your woes and share your brokenness. I want someone to hold me accountable in my spiritual walk. I want to be in a Bible study group, (which will happen soon) where I can learn about God with my fellow brothers. I want to live my life for the Glory of the Most High God, our Abba.

Be Back this Sat.

June 26 2005
Hey I am not gonna be here for 1 week because my technology skills are needed so leave some penguins (favorite animal) (Penguins= Remarks)

**I Have A Problem.....

June 26 2005
I am starting to miss some certain people from school and i want to go back :-(....thats not good cause what i have been out of school for like a month..dang im such a nerd!!! haha**

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June 26 2005
well i guess you could say i followed the crowd and got a phusebox thing. but i'm still goin to use xanga, and i encourage yall to do the same. why leave something that we all have known for so long. it's like ditching a best friend. actually, i feel bad for using this. but it does seem nice. except for the fact that it kicks me off all the time. so yall may not be able to see this. and if you do,i probably wont know.
i'm goin to go sleep so i can go to work.
piece

Photo From blond@heart

June 26 2005


photo from blond@heart
is that not AWESOME!!!

Reading

June 26 2005
I think I'm going to try and start reading more, I need to get better and faster to survive college.

Is there medication for this?

June 26 2005
I'm addicted. And sooner or later it's going to be the end of me.

You know. Chocolate milk. Gilmore girls.

And other such addicting things.

Nothing.

June 26 2005
So I guess I now know how it feels to cry myself to sleep.

it's good to be back. . .

June 26 2005
well. . . where to start. i got back from Impact yesterday afternoon. it was a very cool experience indeed.

Through these He has given us His very great and precious promises, so that through them you can participate the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires. -2 Peter 1:4

The theme was Escape. It revolved around four characters imprisoned in a POW camp during WWII. One of the characters wanted to get out of the camp, one did not realize he was in camp, another was comfortable in the camp, and the last had been at the camp so long, he'd lost all hope of getting out. If you havent't figured it out, the "camp" represented sin. In the end, the character who wanted to get out so badly read a letter from his father ((God)), and realize that all he had to do was just walk out and not listen to the threats the guards were making.

Being a roadie was extremely cool but very demanding at times. I'll do a quick rundown of what I did: Helped build the set. Sold merchandise for Denver and the Mile High Orchestra. Got Hypnotized by Michael Blaine. Runner for Barlow Girl. Did spotlight for Dave Horsrager ((sp?)), Tait, and Col. Ingleson, a former POW from the Vietnam War. Loaded a TON of equipment for all of the entertainers. Ran back and forth to Impact Central for one thing or another. Cleaned out a blender that totally minced a meal from Taco Bell.

. . . those are all the highlights; i'm sure I'm forgetting a lot of things.

Your Spirit brings me liberty
Your breath of life has set me free
Jesus, Your love, it lifts me high
Gives me reason to run the race with joy
This song within me, Lord, will bless Your Holy name
Jesus, I'll dance before Your throne
Bring this heavenly sound to You alone
This song within me. Lord, will bless Your Holy name

today

June 26 2005
i hope today's a wonderful day.. yesterday was pretty good even though i babysat from 9:30 am til 7:30 pm-- we went to mcdonald's and kids castle! the boys loves it. and my teacher had surgery yesterday..and she's cancer-free!! i'm so glad that her prayers were answered!

well..i'm off to shower, go to church, and study for mid-terms this afternoon

later

Wounds

June 26 2005
When you get a wound, you are usually involved in some activity that is risky in some manner. Your first scratch hurt when you were young and inexperienced. But since you are young, you don't really learn from that mistake. You continue to make the same mistake repeatedly, and after a couple scratches, you do learn from that mistake. You grow older, you get riskier--with more potential to get hurt. You get that first deep wound. You notice that it lasts much longer than the scratches you obtained when you were a child. It takes more time to heal. To protect the open wound, you place bandages over it. After a short amount of time, you decide to take the bandage off. To you, the quicker healing process is worth the risk of jeopardizing the wound...making it vulnerable to infection or more damage. But you continue to find joy in the activity that caused the wound, and it does get hurt again, even worse. Once again the bandage goes on...this time for a longer period of time. After hard times, you see that the wound is almost healed and you are ready to try the same activity once again. The bandage comes off...and everything seems wonderful, as if it may finally be getting better...for good. But a quick end this feeling comes to...for a quick fall you take. Hitting the same part of you, creating a large and very damaged wound. The bandage returns to its residence protecting the wound. At this point you aren't sure as to how much more this wound can take...

