the shizz

September 25 2005
laura white is officially crazy
^_^

thing to remember:

"the sky is blue & I have a big toe"


"queer? what?! that is just not nice, now I dont want
talk to you if you're going to treat me this way because
I totally think you're hott & all I'm trying to do
is hook up with you"

"would you be my friend if the bottom half
of my body was paralyzed & I have to move around
by pulling myself around with my elbows?"

"gladde can make you high"

"who would want to rape you?"

hehe we had lots of fun.
maybe too much?

have a good day
< 3

for real?

September 24 2005
I'm okay you guys ^_^
seriously
I was just in thinking mode
these last two days.
but thank you so much for the comments.
I dont think you guys know how much I appreciate those
hmm well laura might come over today
& then we are going to this japanese party.
fo sho
ahahaha but yeah that's exciting
then tomorrow at church we have this
ginormous breakfast, mmmm
lol then I have to babysit.
first weekend I have been home
so it's weird & boring
heh

okay, okay I'll let ya go.
have a wonderful day.

I LOVE YOU

sad :[

September 22 2005
In the deepest part of my heart
there is a strong feeling
something quite so tender
something that could dissolve with our touch
It is the uncommon love
the one unknown to mankind
a love that makes us afraid
afraid to let go of what we have
to experience something wonderful
something beyond our years
at one point we have to contemplate
to take the risk, or to let it be
to take the risk could
give us the world, and all it's riches
to let it be is something we could regret
we miss out on what could have been
but for now, it sits in my heart
& I yet know what to do with it.

-by me

:[ I am sad.
no one leaves me any remarks anymore.
ohwell.

please, please dont insist

September 20 2005
I was reading Krisitn's site & all I saw was
"what do you see when you look at yourself in the mirror?"
& it made me think, what do I see?
I see someone who tries.
tries to please everyone, tries not to get hurt
tries to avoiding things because it's not part of the plan
I see someone who is afraid
yet I see someone who is content with herself
I dont think I am ugly or fat
or any of those ridiculous things
girls wonder all the time, constantly
I havent yet thought of all the things
but I will as time goes
I'll find out what God wants me do to exactly.

no plans this week.
how weird
so if anyone wants to do anything, call me
I might go to the movies with Chad
& other wonderful people on Saturday
but other than that I dont think I have anything.
see ya my kiddos

-jaaaaaaaamie

here are some quotes ^_^

"Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love"
-a lot like love

"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."
- never been kissed

love burns bright than sunshine < 3

September 19 2005
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
And it's brighter than sunshine

"brighter than sunshine" by aqualung

best song ever.
a lot like love=best movie ever.

bleh

September 17 2005
my sunday school girls
are coming to spend the night.
so no time to think about boys.
which is exactly what I need right now.
no thinking..
-sighs-


read here.

^_^

September 14 2005
I love you.
didnt you know?

poo

September 13 2005
heh
phusebox is being mean :[

down in the dumps..

September 11 2005
I'm not quite sure how to feel at the moment
I fell for someone really fast.
& I didnt know how to deal with that
but I know that those were some of the best days
I have ever spent with a guy
& the best times that I spent talking to someone
who actually cares for me, truely.
then all those doubts itch in your mind
& you are confused.
that's where I am now.
I'm confused
not sure how to handle my feelings
my thoughts, my everything
I'm just trying to hold on to God
trying to listen & see what He wants me to do
because lately I feel like I have been wasting my time
just I havent been doing what God wants me to do.
I am trying to sort out my thoughts
so I can fully know what I want
& to see if I can give the love back.
I almost cried today.
but I didnt..

I’m knowing that right now is all that matters.

September 10 2005
"being grown up
isn’t half as fun as growing up
these are the best days of our lives.
the only thing that matters
is just following your heart
& eventually you’ll finally get it right."

in this diary--the ataris

mmhmm.
I love that song
last night was..
not very sure
I just need a break.
so please, everyone
just cut me some slack
I like him, I do
but -sighs-
it doesnt seem right to me
all of it is confusing
& I dont think I should feel this way
should I?

