I finally got some new ones :D
I miss my old ones though.
darn you tiffany! ahaha
yeah she sat on them & broke them in half.
-cries-
ohwell.
I love thee.

heh
it's getting closer & closer
the more I think about it,
The more nervous I get haha.
I hate summer reading.
I hate great expectations.
it's a waste of time haha.

hmm off that subject for a bit.
I am extremely bored.
you have no idea.
I got in trouble
so I cant stay the night at anyone's
but they can come over here.
so anyone willing to go do something
& then wanting to come to my house
please call me haha.
this is more towards abby than anyone.
oh and maxie would be coming
most likely. :p

back to school.
I think I will be fine.
:D I've met some great people.
they'll help me, I hope haha

well I'll try to write more later.
I love yaaa. < 3
Jamie

yes, I was in one of those moods last night.
so I watched moulin rouge
&& ate alot of icecream haha.
but I feel better today. :D

the sushi party wasnt all that bad.
I didnt eat anything with fish in it. ick
but I did eat some california rolls.
yeah yeah I AM asian & I DONT like sushi
get off my back, haha
but I got caught up with all my cousins

my sister is going to new york tomorrow
NOT FAIR.
I am seriously mad.
I mean she's nine.arg
I could see all my old friends..
but noooo
hahahahaha
ohwell she's buying me stuff
I have to love her for that < 3

max called me :] yay
he is so very sweet.
I invited him to come to the mall
with me & the youth group next week
now all there is to do is to hope he comes.
-sighs-

well I love you people.
you're wonderful :D

Jamie

-edit
I had a flashback, go to my xanga to see.
0_0

I've had lots on my mine lately. -sighs-

ohoh me && maxie poo are going out. haha. naw kidding. we're just pretending. but that's good enough for me. he's a good guy, very sweet. I love him.

save the last dance
&& where the heart is
&& the diary of a mad black women
are such great movies. :]] ohyessss.
me && tiffany watched them last night.
but I fell asleep at 11:30. ugh
I mean what is wrong with me?
I'm usually the one keeping the people up!
I guess I was just tooooo upset to stay up.
:// yes that's it.

boys are dumb. arg.
but I know there's one out there that isnt.
I just need to find him. < 3 3
I need to stop wasting my time looking for one.
I'm going to let him come to me.
I want to feel like I am worth it.
-sighs-
boy will I be waiting a longlonglong time. heh

today me && claire went to chuck e cheese.
you know it fool. lol
we had fun :]]
green tea fraps. are the bomb. < 3

tomorrow
is charlie && the chocolate factory again
with the girls and duane :]] yesss. haha
then off to eat. I'm exciiited.
it'll make up for the way
I was feeling last night.

well I'll update lata fools. lol

I LOVE YOU :D

Jamie

she said "you're a loser"
he replied "but im your loser"

I just need someone to say that to me.
then I would know he was the right guy
even if I know we wont get married.
it'll be something that lasts longer than
one or two months
something that will be worth while
I'm going to stop looking
it's taking up my time & only letting me down
I know they arent all the same.
-sighs-

"You And Me" -- lifehouse

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

loveyou. < 3

yesterday I asked my fellow xanga people
if I should dye my hair.
so the results were DO IT!
hahah so I am >_

not feeling good.
starbucks was fun though :]]
got alot of things off my chest
by talking with my sunday school teacher.
I love her < 3
&& charlie and the chocolate factory
was pretty awesome.
definately my money's worth
read read read darlings

kids
lol

anna nalick's c.d is something to listen to
when your heart is ripped out of your body
it's deep stuff.

well I got some new songs onto my mp3
so I'm happy.