I don't know if i can take the bandage off this time...


With all the aspirations for success and prosperity that I have, I have understood that it is specualtion...dreams if you will. Hopes for the future.

One thing that I am certain about is that I know that I can be fulfilled...be successful. Loving another with all my heart will fulfill any desire that I have for success.

That is and always will be enough.

"I am no one special, just
a common man with common thoughts. I've led a
common life.
There are no monuments dedicated
to me. And my name will soon be forgotten. But in
one respect. I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone
who ever lived.
I've loved
another with all my heart and soul and for me that
has always been enough."

::ben

trying to think...but it is not working

June 26 2005
here i am, still awake at 0317a.m.
listening to a mars hill church mp3
i haven't spent any time with God today. During the week I am desperate to spend time with God, but on the weekend I am quite busy with laundry or spending my life savings at wal mart. Why am I like that? This mp3 is incredibly convicting...it is titled "sin" quoting philippians chapter 2...
3Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. 4Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.
5Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus:
6Who, being in very nature[a] God,
did not consider equality with God something to be grasped,
7but made himself nothing,
taking the very nature[b] of a servant,
being made in human likeness.
8And being found in appearance as a man,
he humbled himself
and became obedient to death—
even death on a cross!
9Therefore God exalted him to the highest place
and gave him the name that is above every name,
10that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father


i am such a proud person. so sinful. what a great GOD i have! how awesome. i am floored by what Jesus did for me. i haven't done anything to deserve it, nor have i always acted grateful.
something that the pastor on this mp3 brought out is that first we need to be saved...to be saved we have realize that Jesus is GOD..broken befor God and realizing our utter sinfulness so that we need to be saved we desire it, we want to be saved....

wake o sleep, rise from the dead!

June 25 2005
some of you may have been told growing up to follow your heart. then somewhere along the line, you are told not to trust your heart. but yet so much is centered around the heart. i am currently reading "the sacred romance". i also read "waking the dead" which deals with some of the same issues. when i read "waking the dead" i felt like my heart was awakened. i knew something was missing, and it was my heart. sometimes we are reminded of the verse that says the heart is deceitful above all things. but then we are also told to guard our hearts because they are the wellspring of life. this leaves much confusion for many people, especially if they hear both sides of all this. i just read the first chapter of "the sacred romance" and i was reminded of the wonderful things God taught me last summer. there IS something more to life. everything can feel so empty if your heart is not in it. passion flows from your heart. love flows from your heart. it truly is the wellspring of life. from your heart, from God's heart, everything flows. "it is in our hearts that we first hear the voice of God and it is in the heart that we come to know him and learn to live in his love." when i read that, all i could think is: wow. God speaks to our hearts, we come to know him through our hearts, we believe in him will all our heart... are you starting to see a pattern here? when Jesus spoke to people, he told stories. stories don't just strike up intelligent thoughts in our heads, they touch our hearts. and think about the great commandments. God said to love Him and others with all your heart. if you ever try to live the christian life just by the rules, and never put your heart into it then you are left feeling empty. that is because God want us to live fully, by loving with all our heart, seeking after him with all our heart, being passionate... "our heart is the KEY to the christian life". it started in your heart when you first believed. don't abandon it. guard your precious gift from God. don't be deceived. let love and passion flow from this wellspring of life. let God speak to you. let Him work in your heart.

wow. that is all i can say about that. God is amazing. let your heart be engaged with Him and let that passion just flow.

now i am really going to bed... with a heart transplant.

God has given you the strength....