God, I love you.
I'm glad you're always there for me.

thanks for leaving me those remarks.
you are some great kidss.
< 3

^_^

September 08 2005
ask me 5 questions.
I'll answer them if they are not too personal.
:]
love you guyss.

mmhmm :]

September 06 2005
chris slate is definately
the number one coolest guys on my list
at least for now ahaha
thank you ^_^

Oh, when the day is blue, I'll sit here wondering about you

September 06 2005
deep down
we are afraid of something
it may be of being alone
it may be of giving yourself to someone
it maybe the feelings that you can't control
we all have something to fear
do you know what I am afraid of?
I am afraid of letting things go
because things happen
& if I forget them
I am afraid it will start
all over again.
I am afraid to actually be happy
I always try to find bad things
I feel like it shouldnt be "this good"
I dont know how to fix this
all I can do is hope
& pray that God will do what is the best for me
what are you afraid of?

-sighs-

toodles my friends.

confusion

September 05 2005
it's never a good thing.
but it's what I feel at the moment.
:/

talking on the phone with claire

September 04 2005
-says fool at the same time-
claire: jinx
jamie: ahahahah
claire: SHUT UP
jamie: -giggles-
claire: I SAID SHUT UP!
jamie: -silent-
claire: you're boring me
jamie: it's because I cant
claire: SHUT UP
jamie: -laughs some more-

man how mean is she?
ahahah kidding
I LOVE YOU CLAIRE < 3
you're my best friend :]

oh yeah Claire, people taking pictures
of them kissing their boo-bahs
is so cool.
I dont think you know what you are saying.
hehehe

p.s;; I love meeting new people :]
it always me makes me so happy..
&&& I love the song
honey & the moon by joseph arthur
< 3
great song.

labor day.

September 04 2005
ah what a good holiday
hmm well tomorrow
movies at 1:25 at carmike
to watch the red eye :]
come if you want.
it shall be fun.

Beautiful one I adore.

September 02 2005
I sometimes doubt my faith
but when I look around
I know I can't possibly
put everything I have learned
& everything I believe down the drain.
God has been there with me, always
through the times when no one ever knew I was hurting
through the times when I was gleaming
yet no one seemed to know it
God knows everything about me
& I'm glad He understand me
I might not understand Him sometimes
but whatever He has planned for me,
I'm prepared.
I'm finally ready to go all out for God.
I'm just upset it took this long..

have a good day kiddos. < 3

PICTURES < 3

September 01 2005
I love photography :]
new pictures :]
hehehe

tomorrow is finally friday.
pep rally & the football game
yes :D
then white water rafting!
yay

today was funny.
Chanz is hilarious.
& Greg finally came out with it
that he thinks I am
officially crazy.
hehe

I LOVE YOU GUYSS.

I'm begging you to be my escape...

August 31 2005
yes YOU ahaha
today was fun
I love oakland.
< 3

rawr

August 30 2005
no school
bored to death
ugh.

yay :D

August 29 2005
no school
hehe

keep praying for those people though
God will keep them safe..

mmhmm

August 29 2005
pray for the people caught in the
nasty nasty storm
pray that they are okay.

on a scale of one to ten
my self esteem became a 4 last night
thanks to someone
ugh.

bad bad bad day.
hope you had a good one though.
:/

sighs...

August 28 2005
tonight was a disaster
sorry Claire :/
I LOVE YOU.
but max always seems to make up for it.
< 3

as lovers go..

August 27 2005
"I'll be true,
I'll be useful
I'll be cavalier
I'll be yours my dear
I'll belong to you
If you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go
So dont complicate it by hesitating
This is wonderful as loving goes
This is tailor-made,
What's the sense in waiting?"

I love this song :]
so what are your plans for today?

i gotta booooyfriend :]

August 26 2005
-does a happy dance-
tonight was the best night ever..