&& finally got to getting the batteries to my camera
so pictures will be appearing quite soon :]] yay

man this morning is beautiful.
I did my quiet times today outside.
hmm wow yeah I know.
I've been slacking again.
it's summer but it's still not a reason
not to spend time with God.
I've just had alot of things on my mind lately.
of course my relatonship with God,
my friends, my actions, my family, boys lol
but I do pray everyday about them
&& so far nothing bad has come from that.

unlike yesterday, today is just one of those laid back kind of days.
nothing special unless I go to the movies lol.

thank you ashley
who is my highschool count down lady :]]
but 25 more days.
cant wait
I alredy know people.
I'm all set

-edit

man I dont remember being this happy
I'm just being..
that's enough right now
&& besides my dad
no one is expecting anything
big & great out of me.
the only really awful thing is
that I probably wont get to see claire
all the much until october because of
vooooolleyball :[[

boys arent that bad anymore lol.

"I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I’d love you to love me.
I’m begging you to beg me"
--I want you to want me

--wreck of the day by anna nalick

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And the light's always red in the rear-view
Desperately close to a coffin of hope
I'd cheat destiny just to be near you
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And I'm thinking 'bout calling on Jesus
'Cuz love doesnt hurt so I know I'm not falling in love
I'm just falling to pieces
And if this is giving up then I'm giving up
If this is giving up then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

Maybe I'm not up for being a victim of love
All my resistance will never be distance enough

Driving away from the wreck of the day
And it's finally quiet in my head
Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed
And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up
If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up
On love, On love

I love this song :]]

sometimes it's worth getting hurt.
I dont know what to think now though.

-sighs-

goodnight lovelys.
I love you all.

"&& I cant make it on my own
cause my heart is in oh-high-oh
so cut my wrists and black my eyes
so I can fell asleep or die...
because you kill me
you know you do, you kill me well"
--ohio is for lovers

well I cant go to Claire's house.
for reasons unknown
I just dont like it when parents say
"because I said so"
ohwell.

anyways, I got some new shoes
very cute :]]
my mom felt bad so she took me out
&& I got the anna nalick c.d
it's pretty good. not the best
but definately my money's worth

uggh my dad..
I just can not stand him
I want to go somewhere.
to get a break or something
I doubt he'll let me go anywhere
it's like he always wants me around.
I havent given him a reason not to trust me
so I dont get it.
blah I cant believe I am venting.
I'll stop

I'm going to go to my room for awhile.
I love you guys.
Jamie

took alot of pictures. I'll post them later.
what can I say?
my cousin has alot of hats. heh
made a bunch of movies too.
but those are to d-e-l-e-t-e-d
muahahah.
hyper to the extreme
I love you allll.

yes, I'm in a good mood today.
yesterday was just weird for me.

the storm was pretty amazing yesteday.
I stood outside on my porch.
I dont like it when it sprinkles
but I do love it when it comes down hard
there's just something about it.

after this whole babysitting thing
I am sleeping in until 2 everyday haha
I hate waking up at 5:30
I mean it's the summer!
the pay is great so no complaining.

school.
it's not that far away.
kinda want to go.
but then again I dont haha.
for the friends I do
but not for the work.
isnt that always how it is? haha

well I'll be back later for sure.
I love yooou. :]
Jamie

oops O_0

hmm..
I dont know right now.
what exactly am I feeling?
today is just one of those days
where you think so much
it hurts your head.
do you know what I am talking about?

havent been feeling so hott this week
I'm just tired all the time
&& I've been getting all these headaches.
they suck.

well what made me feel better was last night
my mom & I went to starbucks to talk.
&& we went to walmart too haha.
but we've been getting along pretty well these days.
I like that.

babysitting again..
will be until next friday.
please, kill me now
lol

Josh is in SC for the nexttwo weeks.
:[ I miss him..
I need to replace his phone calls
with someone else's haha
so call & lecture. then I'll feel
like he's right here! haha.
man, Claire

make me feel better with your
wonderfulwonderful remarks.
I love you.
Jamie

"I, I'm thinking it's a sign
that the freckles in our eyes
are mirror images
&& when we kiss
they're perfectly aligned
&& I have to speculate
that God himself did make
us into corresponding shapes
like puzzle pieces from the clay"
-such great heights by iron&wine

-edit
are you going to be the one to save me?
after all, you're my wonderwall...