June 25 2005
When we were in Mexico, we decided on our last day we would travel to a small village in Matamoros. We went around to all of the houses, and we told them to come out at 2 o clock for a service. We parked in an open field, and waited for everybody to show up. At 2, crowds came pouring from every direction. We had a service, and that day alone we saw 100 people come to know Christ as their Lord and Savior. It was so amazing! At the end while we were handing out food though, I looked out in the distance, and there was this man who looked to be about 19 or 20. But this was no ordinary man, it was Satan himself. We all knew it. Even though this guy was normal we knew what we were facing. His face was dark, and he had a grin I will never forget. He took some of our tracks and ripped them laughing. We continued to hand out food, and God urged us to keep going. Satan tried to get our attention, and some looked. The majority kept handing out food, not letting any evil bother us. He continued to taunt us, but God in us reigned that day. As we pulled out of that parking lot all Satan could do was watch and taunt. But God protected us that day, and he gave us the strength to conquer evil in Mexico. I believe those people in Matamoros were truly changed forever that day. I know I love to talk about how much God loves us, but we need to know that with God comes Satan. Sometimes we don't believe we can conquer someone who wants us destroyed. But let me tell you that if you ask God to give you the strength, he will. I know that day in Mexico, God smiled upon us and said, "those are my children down there, I'm so proud of them." If we simply believe and open our hearts to God's strength, we become Satan's most dangerous opponent. Without God, we will FAIL!! Don't fall into the trap that Satan has set before you. Trust in the Lord with all of your heart. Don't allow yourself to be destroyed by someone who hates everything about you. The deeper your passion for God becomes the more he can't stand you! He knows with God you are so much more powerful than he is. Allow the God who loves you, the ability to control your heart. Become the dangerous christian that this world doesn't want you to become. There are so many people out there who are searching for completion where Satan is standing. But if we open our hearts, God will direct them in the right direction maybe through you..exactly what Satan doesn't want. Stay focused and stay dangerous!!!

I'm Retarted Sometimes

June 25 2005
"...And - WHAM! I was horizontal!"

Yeah, pretty sure that's the funniest thing I've ever done.

Too bad that it was just me being retarted instead of me being witty and clever.

^_^

it's a dog party! woof woof!

June 25 2005
did i ever tell you guys i love chocolate milk. well, it is true, i do.

i had my usual saturday... being lazy and watching movies. tonight kristen and i went to eat at lasiesta, which was yummy. then we went to the square to take pictures...ok, so i took pictures and made kristen get in some. but, anyway, then we went to see bewitched with some people from church. i left with a headache, not because the movie was terrible. oh no no. see, i usually leave with a headache. and if someone could tell me an explanation for this, i would be very happy...

and i have realized that i have some cleaning to do tomorrow before my parents come home. that party just trashed my house... there is stuff everywhere, like you know, the usual... dog hair, chewies, socks, dog kibbles, and the blanket, well it is no longer laying flat on the floor, it is in a ball...i had a dog party. just kidding. my dogs are just crazy and made a mess. so i get the lovely job of cleaning it all up. joy.

anywho, i am tired and have been lazy on spending time with God these past couple days. so i want and need to spend time with that cool guy that i know. i know Him, the creator of the universe, my Maker, you know, that really cool guy. and He would like to spend time with you too, just to let you know. yep yep. adios mi amigos. have a great night!

fun fun... and GREEN DAY

June 25 2005
I went a party tonight with my parents I did manage to get some rum but that's it eh... oh well still fun. Played a pretty big game of jail break that was a lot of fun and thank god tiring of course I'll be sore tomorrow not like I really do anything I work though.

About Green Day so far Brett, my dad and Me are going and one of my dad's friends and Jessica might go. I'm not sure though Jessica has to ask her mom and my dad still has to call people should be fun though.

That's about it... later

-Mosey

Florida here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

June 25 2005
Guess what?!?!?!?!? I'm going to Florida for Fourth of July Vacation. Fun, Fun!!! I get to see my family, too. Though I hear its a little on the wet side over there.......

relient k i am understood?

