so for those of you who dont know, i'm transferring to MTSU next year. theres really not much to say about whats been goin on. break was enjoyable but now its over and its back to classes. speakin of which...heres my schedule:

MWF

8-9:50 design I

10-10:50 Psychology

 

TTh

9:30-10:45 college algebra

12:30-1:45 English comp II

 

so thats about it

 

whats up in your lives?

it was never part of my plans to end things

i thought we could make it work.

i tried.

you didnt.

 

you said u still liked me.

but never bothered to follow through with actions

out of all the times...how many days did i call you?

that you didnt call me.

 

how many times was i willing to tell you everything

when you told me nothing?

how many unanswered messages where i tried to get an answer?

 

i dont even understand what happened...

we started perfectly.

you were amazing.

youd call to say goodnight

say sweet things to me

talk to me

you even stayed on the phone with me when i was sick.

 

and then...

you were busy.

always.

not a minute to spare.

not even to call to say good night

 

there was no reassurance

no light at the end of the tunnel

no light reflecting off the dark clouds above.

all was dark

no hope to come.

i put faith in you

you broke it in two.

 

it's like you didnt care about me the way you once did.

yet...i was still the one to say the words

"we need to take a break"

you shouldve been the one to say the words.

not me

 

now the memories feel like dreams

an untouchable dream

that you run towards

but never get to

 

now im here alone.

but who knows where you are.

that seems to happen in college. specially if you still procrastinate....

 

so i got about 3 and a half hours last night.

 

mainly cuz i hung out with friends for hours and  then finally started on my english essay....

and now i have to do physics.

cuz as long as i get half of it done i pass.

 

i say....lets make todays random day give beth a hug day. ( :

random thought day.... leave me a random thought

 

here.

so i went home for labor day, it was pretty great. got to hang out with tyler. ( :

speakin of which...i cant change my relationship status still. hmmm

oh well. as long as i know. lol

the only bad part of course was friday night when i got into a wreck but no one was hurt so its all good.

today was crazy busy. as are all mondays and wednesdays. fridays not so much.

 

tuesdays and thursdays are amazing

its hot here

 

but its been fun.

 

yaaaaaaaay

 

classes start tomorrow

 

drawing I at 8

 

then some physics

leadership

and arch design

 

8-5

 

 

joy.

icky

blech

 

siiiick.

 

 

blah.

there goes my sleep...

 

drat.

 

must make myself sleep.

 

otherwise im gonna be dead tomorrow

 

ick for 8:00 mornings from late nights.

 

 

i hate this feeling

when these memories all emerge

 

good and bad.

 

mostly good memories

but bad bcuz theyre part of the past.

 

and sure the past can be recreated in one's mind

but never again in real life.

 

memories can be painful.

they cause ur heart to go numb

and ur brain to explode

 

i usually like storms

but tonite it makes things worse

its like the wrath of the sky

 

i used to know who i could count on.

now everything is changing

people are leaving

im leaving

we're moving forward creating more past memories.

i guess its been a while since i was on this site! its sooo different!! well i was in mississippi for 10 days and i loved it. i cant wait til i go there in august! cept at the same time im gonna miss all my friends...its odd how many emotions can pass through in the matter of seconds.

and now i should get sleep cuz i have an early day tomorrow. ( :

I'M GRADUATING FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!

how amazing is that?? i cant even believe it.

go ahead and guess the school. lol

 

 

Happy Easter!!!!

i hope its a good one for all of you.

...just dont forget why we celebrate it.

i pretty much hate scholarships. like the essay parts, yeah they suck. but i have to get it done cuz i have like no time when i have school. sooo much stuff to do! senior year is about 4 times as busy as all the other three years of high school combined. btw, if anyone knows of a good scholarship please let me know cuz i desperately need some for mississippi state.

on another note, i love the feeling that theres someone i can trust and they can always make me feel better. its wonderful.

school starts back on monday...if only i could have another week. this week ive had work to do everyday. not much of a break if you ask me. but its better than bein at school

im 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love is patient

Love is kind

It does not envy

It does not boast

It is not proud

It is not rude

It is not self-seeking

It is not easily angered

It keeps no record of wrongs

-1Corinthians 13:4-5

TWO DAYS IN A ROW

AND TODAY THERES ACTUALLY SNOW

now im going to go...

oh man i love snow.

stop using cuss words where they arent neccessary [or at all even]

thatd be great.

thanks.

FEBRUARY 25=WINTER JAM

theres gonna be amazing bands there:

Steven Curtis Chapman

Jeremy Camp

Matthew West

Hawk Nelson

& Sanctus Real

oooh yeah, definantely excited about that.

OH MY GOSH!!!!

im soooooooooooooooo happy right now.

the college or architecture at mississippi state just accepted me.

theres a desk there in their design studio for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus im going to a concert tonite. ( :

So theres this guy...

isnt that how the story always begins?

but happy

and having a surprisingly good week

amazing. ( :

has anyone noticed how slow this week is going?

how is everyone?

any plans for new years?

i didnt wake up til 1 today. (1:05 to be exact)

thats a waste of like a whole day.

but you canrt change it so why worry about it?

so then i ate breakfast/lunch at 2

my whole day is off. hopefully ill be able to go to sleep tonite...

and...how was everyone's christmas?

it started out like any other baby sitting job...easy pay
sure it was a little wet and rainy outside but i could deal with that. little did i know that this baby sitting job would end in me almost going insane...it was nearing 9:30 and i figured it was time to put the little one to bed. i put her in her bed and she starts freaking out saying her ear hurts. and im talking arms flailing legs everywhere screaming/crying kid here. how this helps an earache i have no idea. so anyway i decide itd be best to call her parents. but...I CANT FIND THE CONTACT SHEET. so i spend almost 2 hours trying to calm this kid down who is relentless in her crying. i almost went insane. so close to it. so about half an hour in i decide maybe i can find her some medicine. but of course, i dont know where that is either. oh geez my head could explode.