"take me by the hand and tell me
you would take me anywhere"
my song of the moment.
all the lyrics are on the last entry.

I've been thinking.
have you ever wanted something so bad
that it makes you mad when you cant
have it right that second?
have you ever liked someone's personality
so much that you just dont what to do?
have you liked someone that you
rarely know? yet they make you
feel something that you havent
felt in a longlonglong time.
have you wondered, is it all worth it?
have you ever been hurt so bad?
that doubting is all you can ever do now?
do the things you wish for in life
ever, come true?

I want to do something with claire.
because we wont be able to do anything til
volleyball season is over really.
maybe this weekend..
we always have good boy talks.
which is something I need to do with her now.

just thinking.
kids are sleeping
the quiet -sighs- lol

I love you.
Jamie

haha I dont have one so I dont know.
but I am listening to the song.
it's awesome, it's by fall out boy.
listenlistenlisten to it.
I just wish someone would say that to me
that I am the last good thing about this part of town.
I wish I was in someone's eyes.
but until then I am a single girl.
I'm not depressed or anything
DONT WORRY haha.
I am perfectly fine., I could be better though.
let's just say I havent felt like this in a while.
I'm happy not because I am hyper
but because someone is making me happy.
which I love that feeling
because it's only once in awhile that I feel it.

I love you.
Jamie

-edit.
I like the song "take me anywhere"
by tegan and sara
here are the lyrics.

bright just like the stars above me
proud just like my mother planned it
short on all the things I don't want
I'm full of love and longing

take me by the hand and tell me
you would take me anywhere
you would take me anywhere

still, cause I don't want to move a thing
and all the things I don't want they're full
of love and longing

take me by the hand and tell me
you would take me anywhere
you would take me anywhere

and it goes, its like a come on come on to me
and it goes it's like a come on come on to me

you, you say you don't see any part of me
to love in all this mess and I know
you take the good and all the bad that comes with me

take me by the hand and tell me
you would take me anywhere
and it goes, its like a come on come on to me
and it goes it's like a come on come on to me

forget this.

I am frustrated.
yesterday was good
when I talked to certian people.
some people just make me laugh/smile
others just, arrg
but it doesnt matter
it's none of my business
everytime I try to help
it always goes
bad bad bad
so I shouldnt try right?
hmm...
pondering on what I need to do
lecturing sure didnt help
plus no one in their right mind
wants to listen to that.
I am going to go listen to some music
the kids are still sleeping
I have time before I have to put on
the happy face for them
just because someone ruins my day
doesnt mean I have to ruin theirs.

I hope be home until 3:30
unless I go to swimming class
for my baby sis & brother.
try to call though, please.

I love you,
Jamie

-a dang edit
here donald:: xanger banger
it's alot more, colorful
&& I couldnt find any hellogoobye songs :[

pull my hair x 8: a long long time ago... i can still remember how that music used to make me smile and I knew if I had my chance that I could make those people dance and maybe they'd be happy for a while

I love that boy. probably more than he knows.

babysitting was okay. I lived as you can see
man, I am feeling so happy. it's weird
havent felt like this in a long long time.

I love you.
going to think.
Jamie

I think this Bible study will help me out alot
last night was so much fun, I couldnt stop laughing
I think it will help me out with more of who I am

babysitting for two weeks straight
wont have a life unless it's after 4
or on the weekends
thank God above that the kids start school
2 weeks earlier than me lol
so I'll still have two weeks of summer left
&& alot of cash to spend.
I think I might go white water rafting? lol

well I still think those two certain people
are the sweetest in murfreesboro
unless you think you cant beat what they said.
you dont find guys like that anymore.
sweet..

well talk to you later.
I love yooou.
Jamie

O is for the only one I see

discovery you starts today
I've always like the bible stuides.
it helps me know myself more
all my wants && needs in life

I love meeting new people.
ones that make you smile from the start
I've met two people like that this week
one is Josh
two is Donald
sweeeet people.

update when I get back.
I love you.
Jamie