June 25 2005
sometimes it's embarrassing to talk to you
to hold a conversation with the only one who sees right through
this version of myself
i try to hide behind
i'll bury my face because my disgrace will leave me terrified

and sometimes i'm so thankful for your loyalty
your love regardless of the mistakes i make will spoil me
my confidence is, in a sense, a gift you've given me
and i'm satisfied to realize you're all i'll ever need

you looked into my life
and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
you let me know, i am understood

and sometimes i spend my time
just trying to escape
i work so hard, so desperately, in an attempt to create space
cause i want distance from the most important thing i know
i see your love, then turn my back, and beg for you to go

you looked into my life
and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
you let me know, i am understood

you're the only one who understands
completely
you're the only one who knows me yet still loves completely

and sometimes the place i'm at is at a loss for words
if i think of something worthy, i know that it's already yours
and through the times i've faded and you've outlined me again
you've just patiently waited, to bring me back and then

you looked into my life
and never stopped
and you're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple but so beautiful
and you recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
you let me know, i am understood

the noise has broken my defense
let me embrace salvaction
your voice has broken my defense
let me embrace salvation

the noise has broken my defense
let me embrace salvaction
your voice has broken my defense
let me embrace salvation

the noise has broken my defense
let me embrace salvaction
your voice has broken my defense
let me embrace salvation

your voice has broken my defense
let me embrace salvation
let me embrace
let me embrace salvation


mmm...i love that song

I want to hate you so bad, but I can't

June 25 2005
^Taking Back Sunday^

Alex wont be back for the rest of the summer.

A part of me is extremely relieved.

But another part of me wont stop crying.

I hate the way I fucking am. I am one big emotional mess. I never know how Im feeling anymore. And when I do know how Im feeling, I know that I shouldnt be feeling that way. I mean, *sighs*.

I officially believe Im the dumbest person I know.


:(

June 25 2005
I have a sprained ancle and a sprained wrist. :( Is that how you spell ancle? haha. I am one of the worst spellers in the world! haha. Anyway, it sucks and it hurts!

-Dana :(

ANKLE IS SPELLED WITH A "K"!!!! Just thought you all would like to know because Brian King is a genius.

I never know what to put in this thing...

June 25 2005
Is it just me... or is all the people who have a phusebox besides me are from Murfreesboro, TN??? I think I just may be the one and only person who isn't from there... I've never even BEEN there.... hummm......

Untitled

June 25 2005
Ok Im back Ive decided that I will keep postin and just ignore certain people on here..... Today was fun Becky, Leah, Megan, and I all went to the lake and it was a blast we acted so slow and stupid and let me tell ya intertubing was an interestin experiance Leah thought we were gonna die the whole time, Becky and I were like flyin everywhere, and Megan and I had a nice ride. Glad we didnt have to work cuz it was so much funner

Untitled

June 25 2005
Hey I just got this thing today and I have no idea what does and how it works so we will just see what happens with this thing.

Well today me and Jack went to Ihop then we hung out at my house and talk to my next door neighboro Megan then we went to go play some soccer games that wasnt very fun and I always love to play a soccer game today idk it was very fun.Then after that I went to go baby sit that wasnt very bad. So in ur FACE! Jacqulyn and that was my very AWSOME! j/p

.:~*~KeL~*~:.

Impact Cont.

June 25 2005
hmm what can I say? THE most wonderful thing i've done in a while. and that's saying something.

tait was AWESOME. i expanded my friendships with people, and though i didn't really go out of my comfort zone, i still met pretty amazing people, and reconnected with Nathan. i don't understand why we can't be the way we are at camp...

i'll have pics up whenever i get my computer back. i'm using our old one at the moment.

you never really know your happiness levels until you are deprived of sleep for a week, and then get jacked up on sugar and biscuits and gravy at breakfast. :D

the theme was Escape, and there were definetly things i needed to escape from.

Through these ha has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the dvine nature and escape the corruptionin the world caused by evil desires.

-2 Peter 1:4


guess who got a new cell phone randomly!? oh yeah that'd be me!!

Treat yo' motha right!

this weeks pick-me-up

June 25 2005
i can't tell you how many times this verse has encouraged me all week long.

Proverbs 24:16 "A just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief."

it just reminds me that no matter how hard to try... i'm not perfect... and i have to admit that sometimes when i make mistakes i get so frustrated... but everyone makes mistakes! the just man most certainly does! but guess what? he gets back up! if i want to follow his example i've got to get back up... and not just wollow in it... and woe-is-me... which reminds me of another verse...

Luke 9:23 "And He [Jesus] said to them all, 'If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross DAILY, and follow me."

it's a daily commitment... it's a daily battle... i can't just say a prayer and suddenly be super Christian (although i wish i could. lol). i've got to constantly hate sin and love God... and there's going to be days where i mess up... where i feed my flesh rather than my spirit... there will be days where i hurt God's testimony in me rather than help it... but PRAISE GOD... i can get back up... i don't have to stay down... it's like God gives me chance after chance.... He forgives me. and i'm so so so grateful. ahh!!! it just thrills me inside and out! my God is so gracious! and i really just want to encourage you... yeah... you're going to fail... but don't stay down... there's still so many new chances... so many new moments to live for God... tell others of His love... spend time w/ Him... be a light in our dark world... and when you feel like you've recked it all... Praise God that He wants to help you get back up... Praise Him that He wants to use you regardless of your past. Praise Him for His grace and mercy. Let's Praise Him together!

What is up with remakes?

June 25 2005
I have decided Hollywood can not come up with any orginal ideas. Why must there be remakes of movies, shows, etc. Let us take for an example Bewitch. In my own personal taste it was awful. Nicole Kidman was trying to play Meg Ryan who was playing Samatha off of bewitch. It was just a horrible movie. It wasn't Bewitch, it was a remake with the premise of being Bewitch. The plot was that a famous actor decides remake Bewitch the show, he finds a actress who wingles her nose but she turns out being witch. Nicole Kidman didn't even wingle her nose correctly. Why can't they just leave well enough alone?

There have been good remakes don't get me wrong. The Brady Bunch movie pokes fun at the concept of the show, but also made one think of old times. It was orginal, but kept to the ideals of the show.

There are only so many times one can remake Herbie, The Parent trap, Freaky Friday and so many others. Memo to Hollywood give me an oringal movie like Star Wars..

Cara

PhuseBox Update

June 25 2005
I have been spending most of today working on the PhuseBox site. I am experimenting with some new features, so don't adjust your computer monitor if my site has some color to it.

I am trying to decide if I can offer users the ability to change the colors of the site AND still keep it looking clean. My goal behind this site was to make a site with sophisticated blogging and nice features. I think that too many colors (and other stuff) may take away from the purpose of the site.

I am also working on a new feature that will make photo uploading extremely easy from anywhere.

I have also added/updated several other things that most of you will never notice.

Keep messaging me with problems/bugs or suggestions for the site. PhuseBox has been around for ALMOST one month. Thanks to everyone that has made it a hit!

[nt]

Photo From Janie_pants

June 25 2005


photo from Janie_pants

mmm...thats me foot. in a really big shoe. hehe.

UnGrOuNdEd..YaY!

June 25 2005
O my gah! yay..im UnGrOuNdEd!! lOl..woo woo..go me..jk lOl..so umm grounded rly wasnt all that bad cuz i still got to text..lOl..n then umm yesterday i went to Allisons bday party..so much fun! lOl..so how is all of my friends?? i wanna know so just leave a remark when u have time! lOl..okey dokey..o n umm today was a BLAST! lOl..i went to this lil cabin/lake thing for my moms work ppl or w.e. lOl n it was just soooo fun!! okey dokey well too much info to tell what i did but perty much i just relaxed with friends/family! its good to take a break once in a while..lOl mk well im done now.. ilu all *MuAh*

just a little bit of something.

June 25 2005
"I should have liked to see the songs come true...But there, my friends, songs like trees bear fruit only in their own time and in their own way: and sometimes they are withered untimely." -J.R.R. Tolkien, The Two Towers



anyway..im off...i hope everyones having a great night:-)

much love in Him.
kels

Saturdayyyyy

June 25 2005
hey. this thingy's purdy cool I guess. i need help with it so give me advice!


-Suzanne

*sigh* romantics: read below story

June 25 2005
went to a bridal shower today for a girl i haven't seen since I was 2. I love her. she is a lot like me and she's now one of my role models. and i am in love with her story on how she met her husband. for girls, or guys who like romantics or want to get a good idea, check it out....

so she went as a missionary to Australia. and her husband-to-be was there from England. when she came home for a few weeks she realized how much she missed him, but they were just friends. when she got back to Australia, he was there again. and they became good friends. sometimes she would see girls around him and get upset, but she came to the conclusion that she wasn't going to flirt to get him, but rather he had to come to her and fight for her. so she prayed about it and that she was shown how he felt about her. well, one day she was on a country ride with someone from the camp and they came across a couple they knew and stopped. and she was lead to a tree, and behind it there was a blanket laid out with roses and rose petals and her husband-to-be was leaning against the tree in a suit. he then said he'd liked her for a year now. that was just their first date. then for christmas, which both families spent in Australia, a few nights before, he led her away from everyone else and they went on a boat in the Sydney Harbor or something and he proposed. hoowwww romantic is that?!
she's like the sweetest girl. i like her a lot.

but yeah. I like stuff like that. well, David left yesterday for Interlochen. and I leave next week. and then I won't see Christie again for a while because she's going to be gone for a majority of July. so we went to Starbucks one last time yesterday as a threesome. gonna miss those kids. already do. so I kinda hope summer hurries up. first off, because I love band camp and can't wait for it. second off, so they'll be home and we can hang out some more. but meanwhile, I'll be off to Pennsylvania and then summer reading and studying for permit. finally. but the driver's book is boring. ugh. so I have my work cut out for me. and I'm practicing a lot. and teaching myself some violin. so I probably won't be on the computer a lot. which is good. so you guys have a great summer! God Bless.

Farewell...

June 25 2005
tommorow i leave for g-burg with caitlin, shall be tons of fun. and filled with good times.

will be back friday, if anything of interest happens call my cell. its highly probably it will be off, so leave a message. in fact, if you feel like leaving me a message to make me smile, you can do that. that would be cool. since this isnt some creepy any-stalker-could-take-my-number-and-kill-me website, i will leave my number at the end.

i just ate raw eel, and i feel rather ill. it tasted good, but it sure doesnt feel good.

i will leave you with a dashboard confessional song, and my number

"Several Way To Die Trying"

Pacific Sun, you should have warned us, it gets so cold here.
And the night can freeze, before you set it on fire.

And our flares go unnoticed.
Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired.

We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible.

Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live.

Pacific sun, you should have warned us, these heights are dizzying,
and the climb can kill you long before the fall.

And our trails go unmarked and unmapped and covered
just as soon as they are crossed.

We are, we are, intriguing. We are, we are, desirable.

Oh how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
take notice, take interest, take me with you.

But all our fears fall on deaf ears.

Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.
And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,
while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live.


http://a425.v8384d.c8384.g.vm.akamaistream.net/7/426/8384/3b858b51/ mtvrdstr.download.akamai.com/8512/wmp/1/22181/28045_1_13_05.

go there to listen to it. right now, go.


556-0462


goodnight....

What's the worst thing I could say? Things are better if I stay...

June 25 2005
So, I'm going to Illinois tomorrow...such a BIG switch from Wisconsin...it doesn't matter any more...I'm still so frickin far off from the person I love in Florida...so it doesn't matter any way...
This depression needs to just die! Let it be strangled, or poisoned, or dropped from a skyscraper, or drowned...I don't care! Just let it die!!

leAd foot...

June 25 2005
okay so... driving makes me want to throw up...
and i start Driver's Ed in LESS THAN TWO DAYS! -gasp- Sarah V made me feel alot better about it, though (because she's so good at that) but that doesn't change the fact that i'm a HORRIBLE driver.. i feel for my driving buddy.........{yikes}

Back

June 25 2005
Im back.

My brother went to knoxville, ...DUI.....car impounded... he really needs to get his act togeather, hes stressing my dad out. We changed the locks on the doors so he cant get in. And my sister is stealing money. I wish they could just stop pulling this crap.

anyway..i got me a new cat, erin, she's black and white.

thats about it.

later

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June 25 2005
i love the lake!!! i got some major major major air tubing today!!! like 5+ feet off the water!!! yea it was amazing... my arms legs and face are sooo very burnt but my stomache and back arent b/c we HAD to wear lifejackets!!! yea that was the 1 bad part!!!

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June 25 2005
wow, do you guys know how much this sucks

I just made my mind up about something and I think its being ripped away from me... He hasnt made his mind up yet, but he wants to do it... its a great opportunity. That would mean I wouldnt see him all summer though. I never even really got to say goodbye either...So this is what real sadness/hurt feels like...

Untitled

June 25 2005
Some Things I love:

When Sarah picks out dresses for me.
Waterbeds.
Strange rap
Michael's house....and the cat i'm going to steal.
Picnics
Brian S....lol


mmm, it's been a good week...if only one conversation didn't happen.

I'm think I might start my summer reading/math. Should I or should I wait 'til the week before school? Hmmm...

I wrote this a while ago and I found it...

June 25 2005
the rain is falling
it's in my eyes
it should be time
for us to rise
but i will lay here
forever by your side
i wish i would have told you
that i lied
you told me you loved me
and i turned away
but now it's too late
and my heart has turned gray

i wish i would have told you
that i love you
i wish i would have told you
that i care

the sky was falling
streets filled with morning fog
and i passed you off
for a single morning jog
i was upset
about a fight the night before
i wish i would have told you
before i walked out the door
i hate it when we argue
it tears me up inside
but now it's too late
you'll never be my bride

i wish i would have told you
that i love you
i wish i would have told you
that i care

i ran down the street
i wanted time to think
but when i turned the corner
my heart began so sink
the fog was too thick
the car you didn't see
i wish i would have told you
this is my plea
i ran over to you
you were lying at my feet
but now it's too late
you're dying in the street

i wish i would have told you
that i love you
i wish i would have told you
that i care

i wish i would have told you
that i need you
but now it's too late
you're not there

love on the empire state building and summer showers

June 25 2005
sleepless in seattle is a great movie

and i also love those random summer showers with huge rain drops and the aroma they leave behind...summer evenings and nights are pretty much perfect

kristen and i are going to lasiesta (northfield one) around 6:30 if anyone would like to join us. just give me a call and let me know!

yeah, i know, the title basically explained this post. oh well...

survey...

June 25 2005
TEN Random Things About Me
10. even though its the hottest night in the world..i still sleep with a blanket.. 9.i taught myself how to swim 8. i want really dark hair.. 7.i am a neat freak.. 6.i can write poetry because anyone can write poetry..you just open up to it.. 5.want to meet amy lee.
4. i'm bored out of my mind
3.i can't roll my tongue. 2.my socks dont match..1. i ruined my Evanescence DVD.

NINE Places I've Visited
9.Florida. 8 south.california
7.callies house
6.jennifers house
5.ohio 4.my aunt's house
3.kristens house
2.jordans house
1.the hospital

EIGHT Things I want to do before I die
8.go skydiving
7.get married
6.go to England and stay there for a week or 2
5.meet Amy Lee
4.make my own loaf of bread
3.finish my and kristens portfolio thingy
2.fulfill my Wiccan destiny
1.write a book

SEVEN Ways to win my heart
7.laugh
6.listen to the rain
5.being honest
4.being able to "see the music"
3.strong willed
2.gotta be a psycho like me
1.believe in real magick (love, true love, destiny, soul mates)

SIX Things I believe in
6.magick
5.miracles 4.the power of the spoken word
3.the Loch Ness "monster"
2.reincarnation
1.Goddess

FIVE Things I'm afraid of
5.spiders
4.life with no purpose
3.being in tight enclosed spaces
2.fall from a high space
1. drowing (my phobia)

FOUR of my favorite items in my bedroom
4.my bed
3.my stereo
2. my desk
1.my window

THREE things I do everyday
3. poop
2. laugh
1. take a shower

TWO things I am trying not to do right now
2. cant think of anything.......
1. .....................

ONE PERSON I want to see right now
1. ummm....probably Callie ( i dont like her but we have a few things to talk out..)

Domo Arigato, Mr. Roboto

June 25 2005
I could totally write an entire musical using just the music of Styx. It would be called "Come Sail Away" and ooooh, Mrs. Gregory would just die.

It would win the Tony for sure.


And I would get millions of dollars and spend them all on rainbow sherbert and Fresca, which would be all I ate until I completed my next great project:

"Murfreesboro - The Musical"

It will bring fame to our unassuming niche in the heart of Tennessee.

Now all I need are ideas for song titles. Any suggestions?

hey

June 25 2005
Well I will be gone for 1 week then I go to New York for I don't know soo leave a "remark"

and the bad news is..you're gone

June 25 2005
just got back from IMPACT.

today is my birthday.

ive spent it by myself.....oh but i did get to go to a funeral.

& somethin else bad happened

hmmmmm.......well.........im still happy and thankful. even if i am "alone" on my birthday .....i am never REALLY alone. God is always with me. Even if the purpose of all this isn't obvious right now...God's still in control

June 25....i think..

June 25 2005
wow first blog thingy..hmm..im debating to keep updating this thing or just to make it so i can comment on peoples phusebox sites...

Untitled

June 25 2005
My life is soo boring...well at least for 20 more days it is....
sorry guys but i have nothing to say...

*sigh*

June 25 2005
i'm entirely too responsible to really take advantage of my entire family being out of town all weekend.

i guess that's a good thing.

*edit*

you know what i love?

techno on the river.

up, up, and away!

June 25 2005


photo from odannyboy

Have you ever praised God so much and raised your hands so high that you feel like you could fly away? Isn't that such an amazing feeling?

I remember it was like two years ago at BigStuf...I had my arms stretched as far out as they could go and I decided then why I was raising them. I know that raising your hands is a sign of praise and admiration...but I think that even if it's just between God and me, raising my hands is like a cry out to God. It's a cry for Him to pick me up! I feel like I am His little child...just waiting for Him to sweep me away in His arms. I promise I've had such peace before that I think He's basiaclly done it.

So, I guess I might be the only one...but most of the time when I raise my hands in praise....I'm not just praising...I'm pleading for more intimacy with God.

What an AMAZING INCREDIBLE WONDERDFUL AWESOME SPLENDIFEROUS EXCELLENTIFYING feeling it will be when I am actually in His arms.

Just thinking about it.



P.S.> I know this picture isn't of anyone raising their arms....but that's because Daniel is a pansy and wouldn't let go of the bars for longer than a second.



P. S..........S. (geez...that's so dumb sounding)> I am supposed to be writing a paper that I've put off for a while now. Hah...but isn't God so much more amazing than Jack Schaefer's novel "Shane?"......duh.....

Thoughts...

June 25 2005
I never know what to write on this thing. I like reading other people's blogs, but think no one will want to read mine. Oh well. Here is it anyway.
Last night Elizabeth and I went to the movies (For the 4th time in the past week!) I walked outside and was overwhelmed by the summer night. You know-the warm breeze, the smell of summer...perfect night to ride around with your windows open. I have been doing that a lot lately. Every winter I long for summer so I can ride with my windows down. Then usually, summer comes and I am hot and ride with my windows up and the air on. Well, not this summer! I am enjoying every minute of it. Have you guys seen the moon for like the past week? It has been full or mostly full and an orangish/red color. It is amazing and a reminder of how awesome God is. He created the moon. He created the seasons. He created me and understands why I love summer nights. How awesome is that?! So, this is your public service announcement reminding you to enjoy summer. Ride with your windows down. Buy a jeep. Drink lemonade. Soak up the sun. Most of all, marvel in the glory God's creation. :)